Chapter 4: Mother is gone

Shen Qingci touched Lou Xuefei's cold cheeks, she sat up, and put Lou Feixue's dry hands on her face.
"En..." She nodded vigorously, "Mother, A Ning is not afraid. A Ning will listen to her father and will like her brother and sister. A Ning will remember her mother forever, and A Ning will remember every word her mother said. Every sentence."
Lou Xuefei's hands trembled, and she gently rubbed her daughter's small face.
"That's right," she smiled. The smile was a little dazed, but it was also comforting. Her Ning seemed to have grown up, as if she could also walk in peace of mind, even if she could smile at Jiuquan.
"A Ning, listen to my mother..." She coughed, and then insisted on trying to finish the last words with her daughter. She really felt that she was going to do it. If she didn't say it, she would never say no. Out.
"A Ning, my mother put something in the clothes of the Bodhisattva at home, A Ning, remember to get it..." Her eyelashes fell, and some gray was shaken out. The daughter’s face is clear, only the daughter’s little hands holding her are still warm, and the faint fragrance on her body, just like in the yellow season, the vitality that never fades is what she has Entrusted by his energy.
"A Ning is not afraid."
She kept repeating this sentence, even when she was dying, she couldn't let go of her young daughter.
"Mother, A Ning is not afraid." Shen Qingci shrank her small body into Lou Xuefei's arms. Lou Xuefei slowly lowered her hands, and then placed them on her daughter's face, while Shen Qingci moved. She hadn't moved for half a minute, but she was sad to find that her mother's hand was getting colder and colder. She took Lou Xuefei's hand and helped her to warm her from time to time.
"Mother, it's not cold. A-niang whispers to my mother. My mother is not cold anymore." She kept blowing heat on Lou Xuefei's hand, but this hand is getting colder and colder. Hot, mother's eyes won't open again, mother won't say that again, A Ning is not afraid.
In this world, there is someone who holds her in the palm of her hand as a treasure, it's a mother, her mother...
"Mother, mother..."
Shen Qingci cried loudly from time to time, as if to wake her up, but she couldn't hear it anymore.
Shen Tanzheng retracted her tiny body in Lou Xuefei's arms again, because she was a mother, not afraid, she was not afraid at all, she just wanted to let her hug her, she would have no mother in the future, and could no longer Shouting mother.
She closed her eyes and said something softly in her mouth, like a Sanskrit sound, word by word, sentence by sentence...
Nanwu Amitabha Ye Duo Ta Gado Ye Duo Di Ye Tah Ami Dupo Viamli Dosittampa Viam Sang Vikharadi Ami Sangla Vigaya Ghana Gaya Li Suo Po He...
She choked, her voice was almost hoarse, but she didn't stop, she chanted the death curse for her mother, she was super saving for her mother, and she sent her mother on the road to Huangquan.
She is alive, but the mother is dead.
She sat up again, and took her mother's no-temperature hand on her little face, cold, sad temperature.
Mother, A Ning is not afraid, A Ning is not afraid, A Ning asks someone to send her away.
She carefully took Lou Xuefei's hand and placed it in front of her, and then wiped away the tears from her face with her little hand, but she found that the veil on the side of the collapse was already stained. blood.
In fact, Shen Qingci knew that my mother should have left a long time ago. The doctor said that she left early and suffered a little earlier, but mother was not willing. She has been holding her last breath. She is waiting for someone, but in the end She still hasn't waited for that person, and she is also reluctant to be a young daughter. She wants to take a look at her daughter more. She has a lot to say to her daughter, and there are many things she wants to let her know.
Shen Qingci took the veil, she put the veil little by little and put it in her heart, then climbed onto the simple wooden collapse, and then pulled over the broken quilt. Cotton cloth, covering Lou Xuefei's body,
Then she knelt down and knocked three heads heavily before she ran out.
There was no one at the head of the village, only a dilapidated house, which was her home, and there was a small bowl at the door with half a bowl of rice in it. Shen Qingci glanced at the bowl of rice and ran out.
She patted the door of a farmer hard until the door opened.
She thumped and knelt at the door, and then slammed her head. This is the best family to her in her previous life. After her mother died, she has been taking care of her who was still young, and they helped to bury her mother. , But when they passed by, her mother's body was already stinking, because no one knew Lou Xuefei was dead.
At that time, she was still young, and she only knew that she thought her mother was asleep and never awoke. It was not until later that she knew that it was impossible for her mother to wake up again in her life.
She raised her face and saw a capable woman in her forties walking out of it, and she was shocked when she saw Shen Qingci.
Isn't this Xiao Qingci from Lou Niangzi's family? What's wrong? Why is she kneeling? She hurriedly wanted to help Shen Qingci, but Shen Qingci slammed her head to the ground with a bang. , Almost always shattered people's hearts.
"Mother-in-law, A Ning's mother fell asleep and won't wake up. Mother-in-law can help A Ning, and beg her to help A Ning."
As she said, she kept kowtow, people in the village avoided their mothers and daughters like snakes and beasts.
Because Lou Feixue was ill, her illness remained unhealed for a long time, and she didn’t know who passed it on. It was said that her illness would be contagious, so everyone in the village was afraid that the disease would be transmitted to herself, so she let her The mother and daughter lived in the furthest and worst ruined house in the village. Even when they ate, Lou Xuefei exchanged their belongings for them. They sent them to the door and left straight away. They were afraid of taking one more step. , Are all disgusted.
But now she can only ask for this family, and the others will not open the door to her at all. She tried it in her last life, and she was dying when she was picking up rocks on the ground to eat. A person opened the door to her, and no one would give her a bite of food. She was beaten and scolded by others. She hid alone and cried and cried and cried for her mother. She hungry and cried with her mother’s tombstone. Later, the cow lady couldn't see it, and brought her home, gave her food, water, and a place to sleep.
Until Dad came, Dad came to pick her up, and she followed Dad, but she forgot to pay back her meal...
She wants her mother to enter the land for safety, she wants to live, she wants Huang Andong and Lou Ziyin to die, she wants to protect her lover, and everyone around her who died tragically.