Chapter 24: What went wrong?

Mu Jingyuan frowned: "You are doing things neatly, it is also a girl. If you drink too much, go back. Don't worry about Han Han."
Bai Xueqing smiled and said: "You know me the first day? Don't you know my drink? Don't you know my temper? I have met you, do you think I will let you alone drink here?"
Mu Jingyuan reluctantly said: "You are Missy, you have the final say."
Bai Xueqing said: "This is refreshing."
The two men sipped and talked about gossip, and gradually they were slightly sloppy. Bai Xueqing was fine, but Mu Jingyuan was drinking into the intestines, and some were slightly drunk.
He was half lying on the sofa with one hand squinting his eyes, showing a rare fragile state.
Bai Xueqing blinked and asked: "Jing Yuan, in my memory, you are almost omnipotent.
What is it that can make you like this?

Mu Jingyuan removed his arm and rubbed his eyes. He smiled bitterly: "An unsolvable thing."
Bai Xueqing disagreed: "This is not like you. There is nothing in this world that cannot be solved. I would like to hear what is going on to make you say such negative words."
Mu Jingyuan closed his eyes and suddenly sat up straight, his eyes staring straight at Bai Xueqing: "Do you really want to know?"
Bai Xueqing nodded without blinking.
Mu Jingyuan leaned back and sighed heavily: "I like someone, a person I might not get in my life."
Bai Xueqing’s heart sank and said:
With your identity, if you really like it, who can’t get it?
Mu Jingyuan smiled and said:
You don’t understand, feelings like this. It can't be obtained by the identity of the wrist. Moreover, he doesn't like me at all. He just takes me as a big brother. No, I don't know what he really is.

Bai Xueqing said: "If this is the case, why should you persist and let yourself suffer? It is better to let go and see other scenery."
Mu Jingyuan sighed and said: "Xue Qing, you have not experienced real feelings, you do not understand, feelings, this thing, where is the release can be put down? Just because it can not let go, it will be confused.

Bai Xueqing frowned: "If you can't let go, go grab the things you like."
Mu Jingyuan said: "It’s so simple, but he is not a thing, he is a living person."
Bai Xueqing said: "What about people? Whether it is something or a person, only holding it in your own hands is your own."
Mu Jingyuan smiled aloud: "You are really in line with your temper. You will understand when you arrive this day. The feelings are weak. If you really fall in love with someone, how can you bear it?" Hurt him and make him unhappy?"
Bai Xueqing was impatient: "This is not the case, it will not work, how can it be solved?"
Mu Jingyuan said: "So, this is a question that has no solution."
He put his arm on his eyes again and said: "I have kept him for so many years, I have been petting him for so many years, and I will never do anything to hurt him. I thought about it, he is still small, I have to wait. When he grows up, but he grows up, I find that he doesn't belong to me anymore. I don't expect to be with him now, just thinking that this life can always keep him like this, only I am afraid that he will not give me such an opportunity. I really don't know what went wrong. He doesn't want to see me again. He doesn't want to talk to me. What can I do to stay with him?"
This taboo and hopeless feeling has been hidden in his heart for a long time. He is so overwhelmed like a mountain. Now he is comfortable with a lot of wine.