Chapter 117:

Maybe it ’s starting to get used to the difference, or maybe it ’s been too hard these past few days. Yesterday and another night I did n’t sleep. After sending a message with Pan Zhi and chatting with Gu Fei, Jiang Yan fell asleep with his bag.
The eldest sister who had been sleeping next to him pushed him several times before he jumped up with his bag.
"Oh," the elder sister was so scared that he almost flew up the hallway. "You young man, you're so shocked to be scared."
"I'm sorry, I slept too hard." Jiang Yan quickly touched his face and determined that there should be no drool marks before sitting back.
"That's it. I'm coming to the station right now. If I don't call you, are you planning to sit back again?" Said the elder sister.
Yes.
Jiang Yan smiled.
It's good to sit back again. It must be a surprise when you open your eyes ...
There are several messages on the phone, Gu Fei has one.
-I started to sleep boyfriend
I glanced at the time. It was sent about two hours after driving. Gu Fei estimated that he went to accompany Gu Miao before going to sleep.
At this moment he should be sleeping soundly. Jiang Yan hesitated for a long time. He was afraid to wake up Gu Fei when he sent a message.
Finally returned one.
-I'm here, Pan Zhi picks me up, don't reply to the message, sleep well
-Ok
Gu Fei still returned, and within a few seconds, she did not fall asleep, or simply did not fall asleep, Jiang Yan smiled, and looked at several other news.
It's all Pan Zhi's.
-Where is grandpa?
-Coming soon
-Where is it? Is your phone dead?
-No signal?
-Slag boy
-Jiang Yan, are you human? !!
-No way!
-Don’t reply, it ’s terrible. Go back to school by yourself and go to the next week! Stop looking for me!
While watching the music, Jiang Yan dialed Pan Zhi's number.
"Hello." Pan Zhi answered the phone and said very politely.
"Grandson," Jiang Yan said with a smile, "I'm about ten minutes into the station."
"I don't have your grandson here. Who are you looking for?" Pan Zhi said, "you made the wrong call."
"I'm looking for the most handsome, handsome, and most fashionable Pan Anpan handsome guy in the world." Jiang Yan said.
"Fuck," said Pan Zhi, "you have a kind of don't slap me! Are you afraid you will get lost! Lu Chi!"
"I just fell asleep," Jiang Yan said. "I fell asleep as soon as I got in the car."
"Put your pockets and see if the wallet phone is still there?" Pan Zhi said immediately.
"Yes," Jiang Yan said, touching his pocket subconsciously, the wallet was still in his pocket, and then he felt it again, "I
my hand ..."
"Your mobile phone is in your mother's hand, you idiot!" Pan Zhi interrupted his words and said quickly.
"Don't you just wait for me here?" Jiang Yan made him yell at all this curse.
"Yeah, sorry to be seen by you!" Pan Zhi said,
"I'm ready to get off," Jiang Yan looked out the window. "Pit in, which exit are you at?"
"Which exit gate do you care about, I said you can't find it, I will still pick up the exit gate from you last time," said Pan Zhi. You can see me at a glance. "
"... Um." Jiang Yan hung up.
The car stopped, Jiang Yan sat still with his bag, watching the people in the compartment get out of the car one by one, and then passed by the window.
It wasn't until everyone was empty that he stood up and walked out slowly.
You can see Pan Zhi at the exit, and always dress like an international friend at the forefront of fashion.
Jiang Yan waved his hand at him, Pan Zhi held his arms and did not move, until Jiang Yan walked in front of him, he said: "I thought you were lost when you left the station, why don't you follow the next bus Come out together! "
"You haven't been angry yet?" Jiang Yan said.
"Qiu Gao is dry," Pan Zhi stepped back and looked up and down, "He looks good. Is there an urge to go back to school for a year and fall in love?"
"No," Jiang Yan said. "Are I such a person, my goals are clear."
"What's the goal?" Pan Zhi asked.
"What you can't reach." Jiang Yan said.
"Fuck." Pan Zhi said.
Study hard, make good money, see hope or not see hope, hold Gu Fei without letting go, find a good doctor for Gu Miao ... Although these goals have little about themselves, but for him, all same.
Pan Zhi took him to school without going back, and went to eat first.
He and Pan Zhi have n’t talked while eating like this for a long time. In fact, Jiang Yan misses the days of talking so badly with Pan Zhi.
At that time, there was really no pressure. Except for the surprise review at the end of the period, every day was very chic. If you missed class, you would miss it. If you want to fight, you would fight ...
In addition to the pressure of learning now, the kind of confusion about the uncertain "future" comes from the expectation of invisible hope. It is pressure when you don't think about it, and you will be stressed when you think about it. Down the pressure.
"You went to the doctor to ask about it, did you tell Gu Fei?" Pan Zhi asked.
"Not yet, why?" Jiang Yan looked at him.
"Don't say it first, tell him if you have a definite plan and answer," Pan Zhi said, "It's very clear about what kind of disease, and you can't find a way to ask a doctor across this distance, let alone this psychological Gu Fei will be disappointed if there is no other way. "
"Um." Jiang Yan nodded.
He also thought about this, so after thinking about it for a few days, he never mentioned it to Gu Fei.
"I didn't make you a friend in vain, it all came to my mind," Jiang Yan put his hand in front of Pan Zhi. "Thank you very much."
"You're welcome," Pan Zhi shook hands with him. "After all, I have an invisible red scarf on my chest."
Jiang Yan took out a small box from the bag, which was a gift for Pan Zhi when he and Gu Fei went shopping.
There was a soft clay shop next to the last Doudou shop. He and Gu Fei went in and burned a five-pointed star and two small flowers for Pan Zhi.
Pan Zhi opened the box and looked happy: "Grandpa, you are really creative."
"You're not short of anything," Jiang Yan said. "I can't give you a girlfriend."
"Wait," Pan Zhi put away the box, "I will take a girlfriend home for Chinese New Year this year, and I will bring you some purpose before taking it home."
"Is that the little spring bean who answers the phone at the front desk?" Jiang Yan asked.
"The front desk? Little jumping beans? Who?" Pan Zhi froze.
"Admire." Jiang Yan drew his fists at him.
Sometimes he was really envious of Pan Zhi. In the flowers, the leaves did not stick to his body. Occasionally he was stuck by a bee and he didn't take it seriously.
I haven't talked for too long. They talked as they ate, and they talked when they had nothing to eat. In the end, Pan Zhi beckoned and called the waiter: "Give me the menu and add two dishes."
"Eat?" Jiang Yan said.
Pan Zhi didn't say anything, took the menu with one hand, and raised the phone to his eyes with one hand: "It's time for dinner."
"... I fuck." Jiang Yan said very sincerely.
Gu Fei has never sent a message, so he hasn't paid attention to time. Now thinking about it, Gu Fei's sleep was really heavy.
In order to complete his unfulfilled ambitions these days, Gu Fei has done all his physical work and is probably exhausted.
Not to mention Gu Fei, his legs are all sour and his waist is a little bit sour ... It seems that even for this matter, he should continue to follow Zhao Ke to go for a morning run.
After having dinner with Pan Zhi for half, Gu Fei's news finally came over.
-Good morning boyfriend
-Are you comfortable sleeping, boyfriend?
-The more I sleep, the more I want to sleep, I struggle to eat and sleep
-I also eat, and I have been eating from lunch to now with Pan Zhi
-. . . It ’s good to save two sets of tableware
-HHHH Yes! Then you go to eat and sleep
-Ok
Finally when Pan Zhi and the two people rubbed their stomachs and walked out of the hotel, Gu Fei sent another message.
-I continue to sleep
-Sleep, do you feel your body is hollowed out?
-Yeah, I have the feeling that I have to shoot the gun in the first shot.
-by! Pay attention to quality
-I really sleep
-Well, good night boyfriend
-Good night baby
-Baby
"I'll take you back to school," Pan Zhi gave him two gums. "I'm afraid you don't know how to go."
"I won't." Jiang Yan sighed and put the gum in his mouth.
"Then you say, where is the subway exit?" Pan Zhi looked at him.
Jiang Yan hesitated and pointed to the right: "Front."
"That's the back," said Pan Zhi. "We came over there."
"Front." Jiang Yan immediately changed his direction and pointed.
"Let's go, grandpa." Pan Zhi turned around and walked over.
"Aren't you talking over there?" Jiang Yan said.
"I just told you that it was ahead, and didn't say the subway was ahead," Pan Zhi said, "Don't be ashamed of R."
"Fuck." Jiang Yan turned and followed.
When we returned to the dormitory, it was not time for the library to close, and no one was in the dormitory.
Jiang Yan went in and opened the trunk. Just as he was about to pack, Zhao Ke's voice came up on the bed beside him: "Jiang Yan?"
"I depend," Jiang Yan was startled, and saw Zhao Ke looking up his head, "Did you not go to the library?"
"I was taken to dinner by my sister today," Zhao Ke said, "when there was no seat when I came back ... I went back and looked good."
"Well, it's okay." Jiang Yan nodded.
"Did you split your heart when you separated?" Zhao Ke said.
Jiang Yan looked up at him.
"Bug abuse every day," Zhao Ke said, "have been abused?"
"No," Jiang Yan laughed. "How much grievance do you have?"
Zhao Ke gestured a bit: "It's probably so big."
"Ah," Jiang Yan sighed, stood on the stairs and looked at him, "I especially want to ask you."
"Ask." Zhao Ke nodded.
"Do you want to be a goddess to your goddess," Jiang Yan said, "still want to find a goddess to be a girlfriend?"
"Girlfriend," Zhao Ke said.
"Then you confess," Jiang Yan said, "I don't think she hates you. Doesn't she smile at you every time you meet?"
"You don't understand," Zhao Ke frowned. "She and my sister have been girlfriends from kindergarten, can you imagine that she looked at me when she grew up, and she knew when we were wet."
"Are you still wetting?" Jiang Yan said.
"As a law school student, do you have a point?" Zhao Ke looked at him.
"Are you still wetting?" Jiang Yan asked.
The expression on Zhao Ke's face was unpredictable for several seconds, and he answered very sincerely: "I'm not pissing."
"You do n’t even worry about pissing," Jiang Yan jumped down and continued packing, "I think your goddess should be more than your own goddess. You haven't received the moon for so many years near the water tower. Now. "
Zhao Ke didn't say a word, and then asked after a while: "You and you, uh, boyfriend ..."
Jiang Yan turned his head.
"Who confessed first?" Zhao Ke finished his question.
"Let me," Jiang Yan thought and laughed again. "That's me."
Such memories are still wonderful.
At first I didn't feel that my mind was full of nervousness and confusion after speaking, but now I think about it, I can't help feeling.
Fortunately, I opened my mouth.
With Gu Fei's personality, he would never say anything. Even before he spoke, Gu Fei would not take the initiative, and it was all because of his brain's fever.
Fortunately.
Otherwise, I missed it.
As soon as he thought that he might miss Gu Fei, he felt that his decision to speak first was very wise.
And handsome.
"What did you say?" Zhao Ke asked again.
"Just ..." Jiang Yan was suddenly a little embarrassed at such a question. After all, he never mentioned the details to anyone, and he cleared his throat. "Have you ever wanted to have a boyfriend."
"... So straight?" Zhao Ke said.
"Otherwise," Jiang Yan said, "I won't do it in another euphemistic way."
"Okay," Zhao Ke rolled over and lay back on the bed. "Have you ever thought about making a boyfriend, have you thought about making a boyfriend, have you thought about ..."
"You can think of something else," Jiang Yan said. "You don't have to recite my words in such a sentence."
"Have you thought about ..." Zhao Ke rolled over again, "be my girlfriend?"
"Yes." Jiang Yan nodded.
"No," Zhao Ke turned over again. "I still have to leave a little room for myself. In case she said that I thought about it, I want to congratulate her."
"Stupid," Jiang Yan said.
He admits that he had such a little meaning at the beginning, but after all, they are two men. One man and one woman are not necessary at all. Look at Pan Zhi, every time they are single-handed and straight, the opponent basically has no fight.
The seven-day holiday, whether it is a single dog or a pair of dogs, feels like passing by.
The people in the dormitory quickly returned to the previous rhythm from the first day of class. They ate and studied in class. Jiang Yan had two more than before. On the weekend, he went to make up for the sophomore girl with amazing confidence and followed Zhao Ke every day. Morning run.
After less than a week running, Jiang Yan knew why Zhao Kelei couldn't move, because his goddess ran once every other morning.
Every time the goddess saw them both laughing and beckoning, Zhao Ke ran forward with a startled rabbit-like hoe, and after a week of confession and discussion, he did not dare Go up and confess.
Jiang Yan didn't encourage him any more, and watching other people's secret love Minglian was also very interesting. I felt that I was very fulfilled like someone who came here, and sometimes I could slightly distract him from Gu Fei.
Just go on like this, the months may not be so difficult, after all, every day something new happens, everything will bring back the best memories between him and Gu Fei.
The only bad thing is that when he went to the hospital to consult Gu Miao's condition, he didn't get the answer he wanted.
He and Pan Zhi ran to two hospitals in two days. The doctors were very cautious. In this case, they could not make a judgment by relying only on dictation.
If there is no way to bring Gu Miao out, it will be difficult to accurately determine the cause, let alone a targeted plan.
"Is there any way I can take Gu Miao to such a far place?" Jiang Yan was sitting on the sofa with a cigarette.
This is the house that Pan Zhi rented by himself. It is very small, but the house is new and comfortable. He is here for the first time.
"Is she totally unacceptable? Hold it out forcibly?" Pan Zhi asked.
"Let her change bed to sleep, she can scream for ten minutes, especially angry," Jiang Yan frowned. "Even if she can let her scream and force her out all the way regardless of her screaming, what if she gets serious, When I went back this time, she ignored me. "
"Ignore you?" Pan Zhi froze.
"Gu Fei said it was self-protection. If he was afraid of losing it, he would no longer accept it." Jiang Yan smoked his cigarette severely and choked his cigarette butt. "If I have money, I will ask a doctor to go there, no, please a doctor permanent."
"You don't even have enough money to ask a doctor to treat her normally," Pan Zhi said. "The costs are not low, and they are long-term."
"Well," Jiang Yan smiled, "so I have to make money."
"Hey," Pan Zhi looked at him, "you ..."
Jiang Yan waited for him to continue, but Pan Zhi lost his voice.
"What am I?" He also looked at Pan Zhi. "Say whatever you want to say. There is no need for us to stop talking."
"Just, is it worth it?" Pan Zhi said, "Dating in love is in love. With him, in love, you are only 19 years old ..."
Pan Zhi didn't say any more, but Jiang Yan knew what he meant.
"I'm just in love with Gu Fei. I don't have to do anything for Gu Miao," Jiang Yan bit his lip. "But Gu Fei wants to control her, so I can't ignore it."
"You think about it in the future, these things will only get deeper and deeper, and become more and more entangled. One year, two years, three years, five years, Gu Miao has been bad, have you been like this?" Pan Zhi said, "Maybe It ’s me too realistic, I sometimes get scared, if one day you are tired, then you ca n’t get away ... "
"Pan Pan," Jiang Yan raised his hand, and flicked his fingers against Pan Zhi's mouth. "I intend to be naive, after all, in my life, naive time is too short."
Pan Zhi covered his mouth, stared at him for a while, and finally gave him a thumbs up, and said sincerely from his fingers: "I respect you as a grandpa."
Gu Miao's affairs have not progressed, although Jiang Yan knows that there is nothing, it can be made so easily, and Gu Fei will not be so hard.
But thinking about it this way, he will still be a little bit lost, just like he tried to support Gu Fei, but he couldn't get enough energy.
Gu Fei has sent Gu Miao to continue to participate in that rehabilitation treatment, and sometimes he will send small videos to him, Gu Miao is still so beautiful and so cool.
-This time the effect is not very good
-Seeing it, she was quite happy when she went last time. This time nothing seems to happen?
-Well, I'm basically unwilling to interact with people
-Because of me?
-Brother, do n’t you always react first to finding problems with yourself
-. . . .
-When she was angry with me, I never felt that I was wrong. She was not a normal child and could not think with conventional thinking.
-Okay, is this treatment going yet?
-Let ’s go ahead and pay the money and see if it improves over time
Jiang Yan was lying on the table, holding the book, but he lingered for a long time on the screen of the mobile phone. He could see his face in the black screen.
Thanks to his handsomeness, he will not appear to have an IQ of only 20 when he is in a daze.
Zhao Ke, sitting next to him, bounced a small piece of paper to his face. He turned his face and erected Zhao Ke's middle finger.
"You waste resources?" Zhao Ke whispered.
Jiang Yan said nothing, put the phone back in his pocket, and lowered his head and started taking notes while reading.
Do n’t think too much, anyway, what I can do now is to save more money. In addition to my own expenses, save as much as possible. No matter what kind of treatment Gu Miao receives in the future, money is a big problem.
Money, money.
My brother is rich.
Coming out of the library, Zhao Ke proposed to buy something to eat. Jiang Yan didn't want to eat anything, but he went with him. Anyway, his mind was a little stuffy and he couldn't sleep when he returned to the dormitory.
"What's wrong with you these days?" Zhao Ke asked after walking for a while, "Is something wrong?"
"No," Jiang Yan answered.
"That's good." Zhao Ke nodded.
Jiang Yan turned his head to look at him, and suddenly he wanted to laugh a little. Sometimes this person insisted on the principle of "don't ask a question about me".
In fact, Jiang Yiting hoped that Zhao Keduo would ask a few words at this moment. Except Pan Zhi, he had no one to talk about, and Pan Zhi obviously did not want him to invest too much in these matters and get too deep.
Although he can manage many things and has no habit of talking to others, in this new environment, he is indeed a little bit flustered.
Just like when he first arrived at the steel mill, he felt like he wanted to catch something and didn't know where to grab it.
"Don't say it?" Zhao Ke suddenly asked again.
"Huh?" Jiang Yan looked at him, and Zhao Ke was looking at him. After gazing at him for a while, he sighed softly, "Actually ... others may not think it's a big deal."
"I listen." Zhao Ke said.
"It's ... my friend's sister," Jiang Yan frowned, "It's kind of autistic ... it should be autistic, there has been no way ..."
"Want to take a look at the doctor?" Zhao Ke asked.
"Can't get over," Jiang Yan said, "she can't accept the change of environment, and can't change the bed. I went to the doctor to ask. I can't see anyone, there is no way to judge."
"That's for sure," Zhao Ke said, after thinking about it, he stopped, "my sister."
"Huh?" Jiang Yan looked at him.
"If you want, you can ask my sister." Zhao Ke said.
"Your sister ..." Jiang Yan suddenly felt faintly excited.
"My sister reads clinical psychology," Zhao Ke said, "I still want to go to school next semester. Would you like to join me?"
The author has something to say: 继续 Continue tomorrow. This chapter was finished at two o'clock in the middle of the night. There may be typos or something. I went back to the grave at night and slowly changed it.