Chapter 48: Cultivate a manual

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Early the next morning, someone came to empty Deng Zhuo's bedroom, moved everything directly to the warehouse behind the garden, and then quickly refurbished the room. No matter how thank you, it didn't delay. In this process, he watched his room disappear from the house, and even one thing could not be preserved, as if the trace of his existence was erased by a living.
A few days later, Deng Jingwen led a strange boy back.
Juvenile eyebrows are handsome and handsome, but I don’t think it is alone. But when I stand with Deng Jingwen, anyone who looks at the past knows that they are the real father and son. About because of his childhood living outside, he was suddenly received by Deng Jialai. The juvenile expression was cautious and looked gentle and cautious. Deng and Deng Zhuo were completely extreme.
Deng Jingwen ignored the fear and anger in Xie’s eyes and brought the boy to him. His plain voice: "Know, this is Bai Xiaorui. You will call him the young master later."
Xie He's hands clenched into a fist, and he glanced at Bai Xiaorui with a fierce look, and rushed out without saying a word!
Bai Xiaorui looked at the back of Xie He’s face and rushed to Deng Jingwen’s voice:
Father... What if he is angry?

Deng Jingwen smiled faintly and glanced at him. "It doesn't matter, you don't have to care about him, let the butler take you to rest."
Bai Xiaorui’s well-behaved nod:
Oh, yes.

Xie He did not go back that night. In order to express his grief and unacceptable reality, he slept in the garden pavilion for the night, and the next day he felt the nose stuffed, about to catch a cold.
[Xie He: Hey, Dad’s ruthless heart, if you go to the spy war drama, you can definitely be the head of the spy. 】
[444: That must be very cold and bloody! =_=#]
[Xie He: But his son is a good boy with good heart. 】
[444: (⊙o⊙) Oh! 】 The host has always been very accurate!
[Xie He: Such a good child, he used it as a prop when he came back. It really makes people feel sad. Sigh jpg
[444: ...] This tone, the host should not look at Bai Xiaorui, right? He is so scared..._(:3ゝ∠)_
[Xie He: I think that I am going to bully such a child, I feel conscience is deeply condemned :)
444: I don't think you have this kind of thing, thank you.
Bai Xiaorui was a little shocked by the luxury of Deng’s family. He turned to the side and did not fall asleep at night.
I got up for breakfast the next day, and when I thought about it, I decided to go to Deng Zhuo.
Bai Xiaorui originally had a happy little family. Professor Bai and his wife loved each other and was noble in character. They were also very pampered to the only son. Although they were not the richest family, they were extremely happy. However, unfortunately, when Bai Xiaorui was 12 years old, Professor Bai and his wife died in a car accident, leaving him alone. Soon the property of the family was divided up by relatives. He was adopted by his aunt's family and lived a life under the fence.
When Bai Xiaorui was very young, he began to learn to eat his own power. He tasted the hardships of the world, and he was admitted to the university to be independent... but he did not expect that one day he would become the son of Deng Jingwen.
It feels like a lonely orphan. I found out that I was the most noble prince overnight. I didn’t dare to think like this dream.
But besides the joy, Bai Xiaorui feels more embarrassed. In his heart, Professor Bai is his parents. He is a person who gave him a beautiful and warm childhood. For Deng Jingwen, he only feels fear and curiosity. It is said to be white. Deng Zhuo, who teaches his own son, is more complicated.
To a certain extent, his current fortune is based on Deng Zhuo’s misfortune. Deng Zhuo... can he accept him?
Before coming to the Deng family, Bai Xiaorui thought that he must get along well with Deng Zhuo. Whoever thought that Deng Zhuo’s reaction was as fierce yesterday... it made him feel awkward.
Bai Xiaorui asked the servant and finally found a thank you in the back garden.
He looked at Xie He’s figure far away, and for a while, it was really... a perfect face, completely inherited the beauty of Mrs. White, and more beautiful, dazzling to make people unable to move their eyes. . His nose couldn't help but be a bit sour, he remembered his mother again...
Bai Xiaorui forced himself to return to God and walked to Xie He, and took the initiative: "Hello."
Xie He turned his head and looked at him. His eyes were cold and his lips were not talking.
Bai Xiaorui knew that he was in a bad mood. He didn't mind his unreasonableness. He took a step forward and said, "You... I saw you haven't come back yesterday, so I am a little worried. Come and see, are you okay?"
Xie He will definitely look at him, suddenly making a sneer, his voice sharp, "Who wants you to be good!"
Bai Xiaorui’s expression is a bit stiff, but he still explained:
No... I really care about you, I really want to be friends with you. Right... you want to know about your biological parents, I can Say to you..." In his heart, that is a wonderful memory. He thinks maybe he will wonder what kind of person his biological father is. He is willing to share those memories with him, just like sharing secrets with friends. same.
Who knows why he suddenly glared at him, loudly: "Get out! I don't listen! My father is Deng Jingwen!"
Why, why do everyone want him to recognize his identity!
He has lost his father's love, is it necessary to lose even his only identity! He only has such a little extravagant hope and thoughts, why there are always people who want to remind him to recognize this!
Let him continue to lie and lie to himself can not...
Bai Xiaorui was shocked by Xie He’s fierce reaction. Some confused words,
What happened to you?
He is obviously kind, why is he so rude?
"You took my room away, you took my identity away, you have to steal my father! You took everything away! Who wants you to sympathize with me!" Xie Hejian Screaming, eyes filled with anger and anger, hoarse voice, "I don't need your fake good heart! You give me out of here! Get out!" He can no longer control his anger, one foot will Bai Xiaorui Tripped to the ground! He raised his fist would beat him!
However, the fist did not fall on Bai Xiaorui, the wrist was tightly held from behind, holding his hand very hard, thank you only feel that even the wrist seems to be crushed.
He turned his head with red eyes and saw Deng Jingwen not knowing when he was standing behind him, looking at him coldly.
Xie He’s face suddenly changed. On the pale face, there was only one stun in the black scorpion, and the voice trembled.
Dad...

Deng Jingwen’s eyes were like a deep pool. He looked at Xie He with no expression and said,
Apologize.

Xie He bit his lip, tears in his eyes.
He didn't want to apologize, why did he apologize? Bai Xiaorui took everything away from him! He still has to apologize to him! Why? Why? Just because he is not the son of Dad, is it so treated like this?
Deng Jingwen’s hand slowly tightened, his eyes were cold, and he repeated it again:
Apologize.

Xie He’s pain trembled, cold sweat ran down his forehead, and the look in his eyes changed from sadness to sadness.
He looked at Deng Jingwen’s feelingless eyes. He couldn’t remember how many times he had humiliated in front of this man, and he was forced to say how many words he had violated...
But this time, he suddenly didn't want to go on like this anymore. Anyway, no matter how he yields, no matter how to make a decision, he can't change Deng Jingwen's decision and can't shake Deng Jingwen's mind. If so, why should he apologize, why should he yield?
Xie He loosened the biting red lips and slowly revealed a stern smile. His expression was distorted by pain. "No, I don't apologize."
Bai Xiaorui got up from the ground. He was really sad. It was obviously a good intention to be treated like this, but at this moment, looking at Xie He’s appearance, the desperate look of desperate, and the sorrow that seems to have been abandoned by the whole world, suddenly felt very Sad, sad, as if he had lost everything...
He has come out of suffering, and for Xie He, suffering has just begun.
He did not expect it to be like this.
Bai Xiaorui was afraid of Deng Jingwen, but he still said with a hard scalp: "Father, forget it... he is not intentional, I am fine."
Who knows that Deng Jingwen hasn't spoken yet, but Xie He turned his head and looked at him first, and looked at him with hateful eyes: "Who wants you to plead for me! Who is your concern!"
Bai Xiaorui's face was white, and he took a step back.
Deng Jingwen’s eyes on the boy’s eyes, I don’t know why my heart was slightly stagnation. This is the first time he saw such lonely despair in the boy’s eyes...
His mood was a bit irritating, and it was so clear that he could give him more as long as the boy obeyed, but the boy did not seem to listen at all. He waited all night in the room, thinking that as long as the boy would return He will forgive him and will treat him well to appease him, but this time... the boy did not come back, he would rather sleep alone in the cold pavilion, refused to go to his room, refused to beg his mercy. .
Deng Jingwen didn't close his eyes overnight, but he couldn't worry about the boy, so he quietly followed Bai Xiaorui's back.
Why can't the boy understand his mind? Obviously, it is always easy to give in, but it is in this matter, so stubborn!
Deng Jingwen suddenly became angry, so he came over to stop the boy and ordered him to apologize. The boy must know where he is wrong! Since he is not willing to rely on him like his man, he has to bear the consequences of his waywardness.
But this time the boy did not listen to him.
He could have continued to force it, but at this moment, he looked at the despair in the boy's eyes, suddenly... a little can't bear to continue.
Deng Jingwen slowly, released his hand.
Xie He opened him, and a few deep red marks appeared on the wrist on his side. He was still shaking slightly. He took a look at Deng Jingwen and looked at Bai Xiaorui standing on the side. Full of hateful voice: "I hate you!"
Said to turn and ran out!
However, only after running a dozen meters away, I slammed it on the ground and did not get up.
Deng Jingwen looked at the boy and fell to the ground. He only felt that his heartbeat seemed to be slowed down. His pace was a little flustered for the first time. He hurriedly ran over to pick up the boy. The boy frowned, his face pale, cold and sweaty. Already dizzy.
Deng Jingwen touched his forehead and burned hot!
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Xie He swayed and blew a whole night's cool breeze, and let 444 give himself a modified version of the advanced cold virus, and successfully started high fever.
When he woke up, it was already the third day. He had water on his arm, and Deng Jingwen was sleeping next to him. His arm was under his neck and he held his whole circle in his arms.
Xie He moved a bit, pulled off the needle on the back of the hand, and opened the quilt and jumped under the bed.
His movements awakened Deng Jingwen. Deng Jingwen originally slept very shallowly. He directly reached for the boy's waist and pulled him back in his arms. His lips were stuck in the boy's ear. His voice was low: "Don't move. Your illness is not good yet."
God knows how worried he is, the boy has been sleeping for three days! The doctor said that the boy was suffering from the cold, the original body was weak, and because the mood fluctuations hit too much, it would faint under great grief. Looking at the boy who was closed and closed, Deng Jingwen first regretted his chilling heart. What did he think at the time, he actually left the boy outside for a whole night, and blamed him so ruthlessly. .
He shouldn't be so eager, the boy is so weak, he could have been more gentle. He is used to using hard-line means to get what he wants, and he doesn't know how to be the right way to love someone.
After all... Because I was eager to have one thing for the first time, I was so anxious.
Xie He bit his teeth and his body trembled slightly. He said, "Let me go."
Deng Jingwen patiently groaned, his voice was soothing. "Don't make trouble, lie down, do you want to faint again?"
Xie He’s teeth creaked, his eyelashes shook, his eyes were full of painful struggles, his voice was shuddering with his voice,
What about it, you won’t care, anyway, I’m not Your son……"
Deng Jingwen lost his voice and laughed. Is this child angry? He said: "Although you are not my son, but who said that I will not care, I am very worried about you." He spoke warmly, gently touched the boy's head, pressed him to the bed, "Hey, I am calling Doctors."
Xie Hezhen looked at the man in front of him, feeling the gentle tone and behavior he had never had before. Tears finally couldn’t help but flow down. He didn’t make a sound, so he shed tears silently. Can't live.
Deng Jingwen paused, and his mood was a bit complicated. He said, "Don't cry."
This sentence is like a mantra that completely opens the valve. Xie He can no longer control himself, crying even more fiercely. He looked at Deng Jingwen with tears and suddenly reached out and grabbed his arm tightly. The hoarse opening: Dad... Hey... why don’t you want to be my dad...

"Dad, do you know how much I like you, how much you need... although you always seldom accompany me, but I tell myself that it is because you are very busy... you have never attended my parent meeting, I told myself That's because you are different from others. My dad is a great big man, so I won't go to such an insignificant occasion... You didn't go to the amusement park with me, didn't help me with my homework, didn't tell me. The bedtime story didn't even give me a birthday... I told myself again and again...because my dad is the best and the most amazing, so he is different from other people's father..."
"Although... I admire those classmates, envy their father, envy those ordinary lives..."
"But, I still like you the most... because you are my father, you will protect me and love me, accompany me for a lifetime... I don't have a mother, I only have a father..."
"I only have you……"
"But why don't you want me? Why don't you want me..."
Xie He’s crying was out of breath, his vision was blurred, because he was crying too hard, and his chest twitched.
"Dad... what should I do..."
I can still lie to myself, even if you don't love me, even if you hurt me, at least you are my own father... but now I can't continue to lie to myself because you are not my father, you It is the father of others.
I really, really... I’m going to keep going...
Why are you not my father...
Deng Jingwen looked at such a boy, and there seemed to be some sad feelings in the chest that grew up a little. Is this the real thought in the boy's heart? He has never reflected on it before, and he has never cared about it. He is qualified as a father. He has a dispensable mentality for this unexpected son. I felt that I had fulfilled my responsibilities when I was eating and wearing. I never thought that the boy needed to be accompanied by his father.
No, even if he knows, he may not care. But at this moment, Deng Jingwen looked at the boy, and for the first time in his heart, he was embarrassed. He watched his boy grow up a little bit, from a white meat group. ... grows into a beautiful young boy, but his heart is always selfish and indifferent, and he has never fulfilled his father’s responsibility for a moment.
Despite this, the boy still respects him and loves him, regards him as the most important father, and looks at him with the gaze of adoring as always.
At this moment, Deng Jingwen suddenly understood that he would be so eager for the boy.
Because the boy is unique and irreplaceable to him.
When he did not realize it himself, he was already accustomed to the existence of a boy. No other person would rely on him like a boy. Even if he experienced more frustrations, he would never leave.
The most precious and rarest feeling in the world, in fact, he always has it, just because he turned a blind eye.
How could he, willing to not want his boy.
He also needs him.
[叮, goal Deng Jingwen good feeling 2, current good feeling 90]
Deng Jingwen held the boy in his arms and gently patted his back until the boy stopped crying and gradually returned to calm. He bowed his head and kissed the boy's lips gently. He said slowly and solemnly: "I will not want you, I hope that you can stay with me... just as my lover."
However, this time, the boy did not respond, he just raised his eyes and looked at him with an unfamiliar strange look.