Chapter 437: 437.Fear

"Yunhan, I'm here to see you." Jun Jiusi inserted the lighted incense in front of the spiritual position and looked at the portrait of Cui Yunhan hanging on the wall for a moment.
"When you said that the peach blossoms would come out in the coming year, you would marry and let me send you." Thinking of the past, Jun Jiu thought like a dream, sitting on the ground kneeling, in a sour mood, "I promised you with a smile, but I didn't expect it I missed my appointment. Goodbye ... but now. "
A farewell in those days became a farewell.
This is what Junjiu never thought.
"I heard that the two princes were not very good to you. Have you ever regretted it? Regretting that you didn't sneak away with Lu Yi?"
If anyone is present, he will be shocked by what Jun Jiusi said.
You know, even the Cui family did not know about Cui Yunhan and Lu Yi at the last minute.
Who would have thought that when Cui Yunhan and An Xiaojiu saw each other as they did, many grievances that could not be told to their families, Cui Yunhan told An Xiaojiu all.
Let An Xiaojiu help her get the idea.
No, Cui Yunhan seems gentle, in fact, she will never make a decision easily.
Cui Yunhan just wanted to find someone to talk about.
"I hate that I became a concubine, but I lost my memory and made you so alone in Beijing."
Jun Jiusi touched his stomach, his voice was flat, but the remorse in his heart swept through the mountains.
"Rhyme,"
Tears ran down the corner of my eyes.
The woman's voice revealed a little bit of grievance, "Do you say I am a disaster star? At that time, I thought that once I was dead, there would be no entanglements of hate and love, but ..."
Jun Jiusi closed her eyes, her eyelashes trembled slightly, and tears ran down. "I didn't expect it, so I killed Brother Rong. I killed my sister and killed Brother Rong, and I don't even dare to watch now You and Jiayue. "
"I'm afraid, I'm afraid that one day they two know that their father and mother died because of me, and I'm afraid they will look at me with that resentful look ..."
These scenes, after she recovered her memory, often dreamed.
Dreaming of Jiayue pointing at her, scolding her: "You are a wicked woman. You killed my mother and killed my father. Why didn't you die?"
Dreaming of a quiet glance at her quietly, and then dragging the quiet and angry sorrow to leave, said: "Jia Yue, don't talk to such people."
Almost every night, she would wake up from the nightmare.
She didn't dare to face the quiet Jiayue, and did not dare to give her sister-in-law husband a joss stick.
"Am I cowardly?" Junjiu was crying sadly, as if to pour out all the sorrows of his backlog. "If it were not for my cowardice, Brother Rong would not have died at least. At least, two Little girl can still have father. "
Jun Jiusi wiped her tears, raised her head and stared at a pair of big eyes and looked at Cui Yunhan in the portrait, and whispered, "Did you know Yun Han, the other day I saw Jing Jiayue come up with an portrait, Brother Rong? Jia Yue pointed at the portrait in excitement and asked if the person above me was her father. She also asked me if I knew her father, what kind of person her father is ... "
At that moment, Jun Jiu was extremely embarrassed and could not wait to disappear.
There are some things that I dare not think about.
"You said, why did the two of us just fall in love, like this ... were not allowed?" Jun Jiusi asked Cui Yunhan with a cry and a smile.
Cui Yunhan has liked Lu Yi for many years, but she has never dared to speak out, and even did not dare to let Lu Yi know, and did not dare to let her family know.
She always remembered her responsibility.
auzw.com "Say happier, I'm pregnant again. Yun Han, this time I will fight to protect him and give birth to him. I hope to be a son, not a boy. .I just think it's easier for boys to live in this world ... "
Across the wall.
Ximenyu grabbed Li Xiaowan and whispered: "Small bowl, you have to let her vent, or she will be crazy if she keeps in her heart."
"But, Jiusi is like this ... I'm worried she can't hold it."
Li Xiaowan looked extremely anxious.
Now Jiusi is not alone, there is still a child in the stomach, if you are too sad, it is not a joke.
"But you don't let her vent, and keep it in your heart, she will go crazy!"
The phrase "she will be crazy", like a huge hammer, hit Li Xiaowan's head fiercely, hitting her with Venus.
"She's going crazy? No, no ..." Li Xiaowan retorted subconsciously, just that she could hear the uncertainty inside.
Xi Menyu sighed.
Although it was said that Jun Jiusi and Cui Yunhan were to stay alone for a while, Li Xiaowan was not at all assured of what Jun Jiusi was like now.
So he and Ximenyu came to the side and waited.
The sound insulation of the room was not good, and naturally, Jun Jiusi's voice was heard.
"Small bowl." Ximenyu sighed, leaning on Li Xiaowan's shoulders with both hands, bending slightly, seriously, "You know, everyone can only have a limited amount of things. Otherwise, Why did Xiao Ji cut her wrist and commit suicide? That's because she couldn't bear it. Now that she has a child now, she won't have a thought of resignation. But so many things are pressing her heart and it will drive people crazy. of!"
This is not alarmist.
Everyone's ability is limited. When those things overflow, the state of Jun Jiu Si will become worse and worse. One day, sooner or later, it will be dead or crazy.
Now she herself is willing to release some, which is also good.
Better than driving yourself crazy in the future.
"She's Xiaojiu, she won't ..."
"All of us didn't expect Xiaojiu to commit suicide at the time? Little bowl, don't you think Xiaojiu is too strong. Even if you are strong, she is just an ordinary little girl."
Yeah, when all of them thought Xiaojiu got through, she suddenly committed suicide.
And now ...
Uncle Cong said that Xiao Jiu was unwilling to meet Jingyue Jiayue and never worshiped Xiao Qi Rongjing. Li Xiaowan knew that these things were still under Xiao Jiu's heart, so she had never been able to come out.
"Okay, I see." Li Xiaowan was a little surprised.
Why does Xiaojiu suffer from these pains all the time?
Obviously, Xiao Jiu has never asked for more.
Li Xiaowan listened to the whimper from time to time there, uncomfortable in his heart.
But keeping in mind what Ximen Yu said just now, he didn't dare to bother.
Fortunately, Jun Jiu Si did not worry Li Xiaowan for too long.
About half an hour later, Jun Jiusi pushed the door out.
Slightly swollen eyes, the woman smiled brightly against the yellow sun.