Chapter 783: Confession (13)

"Until we come for our honeymoon..."
When talking about this, Shi Che's black eyes fell heavily on Ling Chuxia's face, and a touch of pain gradually appeared under his eyes, as if that memory was also extremely difficult for him to face, an extremely bad memory.
Ling Chuxia's heart tensed in an instant, and his breathing slowed for half a beat unconsciously.
"That day, you were taking a shower, I was sorting the things you bought, and then... I saw your diary."
When Shi Che uttered the three words in the diary, Ling Chuxia shook his whole body suddenly, and there was a shadow of a sword in his mind, and suddenly he understood something.
All her feelings and all her thoughts were recorded in the diary, but Shi Che saw the diary... Ling Chuxia's hands suddenly clenched.
Sure enough, Shi Che chuckled lightly, but with a deep self-deprecation, "I didn't mean to spy on your privacy, but I really want to know what you are thinking, so I didn't hold it back, then... …I just know that you are hot and cold to me, and you are detached from me. It's not that you are not used to being my wife, but that you don't want to be my wife at all."
I don't want to be my wife at all...
The voice is so low, so deep, but he can still hear his suppressed trill, and he can hear the pain in his calm voice.
Ling Chuxia never thought that the truth of the matter turned out to be like this. He had actually read her diary before, and unexpectedly... When he loved her so deeply, he knew that she did not love him, and that she was only for his sister. And stay by his side.
So, what kind of mood was Shi Che at that time? What kind of despair are you carrying?
Ling Chuxia could not imagine, nor could he imagine...
She finally understood why Shi Che suddenly angered her at that time, and suddenly left her alone to return to China, and after that, his attitude towards her changed suddenly and became worse and worse.
"Actually, it's not that I can't accept that you don't love me. What I can't accept is that I think you are ignoring my feelings, playing with me, using my feelings as a tool you can use."
"I have been trying very hard to get closer to you, but in early summer... you are getting farther and farther away from me, so far away I don't know how to approach you."
After three years of marriage, she suffered all the grievances and embarrassment. No matter what she said or did, she was wrong, but it turned out that it was not just her who suffered from grievances. Shi Che suffered no less grievances than her.
At least at that time, she hadn't realized that she loved him, and he, loved so deeply, but couldn't get close. When he got close, there was only harm.
Every time he makes her sad, it's him who is more sad.
Ling Chuxia suddenly remembered that Shi Che’s headaches seemed to have started at that time. She couldn't help but raised her eyes, her voice was extremely low and dumb, "Shi Che, so...your headache is because...because This one?"
"Ok."
Shi Che's voice was also very low and dumb, "After returning to China, I couldn't sleep for a long time. I was suffering from insomnia, drinking heavily, and then started to have a headache."
This sentence was an understatement for Shi Che, but Ling Chuxia seemed to be able to see how Shi Che was struggling in pain at that time.
She always thought it was because she didn't take good care of his body that he had a headache, but she didn't expect that it was because she...