Chapter 1112: No grievances in this life, no regrets in this love (4)

She would rather look at him with a smile, but Shui Jingmo's heart is exceptionally uncomfortable. Xiao Xu hasn't come to him for so many years. He suddenly appeared in front of him today. He didn't know why he had a bad feeling. And the premonition became stronger when he saw Xiao Xu's smile. Please remember my URL:
He felt that he could not restrain himself, he had to figure it out, otherwise he would not be at ease.
"Small..." Shui Jingmo opened his mouth and was interrupted by Xu Rather just as he made a sound.
"A Jing," Ning Xu looked at Shui Jingmo, as if he had made a decision suddenly, and smiled and said to Shui Jingmo, "I'm here to say goodbye to you."
He speaks lightly and smiles naturally.
But in Shui Jingmo's eyes, there was an uncontrollable impulse, which made Shui Jingmo suddenly a little upset.
"I have been to many places over the years, and have never returned to Ningxi Island. I..." Ning Xu said to Shui Jingmo, "I plan to go back to Ningxi Island, and then...maybe I won't leave again. ."
After saying these few words, Ning Xu felt as if suddenly relieved, and the whole person became bright and light.
When Han Jing finally asked him if he was willing, he actually knew that he must be unwilling. Because he was unwilling, he had been secretly paying attention to Ah Jing over the years, so he would rather deceive himself by doing this dream. He is not reconciled, not reconciled to this, not reconciled to the person he loves to his bones, how can he really not want him.
If you don't, then don't.
So what is the relationship between them?
He once asked himself this question on countless nights and countless drunk times, what is the relationship between them? How can he say that he doesn't love and he doesn't love, and that he let go?
What is he insisting on alone?
Those countless times of keeping watch, the torture of the soul seemed to have spawned a little bit of a devil, and the body he ate was incomplete and riddled with holes.
He didn't even feel that he was alive. He was really suffocated to the point that he couldn't take his life for another life, no, even if it was a little shorter, he could stay in love with each other. Don’t live a long life, just like ordinary people, you can live for several decades, or even less.
Can you let them be together, don't separate.
That kind of pain tortured him to a nervous breakdown, so he finally couldn't bear all this and went astray. He would rather exhaust all his life and energy, and want to change to an illusory dream, just for this life, no matter how much. A little gentleness in holding hands.
When you love it, you grind your heart into pieces, and take this piece to piece together a false dream of love.
It is his love dream.
And now, the dream woke up, everything should be over, and he should leave.
This love, this love, this life, this life.
He would rather spend time with Shui Jingmo, love it, it is enough, it is worth it.
Suddenly he didn't want any answers, nor did he want to figure out why and what the ending was. The ending was already doomed, and there was no need to look for the answer.
The moment he just hugged him, he suddenly let go, maybe that would be great.
The story between him and him is actually very good.
Love him is the best thing in this world.
"No resentment in this life, no regrets in this situation."