Chapter 964: How ridiculous

In these three days, Han Litong has not entered the underground palace.
She has been thinking about the life she has led over the years, wondering whether she really likes her self-righteously, whether she really likes it, is she really in love with Fengxi, or whether she feels more guilty for him.
She discovered that she really didn't know.
She thought that after he left, she finally fell in love with him, even more profound and caring than when she fell in love with that person. She thought so.
But over the years, there is still no him in her life.
She couldn't help asking herself, what is she doing?
If you say who is the best person to her in this world, there is no doubt that it must be her brother Fengxi. But she never really cherished his affection, until in the end, he finally had no affection for her. Please remember my website: The sentence he said before his death, she has been particularly clear recently, if there is an afterlife, let us not meet again.
If there is an afterlife, let us not meet again.
When he closed his eyes and lost his breath, she felt that her world was dark. From then on, she was really helpless.
She was so self-righteous and stubborn that she didn't get anything back.
She thought that she had sacrificed the people she had saved, but now probably no one remembers her.
And the person she once loved so much had already died.
She felt that she had nothing. In the end, the Fengxi brother who loved her the most died, and no longer loved her.
She has thought countless times in the past few days, what is the point of her being so immersed in these irreparable pain and feelings? Just like what Han Jing said, she didn't let him go, and she didn't let herself go. What was the point?
No one has harmed her, she has harmed herself.
She was too proud and self-righteous, she always thought she could do anything, but in the end she did nothing.
Even her two biological daughters did not have any affection for her, because she never fulfilled the responsibility of being a mother, and even Qing Jue, who grew up next to her, never hugged her. Give her the slightest mother's warmth. She is not a qualified mother. She didn't care about this before, but when she saw Han Jing and Su Qizheng together, her heart was really hurt.
She thought she didn't need anything, she was lonely, she was not favored by God, she stayed in her own world alone and appreciated herself, never wondering why she fell to where she is now.
Who does she love? She really didn't know.
"I know, even if I apologize to you, even if I admit my mistake, it doesn't make much sense." Han Litong walked to Fengxi's coffin and stared quietly at Fengxi's face, but what she said, Said to Han Jing.
"I admit that, as a mother, I have never loved you or Jue'er. I used to think that all family relationships are like this. It is a responsibility, not a feeling. I have blindfolded my eyes with my life. I haven't seen the world seriously."
"I have been using the superficial glitz to cover all true emotions, forgetting the human heart, which is the softest thing."
It was like she naively thought that the love and interest between her and the nine brothers was the love that was earth-shaking to death, how ridiculous.