Chapter 449: Life is worse than life and suffering

Chapter 449
The humble voice out of control and a needle pierced Gu Beichen's heart fiercely... the pain was so painful that he was about to suffocate.
The nose became sore, Gu Beichen slowly grabbed his hand, "Jian Mo, how can you be so selfish?"
Qing Huo's voice was deep and hoarse, and under the drizzle, it was confusingly low...but it was cold.
"I'm selfish?" Jian Mo was a little confused, she kept flapping her eyes, as if she didn't understand.
"You let me watch your life slowly disappear in front of me..." Gu Beichen clenched his hand firmly, "...how cruel are you to me?"
Jian Mo only felt his legs and feet soft, and stepped back uncontrollably...
"In order to be with you, I have to watch your life go by...I," Gu Beichen cracked something on his cold face, "I can't do it."
Tears, just like this ‘sweetly’ falling down.
I don’t know if it’s rain or tears on the eyelashes, anyway, my vision is blurred...
Jian Mo's nerves collapsed all of a sudden. She looked at Gu Beichen, her lips were trembling, but she couldn't say anything.
"Moer..." Gu Beichen called out with difficulty, and this sound represented too much.
"I can't help it, do you understand?" Gu Beichen laughed at himself, "I can't let you be by my side...I can't help it, do you understand?"
"You have, you have... you have!" Jian Mo cried, "You can go to Zi Xiao and ask for the medicine, you can ask Yunze to show me... You can ask Long Xiao to find the medicine, you Have--"
Jian Mo screamed in pain, not knowing whether he was lying to himself or questioning Gu Beichen.
She slowly squatted down, just in front of Jian Zhanfeng and Su Mo's tombs... and burst into tears.
"Why, why did we get to this point..." Jian Mo hissed, "What should you do if you push me away? What should I do..."
The feeble hesitation completely leaked Jian Mo's cowardice, and she felt helpless as if she had lost her beloved toy child.
Gu Beichen's eyes were red. After so many years of cruelty, he was already a cold-blooded person.
Even in the face of everyone, it seems to be indifferent.
But now... there is a woman named Jian Mo who has fallen deeply into his flesh and blood.
Now, he wants to dig her out of him by himself...
This kind of pain cannot be felt by others, nor can it be felt.
Kneeling down, took Jian Mo into his arms...
"I know, you will live well..." Gu Beichen's voice was faintly trembling, "You are Jian Mo...a Jian Mo who can't beat you down!"
"I don't...I don't want to be a strong Jian Mo, I don't!" Jian Mo said while crying. She raised her tearful eyes and looked at Gu Beichen dimly, "Is there really no way? I can't help but push away. me?"
Such humbleness is like a grain of dust in the wind...
Gu Beichen secretly swallowed his sorrow, and his thin lips kissed the tears on Jian Mo's face... the salty taste stung his heart one after another.
"Mo'er, I'm sorry..." Gu Beichen's voice trembled slightly because of grief, "It's okay if you hate me... or hate me, but I can't see you disappear, do you understand?"
"Don't say sorry to me..." Jian Mo looked at Gu Beichen, "I don't want to be sorry! I don't want..."
The hoarse growl was weak, Jian Mo thought that as long as we calm each other down, this matter can be regarded as not happening.
But why...
Why is it still so fast!
"Gu Beichen, even if you push me away, I won't return to Zi Xiao..." Jian Mo's eyelashes trembled, "Even if I die, I won't take that medicine... If, in the end, I will always die. Can you stop pushing me away?"
"Moer..." Gu Beichen stroked Jian Mo's cheek with a big palm, "Your life, your life, not just love... You and Xiaojie, and your design, for the sake of me, you Do you really want to give up everything?"
Jian Mo's heart shook suddenly.
She looked at Gu Beichen incredulously, "You threatened me with a milk pack?"
"If you can survive..." Gu Beichen gritted his teeth.
This woman is tough, but she is also stubborn...
She would really take that medicine for the sake of this feeling without compromising... But he couldn't let her do that.
Jian Mo pushed Gu Beichen away, watching him almost sit on the ground, and slowly got up with disappointment overflowing under his eyes...
The condescending gaze was full of deep sorrow, and as Gu Beichen stood up, she moved her gaze, "Gu Beichen, the milk pack has left me, and you..." Her nose became more sour, "But, you left me , What else do you have?"
The roar was desperate, but his tears were firm.
Something cracked in Gu Beichen's ink pupil instantly, as if he didn't know how to react.
"What do you mean?" Jian Mo yelled, "You lost me, what else do you have?"
"How do you know?" Gu Beichen's breathing suddenly became sharp.
"Don't worry about how I knew..." Jian Mo stared, "Don't suffer from death, but life is even more painful... Gu Beichen, you lost me, what would you do?"
Once again, Jian Mo's mood collapsed...
Because she found that Gu Beichen would lose her no matter whether it was life or death!
What should he do, what should he do?
Xiang Nan told her quietly when he left that day...If Achen didn't have her, he would die!
He didn't say the specific reason, but... she knew that Xiang Nan was not joking, no!
It must be related to the memory of Achen being kidnapped...
"Gu Beichen, I won't leave you..." Jian Mo sniffed, wiped away tears with the back of her hand, "No!"
Finally, she dropped the two words, stared at Gu Beichen deeply, turned and left...
Under the drizzle, Jian Mo's back was thin and distressing.
However, she propped up her whole world...
She is not selfish, but... she doesn't want the man she loves to be so tired.
He must have done a lot of hard work since he knew that all this had something to do with Zi Xiao.
What kind of weakness was he able to push her away like this?
Jian Mo's tears went all the way and dropped all the way...
There is sadness and distress.
Gu Beichen stood in place like this, watching Jian Mo's figure go further and further, and gradually disappeared under his eyes.
"Zi Xiao, don't force me to ruin everything about you..." Late at night, Gu Beichen waited in Chu Zixiao's apartment after Xiao Jing and his team failed.
Chu Zixiao's body was wet, as if it had just been poured by heavy rain, "Destroy me, I only want Momo!" The cold night was full of machinery.
"Momo is an independent individual, even if I give it to you, is it all right?" Gu Beichen gritted his teeth.
Chu Zixiao smiled, indifferently, "Bei Chen... Then it's up to you. In ten days... If you can't push her to my side, you can only watch her die!"