Chapter 70: End of text

Across a layer of sweater, Zhao Yun knew he could feel the heat in his palm.
When her scalp became numb and her brain was numb, when she finally recovered, she pushed Yan Shuning away.
The induction light above the head went out, the light at the stairway was dim, and a small window beside it introduced the cold moonlight outside in early spring.
After a long silence,
Zhao Yunzhi heard the man's voice: "Trust my sincerity, eh?"
"I'm a little messy."
Zhao Yun interrupted him in a hurry and whispered, "In your current position, what kind of woman do you want? Why waste your time on me."
"But it has been wasted for so many years."
Yan Shuning seemed to smile.
The sadness in the tone made Zhao Yun know that the apex was trembling.
She couldn't say anything like "We are not suitable", feeling that whatever he said was a kind of injury to him.
But she was really hard to accept Yan Shuning.
Not to mention that she is several years older than him. Just because she was married, her daughters are all in their twenties, which makes her feel ashamed in front of him.
She is not young, even if she is among her peers, she is well maintained. But the fine lines in the corners of the eyes, the occasional white hair appearing on the head, and the increasingly loose skin all reminded her all the time that she was almost half a year old and her youth was gone.
Half of my life is so mediocre.
"Anin."
She almost aroused his nickname with a low self-esteem, trying to speak in a relaxed tone, "You have been in the army for more than 20 years, and it is rare to see a few women. It didn't take long for me to switch back, busy. , The opposite you have been in contact with for the longest time may be me. This kind of environment will influence your judgment to a certain extent, and make you think that you like me.
The last word was forced to change the sound.
Yan Shuning bowed her head and kissed her.
What a system!
This was Zhao Yunzhi's thought at that moment.
She made a hard push to push people out.
But she forgot that Yan Shuning was a man after all, or a man with a height of nine meters, a strong body, and a tough style. Cooking frogs in warm water is only a strategy. When he poked the window paper, he naturally had the determination he must have.
After her divorce, she was cold for several years and was easily awakened by him.
Imprisoned between the square inches, aware of his own body changes and desires, Zhao Yun knows that he is in a state of embarrassment, leaning his head indiscriminately and avoiding those fiery kisses.
When her jaw was pinched, she made a "huh huh" sound.
Unclear how long it took, Yan Shuning stopped slowly. He held her face in one hand and gasped in a low voice, "Sister."
Zhao Yunzhi collapsed.
His body was so soft that he shook his voice and said, "Why are you suffering?"
"sister."
A man in his forties, like a haunted wolf dog, said in a dumb voice in her ear, "I have seen many women. There are no suitable men in the army. These are all lie to my mother. , You believe? Can you like the hypocrite Fu Heng and willing to marry the kind of like Ruan Chengyi, think about me?"
He bit her earlobe, "Try it with me, um... I must be better than them."
"do not talk!"
"Want me?"
He was sloppy, holding her hips with big hands, long legs against her legs, a low, hoarse voice, like the devil’s temptation, to pull people into and sink, "If you are embarrassed, then don’t treat me like a swallow Shuning, just feel free to be anyone else. I don’t care about those who are vain. I have missed you for all these years, and the only obsession is to get you."
Zhao Yunzhi pinched his arm with one hand and almost stood unsteady.
She even imagined that in the next moment, the man in front of her would directly take her upstairs.
She may have difficulty refusing.
Adult sentiments tend to be turbulent and direct, and reason is hard to resist.
But Yan Shuning's big hand swam for a while, but instead stopped, he squeezed her neck with one hand, forcing her to raise her head, and after another deep kiss, suppressed the breath and said in her ear: "I will give you time Consider if I’m the one."
Suddenly released, Zhao Yun knew that emptiness swept through.
Her legs were trembling, almost unsteady, and one hand clasped the wall, supporting her crumbling body.
But Yan Shuning didn't seem to notice her. He looked down at her, and a hand beside him squeaked with a creaking noise, and he said with reluctance: "Offended, forgive me."
After finishing this, he strode up the steps.
Hearing the sound of the footsteps disappeared at the corner of the stairs, Zhao Yun knew that it was like the rest of his life after the robbery, his legs softened and he squatted against the wall.
At this moment, she wanted Yan Shuning.
What kind of courtesy, honesty and shame, and the laws of human relations seem to be all of a sudden, not so important.
She did not expect that Yan Shuning just used such a trick after a trial, and he deliberately aroused her desire, but just wanted her to miss him, pay attention to him, and involuntarily look and thought. Tossed at him, pulled by him, for his soul.
This is a bit mean, but deep in his heart, he wanted to torture Zhao Yun.
He just lied...
In fact, he not only wanted her as a person, but also wanted a warm heart for her, but also wanted the score she gave. He looked forward to the day when he would become Zhao Yunzhi's man.
But all this, Zhao Yun knew not at all.
Yan Shuning's obsession, tyranny, impulse, tenderness, all kinds of, moved her and shocked her. She did not expect that after experiencing two failed emotions, someone in the world took his hot heart to her In front of her, begging for her pity.
He was such a proud man, but he said, "Don't think of me as Yan Shuning," the loss of dignity and bottom line.
How can she be so treated?
After squatting for too long, Zhao Yun knew his feet were numb when he got up.
She leaned on the wall and returned home absently. The lights in the restaurant were turned off. Ruan Yue bathed in the public health and left her a porch light.
The sound of water came from the bathroom, but the living room was very quiet, and the warm atmosphere gradually let Zhao Yun know to calm down.
Feeling a bit sleepless...
All of Yan Shuning's words were in my mind, and the moment when the two people got along. All these influxes were not enough. The pictures of him in his youth also ran out of the memory, disturbing her thoughts.
She discovered
It turned out that long ago, he always called her a good sister.
There are so many children in the compound, and when others are intimate, they will at least call out Zhi Zhi.
That is to say, when he talked, he always brought a sense of cynicism. When she saw her cold face, she was not afraid of it. Since she was in her tens, she loved to be cute and spoil her.
"Good sister, don't tell my parents about this."
"Sister, you're the best."
"It's my sister who loves me."
One sentence after another, pieced together the fresh look of the teenager.
Zhao Yunzhi felt that he couldn't think about it anymore.
She got up, but didn't know what she wanted to do. She moved up to the master bedroom, took out two clothes, and planned to put it in the washing machine.
Eyes glanced at Ruan Yue's room, just to see her clothes on the dirty clothes basket.
Knowing that, Zhao Yun walked in, picked up her clothes and trousers and put them in her arms, and walked to the balcony while reaching for her trouser pocket.
Your fingertips touched a cool and smooth bag.
She was stunned, and she took out her hand to take a look, and found that there were three condoms in her hand.
The sound of water suddenly stopped in the bathroom.
Ruan Yue rubbed inside for a while, and when she opened the door in long pajamas and pyjamas, she caught a glimpse of Zhao Yun sitting on the sofa.
On the sofa at her hand, several clothes were worn.
At the top is the jeans she just changed.
Ruan Yue groaned inwardly, and hesitantly approached her, and saw three condoms on the coffee table.
"mom."
She gave a small voice.
Zhao Yunzhi raised his eyes: "I went out to see Lu Shen in the afternoon?"
Ruan Yue didn't know how to refute, so there was no refusal at all. He remained silent for a long time and murmured.
Zhao Yun knew her gaze fixedly.
She had turned on the living room lamp, and her face was whitish by the lamp, with a serious expression, which made Ruan Yue tense and her fingers clenched.
After seeing her for a long time, Zhao Yunzhi suddenly asked: "What do you like him?"
This sentence actually allowed Ruan Yue to hear some tolerance.
She thought about it for a while and replied: "From small to large, he was the first person to chase me, make me feel cared about, and never give up. He is not the kind of boy who is excellent at a glance. There are also many minor problems, but he is actually not bad. He studied undergraduate. In order to take care of his dad, the university retired from the school team before he could develop into a professional athlete. After graduation, he found a job and earned money to support himself. Initially together At that time, I didn’t like him, so I didn’t look at his strengths, and magnified his shortcomings indefinitely. Until the day I was hospitalized, our relationship was particularly cold and rigid.

"But mom..."
She looked at Zhao Yunzhi and said softly, "Love should also be managed? I have a magnifying glass to find his problems when I have problems. This is not fair to him. He is my first Boyfriend, we... we actually have a lot of first time, let me give up in a confused way, I can't do it a little... I contacted him after leaving the hospital, a lot of things have been said, now I am very Be sure that he loves me and I love him too. I want to be with him well and work hard for the future."
Zhao Yunzhi smiled and sighed,
It’s not enough to talk about your efforts. When you get older, you will find that love is not a necessity for marriage.

"But if there is no love at all, how does marriage continue?"
Ruan Yue thought for a while, "And he doesn't just talk about it with her mouth. She knows what kind of boyfriend you want me to talk to, so he is already preparing for this year's provincial exam. You also know that he is from a sports school , The police recruitment exam is very dominant."
"Then I will wait and see?"
Zhao Yun knows and asks the question, most of the elements in the tone do not believe.
Ruan Yue knew her temperament, and had not thought about persuading her in a few words, she was very surprised to get such a concession.
After the mother and daughter had finished talking, she returned to the room, took out her mobile phone and wanted to send Lu Shen a WeChat message, and saw that there was already a message from him in the dialog box.
[What is the baby doing? 】
【miss you. 】
[What are you busy with? Ignore everyone? 】
[Sleep? 】
Ruan Yue replied: [Not sleeping. Just took a shower. My mom found out that I was going out to find you in the afternoon. She trained me and just returned to the room. 】
Lu Shen: [Did you make me black? 】
Ruan Yue was amused by this sentence and returned to him: [You just want to be blacked by me like this? 】
Before Lu Shen replied, he added another sentence: [No. I said that you are working hard to prepare for the provincial exam. She said that she would wait and see, and she did not look at you very well. 】
Lu Shen asked: [What about you? Are you optimistic about me? 】
Ruan Yue thought about it and said, "You don't have to be too stressed. It's not good this year and next year. Anyway, I have to take the postgraduate entrance exam, and we take it slowly. 】
"I want to be your boyfriend brightly, and I want to be your husband earlier."
Lu Shen sent a voice.
Ruan Yue lay down on the bed, after listening to his words, her lips could not help but curled up, she handed her mobile phone to her lips and whispered with a voice: "Husband."
Lu Shen was quiet for a long time.
Sent over: [I died without regret. 】
Ruan Yue looked at the dialog.
She also has a feeling of fulfillment.
Perhaps I have to thank that long dream to make her like herself now, get Lu Shen like now, and still see the mother's home for the rest of her life in real life.
The author has something to say: I chose to finish the text here because the timeline and reality overlap; the story I want to express is basically finished.
The inspiration comes from a simple idea during the epidemic prevention period: [Sometimes, changing your mindset can change your life state and live another life. 】
But writing here, I found that my clumsy pen didn't seem to explain how profound and interesting this idea was.