Chapter 748: Fear and courage

Jamie Brown is a trivial little person.
At the age of 14, he dropped out of school and began to wander the streets. He was used as a drug courier to earn extra money. He was sanctioned by ASBO. When he was 17 years old, he started working independently and took a low salary.
He has the same trouble as 99.999% of people in the world: lack of money.
It is not surprising that some people like him have a few bad friends.
Theft is also commonplace.
However, when he stolen Aldridge's home yesterday, his role was as a driver, and there were others in the burglary, and he was responsible for the external response.
He didn’t know that there was Aldridge’s home, and Millwall’s fans hardly knew where Aldridge lived. Aldridge would not publish such private information, and the newspaper would not call his house number. Publish in detail, otherwise you will have to wait for the lawyer's letter
When the theft came to a safe place, Jamie found a strange place when it was stolen.
They worked all night to pry open the safe. Aldrich's safe was not embedded in the wall, but was put in the study cabinet. It was not too big and was taken away by the gang.
When Jamie opened the box where the medals were stored, his associates thought it was a gold medal, and he realized for the first time who their master might be.
Because each medal is engraved with the year and the event.
96 League Cup, 96 FA Cup, 97 Premier League champion medals, 98 Champions League medals...
At the time, Jamie's heart was filled with fear.
As long as you know which team won the honor, you know who these medals belong to.
Millwall!
And from 1996 to last season, who has been able to win so many medals, the scope is actually very small.
Starting in 1995, Millwall players or coaches who have played so far!
Jamie guarded the box, cash, precious jewellery, watches, and other valuable things when his friends asked to divide the medals and sell them. He did not want this box.
Also blamed his companion for not knowing the goods. After seeing a medal and discovering that it was not pure gold, he was not very interested. If he knew the goods, he would hide it and sell it for a few years. A cheque in millions of pounds.
Seeing that Jamie didn't want cash and valuables that could be cashed out directly, his associates followed his wishes and ended the distribution.
Jamie’s inner fear stems from his family football belief. In his memory, from his grandfather, the family is a fan of Millwall, perhaps earlier, from his grandfather.
In his less than 20 years of life, he has nothing to be proud of. No, appearance, connotation, knowledge, technology, etc., he is inferior and living at the bottom of society Others are bright and beautiful, but he is like a stinky rat in the sewer.
But his only pride, dare to stand up and tell everyone, what was said out loud: I am a fan of Millwall!
If it is to tell a friend, he will also talk about countless times, his father, his grandfather, his family, are all Millwall fans.
Ironically, before he joined the theft gang, he dreamed of using the proceeds from the theft to buy season tickets for Millwall next season, so that he didn’t have to save a month’s salary to watch another Millwall game. His salary is only enough to satisfy him that he can only watch one Millwall game a month.
Fear comes from this. The object of his theft is actually the "hero" in his mind.
After reading the news during the day, he was sure that it was not Nedved, Southgate and other people who had been stolen from his house. A character he could think of, but he did not dare to think about it, made him feel the world turning.
He actually stole something belonging to Aldridge.
Aldrich, in his mind, is no longer a heroic figure, but a god!
Jamie has imagined countless times that he is able to challenge everything and conquer everything as boldly, daringly, chicly, and arrogantly as Aldridge. From seven years ago, when he was 12 years old, he got his father’s birthday present on his birthday: two Millwall home tickets. That day, he and his father witnessed Millwall knocking out Arsenal in the cup at home, Aldridge defeated Graham, and the attack on Graham at the Aldridge press conference. Since then From time to time, Aldridge has been "deified" in Jamie's heart!
"Mr. Hall, I don’t know how to face you. You have always been my most admired person in my heart. I have nothing and nothing. My greatest happiness is to wear a Millwall jersey and walk into the Lion King Stadium. Watching my beloved mad lion playing in the stands, now I don’t even dare to say that I am a loyal fan of Millwall, maybe the prison is where I should stay..."
Jamie cried, crying very sadly.
The only faith in his heart, the only pride, was crushed by himself, as if in an instant, the only ray of light that had remained in the entire gray world was extinguished.
It may be the emotion that made him come in person to ensure that he could return the belongings to Aldridge instead of other clever ways. He was afraid, and accidents occurred halfway through, he dared not think about it.
With Aldrich's mentality, at this time he looks at Jamie, but in fact it is not much different from looking at Bert and Earl, both children.
It is just an unfortunate child who lacks proper guidance and a comfortable environment. There are many such children in the world. In the process of Aldrich’s perseverance in charity in the past few years, he has seen too many similar situations.
"You gave it back to me, proving that there is something in your heart that you can defend, Jamie, are you afraid?"
Aldridge asked softly.
Jamie nodded, crying noisily, he was indeed scared, afraid to face all this, the whole incident was like a nightmare shrouded in him.
When the only thing he cares about and is proud of is trampled on by himself, he is losing his own meaning in life.
Others talk about life ideals and great aspirations. That has nothing to do with him. A small person like him has no time to pursue, because he has no ability to pursue.
Aldridge opened the box again and took out a brand new medal with the words 2001-2002 English League Cup engraved on it, which was the championship medal that Millwall had just won at the beginning of the month.
He handed the medals to Jamie and said softly: "Maybe you don't believe me, I really thank you, if not you, maybe I will lose these medals forever. You are afraid, this is very good, very good, because Without fear, there is no courage. Only in the face of fear can I breed courage. I, and my team, have been afraid of too many opponents such as Arsenal, Liverpool, Manchester United, Barcelona, ​​Real Madrid, Juventus, etc. But when we were afraid of them, we chose to break out with courage to defeat them. This is the charm of football, which is one of the reasons why I love this sport. This medal, given to you, is my gratitude and hope , It can bring you courage, change yourself, dare to dream, dare to take action, when you are afraid, look at it, hold it, and then tell yourself to fear all difficulties, give yourself the most powerful belief and courage , To overcome difficulties, you are only 19 years old, you have 50 years, 60 years, 70 years or even longer, don’t say you should stay in prison."
The tearful Jamie looked down at the medal delivered by Aldridge. Under the bright moonlight, the medal reflected a faint light. In the dim eyes of tears, the bright light made Jamie feel a dazzling light.
He raised his hands, shaking and trying to receive the medal, but he backed away and choked back: "Mr. Hall, I don't deserve it."
"No match or no match, only fear and courage, remember? I just said, you are afraid now, all you need is courage, take courage, hold it."
Aldrich's hand was still not retracted.
Jamie hesitated for a moment, then clenched his teeth, trembling his hands, holding the medal in his palm like a treasure, and then gently holding it, closing his eyes and feeling attentively, at this moment, like an incredible thing happened, Jamie seemed really It can be noticed that the trembling mind becomes stable, an invisible force runs through his body, so that he has put away tears and his emotions have stabilized.
When he opened his eyes again, Jamie turned to look at Aldridge. This time, his eyes were finally free of panic and dodge.
He saw Aldridge smiling, and with tears on his face, he said: "Mr. Hall, thank you, it seems to be really magical."
Aldridge smiled and gave a medal to Jamie, maybe it was just an impulse, but it was Jamie’s tears that really touched him. If he did not love Millwall to the extreme, he would not have such a reaction. .
After staying here for many years, Aldridge feels the deepest feeling is the fan culture. The fans in England have really infiltrated the football gene into the bone marrow and derived many extreme emotions.
Hardcore fans like West Ham know that they will be banned for life and still have to carry a flag to disrupt the game, just to declare the dignity of the hammer gang. This is 100% in other parts of the world. No one will find it strange that extreme love and hatred will lead to extreme crazy behavior.
"Jamie, have a dream, take the courage to act, what if it really comes true?"
Aldridge smiled at him.
Jamie wiped her face and stared at Aldridge sincerely, showing a smile. He was ordinary, but the smile was pretty because he had two dimples.
"Mr. Hall, I want to be someone like you."
Aldridge was stunned and shook his head: "No, you will never be me, just like the media would say I will be Ferguson, Paisley, Shankly, or Chapman, no , I am me, you, and yourself, everyone is unique."
Jamie quickly said: "No, I mean, I want to be a football coach. Since I was 12 years old, I have been imagining that one day I will sweep all my opponents like you lead a mad lion."
Aldrich raised his eyebrows and smiled: "Then you should study, and dream about what you do, work hard for it."
Jamie looked down and said, "I have no money."
This is reality, which hinders the reality of human dreams.
Do you need money to learn to be a coach? Of course, there is no free lunch in the world. Furthermore, he lives independently. He has to eat, sleep, have clothes, and have all the necessities for life.
Aldridge is in a good mood right now, and with his energy, the cost of helping others can be ignored. Everything depends on his mood.
"Jamie, if you are really determined to do it, I can offer you a chance."