Chapter 267: Love you more than yourself

Xia Zi was completely stunned, her expression seemed to have been struck by lightning, Xia Xinsheng, the woman who looked graceful and luxurious, turned out to be the biological mother of her and her sister.
She suddenly thought of Xia Xinsheng's letting herself leave the switch Zixuan. Her heart was unexpectedly uncomfortable, and all kinds of feelings came to her heart, Xia Zi looked a little bit painful.
Guan Zixuan quickly sat in front of her, holding her shoulders with both hands, "Azi, are you okay!"
Xia Zi slowly shook her head, "Since I found my mother, shouldn't I be happy? Why did my sister faint?"
Guan Zixuan sighed helplessly. He knew that he couldn't keep Xia Zi from these things.
"Because your mother left City A, she never went back to find Suqing. She told Suqing that she was to say goodbye to the past completely. She didn't want to live in the shadow of the past anymore. Suqing couldn't stand it anymore, so she tried hard. The blood attacked the heart and fainted."
Xia Zi's expression was very ugly, and she didn't expect Xia Xinsheng to abandon her own daughter for this reason.
Seeing her sad look, Guan Zixuan didn't feel uncomfortable. He slowly stretched out his hand and held Xia Zi in his arms.
"Actually, I have been with my mother these years. I know that she is not bad at heart, she is a very kind person. As for why she did that back then, it must be anxious and too painful. You have to understand her. When I knew that my husband had derailed for more than ten years, Xiao San came to the door, designed to make her have a car accident, and wanted to kill her in the hospital. She really had nothing to love at the time. If it weren't for my father, I guess you and Suqing I really won’t see her again in my life, so I still hope you don’t blame her."
Xia Zi remained silent, lowered her head, and said nothing.
However, Guan Zixuan could still feel her mood swings, and he touched her hair distressedly.
"Azi, don't be sad, you have to remember that no matter what time you have me, in this life, I will never abandon you, I Guan Zixuan, I will swear in your face today, if I dare to abandon you, then Let me die! Never again in this life..."
Xia Zi glared at him directly, "Guan Zixuan, are you okay? Why are you cursing yourself when you are okay?"
Guan Zixuan laughed dryly and coaxed her softly, "I'm not trying to show you loyalty, I love you more than anyone, including myself."
Xia Zi put his head against his chest, feeling bored for a while, not knowing what he thought of, and suddenly spoke.
"When I just remembered the past, I thought you liked my sister and always regarded me as a substitute for my sister. That's why I wanted to marry me so resolutely. Although I was dependent on you at that time, I was used to you, or maybe , I fell in love with you, but I have my own pride and self-esteem. I will not be with someone who doesn’t like me. I, Xia Zi, will never be a substitute for anyone in this life. For love , I can’t bow down, because I know in my heart that love like that is not called love at all!"
Guan Zixuan nodded slowly, "You are right, but..."
He stretched out his hand and nodded Xia Zi’s nose, "Little fool, although you are right, but you don’t want to think about it. The person who has been with me for five years is always you, your essence and heart, forever It’s not the same as Suqing. So, how can I be so stupid that I don’t know who I am in love with? The person I love the most will always be you. You don’t know that you left so free and easy. The imperial capital, how sad I am, I always thought that you remembered the past, in your heart, I am nothing at all, so I left so completely, without worry!"
Xia Zi looked at him helplessly, a little unbelievable, "You actually have such thoughts?"
In her cognition, Guan Zixuan was also a very proud person, and the thoughts in her heart suddenly made her feel sorry for him.
She subconsciously hugged him, "Since you love me so much, why did you go to City A and only come to see your sister?"
Guan Zixuan looked down at her gently, then slowly said, "Silly girl, jealous?"
Xia Zi gave him an angry look, "I won't be jealous!"
Guan Zixuan smiled and calmed her temper, how could she become more and more like a child.
"Well, my Zi won't be angry!"
He went on to say, "I went to find Suqing, not because you just remembered everything and you wanted to completely cut off relations with me. I was scared by you. Since I know Suqing, she belongs to you again. My sister, I want her to help me chase you, it shouldn't be an exaggeration!"
Xia Zi stared at him with wide eyes, "Are you trying to get my sister to help you and chase me?"
"Otherwise!" Guan Zixuan looked at her dozingly, "I care so much about you, how could I easily give up on you, but my plan to chase my wife hasn't started yet, something happened to the imperial capital. When I came back, I was completely fettered by things here!"
Xia Zi nodded thoughtfully. It turned out to be like this together. Both she and Guan Zixuan were too proud. Even after this meeting, they didn't take the initiative to inform each other of this. This time, if it wasn't for her accident, I guess these words still have to be held in my heart.
She looked at Guan Zixuan deeply, "Zixuan, in the future, if there is anything between us, we must take the initiative to inform each other, okay?"
Guan Zixuan looked at her seriously, and solemnly nodded like an oath, "Okay!"
After this incident, in fact, he also understood a lot. If two people love each other but keep concealing each other, even if it is a good thing, it may eventually become a weapon to hurt each other.
Mutual trust is really important. In this life and in the future, he must believe in the woman next to him.
When Guan Zixuan and Xia Zi were rubbing their ears together, Guan Mingchang was already near the hospital, making a big circle, but even after searching for so long, he still couldn't find Xia Xinsheng.
The look on Guan Mingchang's face became more and more anxious. He and Xia Xinsheng were young lovers and an elderly couple. Both had experienced a failed marriage. Therefore, both of them cherished the relationship between them even more.
However, he didn't expect such a thing to happen now. He didn't know where Xia Xinsheng who blamed himself would go at this moment.
He walked non-stop along the road for about forty minutes, and suddenly, his footsteps stopped.
He seemed to see a figure standing on the sky bridge not far away, looking vaguely, really very much like Xia Xinsheng.
Guan Mingchang didn't think much, and walked directly to the flyover.
After Guan Mingchang got on the overpass and approached, he confirmed that the person standing on the overpass was Xia Xinsheng.
Seeing her absent-minded expression, the whole body was filled with loss, self-blame and regret, and Guan Mingchang's heart was instantly distressed.
He has always known that Xia Xinsheng’s marriage brought her too much damage. Over the years, he has been trying his best to make up for the shortcomings and wounds in her heart, but he did not expect it because he met Mo Suqing. On the one hand, she immediately became like this.
It can be seen how deeply she has accumulated these regrets in her heart over the years.
The more he thought about it, the more Guan Mingchang felt sorry for him, and the more he felt sorry for this woman.
They failed to get together at the beginning, not only because of family reasons, of course, but also part of their own reasons. After he experienced that failed marriage, he often wondered if he had been firmer at the beginning, would she not suffer so much? s damage.
Xia Zi was unconscious now, and Mo Suqing would not forgive her. She must be very uncomfortable in her heart.
Guan Mingchang approached slowly, directly behind her, hugging her tightly.
Xia Xinsheng felt that someone was hugging herself, and she hurriedly pushed, but after she carefully distinguished it, she realized that it was Guan Mingchang who was hugging herself, not someone else.
Guan Mingchang’s chin touched her head and slowly said, "Newborn, if you have any sadness or grievances, you can tell me that I am your husband. I have obligations and responsibilities for these things, and I will take them with you. You don’t have to bear the stubborn forehead alone, okay? I will feel bad!"
Xia Xinsheng originally felt self-blame and sad, but when she heard Guan Mingchang say this, she suddenly felt a bit wronged in her heart. Her tears seemed to be out of control, like a broken string. Keep falling down.
The feeling is like, after we have been wronged, if we are alone, we can still endure not crying, but if someone comes to comfort us, we instantly feel that the grievances are magnified.
Xia Xinsheng turned around, hugged Guan Mingchang, and leaned on his chest, crying so sad.
Guan Mingchang patted her back heartily, hugged her slowly, and let her vent her grievances.
"Stop crying...Good...I think the children will definitely understand your original difficulties in the future, don't be sad anymore..."
Listening to Guan Mingchang's comforting words, Xia Xinsheng cried more unscrupulously, Guan Mingchang's chest was all wet.
Guan Mingchang shook his head helplessly, and let her cry presumptuously.
Xia Xinsheng cried for a long time and finally got tired. She slowly raised her head and looked at Guan Mingchang, "Mingchang, I think I was really wrong back then. I'm sorry... I'm sorry kid, I never thought about leaving by myself. After that, how did Suqing go? I was really too selfish. If it weren't for me, my child would not endure all the pain, blame me, blame me!"
Xia Xinsheng talked and cried again.
"I really didn't know that Azi was my child. I always regarded Zixuan as my own child. If I knew that she was my poor daughter, I wouldn't talk to her like that. I'm so regretful. I knew it earlier. I shouldn't stop her from talking to Zixuan. She is still in a coma and doesn't want to. If something happens to her, what should I do, Mingchang, I think I killed the child. I feel so uncomfortable in my heart. I didn't expect that for Zixuan's sake, my poor child turned out to be hurt in the end..."