: Prequel between love and hate

Recently, she felt a little lethargic. Nana said: "It's probably because I was pregnant with the little prince, and I was even more thirsty, so my mother doesn't need to worry."
Nana is the maid who takes care of her, and the only fairy who is willing to smile at her in the entire Xiwu Palace on the Nine Heavens and call her "mother". Most of the other fairies looked down on her. Because Ye Hua didn't give her any title. It's also because she has no fairy status, just a mortal.
Nana opened the window, and there was wind blowing, and there was a sound of footsteps outside the window. Nana’s voice was pleasantly surprised: "Manny, your Royal Highness is here to see you."
She is like a puppet, slowly sitting up from the quilt, leaning against the bed rail, not knowing how long she slept, her mind is not very clear, although she just woke up, she is still sleepy and sleepy.
The quilt sank a little, and the black-haired prince Yehua sat on the edge of the bed.
She moved back holding the quilt, and there was a moment of silence. She thought he was about to be angry. I don't know when she would have such fear when she saw him, but fear seems to have become an instinct. Don't let him think that she's still having a temper, and she can't offend him too much, she thought vaguely, holding back the tremor and whispering: "Are the stars still bright tonight?" The voice was trembling.
He paused for a while before answering: "Susu, it's daytime."
She habitually wanted to rub her eyes, but when she touched the white silk that bound her eyes, she suddenly remembered that her eyes were gone, no matter how she rubbed them, it was still pitch black and she couldn't see anything. Above this vast heavenly palace, she was a mortal out of place, or blind.
Ye Hua was silent for a while, but slowly touched her face with her hand: "I will marry you, and I will be your eyes."
Susu, I will be your eyes.
The hand was placed on her face, slightly cold, and the movement was even soft, but it instantly plunged into her heart like a knife. The nightmare of that night struck fiercely again, she was shaking with fear, and pushed him away. For this push, he made an effort to explain: "I...I didn't push you on purpose, don't be angry with me..."
Ye Hua came and took her hand: "Susu, what's wrong with you?"
The pain in the bottom of my heart was like a thick ink falling on Bai Xuan's wanton infiltration, she lied with trembling teeth: "Suddenly... suddenly a little sleepy. Go ahead, I want to sleep for a while, don't worry about me."
There was another silence.
She really didn't want him to control her anymore.
People who were once extremely attached to the arms of extremely attached have now become unbearable. Sometimes she would be very curious, since he liked that woman so much, why did he agree to her absurd request in the first place. At the beginning, regret not at the beginning.
After a long time, there were footsteps. Ye Hua left. Nana closed the door lightly.
She hugged the quilt and sat down for a while, until she stopped shaking, then lay down heavily on the bed. For a while, my mind was chaotic, and for a while it was Junji Mountain in the Eastern Desolation, Yehua's face, and dagger, and her eyes that had been plucked out.
She thought vaguely, when she gave birth to this child in her abdomen, she must go back to Junji Mountain, where she was her own place, and wherever she started, it should end. And, it must be fast.
She put her hand on the white silk that bound her eyes, muttering pain, choked in her voice, but did not cry.
After sleeping for a while, Nana tiptoedly pushed the door in, calling her softly, "Manny, Manny, are you awake?"
She pressed her throat and coughed: "What's the matter?"
Nai Naidun stayed at the footsteps: "Tianfei Sujin sent a handmaid to send a post, inviting you to have tea together."
She lifted up the quilt to cover her face boredly: "Just say I have stopped."
Su Jin has been showing her favors frequently recently. When she was in good spirits, she also guessed that maybe it was because she got her eyes and made her blind. Tian Fei Su Jin felt somewhat guilty. Then she laughed at her innocence again. How could Su Jin feel guilty? It was obvious that she let Ye Hua gouge her eyes out.
Of these people, she didn't want to see any of them again, and didn't want to talk to them anymore. She is no longer the little girl who arrived three years ago, embarrassed but ridiculously trying to please everyone.
As the day approached Xishan, Nana awakened her, saying that the sunset glow was shining obliquely into the courtyard. The scenery was beautiful and there was a slow breeze. It was suitable to sit in the courtyard and relax. She slept for a day, lying very lazily, and felt that she should walk around.
Nana moved a rocking chair to support her. She raised her hand to stop her from serving, and tried to move the table and the wall step by step by herself. It’s a bit difficult to walk, and sometimes stumbles, but I feel a glimmer of light in my heart. I must adapt earlier. These are all necessary. Only in this way can I live well alone when I return to Junji Mountain.
She lay in the rocking chair and blew for a while, and she was a little drowsy.
In a daze, she seemed to have a dream. In the dream, she went back to the time when she first met Ye Hua on Junji Mountain three years ago.
The handsome young man with black hair in Xuanyi, holding a cold sword, fell in blood in front of her thatched hut. She stayed for a while, hurriedly dragging him into the house, applying medicine to stop the bleeding, staring dumbfounded as his wound healed on its own. But two days later, the severely injured body that was dying had recovered as before. The young man woke up and looked at her silently for a long time, speaking with a very calm and good voice. The young man thanked her for her life-saving grace and insisted on repaying it. She realized that she could only do a good deed every day, and gave the young man two herbal medicines. It was not a great grace, but she could not get around his attachment. She asked for Jinshan Yinshan, but the young man only looked at her with a faint look: "The girl would not help but put her life in her eyes." Since ancient times, no savior has taken her so helplessly, and she was so annoyed. , Spread both hands: "Then you might as well promise each other with your body." The young man was stunned.
But after this ridiculous remark, the two of them actually became relatives and had a child in their womb.
Since she can remember, she has lived alone in the Junji Mountain. She only knows that there are spring, summer, autumn and winter at four o'clock, and there are birds, beasts, insects and fish in the mountains. She has no relatives, so she has no name. The young man called her Susu, saying that from now on, this was her name, and she was secretly happy for several days.
Later, when the youth took her to the nine heavens, she knew that the youth was originally the grandson of Tianjun. At that time, he had not yet been established as a prince.
However, in these nine heavens, no one admitted that he was her husband. He also never mentioned to Tianjun that he married a mortal as his wife in Donghuang.
That night, she went to the youth’s bedroom to deliver soup. There was no one around the bedroom, and the voice of Su Jin Tianfei came out sadly: "You marry a mortal, but you are revenge for betraying you and marrying Tianjun. No? But what can I do, what can I do, a woman from all over the world, who can resist Tianjun's grace? Oh, tell me, Ye Hua, you still love me, right? You call her Susu, it's just because, it's just because there is a plain word embedded in my name, right?"
The dream, which was exactly the same as reality, came to an abrupt end, and she was shocked in a cold sweat. Frozen for a long time, she raised her hand to stroke her bulging belly. I have been pregnant for three years, and I will give birth soon.
After nightfall, Nana didn't come to serve her for a long time to rest. She couldn't wash herself alone, so she had to urge her. Nana came over to help her tuck the tapestry on her lap, and replied: "Manny, wait a minute, maybe I don't know if your Highness will come over tonight."
She laughed blankly. After that happened, Ye Hua never came to rest. She knows that it won't be anymore. Nothing, even if he comes over, he is just relatively speechless, perhaps even annoying him.
She is a very weak person here. She didn't know this before, and always thought she had his shelter, but that incident gave her a head blow. If she is the only person to rely on, she has become the one who harmed you... I couldn't help but began to tremble again, and quickly grasped it.
In fact, at that time, on the Junji Mountain in the Eastern Desolation, if Yehua told her that he already had a lover in her heart, she thought that she would never marry him in such an absurd manner.
At that time, she didn't fall in love with him, she just lived in Bilin and deep mountains all year round, feeling very lonely alone.
But he didn't say anything, he married himself, treated each other with courtesy, and brought himself to the Nine Heavens.
This nine-fold heavenly realm, no longer the pure and innocent of Junji Mountain, but the two of them, and there are always gossips that hit her ears about him and Sujin Tianfei. She is naturally good at whitewashing peace, so although she has heard of all the entanglements between him and Tianfei Sujin, she can be regarded as having never heard of it.
She thought, anyway, he was the last to marry herself, and they swore to the East Desolate Daze to worship heaven and earth. She has his child. She loves him so much. One day he will be touched by herself. .
And he did gradually become gentle with himself.
She even felt fortunately that even if he didn't love herself, would he like herself a little bit?
To love this kind of thing, sometimes, makes people very humble.
But that happened. So she woke up from a dream, and the price was losing her eyes and losing the light.
That day, the sky was clear and the wind was clear, and the Princess Sujin invited her to enjoy the flowers in Yaochi. She thought it was a small banquet for the female relatives, and stupidly accepted the post. When I arrived at Yaochi, I realized that there were only two of them.
After retreating Gong E, Princess Su Jin took her all the way to Zhuxiantai.
The clouds and mist on Zhuxiantai, Sujin stood on Zhuxiantai and smiled at her coolly: "Do you know? Tianjun will make Ye Hua a prince and give me to Ye Hua as his wife."
She never understood the rules and tricks of these gods, she only felt a surge of blood between her chest and abdomen, and she didn't know whether it was anger or confusion.
The concubine Tianfei in a beautiful dress still smiled reservedly: "I agree with Ye Hua. This nine-fold heaven is not a place where mortals should be treated. If you give birth to a child, you will jump off this Zhuxian platform and return to what you deserve. Place it."
She didn't know if she could really return to Junji Mountain by jumping off Zhuxiantai, and she never thought of leaving at that time. She asked in a daze, "Did Ye Hua let me go back? I am his wife, and I should follow him."
Thinking about it now, those remarks are really selfish.
But at that time she had always been lucky to think that Ye Hua liked herself at least a little bit, as long as he liked herself a little bit, then she must stay by his side.
Su Jin sighed a little bit amused, and suddenly grabbed her hand and led her to the edge of Zhuxiantai.
She thought that Su Jin would push herself off Zhuxiantai, and quickly grabbed the wooden mast on the edge of the platform. But it was Su Jin who turned down the platform. She hadn't reacted yet, and a black shadow passed by her side, and then jumped down.
Ye Hua stood in front of her holding Su Jin and looked at her coldly. In those black eyes, monstrous anger was brewing.
Su Jin spoke weakly in his arms: "Don't blame Su Su, she didn't push me on purpose, she just listened to the news that Tianjun wants me to give you, she was a little impulsive."
She opened her eyes wide, unbelievable, she clearly did nothing. "It's not me, it's not me, I didn't push her, Ye Hua, you believe me, you believe me..." She tried to explain to the youth in front of her over and over again, panic and disorderly, like a joker.
He waved his hand and whispered: "Enough. I only believe what I see."
He didn't want to hear her explain, he didn't believe her. He hugged Sujin, his eyebrows were anxious, and his eyes seemed to be quenched with ice, and he hurried down Zhuxiantai, leaving her aside.
She didn't know how she got back to the courtyard, but the scorching anger in his eyes was in her mind over and over again.
At nightfall that night, Ye Hua hurried to her yard and stood in front of her with a gloomy expression: "Su Jin’s eyes were burned by the air of the sword soldiers under Zhuxiantai, Su Su, Karma reincarnation, owed someone else’s debt. It must be paid back." After a pause, he said: "Don't be afraid. I will marry you. From now on, I will be your eyes."
Before this, he had never mentioned that he wanted to marry himself in these nine heavens. She felt cold for a while, and anger and fear surged up. She didn't expect that she would be so gloomy one day. She grabbed his hand almost hysterically: "Why do you want my eyes? She jumped down by herself, she jumped down by herself, and has nothing to do with me, you Why don't you believe me?"
His eyes were painful, and then he sneered: "Under the Zhuxiantai, the hostility is lingering, she jumps down by herself? Don't want to live? Susu, you really become more and more unreasonable."
She looked at him with a chill seeping in her eyes, and she was at a loss for a while. In these nine heavens, he is his only one. Since she was pregnant with the child in her womb, she has been thinking about it, thinking that after the child is born, one day she must hold the child's hand with him, and watch the sea of ​​clouds surging for ten miles, and the golden glow of the sky is flowing. He didn't know how important the light was to him.
She had her eyes gouged out. Nana took care of her for three days. After three days, Su Jin stood in front of her and said with a smile: "I use your eyes very well."
She had a great realization.
Have you ever loved someone.
Have you ever hated someone.
In fact, it was the love and hatred between the two of them. She was just a passerby, and she was vaguely involved, which was a disaster.
In the past two days, she has no longer turned upside down day and night. She has learned to catch clues by ears and should distinguish between morning and dusk.
After lunch, Nana stumbled into the yard, out of breath: "Niang Niang, Niang Niang, Tianjun has just issued a decree, to give Sujin Tianfei to His Royal Highness."
She smiled, Ye Hua has been crowned prince for some time, and this is also a matter of time. But Su Jin still couldn't be Ye Hua's wife after all. She recently heard that Tianjun had an agreement with Emperor Baizhi of the Qingqiu Kingdom that he would marry his daughter Bai Qian when he succeeded Tianjun. Ye Hua never told her about these things, but there were some things she wanted to know. She was not as clumsy as they thought, so there was no way.
In fact, she shouldn't provoke these gods from the beginning.
The stomach suddenly began to ache sharply.
Nana yelled, "Manny, what's wrong with you?"
She covered her belly and said with all her strength, "Probably, it's about to give birth."
During childbirth, she fainted and woke up in pain. It is said that when Su Jin changed her eyes, Ye Hua guarded her all day and night. But at this time she gave birth to his child, and only Nana was by her side. The most vulnerable in severe pain, she restrained herself from calling Ye Hua by name. It's miserable enough, so it can't be more miserable.
Nana cried and said: "Manny, you let go of my hand, I will go to His Royal Highness, I will go to His Royal Highness."
She was so painful that she couldn't speak, so she had to make mouth gestures over and over again as Nana: "Nana, you stay with me for a while, just for a while."
Nana cried harder.
It's a boy.
She didn’t know when Ye Hua came over, and when she woke up she felt him holding her hand, a pair of
The hand was still cold, causing her to tremble, and she resisted not pulling her hand out.
He took the child over and said, "You can touch his face, he looks very much like you."
She did not move. It was her child who was pregnant for three years, and accompanied her countless days and nights. Of course she liked this child, but she couldn't take him to live in Junji Mountain. If you have made up your mind to abandon him, don't touch him, don't hug him, don't let yourself have deeper feelings for him.
Ye Hua sat beside her for a long time, and the child cried and made noises, but he never spoke.
After Ye Hua left, she called Nana to her and told Nana that she had given the child a nickname, Ali, and she would take care of him in the future. Nana replied ignorantly.
Ye Hua came to see her every day. He was not a talkative person. She used to talk a lot, but recently she has no interest in saying anything. Most of the time, the two are just silent. Fortunately, even if she did not speak, Ye Hua was not angry, and she was about to understand that she was still in confinement. Occasionally in silence, remembering that the last thing she saw before losing her eyes was Ye Hua's eyes full of chills. At this time, she still couldn't help shaking.
Yehua didn't tell her about his marriage with Sujin, nor did Nana.
Three months later, she is in good health. Ye Hua brought a lot of clothes and asked her which one she liked and made it for her
Wedding dress.
He said: "Susu, I said earlier that I want to marry you."
She felt inexplicable, since she was going to marry herself, why did she have to gouge her eyes again.
Later she figured it out. Ye Hua just felt sorry for herself. He felt that she was a mortal and had no eyes. Although she was self-conscious, but at the same time hateful, she was also very pitiful. He can have many side rooms, and it is nothing to give her such a painless reputation.
She thinks she must go, there is no longer any reason to stay in these nine heavens.
Nana accompanied her on a walk, and the two repeated the route from Xiwu Palace to Zhu Sendai again and again. Nana was surprised. She told this loyal little Gong'e that she just liked to smell the scent of lotus flowers on the road.
Half a month later, she was able to travel between Xiwu Palace and Zhuxiantai without any hindrance.
It is easy to fool Nana.
She stood on Zhuxiantai and suddenly felt her heart as light as the wind. Ali Yu Nana took care of her, she was relieved. Standing on this misty high platform, she suddenly wanted to tell Ye Hua again that she had never pushed Su Jin, it was not that she owed Su Jin, but they owed her a pair of eyes and half of her life.
On Junji Mountain, Yehua once gave her a beautiful bronze mirror. At that time, he was going to do an important thing far away. She was alone, so he took out such a baby from his sleeve and told her that no matter where he is, as long as she calls his name in the mirror, he will I can hear that if he is not busy, he will speak with her.
In fact, she didn't know why she came to the Nine Layers of Heaven, but she still took the mirror with her, probably because it was the only thing Ye Hua gave her.
She took out the mirror. It's been a long time since he was called by his name. She said: "Yehua."
After a long pause, he heard his voice: "Susu?"
She was silent for a moment, and said again: "I'm going back to Junji Mountain, so I don't have to look for me everywhere. I will live well alone. Help me take care of Ali. I used to dream of holding his hand with him one day. He watched the stars, the moon, the sea of ​​clouds, and the sun while telling him our story on Junji Mountain. Now I’m afraid it’s impossible.
After thinking about it, he added:
Don’t tell him his mother is just a mortal. Immortals don't really value mortals."
It was a very common farewell message, but suddenly she wanted to cry. She quickly raised her head to look at the sky, but then remembered that she had no eyes long ago, where did the tears come from?
Ye Hua's voice was somewhat suppressed: "Where are you?"
"Zhuxiantai," she said quietly, "Tianfei Sujin told me that by jumping off Zhuxiantai, I can return to Junji Mountain. I am used to not seeing things now. Junji Mountain is my hometown. I’m familiar with the surroundings, and it’s not inconvenient for me to live alone. You don’t have to worry.
After a pause, he said:
Actually, I shouldn’t save you back then. If time can come back, I won’t save you. Yehua."
I heard him interrupt her hurriedly: "Susu, you stand there and don't move, I'll come over immediately."
After all, she still didn't argue with him again, at that time Su Jin was not pushed down by her. After all, I will never see you again in this life. Some things are no longer so important, right?
She whispered: "Yehua, I let you go, and you let me go. From now on, let's not owe each other."
The bronze mirror fell from her hand and clanged, concealing Ye Hua's violent roar: "You stand there for me, don't jump..."
She turned over and jumped off Zhuxiantai. There was a long sigh in the wind hunting, Ye Hua, I don't have any more demands from you, that's great.
At that time, she didn't know that Zhuxiantai Zhuxian was just the practice of Zhuxian. But the mortal jumped off Zhuxiantai, but was wiped out.
At that time, she did not know that she was not actually a mortal.
The hostility under the platform of Zhuxian wounded her completely, but it was precisely because of the hostility that could defeat thousands of peerless gods that it broke the seal between her forehead. She never expected that the cinnabar mole in the forehead was actually a seal planted by him two hundred years ago when Guijun Qingcang broke the Eastern Emperor's Bell, to lock him back and fight him. It grabbed her facial memory and immortal spirit all over her body, turning her into a mortal.
The past came one after another. Her mind was clear in the chaos. She endured the pain of tens of thousands of hostility and burned the immortal body. She secretly told herself: "Bai Qian, you were born with an immortal fetus, and you are a goddess without practicing. How could there be such a cheap thing in Huang, how can you soar to God without going through this tribulation. This kind of love, hatred and grievance that lasts for decades is nothing but a tribulation."
She fainted in the ten-mile peach blossom forest of Zheyan Shangshen in the East of the East China Sea. After Zheyan rescued her, she sighed: "Your father and mother and a few brothers went crazy looking for you, I am also anxious. I haven't slept peacefully for more than two hundred years. What is the matter with your eyes and the scars all over your body?"
The killing aura on Zhuxiantai was so great that she ruined some of her memories. Her mind was slightly blurred, but the wounded ones were still printed very deeply. What's the matter? It was a disaster.
She smiled and folded her face and said, "I remember you have a medicine here. After taking it, you can forget everything you want to forget?"
Zheyan raised her eyebrows: "It seems that you have been very sad these years."
The injury is the truth, fortunately only a few years.
The hot and steaming decoction in front of me was extremely gluttonous.
She drank it, and there was no Susu on Junji Mountain in this world. It was just a dream of Bai Qianshang, the youngest daughter of Emperor Baizhi, the kingdom of Qingqiu, with endless suffering and slightly peachy colors.
After waking up from the dream, forget what is in the dream.