Chapter 51: Break up?

The recent Wang Jiexiang is not right.
She will stare at a place, her eyes will be empty, and suddenly she will start to lose her mind, Guang Yinxian has seen it several times.
For the first time, Wang Jiexiang was cooking porridge. Yin Xian smelled the burning smell and found that she was sitting on a chair with her head in a daze.
The second time, he took her off work, and she was gone after the turn. Yin Xian returned to look for her. She lowered her head and watched the tiles on the floor go forward without realizing that she was taking the wrong path.
Two times before, he thought she was unwell, Wang Jiexiang always answered him: No.
For the third time, Yin Xian woke up in the middle of the night with no one nearby.
Turning on the light, he saw Wang Jiexiang sitting in the corner of the bed with his knees hugged.
"Why don't you sleep?"
The lights and his voice drag Wang Jiexiang back from trance to reality. She looked at him, her loose expression suddenly tense.
"Where are you going?" she asked like an enemy.
"I didn't go," Yin Xian wondered why she showed such an expression: "Did you have a nightmare?"
Wang Jiexiang shook his head.
She lay down again.
When Yin Xian fell asleep, she said abruptly.
"Brother Hyun, do you like me?"
He turned around and stroked her back several times like a child.
"Do you like it?" Wang Jiexiang's voice didn't sound sleepy.
Yin Xian sighed.
...
What he didn't expect was that Wang Jiexiang went to work with this state.
Yin was surprised when she heard the door opening. It shouldn't have been the day when she left work early. She went home early.
Wearing the work hat of the seafood factory that he forgot to take off, Wang Jiexiang's expression was depressed.
He asked her what was wrong.
Holding the backpack strap with his hand, Wang Jiexiang stammered.
"To classify seafood today, I confuse the good seafood with the eliminated two piles, and gave it to the customer without inspection, and was complained by the customer. The boss said I was absent-minded and asked me to go home and rest."
Yin Xian did not comfort her.
"You are really absent-minded."
His eyes were cold and he looked unkind.
"Walking thinking about things, not sleeping at night. In this state, can you go to work and do a good job?"
Wang Jiexiang's mouth was flat and gradually squeezed into a straight line.
After a long silence, she spoke again.
"Brother Xian, do you hate me..."
"I asked you before, if you like me, you didn't answer."
Yin Xian frowned: "Now I'm talking to you about your work."
"Well," she said dullly with her eyes down: "You are talking to me about work, I know. But I have been unable to figure it out lately. When I was earlier, I wanted to talk to you about feelings, but you didn't want to talk to me. talk."
"Wang Jiexiang."
He rarely called her by name and last name, and her shoulder shook.
"You don't need to eat or live, you can live by love, right?"
"If you are dismissed, where do you go to find a job? You know how difficult it is to find a job. You have said that you have a junior high school diploma, a rural registered permanent residence, a young girl, and a girl. You can't get in to a better unit. Find seafood. I have been looking for a job in the factory for a long time. You are very grateful to the boss for hiring you. People believe you and give you a job, but you slack off instead?"
Wang Jiexiang's eyes were sore, and he said that her pain point had caused all the inferiority hidden in her heart to escape.
She has been thinking about it for a while, why she has been asking repeatedly, and Yin Xian still doesn't share his thoughts with her. Now what he said made her find the answer herself.
"Yes, I am a junior high school diploma, young and rural. So you feel that I am stupid, so you don't want to say many things... I don't think I can understand it."
Yin Xian's temples throbbed and hurt.
"How did you get there, are we talking about the same thing? What am I reluctant to say?"
She complained with red eyes.
"Simple, ‘do you love me, do you like me or not,’ you never answered directly. You’d better worry about your previous things, the things you’ve hidden in your heart, and not tell me to share them."
Wang Jiexiang suffocated the tears that were about to come out of his eyes and tried to keep his voice calm.
"If you are not unwilling to answer, I misunderstood you. Then, Brother Xian, why do you think we are together? I want to ask this right now."
He raised his eyes and stared at her, speaking smoothly and clearly.
"Because it makes each other's lives easier."
"Being with me makes your life inconvenient, so don't be together."
Wang Jiexiang took a deep breath. The oxygen in the room is thin, but she inhales so hard, on the contrary, the pain of hypoxia burns all the way to the lungs.
She was broken by his words.
"Convenient? Where is it convenient? It is convenient for someone to help with cleaning and housework? It is convenient for someone to cook and eat together? Or is it because someone lives together and the rent is cheaper?
When she said that, she didn't see him to interrupt.
Wang Jiexiang's expression darkened a little bit.
The tears in her eyes died at some unknown time, and her throat became dumb.
"Ah, I forgot, it was me, I said that at the beginning, we made an appointment at the beginning, I will make it convenient for you. I also want to thank you for your kind acceptance."
He didn't speak, let her keep talking, let her emotions grow out of control.
"I thought there would be something else these days together. Like, caring, and so on... I didn't."
The more intense Wang Jiexiang's emotions were, the more visibly resisted.
He stood on the side with his hands in his arms, still frowning slightly, without any intention of communicating with her.
When her words were over, the room fell silent.
The two of them were facing each other and fell into a situation where there was nothing to say.
Wang Jiexiang felt ridiculous, Yin Xian's appearance outside the incident, as if humans were watching a crazy dog.
She didn't think she was wrong either.
Work is important, and she can be responsible for her work.
Their feelings are more important to her than important tasks.
Is she making trouble unreasonably? She denies.
Staying in this house again, and then dry and consumed like wood, Wang Jiexiang worried that he would suffocate and die.
She wants answers.
It seemed like wondering why he hated the hospital, like wondering if he loved himself or not, like wondering what he was thinking about when he wandered alone late at night.
Regarding the relationship between the two, she wanted an exact, specific answer.
Therefore, even if their feelings were frozen to the freezing point and precarious edge, Wang Jiexiang did not give room and room for relaxation. She stepped forward and continued to push it.
"You just said'Don't be together', you meant to break up, right?
Yin Xian looked at her quietly.
Wang Jiexiang waited for five minutes.
She waited for him to speak, and waited for a full five minutes.
She couldn't stand it anymore and rushed to the door of the rental house. She didn't wear any shoes, she rushed out.
In the late autumn season, Wang Jiexiang ran into the street barefoot.
She has no destination, wandering around, breathing heavily. Tears were holding back well at home, and now they ran down and wet her entire face.
I thought he would at least call her...
Wang Jiexiang was not reconciled and looked back at the direction of his home.
It was getting dark, and she immediately couldn't see the way.
The crowded black gradually squeezed into the field of vision, and the direction of the house was quiet, without any moving figures.
Wang Jiexiang really felt stupid, especially stupid.
He really doesn't love her.
She turned around and walked towards the main road with tears in her eyes.
Do you see him clearly? Do you still love him?
She asked herself.
There is no doubt that it is love.
But this love was put into the present state of mind, and she began to hate him again.
Yin Xian doesn't care about her love, doesn't care about losing her love.
Since her mother was gone, Wang Jiexiang felt homeless several times. She left her brother, grandmother and father, and ran from the countryside to the city. Yin Xian is not only her lover, he gave her home.
How much she loves him, cares about him, and depends on him, the more she hates him.
She remembered the first time they had a big conflict. He packed his bags and left, and he could walk so simply, which meant that he had no nostalgia for their home.
Wang Jiexiang was so angry.
She counted all the bad things in her mind.
Yin and Yang are weird, he can't speak well, and he is good at cold violence.
With strong self-esteem, I have never seen him subdued.
No manners, no emotions, all year round...
The city lights up.
The crowds off work were bustling, and a young and beautiful girl without shoes was walking down the street, very conspicuous.
People who noticed her felt that she was not normal, and she was still in tears, making passers-by avoid her intentionally.
Wang Jiexiang didn't even know how far she had gone, her stomach was groaning with hunger.
Yin Xian's shortcomings were so numerous that she counted them all the way. Wang Jiexiang couldn't remember how many times she looked back, if Yin Xian chased her, all the shortcomings could be wiped out.
He didn't.
So she kept walking and continued counting.
The shops on the street were the best time for business. Wang Jiexiang smelled a scent and was attracted to him unconsciously.
That shop sells roast duck with beer.
The duck spinning in the window was roasted golden and full of fat.
Sitting on the steps in front of the store, Wang Jiexiang wanted roast duck very much.
She has no money.
There is no sign behind her.
Smelling the aroma of roast duck, she couldn't help but wonder how happy she would be if she could eat roast duck...
Buy half a roast duck home, cut it and serve it with Yin Xian, with full white rice.
While fantasizing, Wang Jiexiang scolded herself for being useless.
Counting his badness couldn't make her sober, and Wang Jiexiang began to count his goodness.
What good did he do for her? She deliberately speculated on the malicious side.
Squeezing carrot juice... The company doesn't want the machine, and she doesn't like to drink carrots.
Take her to the doctor...At that time, he scolded her as a pig brain, and shouted at her that he would not leave.
Waiting for her to take a bath and pick her up from get off work... Yin Xian said that he was afraid she would cause him trouble again.
The crab that she brought back to cook seafood porridge... He disliked the crab, the porridge was cooked casually.
She took her to his house, helped her get her salary, and handed her papers to her who was crying.
These few, Wang Jiexiang couldn't think of malicious.
In fact, she has to admit that she has received a lot of great help.
In fact, she still remembers how happy she was when she was allowed to move to his bed.
In fact, she didn't want to break up.
Just because she gave a lot and loved a lot, I hope he cares about her and gives back his love.
Why is he?
He doesn't love her, what's wrong?
Wang Jiexiang's tears were like broken pearls, and she cried until she didn't realize she was crying.
Someone patted her on the shoulder from behind, and Wang Jiexiang turned around in surprise.
It is a beer duck shop with an apron.
She put her hands together and said to her embarrassedly.
"Girl, go and sit somewhere else. I can't do business like you."
Wang Jiexiang stood up quickly, bowed and apologized to her, and then hurriedly started to leave.
"Hey, girl." The shopkeeper stopped her.
It is estimated that seeing her alone, crying so much that she didn't wear shoes, she drove her away.
"Do you want to eat beer duck?" the shopkeeper asked.
...
Wang Jiexiang got a duck leg in a lunch box.
She did not eat it.
She is looking for a way home, she wants to go home.