Chapter 61: 【61】

Ji Rang looked pale at the little girl crying in her arms.
It turned out that she was not unrelated.
She didn't look so optimistic.
It turned out that she was just as proud as herself.
He had been extremely worried that when she learned the truth and when she knew the reasons behind all his rebellious acts, she would no longer chase herself. As Fang Xu said, she was proud of it, and he was ashamed of it.
It's not.
But at this moment, she could peep into her true heart, knowing that she was like himself, but he was not very happy.
She was crying so crazy that if someone told him now that she would give her life, she would not be so uncomfortable, and he would definitely give up without hesitation.
The little girl pressed her forehead against his jaw, and twitched. When she raised her head, tears frowned at him. She dragged his horns tightly with her fingers, like a life-saving straw, and quivered quietly and asked him, "Should I blame him, right?"
The long-held belief in her eyes was thin and fragile.
On this rainy day, it will be crushed to pieces.
But she asked this sentence, clearly and with expectations. It was like hoping for someone to stand up and stitch back her faith.
Ji let him know that he should not lie.
How could he not blame him?
This resentment had been in his heart for more than ten years, and rooting sprouting and thorns had become his obsessive pain.
But he couldn't make the little girl the same person as him.
She loves this world and should be treated tenderly by the world. She was pure, soft, and immaculate, and could not fall into the abyss of resentment and pain like him.
Ji Ran lowered her head, kissed her wet eyes, and her voice was deep and dumb: "Yes, he is a hero."
He is a hero.
We can't be proud of him, but that doesn't stop him from being a hero.
Ji Rang suddenly remembered that day. Grandpa snapped at him crying and making noises: "He is a soldier first! Second is your father! It is his wife's husband! The soldiers should do what the soldiers should do! That is his mission! "
He has been unable to understand, and he resents it to this day.
But remembering the photograph of the police uniform on the tombstone, watching the little girl who finally stopped tears in his arms because of his words, he suddenly realized.
Soldiers or policemen meant sacrifice.
There are always people in this world who are not so selfish.
The rain outside the window finally stopped.
Qi Ying was holding his neck softly. After the tears dried up, his eyes were especially red and watery, which made people feel distressed.
Ji Rang held her up, then went to the bathroom to wet the towel, and came to wipe her face. Her skin was white and tender, and even if she was very light, she still felt crimson after rubbing.
She cried like this in front of him for the first time, a little bit annoyed, and dared not look at him.
Ji Ran finished wiping her face and asked her in a low voice, "Are you hungry?"
After all, crying is also a laborious task.
She touched her belly, a little embarrassed, but still obeyed the real idea of ​​her stomach and nodded her head silently.
He laughed and held her hand: "The rain stopped, let's go to supper."
The city is exceptionally fresh after a heavy rain. Neon lights illuminate the night, the stars flicker in the night, and the store that was just stopped by the heavy rain just opened the door again.
Qi Ying walked down the street and felt that everything was familiar here.
Her voice was soft, with a nasal sound after crying, and her little finger pointed at the corner in front of her, softly saying, "There is a beef beef sausage powder, which is particularly delicious."
Ji Rang took her to the past. The owner of the intestine shop was basketing. He said, "A piece of beef intestine meal."
The boss beamed: "Okay."
He came over quickly, and when he saw Qi Ying at the door, he smiled, "Ah, younger sister, you haven't been here for a long time."
Qi Ying also smiled at him obediently.
After eating the intestines, she licked the corners of her mouth, and said, "I want to eat the hot backdoor at the school."
So Ji Rang took a taxi and took her to Yancheng No.7 Middle School.
Yan Qi looks much older than Hai Yi. It is an old key high school in this city. It has been in the school for 100 years, and there are still teaching buildings on the campus.
The fence outside the campus looks old, covered with creepers, and unknown purple flowers on the wall.
Ji made her happy: "I can turn over two walls of your school at a time."
Qi Ying: "Wow, that's great."
Ji Rang: "..."
Is the girl really boasting about him or hurting him?
The streets outside the school are also quite old. The roots of the trees on the street have turned out of the ground. The branches and leaves on the head are lush, and the dark green leaves are hidden under the street lamp. Due to the heavy rain just now, water drips from time to time.
The back door was still hot, and a few students in Yanqi uniforms ate and laughed.
The hostess came up and asked with a smile, "Are you two?"
Ji Ran nodded and took her to sit down by the door. Qi Ying was familiar with the road, holding a plate to get vegetables, and asked him softly, "What do you like to eat?"
He said, "I eat whatever you eat."
She is not too greedy. The little girl is always easy to satisfy. She takes two or three skewers like the dishes she likes and gives them to the boss and sits back to him.
Ji Rang took her a bottle of soy milk, pried open the cap, inserted a straw and handed it to her.
She took two sips and laughed in her eyes: "So sweet." She leaned over and said softly, "I liked coming here when I was in junior high school. Once I was out of school, I ate here at the same table. A lot of strings, all the money on them. "
She embarrassedly lowered her head: "Later, my boss took me two less and I got the money to go home by bus."
Ji let the laugh die.
Just listening to her memories, I felt that little Yingying was so cute at that time.
He grinned and touched her head. "Well, the boss is so nice. Eat more today and give her back."
She nodded happily, and then went to buy milk tea in the street in front of the hot and spicy food. Which one has the most pearls, which one's red beans are delicious, and which one has the most authentic taste. Obviously, it is just a memory she has never participated in.
They ate what she loved and walked the path she once walked. He accompanied her and relived her past.
That didn't have him in the past, but when she remembers again in the future, she will remember how the teenager took her hand and listened to her seriously.
It was near eleven o'clock in the middle of the night to let her back to the hotel.
She was a little sleepy, dragging his horns all the way, and walking around him. Ji Rang felt itchy in her heart, and whispered to her ear, asking her, "Brother, hold you back, okay?"
She shook her head and whispered, "I can go by myself."
When you are finished, rub your eyes and straighten your body to boost your spirits.
Ji Rang laughed and knew she was shy. After all, there were still people on the street at this time, and she was not forced to return her all the way to the hotel room.
Worried that the captivity found that he didn't stay much, watching her return to the room and closing the door, he collapsed and went downstairs. He lived downstairs, and when he got back to the room, he took off his wet clothes and dried them again.
When lying in bed, I can't sleep over.
As soon as I closed my eyes, the little girl's eyes that broke his heart appeared.
He felt that he was not something, and he had never found her pretentious strength for so long.
After tossing and turning for half an hour, she got up and called Yu Yue.
Yu Yue is probably all asleep, and her voice is irritable after being connected: "I am so sick to call so late!"
Ji calmed his voice: "I ask you, is there anything unusual about your sister before?"
Yu Yue was so annoyed: "Are you sick?"
Ji Rang: "Do you want to be beaten? Give Lao Tzu a good answer!"
That cricket, as if getting up from the bed, reluctantly asked: "What's abnormal? She has always been normal. The only abnormality is that I don't know how to see you blindly."
Ji Rang: "You talk to Lao Tzu. She went to Yancheng to worship this time and cried a lot. I'm worried she will have a psychological problem."
Yu Zheng said "Ah" before waking up, hesitantly said, "No ... she, although she was very serious before, but she woke up after the suicide, she became very calm, even The doctors said she was cured. "
There was a short breath on the other end of the phone.
For a long time, I heard Ji Rang's stiff voice: "What suicide?"
Yu Yue was surprised: "Don't you know? After my aunt and uncle's accident, my sister committed suicide by sleeping pills, and was rescued later. Maybe she died once? She slowly accepted it."
Ji bit his tongue out of the blood, and his heart hurt almost as he collapsed.
For a long while, he cursed, "She accepts a fart."
She just hid the pain.
In order not to worry the people around me.
His baby ...
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