Chapter 77: : Life still needs to continue

"what--!"
"Don't come, don't come!"
Zidi fled in embarrassment.
And Jin Jin chased the girl tightly.
"I'm so hungry, I'm so hungry!" The needle gold has completely changed into a silver scorpion, which has been defeated by hunger, and the whole brain is full of eating ideas.
Zidi was finally forced to the bottom of the cave and tripped on the ground by a stone.
Jin Jin slammed her into the body, and the huge claw feet and sharp scorpion tail launched.
Pouting.
Zidi was dismembered in an instant, blood splattered, stained the bottom of the hole, and also dyed the entire field of view of the needle gold.
At the next moment, Jin Jin suddenly opened her eyes.
He saw the dark night sky.
He gasped for a long time, and the cold air infused his chest and lungs. His pupils gradually expanded to a normal size, and his mood gradually calmed down.
Nightmare.
He had a nightmare.
In this nightmare, he turned into a scorpion, started with Zidi, and regarded the girl as a hungry food.
Pin Jin sat quietly.
He came out with cold sweat.
Looked around, Zidi was sleeping peacefully beside him, white buds and cyanobacteria were lying not far away.
After hearing the words of Cangsu, the needle gold knocked out the cyanobacteria and set it up.
As for Cangsu, he was responsible for keeping the middle of the night.
The bonfire is still burning quietly, the flame is half smaller than before, but it still provides warmth continuously.
The firelight reflected on Jin Jin's face, and the look of the young knight appeared uncertain.
"Why am I having such a nightmare?"
"Is it because I have always been worried and afraid of the magic crystal in this heart?"
This is a very normal psychological reaction.
Imagine that a normal person suddenly grows a horn, or has a tail, or his skin is full of tumors, can you not worry and be afraid?
No one will have a magic core, but the needle gold has just grown one.
And this magic core is very mysterious, strange and powerful, it can make needle gold into a monster, can absorb the blood of life.
"There is no way to use grudge, and in danger, I can only use it."
"Ah ... I won't use it in the future, I still try not to use it."
"Who knows the serious consequences?"
Jin Jin touched his heart subconsciously.
He feared that if he abused the magic core, he would one day become a beast monster and no longer humanoid.
Jin Jin feels: This magic crystal has begun to seduce him, seduce him to slaughter people, sacrifice innocent people, and gain more powerful power and power.
"On the other hand, I am also afraid of becoming cyanobacteria." Needle Jin glanced at the cyanobacteria in the distance.
Speaking from the bottom of his heart, he can understand cyanobacteria.
And this understanding is very profound.
Because needle gold once faced the same choice as cyanobacteria.
Hunger can drive a madman. Hunger can turn a needle gold into a scorpion to steal the hemp stone. It can make Zidi feel that the cooled lava is like a baked chocolate bread. It can make Cangsu want to eat a handful of sand. They can let them not miss anything they can eat, and can feel that jumping rat meat and lizard meat are supremely delicious.
In addition to understanding, there are fears and fears in the needle's heart.
"If I chose to use white buds as food, wouldn't cyanobacteria look like my end now?"
"Although Bai Ya is not my brother, I will always be tortured and tortured by kindness, morality, and knight glory in my heart."
"I will die like cyanobacteria!"
Jin Jin feels very heavy.
Because he naturally thought again: "In the future, will I become such a person?"
When returning to the volcanic cave and carrying the white buds, the young knight told himself-I have not fallen.
However, he was very clear: he had many ideas. The selfishness, evilness, shamelessness, and despicability in those thoughts made Pin Jin almost unable to face himself afterwards.
In addition to understanding, fear, and heavyness, needle gold has another sympathetic pity for cyanobacteria.
"In order to survive, he became a beast."
"He killed his own brother."
"Afterwards, he came to this oasis again. This arrangement is simply a play and mockery of fate."
"The cyanobacteria regrets, maybe discover the oasis earlier, or maybe persevere again, the yellow algae will not die."
"Extreme remorse makes him unable to believe the death of Xanthella and desperately veto the fact that he killed his brother."
"Even if his vision is normal, he firmly believes that the yellow algae are still alive and there is hope of being saved."
"He deceived himself and tried his best to deceive himself. He was caught in his illusions, and only in this way can he escape conscience condemnation and moral torture."
"This oasis is real, but he is caught in his mirage."
"However, after all, everything is just fantasy."
"Our appearance and attitude broke through the bubble of fantasy, and the ruthless reality and truth are once again in front of cyanobacteria."
"And this time, he has no way to avoid, no way to deceive himself."
"As Cangsu said before, people who survive in the desert will collapse because of mirages. This is the case with cyanobacteria, and the situation is even worse."
Frankly speaking, if Jin Jin did not experience life and death, he would also despise, hate, and hate the current cyanobacteria, and would probably take Zidi's advice.
However, after experiencing so much in person, the mind and body of the young knight have undergone tremendous changes.
"He is our companion. I once said that I would do my best to save everyone, so I will help him." This was before the campfire. After the needle Jin faced the very different suggestions of Cangsu and Zidi, Decision made.
Then he got up and sent half a bowl of coconut water and dried barbecue to the blue algae.
Cyanobacteria did not respond at all, still staring blankly at the corpse of the yellow algae.
Finally, needle gold can only stun cyanobacteria.
Why did you make such a decision to help cyanobacteria?
Pin gold was also strange at the time.
But now, he understands a little: "Perhaps it is because of a desire in my heart. I hope that if one day I fall into the blue algae situation, I also hope that an outsider can help myself.
But the needle gold is very clear, he can't really help cyanobacteria.
The problem with cyanobacteria is not outside, but inside.
Jin Jin is even suspicious and asking himself whether people like cyanobacteria should help.
Human society has ethics and morality, so the ethics and morality of the Templars must be above the public standards. Such behavior as cyanobacteria is undoubtedly anti-moral and anti-ethical.
"I rescue people like cyanobacteria, right?"
"I rescued him, was it because I saw myself in him?"
"Am I making excuses for my possible depravity?"
At this moment, looking at the swaying flames, needle gold felt hesitant and shaking.
He initially controlled the magic crystal in his heart and became very powerful. He has enough food and water to get rid of this crisis.
But the young knight felt weak.
He asked himself in the bottom of his heart.
"What kind of person am I?"
"I'm scared of death. Can I continue to hold the spirit of a knight and can I take on the responsibility of the family?"
"Am I a selfish person?"
"If I fall into the situation before cyanobacteria, how should I choose?"
"If I choose not to eat, then I will lose my life and I can't get to the oasis. If I choose to eat, then I will die better than life."
"Which choice is right?"
Jin Jin bravely confronted himself, he did not take the core of his heart as an excuse to escape his true self.
Jin Jin couldn't answer his question.
Every time I think, every time I face these problems, and every time my soul is tortured, the strong self-confidence that he had before will lose a part, and then lose a part.
Zhen Jin knew very well: When he saved Bai Ya, he told himself that he had not fallen. This is actually just a subconscious negation. Who doesn't want to be brave? Who doesn't want to be bright? Who does n’t want to be upright, without any moral deficit?
"However, the words of Cangsu ... It's not without reason ~ EbookFREE.me ~ Jin Jin is really thinking.
This kind of thinking forces me to face the ugliness and darkness in the deepest part of my humanity, which is undoubtedly very painful.
Lost confidence in himself, and Jin Jin also fell into deep self-doubt.
Late night, by the campfire, the cavalier stood quietly and knelt on the ground.
He lowered his head, covering his heart with his hands, facing the direction of Shengming mainland, and began to confess.
"God, Holy Emperor, my great Lord. Under Your eyes, the world is bright, and shadows are fleeing. Now, Your believers, Your knights confess to You, just because I am in the quagmire of the soul. The spirit of me illuminates me, and my shadows of corruption, ugliness, and filth fade away. I beg You to forgive my sins in thoughts ... "
The long confession is over.
The soft night wind blows in the ear of the young knight.
Everything is in the expectation of the needle gold-the did not respond.
The teenager sighed.
Zidi slept soundly.
The white buds lay flat in the grass, and the cyanobacteria curled up as a whole, lying sideways on the ground like a shrimp.
Both of them were frowning and their faces looked painful-they were both struggling.
The passage of time, the night fades gradually, the sun rises, casting a very hot light.
Like the countless days and nights before, nature still operates the same regularity.
Any feelings of distress, sadness, pain, confusion, etc., seem to be hypocritical in this vast nature.
The earth is big and the earth is the biggest.
Before the honor of wealth and beauty, it must be food and water.
No matter how painful, confused, and sad, life still has to continue.