Chapter 11: Iris Flower 11 kneels before your brother's grave for courage.

At this point, Muqin was merely skeptical.
But later, when Mu Qin led Qiu Zijia and Cheng Guoxu to search the chapel, Cheng Guoxu came over with the stack of documents to show Mu Qin, Mu Qin thought that Cheng Guoxu's identity was worth exploring.
Because Cheng Guoxu tore off a page of the employee list in the file.
From the standpoint of Cheng Guoxu, the staff list of the orphanage has nothing to do with him. He shouldn't have any reason to tear it apart, unless it is registered on the torn page. Cheng Guoxu doesn't want Mu Qin to see the message, such as the employee is a person known to Cheng Guoxu ... or Cheng Guoxu himself.
When I got the documents, I found that I had my own list. I didn't want people to know that I was an employee of the orphanage. I hurriedly tore it up and showed it to Mu Qin. With this guilty act, I wanted to prove that I was normal. However, after Xu Fu and Han Li came to the church and heard the conversation between Xu Fu and Han Li, Cheng Guoxu could not bear it. With the idea of ​​struggling, he shot.
"Cheng Guoxu probably heard that Xu Fu was questioning Han Li about ten years ago ... Several children were murdered by serial killers at the Iris Orphanage. He realized that Xu Fu was pursuing the killer in the past, and using Xu Fu's character and Strength, as long as Cheng Guoxu is found, Cheng Guoxu will surely die. So Cheng Guoxu took the risk and wanted to start first and take the lead to kill Xu Fu to protect himself. "Mu Qin came to this conclusion after analysis.
After listening, Qiu Zijia said, "What do you mean, Cheng Guoxu was a serial killer who tortured children ten years ago?"
"Although there is no direct evidence, but seeing his response, it should be inseparable." Mu Qin rubbed his arms and raised his head to glance at the dark and endless raining sky.
The sudden message seemed to make Qiu Zijia difficult to digest. He reached out and held his head: "So we have been acting with a vicious serial killer?"
"It is said to be extremely ferocious, but it is actually not." Mu Qin touched the black and walked to the bottom of the tree. He touched Han Li's arm, Han Li's body was slightly cold, and then Mu Qin touched Han Li's forehead, Sure enough, start hot.
Mu Qin said: "The person like Cheng Guoxu knew at a glance that he was courageous, inferior and weak, lacked strength to fight against adults, and he did not have the confidence to defeat adults, so he could only start with children. This This kind of man is extremely inferior and extremely arrogant, and his heart is evil and dirty. He dares to jump out and start fighting against Xu Fu today, I am afraid that he has exhausted all the courage in his life. "
"Oh ... it's ridiculous." Qiu Zijia was a sign of mental breakdown, he held his head and began to pull his hair, "So, indeed ... each of us has a criminal record, we are all There is no cure for scum, so it will be sent here ... This so-called killing game is punishing us? Now that we are all dead, then ... this is !? "
Mu Qin turned to Qiu Zijia's direction: "Have you ever sinned?"
"I ..." Qiu Zijia paused for a moment before finally telling the truth frankly, "I killed my brother."
"Your elder brother?" Mu Qin also hesitated. "Did you say the one your parents adopted?"
"Yes." Qiu Zijia calmed down under pressure. "I forced him to commit suicide. I was only six years old."
"Six years old?" Mu Qin couldn't believe it. "You can force your brother to death? At your age, I'm afraid you don't even know what the word" forced "means?"
"Yes, it's very simple." Qiu Zijia laughed suddenly, a kind of self-deprecating smile, "I really didn't understand the meaning of the word" forced to death "when I was six years old, and I was innocently terrible ... The kind you can't imagine ... how terrible a child's innocence is. "
"Since I was conscious and learned to speak, I have had a simple disgust for my brother. That kind of mentality at that time ... just felt that he took away his parents' attention to me, a very simple mentality. Every child would Get the care and attention of parents to make every effort, or cry or coquettish. The only child is okay, if there are siblings ... you can imagine, brothers or brothers, sisters or sisters, in order to take resources from their parents And attention while trying to suppress their siblings. "
"This behavior is biological instinct. Even a litter of puppies will crowd and compete with each other in order to grab the of the bitch. There is not much difference between humans and animals."
Qiu Zijia said, his voice was getting lower and lower: "So, in order to compete for resources, even if I was only six years old, I already had very dark thoughts. I really hate my brother. I hope he gets out of this family, especially in The idea is even more so after hearing parents occasionally mention that he is not biological. "
"But I was very young at the time, and the behavior of suppressing him was very naive, that is, what my parents gave him, I would them up. I bought books, toys, school supplies and even clothes and shoes for my brother. As long as the parents If I get it, I will take it away. I will use or destroy these things myself, and if I do n’t want to play, I will give it back to him like throwing garbage.

"At that time, my parents were very fond of me. This is the reason that I have always been fearless. In the eyes of my parents, the adopted brother may not be as good as my biological one. They did not show much affection and attention to the brother. They acquiesced in all my unreasonable behavior towards my brother, so with the invisible connivance of my parents, my oppression against my brother has become stronger. "
"I wantonly took my brother's personal belongings, destroyed or discarded, tore off his homework and textbooks, threw garbage, splashed water, and smashed him with him, causing him to have wounds from morning to night. I don't want to talk to him I ate together, as soon as he came to the table, I cried and broke the bowl, so my brother could only eat in his own room afterwards. Later, I was dissatisfied that his room was larger than mine, and my parents asked me to change the room with him. He can only live in a small, narrow room. "
"I even pushed him down the stairs. Although it wasn't a very high staircase, he hit his head and blood flowed. When my parents wanted to send me to the hospital, I cried and made a noise, so my parents could only guard me, and He went to the hospital to stitch himself. "
Qiu Zijia said that after a long pause here, she looked at Mu Qin: "It's terrible, isn't it? I think of myself at that time, I feel so terrible. How can I be so evil? It's almost indescribable ... "
"No, not you are terrible, but your parents are terrible." Mu Qin expressed his opinion, he thought: "Your parents did not restrain and stop you, they used acquiescence to expand your various unreasonable and even cruel Behavior, when you bully your brother, they pamper you and spoil you, unconditionally forgive you and meet your requirements, this is a 'reward'. "
"Reward?" Qiu Zijia looked at Mu Qin amusedly.
Muqin said: "Yes, it's reward. You were a child at the time, and your behavior was very well controlled. They just need to let you form the concept of" just bully your brother and get rewards ". Under this concept, your behavior If you shape it, you will become more and more fierce, bullying your brother, and even doing more and more things under the parents' bottomless spoil. "
"Is this really the case?" Qiu Zijia couldn't seem to be convinced. He looked a little stunned. "My brother finally died. When I became more and more annoying and insulting him, my parents decided to let him go to school and board. But he lives in school and needs living expenses. Every weekend he will go home to find his parents for living expenses. One day when he returns on the weekend, I steal thousands of dollars from his mother ’s bag and put it in his school bag. He stole the mischief, and his parents scolded him and took all the money from him. He drove him out of the house. He didn't seem to want to open it, he jumped off the building and committed suicide, and went from the building where we lived. on."
"That was the first time I saw a corpse with a flesh and blood." Qiu Zijia said, "It is strange that I am not afraid. I was even more scared than the corpse I saw today and in the stairwell, and I have never done it. A nightmare, but I always dreamed of my brother's body. He was lying there in my dreams, and the flesh was lying there in vagueness. "
"I'm a selfish person, Mu Qin." Qiu Zijia laughed at himself. "I haven't reflected much for so many years. I grew up heartless and heartless, squandering time and money, turning a blind eye to the suffering of others, stepping on My brother's body and blood have survived to this day, and I am such a man ... finally come to retribution. "
Mu Qin stared at Qiu Zijia for a while and said, "Qiu Zijia, I think you are scared by Xu Fu just now. You are not in a good state of mind and have a tendency to self-destruct."
Qiu Zijia stared at Mu Qin suddenly: "Why are you so calm?"
Muqin paused for a moment: "Calm? I must stay calm in this state."
"Don't you think you're too calm?" Qiu Zijia shouted at Mu Qin coldly, and the sound of rain clapping couldn't cover his roar. "From the beginning of this so-called 'game'! From the moment I saw you, There aren't many expressions on your face, you always analyze everything expressionlessly, without surprise or fear, you ... "
Qiu Zijia trembled and looked at Mu Qin: "Are you really not that killer?"
Mu Qin was silent, watching Qiu Zijia for a while before answering: "I am a soldier, trained, calm and normal behavior. If I am hysterical like you now, it is really finished. And the murderer is obviously Xu Fu Well, Qiu Zijia, your mental state does have a problem ... and Han Li is having a fever now. We need to find a safe place to stay and not continue to get wet. "
"Just leave me." Qiu Zijia suddenly said something amazing, he lowered his head, "I have no use at all, the meaning of existence is to hinder you, so you just leave me, you are a very good person , More likely to survive than me. "
"Are you giving up?" Mu Qin understood Qiu Zijia's mentality, because the situation is really bad now. Two of the six died. The killer was Xu Fu, who had far more strength and physical fitness than everyone else on the scene, plus a female teacher who had a high fever and uselessness, and the key to the door exit did not even see a shadow. In such a large orphanage, finding the hope of escape is tantamount to finding a needle in a haystack. Despair is extremely normal.
That's why Qiu Zijia said, "I give up."
"After easily killing your brother, do you easily kill yourself?" Mu Qin looked at him expressionlessly, "Cowardly, do you even have the courage to go back and kneel in front of your brother's grave to make atonement?" ? "
Qiu Zijia looked up at Mu Qin, and couldn't help but smile: "You look very indifferent ... actually a good person."
"I only do what is necessary." Mu Qin said, "you have at least a higher chance of survival than Han Li, there is no need to rush to give up."