Chapter 16: Iris flower 16┃you still look as good as then.

After graduating from high school that year, Mu Qin hesitated for a long time with the application form for enlistment.
It is not that he did not think about the happiness that he and Zhou Yue might get. Zhou Yue is a caring person. When he was with him, Mu Qin could experience the best and most irreplaceable time in his life. However, because of cherishing this time, Muqin finally chose to give up.
He has long seen how big the gap between himself and Zhou Yue is.
The Zhou family of Zhou Yue is the most famous clan in that province and city. It is said that the family history can be traced back to the Qianlong period of the Qing Dynasty. His ancestors used to be in the jade business.
Since the Qing Dynasty has not fallen behind, the Zhou family has been declining for a period of time due to the turmoil of the war at that time, but later the Zhou family started from scratch, started trading in real estate, established first-class enterprises, and became prominent in China and the world.
As the only son of Zhou's parents, the Zhou family gave heavy expectations to Zhou Yue. He had to undergo strict elite education from childhood to childhood. He needed to learn many things, such as business finance, corporate management, and so on. Taking over the business of his father's generation, his life was arranged and paved the way from the moment he was born, and he only needs to move forward impartially on this road and keep going.
The piano is just a hobby that Zhou Yue ’s fairly enlightened parents allowed him to learn, even if Zhou Yue ’s talent in music is even higher, even if this is Zhou Yue ’s own dream, but in the end, he still ca n’t pursue his favorite music as he wants. Can't be a musician on his stage.
Mu Qin asked Zhou Yue's plans for the future. He thought Zhou Yue would resist the life arranged at home, but Zhou Yue shook his head and said, "Let's do it."
"Don't you feel sorry?" Mu Qin looked at his beautiful hand in disappointment. "You should stand on the stage, sit by the piano, be illuminated by the spotlight, and win everyone's applause. Isn't this your dream? ? "
Zhou Yue said, "If it is so easy to achieve, it will not be a dream. I took over my father's business is also very good, can make a lot of money, and I can take you to travel around the world!"
Zhou Yue said very happy, but Mu Qin dimly saw the gloomy future between himself and Zhou Yue.
He and Zhou Yue have been secretly dating for three years, and they have a detailed understanding of Zhou Yue ’s family. Zhou Yue ’s parents are the kind of people who are smooth but actually very old-fashioned. This can be seen when he arranges everything.
There are some strange rules in their family. They are not allowed to communicate with ordinary students in the school, saying that Zhou Yue's friends must be children of a big family with status and status.
They will not allow Zhou Yue's grades to be lower than the top ten in the grade, otherwise he will be put under pressure to find tutoring classes until his grades improve.
They were not allowed to fall in love with Zhou Yue, but they let him have more contact with some socialites.
Mu Qin can fully see that Zhou's parents are actually laying the foundation stone for Zhou Yue's future, allowing him to contact some people or things in the society from high school, forming a wide circle of interpersonal relationships, and waiting until college, Zhou Yue can intern in his own company, and the results and extensive connections he established in high school will enable him to quickly establish a foothold in the company. Once he graduates, he can officially take over the company.
Therefore, Mu Qin can guess that the savvy Zhou family parents will never allow Zhou Yue to walk on some strange evil path. It is even more ridiculous to be with the same sex. That will only destroy Zhou Yue's reputation and let others hold him. Prejudice became a stain on his life.
Zhou Yue's future must be bright. He will be sitting in a world-renowned big company, earning money that Muqin can't make in this life, and a noble and beautiful rich man who will go to the marriage hall with thousands of dollars. There will be one or two. Children.
This is good, it is simply a life that many people dream of but ca n’t hope for.
It was only then that the young and sensitive Muqin at that time, as long as he imagined that Zhou Yue would not have his own existence in the future, Muqin felt unhappy.
He thought about fighting, even if the status of the two is very different, and the difference is huge, but Mu Qin feels that his ability is not bad. No matter what the future, as long as Mu Qinken persists in his efforts, he may be able to walk to the same position as Zhou Yue At the same height, he always gets everything he wants.
But Muqin was scared.
He was poor and white at that time, the old man squandered all the money in the family, and even the house was secretly resold by Muqin. Muqin had nothing but still faced the high tuition fees of the university. Zhou Yue went to the same university, but if Zhou Yue was asked to help, Mu Qin was worried that if Zhou Yue paid double the tuition fee, it would cause doubts in his family.
So at that stage, Mu Qin was always scared, and fragile, he couldn't help thinking ... What should I do if I finally fail?
If he fails to be with Zhou Yue, if they are separated, and if all the efforts in the end are brought to naught, should he watch Zhou Yue and himself drift away, forgetting the rivers and lakes?
Mu Qin has always been alone, no father, no mother, no care, no relatives and friends, the young and immature Mu Qin placed all his feelings on Zhou Yue. The existence of Zhou Yue is Mu Qin's hard work Going down.
If not, it might as well not be owned from the beginning.
Muqin left.
Despite making such a decision, but now thinking about it, Muqin felt that the original decision was both rash and fragile. It was a stupid decision. Muqin has regretted this for many years. He should not leave without saying so, at least he should speak with Zhou Yue.
But he just left the world where Zhou Yue exists.
Mu Qin can almost imagine how sad Zhou Yue should be. Contrary to the perfect maturity disguised on the surface, Zhou Yue was actually as fragile as Mu Qin. During his time with Mu Qin, Zhou Yue liked to coquettishly with Mu Qin.
From a young age, Zhou Yue basically had no room for coquetry. Strict tutoring and heavy schooling of his parents forced Zhou Yue to mature prematurely. He once told Mu Qin that when he was young, he saw other children ’s children and their parents spoiled. Sticky together, I was very envious. However, whenever he wanted to be coquettish or close to his parents, his parents' indifferent and tough attitude always made him cry in his room secretly.
So after having Mu Qin, Zhou Yue was very sticky. As long as there was a chance, Zhou Yue would rush to hug Mu Qin and bury his face in Mu Qin's neck. He will find every opportunity to be close to Mu Qin, he will hold Mu Qin's waist, he will kiss Mu Qin's cheeks, lips and eyes. Once Mu Qin waved his hand away from him, Zhou Yue would swing The look of grievance held Mu Qin straight, until Mu Qin relented and beckoned him to return.
At first, Zhou Yue's so sticky attitude was somewhat convergent. However, with the passage of time, it became more and more intensified. In the final year of the senior year of high school, as long as you did not see Mu Qin for a moment, Zhou Yue would turn on Mu Qin's phone The bombardment was carried out, and Muqin's phone memory was stuffed with various calls and messages.
Every text message from Zhou Yue, Mu Qin is actually a bit reluctant to delete.
The memory of Zhou Yue is infinitely gentle and beautiful, the one that Mu Qin has been remembering for so long that he has never dared to find.
Now he appeared in front of Mu Qin's eyes, his blood was utterly dilapidated.
He should be a nobleman living a luxurious life, enjoying the process of being embraced by people. His path is bright and wide, so he should not appear here. This orphanage full of killing and darkness should not be Zhou Yue. Where should I come.
"Why are you here?" That's why Muqin felt totally incomprehensible. "You shouldn't be here."
Zhou Yue, who has been silent, finally broke the silence. He spoke, his voice was very low and mute, probably because he was cut across his neck. His voice was not very pleasant, but Mu Qin could still hear it. The voice ... After leaving so long, he finally heard Zhou Yue speak to him again.
Zhou Yue said, "I am dead, so here it is."
"Impossible!" Mu Qin couldn't believe it. He stared at the man in front of him. "Why did you die? How could you die!"
"Death will come at any time, today, tomorrow, and even now." Zhou Yue said hoarsely, saying that he put his hand on Muqin's belly back. At the end, there seemed to be some reluctance, and he knelt on Muqin halfway. Come forward, put your hand on Muqin's thigh, and raise his head to look at Muqin's eyes. His movement is like a knight sworn to the princess in front of the temple.
Mu Qin looked at him, and then held his breath. Suddenly there was an unspeakable sadness in his heart. Mu Qin realized that if Zhou Yue was really dead, then think about it carefully. The one ten years ago was a farewell.
If they do n’t meet again in this game.
Mu Qin felt a dull dull pain in the heart of his chest, which was subtle and long. It was so painful that Mu Qin could not breathe. He couldn't help but asked Zhou Yue: "How did you die?"
Zhou Yue did not answer immediately, but raised his head and smiled at Mu Qin after a long silence, but the bandages on his face made his smile inconspicuous. He said to Mu Qin: "Before ... you disappeared During that time, I was in a hurry. I looked for you everywhere. "
When Mu Qin heard this, he opened his mouth and stopped talking, and he wanted to apologize to Zhou Yue, and he did not say goodbye that year, it must make Zhou Yue very sad.
But Zhou Yue was as mastered of Mu Qin's mind as ever. Zhou Yue shook her head gently: "I know you want to apologize, but you don't need to."
"On the contrary, it should be me who apologized ... In fact, I knew very well that you were under tremendous pressure, your family was in a bad situation, the economy was so urgent, and the gap between you and me made you feel that you could not see hope, I know You may want to give up, and your departure is also my expectation. "
Zhou Yue continued: "But I was too confident at the time and thought I could get you back."
"To be honest, when I inquired that you applied to join the provincial and territorial forces, I was very happy, because I always wanted to find an opportunity to get rid of the control of my parents. Enlisting is an excellent reason. So I also proposed to my parents to say I wanted to join the army for two years and my parents didn't agree at first, but I said that for my future, training in the army would make me stronger. My parents thought it sounded right, so they agreed. "
Hearing Zhou Yue's words, Mu Qin looked at Zhou Yue with wide eyes in surprise: "But I haven't seen you in the army."
"Of course I haven't seen it. I really wanted to join you in the same company. I also specially asked a higher-ranking officer to help draw the bridge, but something went wrong in the middle. It looks like my father intervened, so I was sent. More advanced troop training bases. "
"I've been there for two years, you know ... places like the army are like people in the country when you go in. Don't try to come out easily unless you retire. I'm anxious and trapped there every day. I'm looking for you, but there are a lot of trainings waiting for me every day. At that time, the instructor told me that I can only approve vacations after completing the training, so I worked very hard ... "
"So your hands have become this way?" Mu Qin looked at Zhou Yue's hands with regret and distressed. They were not the hands in memory that could play the piano gracefully.
"It's okay." Zhou Yue saw that Mu Qin was sad for him, and in turn comforted Mu Qin. He couldn't help it, and reached out and touched Mu Qin's cheek carefully. "My hands are strong, and I won't be any more. You can't play the piano. "
After speaking, Zhou Yue stared at Mu Qin obsessively with his only right eye. "Mu Qin, you are still as good as you were then."