Chapter 23:

Xu Qin drove all the way back to the Meng family, and Meng Yanchen's car stopped at the door.
Xu Qincai entered the house and noticed that the atmosphere was different. Meng Yanchen sat down at the marble table in the restaurant and bowed his head to eat noodles. Fu Wenying stood aside, folded her arms on the table, and looked at Meng Yanchen with a loving face.
Hearing the opening of the door, Meng Yanchen glanced at the other side, his gaze stayed on Xu Qin for a second, and then he retreated indifferently.
Fu Wenying seems to be in a particularly good mood, laughing: "Qin Qin is back?"
Xu Qin called the mother of sound.
Fu Wenying: "I haven't eaten breakfast yet. Come and eat noodles with your brother. I also said I'm afraid you will forget. I want to call you. The feast said no. It seems that I am worried."
Xu Qin lowered his head and took off his shoes, searching for a while, suddenly remembering that today is Meng Yanchen's birthday.
She forgot.
When he looked up and saw Meng Yanchen lowered his head to drink the soup, he took a look at her from the corner of his eyes, and his eyes were still flat.
For so many years, his character Xu Qin could not be more clear. He was exactly like her, to what extent his inner depression was, and there was no trace of waves on the surface.
Xu Qin changed slippers and went to the restaurant, sitting down opposite Meng Yanchen.
Fu Wenying asked: "Did you not have breakfast?"
Xu Qin wanted to lie, but he couldn't eat any more, and he said: "After eating, drink a bowl of soup."
Fu Wenying ordered Aunt Gui to go to the soup.
She smiled and looked at Xu Qin and Meng Yanchen. Her eyes lingered on the two of them: "In a flash, the two children in our family have grown so big."
Xu Qin took the soup bowl from Aunt Gui.
Fu Wenying said: "When I gave birth to this kid, I was tossing me miserably. I lay in the hospital for seven hours, but I refused to come out. Your dad also said that the child was a worrying life in the future, and it made me very sad of."
Xu Qin and Meng Yanchen moved in sync and bowed their heads to drink soup.
"The result is nonsense. There is no child in the compound who is more worry-free than the feast of the parents. Growing up like this has never hurt my mother. Remember when I was a child—"
Fu Wenying said more today than usual, telling the story of Meng Yanchen when he was just born. She talks about it every birthday, and no child will disturb a mother's memories on this day.
Meng Yanchen had to go to work for a while, and after eating the birthday noodles, he went upstairs to clean up.
Xu Qin also returned to the room, removed a wooden carved Meng Fangchen from the shelf, walked to his room and knocked on the door.
"Come in."
Xu Qin pushed the door in. Meng Yanchen stood in front of the floor-standing mirror and dressed. He had changed a black shirt and was cufflinking.
Perhaps it was because of the black shirt and black trousers, it seemed that his figure was extremely long and his face was particularly cold.
Xu Qin turned the woodcarving in his hand and handed it to him in the past.
Meng Yanchen glanced at her, pulled the sculpture from her hand, turned and pulled open the drawer, and threw it in. There were a lot of small Meng Yanchen in the drawer.
He closed the drawer, his hands were not light, and he snapped.
He did not look at her and continued to wear thin sweaters.
Xu Qin stood on the spot for a few seconds before saying: "Happy birthday, my heart is made."
Meng Yanchen did not answer the call.
Xu Qin turned away and walked to the door, hearing Meng Yanchen's faint voice behind him: "Nothing else to say?"
Xu Qin stood still.
There is nothing to ask about the leaves. Meng Yanchen's character is clear to her. No matter what his education or his cleanliness is, he can't do that kind of thing.
He made this out just--
That's it.
Today is his birthday.
Xu Qin said: "No." He said to pull the door.
Over there, the cabinet door slammed shut.
"Don't come back to question me?" Meng Yanchen asked, "Don't say you came back because I remembered my birthday."
Xu Qin supported the door and said, "You are too much."
"Why?" He adjusted his shirt collar in front of the mirror, and he slowly laughed out loud, "Have you hurt your sweet pride?"
He always keeps his demeanor and self-denial, rarely so mean, but every time he is directed against Song Yan. With his low-key and unassuming personality, how could he say hello to a police station for trivial matters, let alone take his car to pick someone up, just to draw a deep ditch between Song Yan and her.
He was never a person who used power to bully others, she knew nothing but this time,
Xu Qin's hand pushed gently, and the door that was opened was closed tightly.
She looked back at him: "Meng Yanchen, what do you want to do?"
Meng Yanchen also looked back at her: "What do you want to do?"
Xu Qin did not speak.
Meng Yanchen watched her for a moment and turned to open the closet door. A long row of various coats hung straight. He picked one of them and paused with his fingers on the hanger, saying, "Of course, it doesn't matter if you are just playing ; If you are serious, I advise you to stop. "
He pulled out a gray coat and hung it back on the wooden hanger.
Xu Qin asked: "So you are in charge of me as a parent now?"
Meng Yanchen: "Otherwise?"
The two of them are extremely calm, even like a lake without wind.
Xu Qin watched him put on his coat and said, "Meng Yanchen, don't worry about me anymore. Who I am married to, who I am in love with, who I am in love with, who I am playing with-it's none of your business. . "
After saying this, there was a few seconds of silence in the room.
Meng Yanchen didn't look at her, he lowered his head and adjusted his cuffs. He has always been meticulous in his clothes, and has not let any details go-shirt cuffs, thin shirt cuffs, coat cuffs, layer by layer.
Finally, he said, "He can't."
Meng Yanchen said one by one, "He can't do it."
Xu Qindun felt extremely absurd: "Why-"
"He doesn't deserve it." He interrupted quickly and calmly, as if he was disgusted by saying one more word, "I ask you to find it and find a decent one."
Xu Qin lowered his voice: "Don't talk too much."
"I'm too much?" Meng Yanchen bent his lips slightly and said lightly, "What did he do for you? But whenever he has a sincere heart for you, when a man separated for that reason, a man should clenched his teeth and tried to die up. Climb out a personal look; but whenever he has a real heart for you, he will not be just a fireman until now, and he can't even afford you a decent necklace. "
Xu Qin's jaw tightened, as if poked to the most embarrassing scar.
She is not a little girl who does not know how to live in a dream, nor a little girl who pursues Plato's spiritual love. She is also hypocritical, she is also worldly, she will calculate, she will compare.
If she is asked to abandon everything she has, power status, money and wealth, parental affection, just for him;
So, why should he?
What did he ask her to do?
When she stood in front of the police station in the morning and looked at Song Yan's back, she was thinking, so she didn't catch up.
At that time, I didn't think of a result, but now, Xu Qin still couldn't understand it, he didn't want to think about it, and he didn't want to tear this scar to Meng Yanchen to see.
She smiled as if she hadn't heard the words, and instead asked,
"What did you do for me? At first, you told me not to like you anymore. You said you would not control me anymore. It was also that you asked me to change my surname and be the daughter of the Meng family. Your sister. My feelings Is it a machine program? Okay, I listened to you, and now you are here to intervene to control me again, and under the guise of caring about me, do n’t you think it ’s false? "
The loved ones, hurt each other, are fatal blows.
Listening to her words, Meng Yanchen paused, and then pulled away the watch cabinet, picked out a watch from inside and put it on his hand. He bowed his wrist strap, and there was a hint of astringency on his lips:
"Why persuade you? Oh, why did you persuade you? If you don't change your surname, your mother will send you away. Never again in this life--"
Xu Qin was stunned and never knew that there was such a reason behind it.
"If I like you, if I like you--" He shook his head without saying anything, as if the consequences would cause him to lose his voice.
"It took me more than ten years to accept the reality that you will eventually marry someone, but Song Yan, no."
Meng Yanchen buckled up his watch, pulled up his sleeves, turned his head to look at Xu Qin,
"What are you going to do, eh? For him, beg your parents, or make trouble with your family? Me, what do you want me to do at this time? You let me watch next to you? Watching you humble heartbrokenly for him Going to beg your parents, or watching you break up with us cruelly for him? You said, at this time, watching you will be torn in half, should I help you speak, or should I not help you? "
Xu Qin looked up at him, clearly seeing a touch of desolation and anger flashing on his calm face. He strode forward and wanted to hold her shoulder, but his palm suddenly bounced away when it was about to touch her, as if she were It is taboo and untouchable,
"I ask you to give me a little respect. If you can be with him, why—"
He took a deep breath, and once again, couldn't talk anymore.
Why can't I and you.
If you and he can do everything together, why can't you and me.
Meng Yanchen quickly turned around, looking out at the large lawn below the window.
The leaves on the ginkgo tree fell halfway and spread on the grass.
Suddenly, the world becomes very lonely, and there is no need to say anything.
He turned his back to her and gently pulled open the innermost drawer. He closed the drawer just now and pushed the sculpture down.
She didn't see it, he helped the little Meng Yanchen stand up.
"Wish my wish come true?" He touched the head of Xiao Meng Yanchen. "Do you know what I'm thinking, wish me come true?"
"Forget it." Meng Yanchen said, closing the drawer and going out.
Xu Qin stood on the spot, heard his footsteps quickly went downstairs out of the yard, heard his car start, and quickly left.
She looked out the window and saw the sun shining brightly, and a yellow leaf fell.
She felt that her heart was also like that leaf, riding on the autumn wind and dangling from the tall trees, unprecedented fatigue.
So tired.
...
Song Yan sent Zhai Miao to school. Zhai Miao did not eat breakfast and called bowl noodles in the cafeteria.
Song Yan had nothing to do with his vacation, and it was hard to be free at ordinary times, so he accompanied and opened the Arctic Ocean by himself. He was drinking soft drinks, thinking about the difference between Xu Qin and the door of the police station. At that time, she could guess one or two of her thoughts.
There are students passing by from time to time in the cafeteria. Song Yan itself looks good, has a mature temperament, and has long legs and good clothes. Unlike the boys in the school who are warm and fragrant, they will inevitably attract the attention of female students.
Zhai Miao kicked Song Yan ’s leg under the table: "Brother, the beauty was watching you just now."
Song Yan filled the soda and ignored it.
Zhai Miao continued to kick: "Look back and see if she looks good."
Song Yan put his hand in his jacket pocket and turned his head to glance. When he turned back, he was not very impatient: "Hurry and eat, and go to class after eating."
"No class this morning." Zhai Miao said, and then returned to the topic just now, "Brother, in fact, you are in very good condition. If you don't want to rush to get married, first find someone to fall in love, don't--"
Song Yan: "You can't shut your mouth with a meal?"
Zhai Miao glared at him and continued to eat noodles. After a while, he suddenly looked up and asked, "Brother, you tell me the truth, do you still like her?"
Song Yan frowned and was about to reprimand her. The phone in her pocket shook and took it out. It was actually a text message from Xu Qin, with only one sentence:
"I invite you to dinner tomorrow."
An address is attached to the back.
Song Yan stared at the message and was silent for a few seconds. There is an inexplicable hunch in my heart, which is not good.
He returned a "good" word.
Putting the phone away, Zhai Miao said: "Brother, tell me the truth. I'll ask you seriously. Do you still like her?"
This time, Song Yan smiled and said, "It's okay not to meet."
Zhai Miao asked: "Have you met?"
Song Yan said: "I don't want to disappear when I see it."
Zhai Miao's shoulders fell, apparently disappointed, but finally accepted: "Well, I will be more polite to her in the future, and I will not be coaxed with my mother."
Song Yan hummed silently: "I thank you."
Zhai Miao stirred the noodles in the bowl, and the food was tasteless. After thinking about it, "Brother, I think she should like you too. Why don't you just forget it together?"
Song Yan didn't want to talk about it, stigmatizing: "You don't understand."
Zhai Miao was dissatisfied. Once the chopsticks were released, he talked to him and said: "I understand. Isn't that her family is too prominent. I think you are a rib. What modern people pursue, free and happy, enjoy the present. Like to be together , The future is too far, whether you can get married or not for the time being. Let's talk about love first, wherever you go, you can continue, you can continue, you can't divide, it's better than you are so far away from each other across the sea. At least enjoy having together The time, whether mental or physical, will not suffer anyway. "
Song Yan: "Fart."
"Originally. Who stipulates that falling in love must come to an end? I said, brother, you obviously have the innate conditions for innumerable love, how can you have a heart that will die from it?"
Song Yanren reached her level and got up: "Go back first. Have a good class."
"Hey, hey, are you really leaving?"
Song Yan quickly walked out of the cafeteria and walked on the school path. Thinking of Zhai Miao's words, she felt ridiculous and absurd, but couldn't come up with a rebuttal.
But he and Xu Qin walked into the dead end, but could not get out of it.
In the late autumn campus, only ginkgo and evergreen trees are left, golden and dark green.
The students were sitting in twos and threes, some sitting on the bench reading, some in the morning run, the young man's face was full of vitality.
Song Yan inadvertently remembered his college days, the countless years of hard work in the classroom day and night, and exercise on the playground.
Xu Qin didn't know that he had repeated the exam, had tested the best military school, and had gone to the most bitter grass-roots level, thinking that with that glorious record and resume, she could go to the position she could see.
But I didn't expect how deep the water is here. A person thousands of miles away can move him to fall into the abyss.
Song Yan drew a cigarette from his jacket pocket, ignited it in his mouth, and the smoke was blown away by the wind beside his face, making his side face sharp.
A few girls who passed by peeped at him and ran away in small steps.
Song Yan went out of school without nostalgia.
When walking to the subway station, I cross a road. There is a car parked by the sidewalk with black license plates on white. Song Yan remembers seeing the license plate number in one year.
But he turned a blind eye, twisting a cigarette between his fingers, and walked past the car.