Chapter 60: Gu Jingfan Wai: You surprised me for a whole youth

Secret love is: pretending to be invisible, but glancing at it ten thousand times with extra light; can't kill me, but can't save me.
Gu Jing
As the young master of the Gu family in Beijing, Gu Jing has always been alive and unrestrained.
Young and frivolous, capricious and reckless to the extreme.
Above him is a very good eldest brother Gu Xichao, who is responsible for everything.
Gu Jing only needs to hold Gu's huge annual dividends.
Then, eat and wait to die.
...
Secret love is the most beautiful love in the world, because I have fixed your most beautiful moment in my heart and will guard it until death.
I don't like you, but your most beautiful moment.
Gu Jing never thought that she would like someone.
Still crush.
He hated Jiang Ruan at first, his titular sister-in-law.
The first time she changed her mind, it was when she rescued him in the alley.
Then, it fell step by step.
Finding that he liked Shang Ruan, Gu Jing was almost frightened.
He even refused to admit it.
The teenager who had been drunk all night in the bar, with faint tears in the corners of his eyes, he kept talking to himself.
"I don't like a thing for too long, so my profile picture and screen name keep changing. I get tired of the real thing too quickly, and you are not my biggest exception..."
Self-deception.
Dyed her hair, thought she looked pretty, and went to her happily.
Unexpectedly, she laughed, and then went back to dye her black hair obediently.
She always likes to rub a child's hair like rubbing his hair.
Gu Jing has never been dissatisfied.
Because he couldn't hug her, he couldn't love her grandiosely, and he even had to be careful when talking.
and so.
Just be the child in her eyes.
At her wedding that time, he seemed to have figured it out suddenly.
I like you.
This is my own business, one's righteousness, one's coldness and warmth, and one's old age, nothing else.
A moment of relief, a turn of his heart like a knife.
The moment the boy turned his head.
A tear was drawn from the corner of the delicate eye.
I didn't cry...really, it's just that the wind and sand were too big that day, and my eyes were lost.
...
Gu Jing's monologue:
I repeatedly told myself that the person who I liked but didn't get was not so good. When I was really with her, the freshness and enthusiasm at the beginning would be removed, and there may be only boring trivialities.
When I think about it, I think it’s okay not to get her.
I was too optimistic. I stopped the loss in time and threw away the sweet before it started to turn sour.
I sometimes wonder what would happen if I fell in love with you. Holding hands with you, hugging, kissing, sharing work and rest, discovering all your shortcomings, quarreling, then reconciling, lying on the sofa watching TV, having insomnia and talking about childhood together.
I know you are not the right person, I am not stupid. I'm not the kind of person who likes someone and wants to be with him.
But I really want to be with you. I saw with my own eyes that we first fell in love, then hated each other, and then broke up. Years later, in the movie, the book found a very similar bridge to us, and then burst into tears.
I have nothing to ask for, I just want you to step into my life...
Speaking of the end, the young man's delicate but slightly green eyebrows were already full of pleading.
Looking up to drink the last glass of wine, he told himself.
I don't love her.
Really.
She was just my obsession when I was young...
Afterword:
Between the age of seven and seventeen, there is a ten-year gap; between the age of seventeen and twenty-seven, there is a lifetime gap.