Chapter 186: Unrequited love is the most tormenting

I almost slept for less than two hours all night. Because the brains are all over Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting.
Du Ting asked Luo Xiangdong to go to the hotel and said that she wanted to surprise him. I couldn't think that apart from spending a good night in Shanghai, it was me who lied to Luo Xiangdong in my own name.
Ha, it's ironic.
Sick and add acidic water to my stomach, I used the excuse of being busy reading documents, and I didn't eat lunch as I should. I don't know if I am angering the enemy or punishing myself. Maybe I think the stomachache will ease my heartache a bit.
I sat in the office for the whole afternoon. I didn’t wait for Luo Xiangdong’s half-phone call until I got off work. I took my bag out of the office and accidentally heard Guan Yue and Han Xuetong say:
Mr. Luo didn’t come to the company today. Transferred to"
Luo Xiangdong didn't come all day.
I walked out of the company faintly. Xu Lu called before and said she was going to meet a client. It is estimated that she would come to my apartment after nine o'clock in the evening. I returned home after get off work, and then lay on the sofa like a corpse, from dawn until dark.
During that time, I fell asleep and woke up again. When I got up and went upstairs, I lay on the bed dizzy, wrapping myself tightly in the quilt.
I have been in light sleep, so when the doorbell rang downstairs, I opened my eyes immediately.
Go downstairs to open the door, Xu Lu appeared at the door, full of alcohol.
I helped her get her slippers, she walked in by leaning on the wall, and said, "How are you? Are you in a better mood?"
Without answering, I asked, "How are you? Drink so much wine again."
Xu Lu replied indifferently: "I just talked to a big customer and signed a one-million-dollar order. I can draw 10,000."
I helped her walk into the living room, muttering, "Awesome."
Xu Lu said: "Could you be a little bit distracted by the boast?"
I said: "Sister, can you take care of my current mood? I can still praise you out loud, it will give you enough face."
Xu Lu turned her head and glanced at me. Seeing that my face was pale and my eyes flushed, she frowned and said, "Cry again this afternoon?"
I turned around and went to the dining room to make tea for Xu Lu. Hearing this, I replied casually: "My tears are shallow, so I cried for detoxification."
Xu Lu asked, "Did Luo Xiangdong call you?"
When I heard this, I got angry and couldn't help but replied: "What is he calling me."
Xu Lu said: "Then he didn't show up for a day, why did he go?"
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I also want to know why he went.
I made a cup of scented tea and handed it to Xu Lu. I sat down next to her, arms around my legs, fascinated.
Xu Lu drank too much, and was scalded when she lowered her head to drink tea, cursing. Somehow she mentioned the family's affairs. She cried and told me how stressful it was and how difficult it was to be transferred to the city center. Now they looked at the time after their bed, and it was almost midnight.
She was drunk and didn't take a shower. I took it downstairs and lay on the sofa.
After crying all day, there are no more tears now. I tried to soberly analyze the current situation. First of all, I do like Luo Xiangdong no doubt, but my bottom line is not to be a third party that destroys other people’s feelings; secondly, Luo Xiangdong and Du Ting are in a relationship, which means that so far, I cannot get involved in their relationship; finally, if Luo Xiangdong is with Du Ting broke up, does it mean that I can be with Luo Xiangdong?
Of course not. I discovered that the reason that made me cry all day was that Luo Xiangdong didn't like me, not that he was with Du Ting.
As long as he doesn't like me, whoever he is with has nothing to do with me.
It turns out that the most hurtful thing is not that the person you like falls in love with others, but that the person doesn't love you at all.
Once I figured this out, I couldn't tell from the bottom of my heart whether it was more painful or more transparent.
There seems to be a feeling of enlightenment.
If Luo Xiangdong doesn't love me, then everything I do now is unrequited love, I voluntarily find sin and suffer, and have nothing to do with others. But what if he loves me? If he doesn't love me, why would he save me rather than Du Ting?
I thought I wanted to understand, but it was back to the original point in an instant.
To put it bluntly, it's not that I'm hesitating, but that I don't understand Luo Xiangdong's attitude towards me. Does he love me or not?
I talked with Chen Wenhang for seven years, and they rushed to get married. In the end, he hurt me so much. I thought that I would not be able to ease this energy for three or five years, and would never fall in love with anyone, but I didn't expect to plunge into another relationship in just a few months. [^]
And this relationship is destined to be beyond my control.
Lying on the sofa, I opened my eyes for a while, then closed my eyes, and then I figured it out, and then I started to dig. Thinking of the end, finally thinking of exhaustion, thinking of no energy to think again, I let myself go to sleep exhausted.
I felt like I had just fallen asleep, but the alarm clock on my phone rang to remind me when I was going to work.
I didn't sleep the night before, and I was able to get up yesterday, but I didn't sleep for most of the night last night. I was obviously mentally insufficient today, and I started to lose strength, and I always felt sore and weak in my limbs, as if I was sick.
Go upstairs and ask Xu Lu to get up. After I finished packing, I took some cold medicine before leaving.
Xu Lu reminded me: "Go downstairs to buy something to eat, don't take medicine on an empty stomach."
I hummed, and I didn't even have the strength to reply.