Chapter 21: Mouth 21: Xiaofanwai

When I was young, my mother often said to me: "You must be cruel, you must learn to give up and be determined at all times."
When she said these words, her eyes were clear and calm, her brows never frowned, and the Buddha had never experienced the same sufferings. Her mother ’s surname is Tan. She used to be the second lady of the famous Tan family in N city. She was just like she said to me. She was determined to marry her poor father. Since then, there has been no such flash of light. The name and title of the Tan family have been estranged from her because of her unwillingness to act alone, and the birth of my sister and I was a fuse that completely broke the Tan family.
I will always remember that day, when I was only seven years old, my father died, and the family couldn't support it. The mother took me and my sister back to her house for relief. The night before, I saw her sitting in the room alone, repeatedly rubbing a brand-new family portrait, with drooping eyelids, and the light dyed her beautiful side face softly. Beautiful.
I was wondering if my grandfather and grandmother would be happy to see their grandson and granddaughter. I even thought that the old, tough old man in the photo would smile with a white beard on his mouth.
It is a pity that the facts will always give me great disappointment. When I walked behind my mother and arrived at the Tan's family—
My grandfather leaned on crutches and pumped my mother's back several times.
My mother stood still and beaten by him, with a gloomy look, red eyes, and a straight back like a curved sword handle.
My sister was crying and weeping silently. I gritted my teeth and stepped forward, lying behind my mother trying to stop her from the cruel pain.
My grandfather was even more angry, and his fierce face was distorted like Zhong Kui, who exorcised ghosts.
At that time, I was very old and I was very scared. I thought that this would probably kill me half of my life, and my tears could not stop falling. It was said that sooner or later, a beautiful young woman held my grandfather's hand in time and shouted at us:
"Not yet fast!"
She has a sharp tone, but her eyes are gentle, like pity and guilt. She has the same eyes as my mother, beautiful and deep black. I know that she is good for us.
That day I also rolled away, supporting my mother with endless fear and hatred.
Like a despicable soldier who had just fled from the battlefield, with scarred blood and blood, with dry tears, he swallowed all the humiliation brought to me by this family alone. They are bitter, but I have to swallow it.
At that time, I was still small, unarmed, and the powerful Tan family, who hummed alone could make my life violent.
And these people watched me leave with cold eyes, all my family, so-called family.
Since then, I know that this proud family is cold and ruthless.
They cannot tolerate a slight flaw and humble presence in the appearance of precious diamonds that they have operated for many years.
I, my sister, my father, are the dark cut surfaces they can't bear.
They do not welcome us at all.
Afterwards, my mother was beaten because of that cruel heart, and her weak body has been uncomfortable. She has never been to the Tan's house since.
The young woman who let us go that day secretly came to help my house several times before I realized that the man was my aunt named Tan Suqing. One of them was before the junior high school entrance exam. She left money and left a sentence, which I have never forgotten--
"Good boy, do you want to take revenge on the Tan family? If you want to take revenge, let yourself be as strong as the reeds and let the Tan family recognize you before you have a chance. Do you understand?"
She also said to my weak mother: "Tan Yaqing, take good care of your son. He is very good. You had better be strong and alive before growing up."
Since then, I have only worked hard to get admitted to the best high school and university in the city, and then to study.
Reluctant to go out easily, just to be able to follow the development of the Tan family at all times. Every day his listed company's stock trends are well known and remembered clearly.
What I did n’t expect was that my decision was quite wrong. What I did n’t know was that some people in the Tan family were paying attention to my situation at all times and trying to kill all my ideals in the dark. And hope. After the thirty-first failed job search, I took off my rented suit and chose to go to a bar to borrow a drink to relieve my worries. On the road, there was a hot day above my head, and I really wanted to cry.
Over the years, I have been smiling, but I have little sincerity.
I do n’t know why I use such a harmonious expression to cover up my inner unwillingness and sadness. I thought that whitewashing can make me a little happier, but none at all.
When I woke up in the middle of the night, I remember clearly when I woke up. In the dream, everyone in the Tan family, with a greasy smile, said to me,
Look at your virtue, look at what you can do, your little dross from the Tan family, dross!
And I was in the bar that day, but I met a girl who was always happy. She was ponytailed and very beautiful. She was as refreshing and clean as all female college students of this age. She took advantage of the wine to tease me and grabbed the wine in my hand. I smiled at her too. She recognized it at a glance. You are not happy now, I am surprised. Then she jumped on the stage of the bar and sang a song for me, saying that it was dedicated to the handsome guy who was sitting in front of the bar and had a good smile but was not happy at all. I still remember that song until now, the first day of Sun Yanzi.
"For the first confession, I feel embarrassed. You, who pretend to be very philosophical, are actually very cute. You say that you live in tomorrow and look forward to it. It ’s better to live in comfort today. I said if I understand it, it will be too fast. The first day of the future will be unfolded. On the first day, I will be there. For the first time, I will breathe freely, and my ankles standing on the ground will feel real because of you. "
It is better to live today and look forward to tomorrow than to live today.
I was sitting under the stage, and the lyrics were rippling in my heart, and my originally depressed mood gradually improved. Until she jumped in front of me again, she looked at me intently and said to me: "Cough, handsome, introduce yourself, my name is Xue Jin, Mei Yuzhi Jin."
I am amused by her seriousness, and her heart is heavy and happy for a long time. I want to hug her, I think, I fell in love with her at first sight, her face gleamed like pearls in the champagne lights. I do n’t know if I was drunk because I drank too much. I said to myself in my heart, I really want to marry her.
Afterwards, things were logical. I sent her home and chatted happily along the way. We clearly met for the first time, but we were like old friends who had known each other for a long time. When they talked completely without jamming, she completely trusted me, from time to time. She turned to smile at me like a child. When she came to her house, she laughed: "I'm leaving, you may not see me in the future, unless you associate with me." It seemed to "hum" twice.
Then, in front of her, I called my mother, and time smoothed the corners she used to be. Now, she is like an old man who is mostly settled in the status quo. She seems to care more about my love. As soon as she answers the phone, I will tell her, Mom, I will find your daughter-in-law for you. The clean girl opened her eyes excitedly, and then, two steps forward, hugged me tightly.
I think my expression at that time must be happy like a fool.
In the years with her, every time she appeared, my world seemed bright. That time was really the best and richest day in my life. I was really surprised and rejoiced. She was by my side. The time seemed to be slowed down. I have been struggling forward for more than 20 years. It seemed that there was finally a warm afternoon where she could rest, and she brought it to me.
The Jin person, Meiyu, is the one of the world. In this world, he can only get one Xue Jin.
Of course, in the world, I have never told her about my family. I thought I could keep the secrets in the dark and live with her. But I have never been able to make a difference. Her mother was not satisfied with me and never gave me a pretty face. At that time, I also gradually gave birth to a lot of disheartened frustration. The deflation at work made me lose my temper with my family when I returned home. Including my sister, she is not so beautiful as a person in this world, there is no hate, a quiet and quiet life, and she has been taking care of me until she later forgot to marry herself.
Finally, she still didn't marry herself. She had a car accident, and her head was hit hard. She became an eternal sleeping beauty. The time stayed at the age of 28. She might wake up next second, or she might not wake up.
I couldn't breathe because of the huge amount of medical expenses. On that night, countless things flashed in my mind, Xue Jin's sincere smile, mother's forbearance of tears, sister's quiet eyes, Tan's sneer.
In the end, they all fade away, leaving only one sentence that my mother once said to me. You must be hard-working and must learn to give up and be determined at all times.
I fled silently, and went abroad. The Tan family's influence was not that great. I wouldn't be able to hold my footsteps there, and my ability was finally exerted. It ’s really sad to be abroad. God knows how hard I am. When I eat Western food, my eyes will be inexplicably red. I miss the tomato scrambled eggs that Xue Jin is the best at. It's delicious. It seems that I won't be bored for a lifetime. I really miss her, and I shed tears when I think about it.
After four years of self-cultivation, fame and fortune have gained. I think I can return to my hometown and treat my sister. I can explain to Xue Jin my goodbye, and her kind-hearted girl must be considerate.
I have repeatedly applied to transfer back to a domestic company, and the boss finally allowed it.
God deliberately arranged a coincidence. The client of the first project I received was the company of the Tan family. I also met my aunt again.
She was not surprised, she expected to smile, and said casually: "I know you can, haha, come and revenge us."
On the second day of my return home, I went to Xue Jin and my favorite local restaurant. I saw Xue Jin outside the door. I was overjoyed, but I caught a glimpse of a young and handsome man who was facing her. The man smiled, the smile was very sincere and happy, as it was to me, my heart felt a pain of being torn in a flash, so painful that I could only stand by the door handle.
The self-righteous decision then made me regret it all my life.
I stared at the girl in the door from afar, despair attacked me and made my heart cold.
I am afraid that I will never see such a smile again.