Chapter 41: Mouth 41

When passing by Gu Xingzhi's car, I somehow slowed down. Sure enough, the window in the front seat was slowly sliding down, and Gu Xingzhi stopped me. His sitting position seemed to wait a long time: "Xue Jin, let's talk."
I stopped by his car, and Gu Xingzhi's eyes glowed in the dark night.
"Okay, let's talk about it now." I hung my hand holding the bag, and the boring air around the night sky released the Buddha from all directions towards the place where my carrier was.
Gu Xingzhi got out of the car and stared at me for a long time. After looking at me for a long time, he said, "I am engaged next Wednesday."
"Oh," I dodged his eyes and flipped my fingers back and forth: "Gu Xueqi told me long ago, um ... that's good, and finally has fallen ... I wish a happy wedding."
"Oh" is really the most sad word in the world. The person who said doesn't care about it, at most it makes the other party think you are owed. But he clearly cares about it, and he pretends to be ruthless and fearless, so he pretends to be indifferent and indifferent. I don't know what to say, only this. It must be like this, it must be like this.
Gu Xingzhi elbowed on the car behind him: "I'm glad you didn't speak to me with that tone and attitude today."
"It's not that a child is generally naive, why should it be every time. Anyway, I don't care so much now, why don't you talk calmly. Why should your body recover?" I asked him smoothly.
He responded lightly, "Uh", "Before getting engaged, there are some things that I want to explain to you clearly."
"Does it still make sense?" I wouldn't let him go on and repeat it: "You are getting engaged, and does it make sense to explain again? How can it be explained clearly, leave me alone and howl you here the next day Run over to get engaged? Why can't I just roll smoothly and gracefully? Don't come to me again and can't do anything like this? I didn't say I'm happier without seeing you, I'm happier than two Month, why are you here again, to break my good mood of being put back together again, are you enough, are you upset? "My eyes flooded like falling into the water again:
"Do you think I am happy to say that I am happy to be engaged? Every word is mocking me, not sneering at me, why I have contributed so many things to you, but I get nothing. I have been I regret it, why do I spend so much time and sincerity on an unrealistic person, I thought that sitting on a cold stone for three years will always warm up, that is just thinking. Gu Xingzhi, you are getting engaged , Engaged, what are you doing with me? Are you sneering at me or being single? Are you still left? You will die if you do n’t come to see me. "
"Yes, I'm going to die. I must come to see you," Gu Xingzhi pulled my shoulder and forced me to face him. He didn't look good. I have never seen him like this, and the emotions may be the same as mine. Maybe it ’s worse than me: "Just tell me, you do n’t want me to get engaged, I wo n’t go, I wo n’t."
He deliberately repeated it to increase his feelings, and the tone made me want to laugh: "Oh, not engaged? Can you? Will your family allow it? Do you still want to elope with me? Do n’t you know that elopement is the abbreviation of SB? "Even if you are willing to give up everything, I can't bear my mother," my temples began to jump suddenly: "Wake up, you are not that important anymore, Gu Xingzhi."
"But you are still very important, very important, maybe even more important than I thought," Gu Xingzhi gave up the restraint to me. His face was still unreal and handsome in the night lights, and he sighed like a fragile image. It's the unbearable cloud that will be blown away by the wind: "Xue Jin, I love you, and only you."
I didn't expect Gu Xingzhi to say such a dream, it would be in such a desperate situation, almost instinctive, I stepped forward and raised my hand, "Guo" gave Gu Xingzhi a slap!
This slap is heavy, Gu Xingzhi's face was almost beaten to the side by me.
Under the dim street lights, I could see his left face quickly ironing red, along with it, and his eyes, just like what I saw in the hospital that day.
"Do you love me now? Sorry, the old lady can't afford it anymore."
"Go, get engaged. I didn't receive the invitation, but I will go."
"Love me, then I really want to see how you can get engaged to a woman you do n’t love and make yourself happy."
"Do n’t think I ca n’t forget you, it ’s just a matter of time."
"Oh, by the way, I'm sorry that I slipped your hand just now. I hope the scars on your face will heal before you get engaged."
I kept searching all the mean words and words in my mind to hit back and hypnotize myself, and looked at Gu Xingzhi indifferently with disgusted eyes.
The degree of helplessness can only make me say nothing. At this time, I was desperate for my performance. I was so desperate that I was so angry that I was still angry with myself. Can't give birth at all.
He was not wrong, right?
But why, why now I refuse to show any signs of weakness, my heart has trembling to the point of convulsing myocardial infarction, why should I deliberately make such a shameful and indomitable tenaciousness on the surface, I do n’t even have any Pulling his hands mercilessly slapped him to vent my hatred for himself on his body—
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One day last week, Yun Wei came to me to finish the interview that was left behind, that day after I went to Gu Xingzhi Hospital.
The weather was good and the interview was very smooth. Yun Wei ’s polite character really had a charming charm. I could n’t hate the girl in front of her. She was really simple and pure, and she loved life and the world.
During the interview, I casually asked her when I was drinking water, "Gu Xingzhi is alright?"
"Eh?" She was taking notes there, looking back with her chin on her back: "I don't know, shouldn't you be clearer than me?"
"I broke up with him a long time ago," my heart sank slightly, and put the glass back on the platform of the podium, writing lightly: "Aren't you not with him? He still likes you, with you in the wallet photo."
Yun Wei stopped writing on the paper and turned the pen cover even more confused: "Ah? What? I basically didn't have much contact with him after I returned to China. If his grandfather wanted to see the chance that I almost didn't meet. Gu Xingzhi Have you started to use a wallet now? His hobby is rather strange. He did n’t use it before. Money likes to put in a lined pocket ... "Suddenly remembered something like that, she" Oh-- "got a long tone:" You won't because of this Is there a conflict? Isn't it? "
"Somehow for this reason." I said awkwardly.
Yun Wei's crazy hammer table this time: "That's not Gu Xingzhi's wallet, that's my father's! That day, my father and I went to visit his grandfather, I didn't bring any money, and To buy something, I took my dad's wallet. I have been thrown around, but I accidentally landed at the cash register of the convenience store next to the hospital. Later, the salesperson collected it for me and found the number inside to call I contacted my dad. Gu Xingzhi would just be in the hospital. My dad called him and asked him to help me pick it up. I'll go to him the next day and get it back with him ... what you won't just see is This? "
"... Maybe, but did he deliberately go to Japan to see you?"
"Oh, there ’s a special way to look at me. He has a client, Miss Qianjin, and I belong to the same department. The reporting department, um, maybe you do n’t know, it should be journalism in our China. When I got there, I went out for a meal together. At that time, there was a tall and handsome guy with him. It should be his friend. We are three people together. "
My left hand that hung down on my side shook uncontrollably, and countless unfamiliar emotions flew back and forth in my liver and intestines. I asked, "Do you still like Gu Xingzhi?"
"Do n’t mind if you say it. I still like it. Although his man looks cold, he is actually very nice and considerate. When he saw the last ride in the car, he raised the temperature instead of watching us cold. Well, but I could n’t stand it until I left, and now I do n’t expect to be able to save it,
she continued to play with the pen cover:
Anyway, I ’m quite relieved to see that you are with him, after all, you experience It ’s more than me. It should be more open than me. It can tolerate some of his strange tempers and small flaws. You will be more suitable for him than me. That ’s it, so it does n’t matter if you think about it.

...
"It turns out that way." After a long silence, I fluttered back to her.
It turned out to be like this. It turned out that everything I did was tossing around alone, and I was committing two crimes by myself. Why did n’t I give Gu Xingzhi an explanation at the time, it only took a few minutes, a few minutes. Why did I choose to know the truth in this way, I just knew everything in my forefoot, and the next day I received a call from Gu Xueqi, and she told me that Gu Xingzhi was about to get engaged.
My poor and ridiculous ignorance, stupidity and hypocrisy finally punish myself. I do n’t even know the details of life like "Gu Xingzhi doesn't like to use a wallet", but he clearly hates things like alcohol. Indulge me to vent in front of him in that way, but also because of my self-impairment.
I used to be amorous and pretentious and thought that I liked him more how much I loved him, how much I could give, how much I could sacrifice. Those so-called superficial efforts were really ridiculous and worthless. And I, in fact, did nothing and knew nothing—
From beginning to end, I am the self-righteous stupid, saying that "sorry" should be me.
From before to now, I have never deserved him, and I simply cannot deserve him.
Now Gu Xingzhi is finally about to get engaged, and getting rid of a woman like me is actually fine. Let's live a good life in the future. The fate has become a foregone conclusion. In the past, we often comforted ourselves. We have to look forward and don't miss how to know what is good. Now I am also missing the good.
After playing Gu Xingzhi for a while, I walked upstairs almost in the void, walking around.
I paused in the small window of the corridor and looked down. Gu Xingzhi still maintained his original posture, just like a statue that will always die and fall. The Buddha can't move at all, and the Buddha will collapse and collapse in a second. . For a moment, I was so distressed that I could hardly keep my waist straight, and finally I could only squat. This was the last time weeping for this hopeless relationship between us.
...
— I was the dividing line that finally came back to the engagement site
"Xue Jin, Xue Jin!" A few quick words whispered in my ear, and I choked with water again. The dull eyelids were finally lifted, and the eye-catching eyes were still dazzling. The familiar crystal chandelier above reminded me Me, I'm still engaged in the hotel.
Immediately, I heard Gu Xueqi chattering in my ear: "I think you are in a good state, how can it be like this again, alas, the wine is really torture, and I won't drink it for you next time.
I touched the softness under my body and propped up: "Are we in the hotel room?"
Gu Xueqi straightened my hair for me: "Well, yes."
I saw the clothes on my body were replaced with another one, and asked, "I vomited?"
"Huh!" Gu Xueqi approached me and sniffed a few times: "Now it's finally fragrant. I just vomited myself. Are you more comfortable now?"
"Okay," I got out of the bed from the other side. "I'm feeling better."
Gu Xueqi had a gentle expression and asked me, "Are you going home now, or going downstairs to continue eating, will you come back with me?"
"Continue to participate in the engagement banquet," I leaned over and put on the stilettos of the high heels, "I ’m going to finish now, do n’t make people think I ’m really here to make trouble, in fact, I ’m really coming to the engagement, I just I want to give up this feeling completely through this.
"Well, I understand you."
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Back from the hotel room to the lobby, Gu Xueqi went to answer the phone and threw me here alone. A group of staff members were busy holding roses and balloons on the ceremonial table in the hall. The engagement scene was more solemn and more lively than the wedding. Some children of relatives were jumping around below.
Turning his eyes back again, Lao Yuan glanced at Tan Suqing waving a glass at me, beckoning me to pass.
"I thought you looked away, but the result is still not good," she is the same attitude, this woman of indecipherable age smiled: "Okay now?"
I also saluted her with a smile: "Okay, from the inside out."
She oh, and looked at me with unfathomable eyes for a while: "No matter what happens underneath, just keep this smile, women should be like this, they should always be like this."
Tan Suqing raised his chin again at the wine table I used to sit on: "Go back. After the meeting, the master of ceremonies will have some small activities. You can watch it."
Back at the seat, Gu Xueqi still didn't show up. I pushed the glass aside, and the considerate waiter replaced me with a glass of plain water.
Sitting on the right hand side is a mother-like woman with a little girl, who pulled my sleeve: "Auntie, what happened to you just now?"
"Drink and drink too much," I turned my head to look at her pure black eyeballs: "I'm mad, don't scare you."
Her mother also smiled kindly: "It's okay."
I just wanted to say something more. The noisy sounds in the hall are like the TV being unplugged, and suddenly all are quiet. Looking up, it turned out that today's master of ceremonies came to power. He was about 40 or 50 years old. His straight suit suited his extra spirit. He walked to the stand microphone and adjusted it to a suitable height. The throat, the sound is loud and loud but not too loud to make the eardrum uncomfortable:
"Dear distinguished guests, friends and family, hello everyone, it is an honour to be able to host their engagement banquet for the couple of us today. At this moment everyone is in the same mood as me, and we are sincerely wishing the couple . Now we ask all our friends to get up and let us greet this new couple with warm applause—

At this time, the courage that had been brewing for the whole round of observation was evacuated from my body again, and everyone in the hall stood up, and in the thunderous applause, I lowered my eyes.
The voice of the master of ceremonies echoed in the hall. I did not expect that such a precious family engagement banquet would still be so old-fashioned and scarce, but it was also what I wanted—
"Now let me introduce the bridegroom on my left. Looking at our young man, he is handsome and handsome, and his friend Yu Xuan'ang. It is really personable and extraordinary temperament ~ I live with a prince charming and a youth idol ~ Then look at the beautiful my right ... "The ceremonial voice is strange, and the audience is now full of vocal voices," Hey, our bride. "
I shook my hand holding the spoon slightly, and looked in the direction of the ceremonial table again. On the magnificent pink stage decorated with pale pink rose dazzling rhinestones and a sparkling champagne tower, only Gu Xingzhi was alone except for the ceremonies.
Yun Wei escaped marriage? The thought flashed in my mind for the first second.
At this time, Gu Xingzhi was leaning over to communicate with the celebrant who was much shorter than him. The ceremonial handed him the microphone and walked to the side of the stage.
"Dear friends and family, guests, good evening everyone-I am very sorry here, there is a little situation on the bride's side, you may want to postpone the event at the engagement ceremony for some time, I hope everyone will be considerate, during this time, I Just to say something to everyone about the girl who will be my wife, is it okay? "He asked patiently and politely.
"No problem!" "Good!" The people below coaxed to agree.
At this time Gu Xueqi also returned to me. I lowered my voice and asked her, "What happened?"
"Ah?" She looked back blankly: "I don't know, what's wrong?" She glanced at the stage: "Why care about a person, Yun Wei?"
I poured a drink for her and squinted past: "I still want to ask you."
Probably because of the relationship between the microphones, Gu Xingzhi's sound quality is very clean and clear, and it can penetrate the feeling of the human heart through the transparent.
"I didn't prepare the first draft and played it completely temporarily, so I thought about what to say."
Let's respond with a round of applause to continue.
Gu Xingzhi's tone is unsurprised, and the endless feeling of the gurgling stream, letting the Buddha talk is a plain and tale of fairy tales:
"--First describe her as a person, very beautiful, at least in my eyes is very beautiful. Personality is a little rash, occasionally a little bit of a brainless feeling, quiet before people and crazy after others, doing something always makes people cry and laugh, But it is actually quite interesting, at least it makes people very happy. She just has a bad shortcoming. She always likes to avoid shrinking at the critical moments and is unwilling to face up. This is also what I do n’t like. What are the specific strengths, to speak of strengths, optimistic to the level of two, and frank to an idiot?
Speaking of which, all the audience laughed, and I put a piece of fish into my mouth. Gu Xueqi commented on my side: "When did Gu Xingzhi speak so neatly, Yun Wei is this character, it is with you. It looks like Xue Jin. "
After she finished, she realized what seemed anxiously stopped, and then added a sentence very quickly: "Sorry."
"Am I two? Are you my friend." I chewed the small piece of fish for a while before swallowing it.
Gu Xingzhi's tone changed, and continued to say: "But I still like it very much, and I can accept the good or the bad side. Speaking of my encounter with her--" He took the topic to life as if it were first seen Above: "I don't know clearly about the encounter, not only should it involve the junior high school, but also the beginning of this year."
Cough cough cough, I was choked by the corn juice just poured into the esophagus, almost unthinking, toward the ceremonial table, looking again, Gu Xingzhi, he also looked at me from a distance, the expression was warm, like falling Sparkling sunlight on the clear water.
"It was probably the third day of the junior year. I participated in the relay race of the school games. She suddenly rushed into the runway and hit me. She was so powerful that she ran into the green belt on the edge of the runway. It really flew out completely. "The audience returned to quiet after a burst of laughter:" I was therefore recuperating in the hospital, and I did not participate in the senior high school entrance examination that year. Of course, I have always been bitter about this matter, and she has visited me several times. It ’s a pity that I have forgotten these things for a long time, and later I forgot about them. Later in the early spring of this year, I was a groomsman at my friend ’s wedding, but I accidentally saw her at the position of my bridesmaid. In 2015, she came back to me again. "
I looked at Gu Xueqi, who was incredulously awkward, and she did not pretend that she knew everything about it, prompting me to continue reading.
Gu Xingzhi ’s sight was washed and buffered by a thick layer of gas, a bright and soft starlight after hundreds of millions of light years: "We have been together for eight months and three days, but unfortunately because of my one reason, there are The last four months have been spent in the Cold War and conflict, including today, she may still hate me. There is really no way, she takes a step back, I can only take one step closer. Today I am good at advocating, Encourage your family and friends to plan this engagement banquet. Although the invitation card to all relatives and friends is indeed the name of me and her, but it is not her, but my other that I just met with friends and relatives toast A friend, thank my mother, grandfather, elders, and all my good friends, relatives and friends who may still not respond here, can indulge me, cooperate and be considerate of this selfishness due to my personal reasons About her, I think everyone should be clear about it, that is, the girl who had drunk and fell just now, she has probably recovered, and she is sitting now In situ. "
For a while, my brain was in a mess. Almost countless eyes in the hall looked at me in an instant, and there were many girls on the banquet in the distance.
"Oh, you are Xue Jin?" The gentle young woman next to her was really surprised. She turned out a delicate invitation from her bag and handed it to me. Behind the bride, it was plain and beautiful but tough and black. Hard writing, Xue Jin.
"Isn't Gu Xingzhi's engagement banquet with Yun Wei?"
Gu Xueqi took a sip of his drink: "Who told you yes, in fact, it was indeed his engagement banquet with Yun Wei at the beginning. You also know that his grandfather likes Yun Wei better. He personally has been resisting. Tragic death, you misunderstood him again, he is working alone, okay, there are my mistakes in the meantime, misunderstanding Lin Weiyuan ’s time in Japan, I ’m sorry. In fact, his mother and Yun Wei are really good to talk, finally His grandfather passed the pass, but the news of the engagement was spread again, what should I do, had to push the boat. Did he go to you before? Listen to Lin Weiyuan saying you still beat him? Oh, it ’s really hard for him. But now Pleased, I am actually the heroine of this engagement feast. I am pleasantly surprised Xiaojin Jin, your family only affirmed you in such a high-profile introduction in front of so many relatives ...
Gu Xingzhi's words put an end to the chatter of Gu Xueqi around him: "Xue Jin, I'm still not good at standing here. I might continue to do so in the future. I know that I am not pleasing, and I will try to change. During this period of separation, sometimes I also wonder, which one is suitable for us, to see each other, torture each other with endless misunderstandings and our own weakness, or to stay together day and night, seeing the cooked and so tired I have been thinking about it for a long time. I have been thinking for a long time, which one is the most correct choice. However, one is definitely correct, that is, I want to be with you. "
In the turbulent applause, my eyes were squeezed out of water vapor. I could n’t cry. I could n’t cry. I was too embarrassed. I kept telling myself in my heart, but I could n’t control my confused brain, and the tens of millions afterwards. Miscellaneous emotions, I ca n’t control my heart, I ca n’t control my tear glands, I ca n’t control it at all, I ca n’t do it at all, I ca n’t do it.
The little girl sitting on her lap gently wiped her fingertips at the corners of my eyes: "It turns out that the aunt who was nervous just now is the bride. The bride should be happy. Why are you crying?"
I wiped the paper towels around the table and wiped tears indiscriminately.
"Yeah, Groom the groom is here." The little girl whispered.
I looked over, Gu Xingzhi was standing beside me, staring at me with his eyes down, and then raised an arm and hooked me into my arms.
"Xue Jin, marry me." His chin rested on my hair, following a tempting tone.
"Not good," I pushed him away: "No rings."
He chuckled audibly in my ear: "The ring is already on you."
At this moment, I only noticed a small piece of cold on my chest. I do n’t know when Gu Xingzhi had put a platinum necklace with a diamond ring on my neck, maybe just when he hugged me just now.
Gu Xingzhi also switched his other arm, pressing me tighter into his arms: "Since I have received the ring, don't regret it anymore."
I didn't make a sound, and murmured with a cry.
The ceremonial eyebrows who came down from the stage opened their eyes and smiled, holding the microphone and saying, "Look, this beautiful woman is our bride. Looking at the bride is very beautiful. Everyone yearns. Let's look at our bride's eyelashes, which one It ’s longer than the beard of the brother in red! Let ’s bless this couple, our bride and groom are really geniuses and beauties, unparalleled in the world, spend a full moon, and endure forever!