Chapter 154: Jagged tenderness

"I saw Iron Blood cutting my own flesh to feed the soldier, I wanted to stop him! But in the end I didn't...
I know Xiaobing is starving to death, if he is not eating, he will definitely die! So as a mother, I was selfish at that time, I just watched the Beidou child, cutting off the meat from my legs piece by piece, and fed it to the soldiers!
Finally, after feeding the little soldier, he continued to cut his own meat with a knife, and then gave it to himself!
At that moment, I finally couldn't stand it, I was going crazy! I stopped Beidou out loud and told him not to do it.
Beidou just looked at me, with a smile on his face, he said to me: Auntie! Do not worry! We will definitely be rescued! But now we really have to eat, otherwise we will starve to death, even if someone comes to rescue us in two days, we will not be able to get out!
I cried very sad when I heard him!
The zombies outside the well may have smelled the smell on his body and became frantic. Their roars were so loud that they could pass into the well.
Beidou said to me: Auntie! Don't be afraid, stick to it for two days! Because I might still be able to hold on for two days! In fact, it’s hard for me to eat my own meat, but I’m afraid that if I starve to death and you can’t bear to eat me, then the three of us may not be able to continue! So, rest assured! I will insist on living and feeding you so that you will not starve to death! ......"
When Lan Yue heard this, she started crying.
Qin An looked at Beidou and began to understand the end times again.
He had read a lot of apocalyptic novels before, and some of them were killing and plundering. Perhaps in the apocalypse, these things are not the only things, but people tend to ignore them deliberately.
This young man named Beidou is really a man of iron and blood!
The woman continued:
"Later the soldier also woke up, because we all ate Beidou's meat, so we became a little bit more energetic.
When the soldier knew that Beidou had cut his own flesh and saved us, he was ashamed!
He couldn't even accept it. He and Beidou yelled, and he felt that as my son, he should have sacrificed his life for me.
At that moment, Beidou was calm, because his wound was bleeding all the time, and he didn't have much energy to speak.
After the soldier finished venting, he began to cry and kept crying. He told me that he wanted to die! He is weak.
After that, Beidou continued to cut off his own flesh to feed our mother and son. Of course, the soldier refused to eat, so he passed out from hunger after a day.
After all, even though I ate the meat from Beidou, it couldn't make up for the physical strength and exhaustion that we had been trapped for several days.
Well, after the little soldier fainted, Beidou continued to stick his legs into the little soldier’s mouth. I really don’t know why Beidou’s vitality is so strong. He obviously should be the weakest of the three of us!
The little soldier had the will to survive when he was unconscious, so he ate the Beidou meat again.
And so did I, unconscious, and then rescued by Beidou.
I can't stop Beidou, and I'm also cowardly, I dare not cut off my flesh to eat! I would rather just die like this! "
The woman cried for a while, and then said:
"One day has passed, Beidou can't do it! He lost too much blood, and in seven days he was the least eaten among the three of us.
Because he really...really hard to eat his own meat! That is eating your own meat!
So, he is going to die, he is dying! At that moment, I was in a coma and woke up.
Beidou watched me cry. That was the saddest time I saw him cry in a year of getting along, because he was crying like a child!
He told me that he was sorry for his parents because he killed them himself!
He told me that he was sorry to his wife Xiaoyue because he didn't protect her!
He said he was not a man! I want to comfort him, but I don't know what to say!
Slowly, Beidou became weaker and weaker, and finally he lost consciousness.
I was frightened and started to shout loudly, hoping that God can save us! Or let us die!
But Beidou must not die! It would be unfair to die for such a good man like him!
Is it true that in the end times, things like fairness really disappear?
Do good people have to die early? "
The woman was very excited. She looked at Qin An and yelled, as if she was asking Qin An and herself.
Qin An took a deep breath, but still couldn't get rid of the depression in his heart.
It seems that it was this woman who shouted at the last moment that attracted Blue Moon and finally let herself come.
Beidou shouldn't die! If people like Beidou died in front of their own eyes! Then in the last days, Qin An will lose all his beliefs, and he may really become a cold-blooded person from now on!
But what to do? How can we save the Beidou who is dying before us?
At this moment, the man named Xiaobing came to his senses.
Perhaps it was because he left the closed space at the bottom of the well, which allowed him to get more oxygen.
The little soldier opened his eyes and shouted in the first sentence: "Mom! Mom! Where's Beidou? Where's Beidou?"
The woman hurriedly grabbed her son's hand, and then said: "Little soldier, the Big Dipper is here! He is going to die, you can save him!"
The little soldier stood up suddenly, but his leg broke when he jumped into the well seven days ago, so before he could stand still, he fell directly and fell to the ground again.
Regardless of his physical pain, he crawled to Beidou's side, swaying Beidou and called out: "Beidou! My good brother! You wake up! I killed you! I killed you! I should be the one who died. Ah! You must not die! After you die, I will never be able to raise my head to be a human being!"
When he was speaking, he was already crying hysterically.
Qin An closed his eyes.
Who said that only evil things are human tragedies?
Isn't this scene in front of me sad? And is it more palpitating?
He adjusted his breathing, then walked over to check the condition of Beidou.
His breathing is extremely weak, and he is about to die!
The woman also put her hand under Beidou's nose, her sensing ability is not as good as Qin An, she can no longer feel the breath of Beidou, tears in pain, at this time she did not make any sound, because of silent crying, it was The saddest!
Little Bing watched his mother cry so sad, he immediately understood what was going on, holding his hair with both hands, he shouted loudly: "Beidou! You can't die!"
I really don't know where he, who has been hungry for seven days, has the strength to shout so loudly.
Seeing Qin An and the woman's expressions, Lan Yue already understood everything.
She ignored the smelly smell of Beidou, but squatted down and leaned on Qin An and said, "Uncle! You are the best way. You can save Beidou, he is so pitiful!"
When the soldier heard that someone could save Beidou, he hurriedly raised his head to look at Qin An, then crawled around Beidou's body, and came to Qin An, and kept kowtow: "Please! Please help Beidou, if you do. In the case of Beidou, my Qin Bing will give you my life forever! My life is yours! You can take it whenever you want! I just want Beidou to survive!"
Qin An also wanted to cry at this time. He is neither a nor a doctor. How can he save the living Beidou in this barren mountainous place? He has nothing to do!
Standing up slightly, Qin An didn't speak, but walked to the side with a long knife in his hand and began to knelt on the ground to dig up the soil.
People always have to go to the land for peace. This is the tradition of the people of Z.
Qin An once felt that this kind of thinking was very feudal. He thought that if he died one day, he would be burned by his descendants and put in a small box. If a person died, what was worth Nostalgia?
However, at this moment, Qin An stubbornly wanted to bury Beidou in the soil, and then set him an inscription.
Human feelings are like this. Qin An was convinced by Beidou's behavior, because he didn't know if he could do something like that if he faced that kind of situation.
He may not, because he has always been a person who wants to live well!
Looking at Qin An's movements, the three Lan Yue were all disappointed, or that their last hope became despair.
Xiaobing suddenly fumbled for Beidou, and finally he found a knife.
Then he glanced at his mother.
The woman was already stupid at this time, and she did not find her son Xiaobing looking at her.
Lan Yue was sad at this time and did not notice that the little soldier had already held a knife in his hand.
Xiaobing stared at his mother apologetically for a while, did not speak, but forcefully pierced the knife into his heart with one hand!
With a pop, Qin An was alarmed.
Turning around and looking, he saw that Xiaobing had committed suicide.
He hurried over, pressed the knife that stuck the soldier in his chest, to prevent the blood from flowing out, and then said angrily: "If you die! Didn't the Big Dipper save you for nothing?"
The young soldier was leaning on Qin An, crying cowardly, his gasping became quick, and it was obvious that the knife was hit to the point and he was going to die.
And her mother, the woman finally found out that her son had committed suicide.
Her body trembled, and then said:
"Little soldier, you are right! You are cowardly in the well, and you failed to replace Beidou to feed your mother with your own meat!
You are cowardly in front of Beidou, you are cowardly in front of yourself, now Beidou is dead, if you are still alive, you are destined to never raise your head to be a man in this life!
That is very sad!
Don't worry, your mother will come to accompany you right away, because I am cowardly when facing myself at the bottom of the well just like you!
We are all losers without courage!
None of us should live in this end time! "
After listening to her, Xiao Bing's cry was much quieter, he laughed, and his eyes began to wander.
His face is full of mud, Qin An can't see his looks clearly, but listening to his voice, this kid should be very young, right?
A young life was about to die in his own hands, which made Qin An feel very painful.
He has killed people, and many! In the supermarket, in the trapped building.
He also witnessed the deaths of others, Song Wenjie and Wang Fang.
But this time, facing the three people who met for the first time, Qin An really felt pain in his heart.
He doesn't want them to die! But he couldn't save them!
What should we do? Is there really no way he can change all this?