Chapter 82: Love that never understood

When Ah Heng followed Mr. Li's research team into the hospital, it was the seventh day after submitting the application form.
She had promised to go back to City B in mid-March, but now she is in a hurry and can no longer take care of it. Before leaving, I had to call Yanxi to apologize.
Yanxi's voice sounded a lot more energetic than before, and he asked her to rest assured and be careful not to get infected. If he can spare time, he will go to H City to see her.
A Heng smiled. When he hung up the phone, he secretly kissed the microphone while no one was in the moonlight, and buried himself in the night, blushing all the way because no one saw him.
There is a girl in my family who has just grown up, cough, of course.
Who is laughing? Don't be high, hold back!
Our child is thin-skinned.
The dormitory only went to Ah Heng. Xiao Wu helped her pack her luggage and suddenly asked: "Is Yan Xi going to quit her job in the show business?"
A Heng's hand movement slowed down, wondering: "How to say?"
Xiao Wu said: "During this period of time, Yanxi's work has always been replaced by newcomers. He has also pushed down the shows of various shows that he has set before. This matter is being discussed in the jar."
Aheng said: "I don't know too much. He is always headstrong and his character fluctuates, but when he considers it clearly, no one can shake it." Then, he shook his head and sighed and smiled, "Let him think about it. "
In short, let him think about it, if you really like him, let's be more forgiving.
Xiao Wu squeezed the child's face, vinegared, and said: "You really love him."
But I don't know who is jealous.
Although my family Yanxi does not know who is his beloved, but my little six is ​​really my little sister.
When I went to the hospital, I only said that I was extracting virus samples for experimentation, but I never expected that it would develop into an uncontrollable state.
In the intensive care unit, patients wearing oxygen masks are struggling painfully, and often stop breathing at night with their veins exposed, but the hospital can only use ordinary tranquilizers and antibiotics to inject intravenously. It is the helplessness that cannot be endured as a medical staff, but under the weight of an increasing number of patients, the soul is tortured.
Of the 18 people who came, only five survived in the end, including Mr. Li and four students.
Aheng stayed there. She couldn't remember why she stayed there, but just watched her classmate leave with cold eyes.
Who is not afraid of death? But holding such a sick child, watching him coughing, watching him panting, watching him crying in her arms and looking for his mother, I always feel very sad.
The child's nickname is Xiaoxiao, a task assigned to her by Mr. Li. She was very young, but she had just learned to speak but got this disease, and she was even isolated because of the prominent disease, unable to touch her mother who had never left.
The smiling mother did not cry, but asked Aheng to take good care of the child. She took a lot of chocolate candies and said that she liked to eat.
A Heng knew that the child had pneumonia and could not touch any irritating food, but he couldn't bear it, so he collected the candy and coaxed him with candy while holding a smile.
Laughing is very noisy. He always stretched out his little hand to grab the mask on her face. He had never seen Ah Heng before. He just yelled vaguely: "Chiji."
A Heng smiled, took Xiaoxiao into his arms and fed him a meal, and said, "Wrong, it's sister... sister, sister, smile."
Laughing and giggling: "jiji, chick, chick... chick."
The little head is tilted, the hair is soft, smiling, childish and cute.
Gu Feibai who stayed with him always frowned and warned, "Don't get too close to him. Although he is a child, he is still a patient after all."
A Heng said, "Although he is a patient, he is still a child. In this way, do you think it makes sense?"
Gu Feibai glanced at her lightly, tightened his fingers, and left proudly.
Different road non-phase plan.
Xiaoxiao’s illness was not very serious at first, but then suddenly she developed a fever at night. The child can't get strong injections, Xiaoxiao has always had a high fever, ice compress, alcohol bath, and cooling blanket have all been tried, but no effect.
The attending physician said: "The child is dying, let the parents know."
A Heng hugged Xiaoxiao and froze for a whole night, with his forehead close to him, mechanically changing a towel to wipe his body, she said: "Smile, wait, mom will be here soon, soon. "
It was ridiculous but slept very soundly and sweetly. Her little hand held a few chocolate candies tightly, and she didn't lose her hand until the dawn was shining. Little child, the body is still very soft, but gradually, it is cold, cold...
When the smiling mother arrived, she snatched the child from her hand and cried bitterly. She cried and beat Ah Heng: "You pay back my smile, smile, my smile!"
Aheng looked at her, took off the mask, and gently bowed his head to say sorry.
When I turned around, the corridor of the hospital was very deep and deep, with no sunlight, no lights, and it was dark and cold.
Behind him, there was Gu Feibai's voice, and he shouted: "Wen Heng."
Ah Heng did not look back, dressed in white, with weak shoulders. She hasn't contacted anyone for two months and stayed at this hospital day and night.
Holding the public phone in the corridor of the hospital, she said softly: "Yanxi, you know what, my first patient has passed away."
She said: "Yanxi, you don't know what a cute child that is, he laughs every day, like a kitten nestled in my arms, calling me jiji. He likes to eat chocolate candy, because he sleeps at night She wets the bed and rubs her eyes for jiggling. But, I always wear a mask... He doesn't even know what I look like..." As she squatted on the ground, she finally choked and wept bitterly.
"Yanxi, what should I do? Yanxi, I'm sad, tell me what should I do..."
"Yanxi..." She called that person's name, broken, fragile, and sad for seeking faith.
Not far away, standing the proud and deserted man, looking at her back, his eyes were calm, but his eyes were red.
This phone has long been broken, how could she be able to dial it?
It's just a sustenance, nothing more.
How could she be willing to make that person worry about her?
It was just talking to himself, really emotional, really painful, really... longing.
He has never really seen Yanxi in her mouth, even if he has heard the voice on his phone, even if that person is on the other side of the phone every time, and said in a low voice, "Thank you for taking care of Aheng, thank you ."
But Ah Heng, never even knew that when she fled from City B to City H, a man followed all the way until she was safely sent to his side.
For two whole autumns and winters, the man said, it's cold, can you stay with her more?
Can you buy her more candy?
Can you take her to an amusement park?
Can you tell her every day that you are amazing, baby?
Can you...give her a warm home?
Can it?
He and her can be very close, holding her hand, but don't know that she is afraid of loneliness, afraid of being denied, and likes to eat sweets. The biggest dream in life is to be a good wife and mother.
Even on the day she ran away, the boy who was often strong and noble on TV, and the fierce man who often raised his eyebrows, still asked him in a low voice: "Can you say "Happy Birthday" to her at midnight on January 10th. '."
How sad, he said that he loved this woman very deeply, and he did not know her birthday.
He often asked the beautiful teenager who called in a cold voice: "In what capacity are you talking to me?"
The person named Yanxi is no longer as sharp as he is. He is often at a loss, and said in embarrassment: "I'm sorry, you might be able to treat me as her father or brother. It's the same mood for marrying a daughter and a younger sister. ,please understand."
However, whose father and brother did the best, they often mentioned H City in a gentle tone when they even appeared on the show, saying that it was such a wonderful place, beautiful scenery and beautiful scenery, and buried me there when I died in old age. Right.
What a great place, what a great place, with your A Heng, my future wife, and the mother of my children.
Gu Feibai couldn't speak, and the scene that flashed through his mind only flashed through.
All the dust disappeared. He missed him, just fascinated by that little girl in city B.
Back then, beside the little boy, there was a little girl wearing a soft sweater. When the mask was taken off, she smiled gently and said to him, sorry.
"Sorry, I am not the person you were looking for."
It was 1999.
In 2003, Gu Feibai stretched out his hand, pulled up the gentle woman in the white coat, and said, "Silly girl, stop crying."
He smiled with red eyes and handed her the phone: "It's just a miss, how difficult it is."
It was already June when Mr. Li took them back to school.
At that time, the entire school was closed and a ban was imposed. All students in the school were not allowed to leave the school privately, or they would be expelled from school.
A few days after Ah Heng returned to the dormitory, people in the building had fever one after another and were sent to the school hospital for isolation. Later, two were diagnosed in the school hospital.
Therefore, they have to be isolated and observed in the dormitory for half a month.
Xiao Wu is very sad, all day long: "My man, he finally came to H City once, I don't know if I can catch up!"
A Heng thought, and stammered to ask her: "Fifth Sister...what are you saying?"
Xiao Wubai glanced at her: "I have no conscience, I only know that I am happy with Gu Feibai in the hospital. Yanxi announced a few days ago that he will completely withdraw from the public eye after hosting a large-scale condolences tour of China. H City Z Great Hall It's the last stop."
Ah Heng was dumbfounded, Nane: "He didn't tell me. I called him and he didn't say anything..."
Xiao Wu asked: "Then what did you say?"
"I said I was still alive and healthy, and recently the whole school was quarantined. I hadn’t eaten sugar for a long time. He said he was still alive and was alive very well. Then his school did not quarantine and he didn’t like sugar. It’s been a long time since I had any sugar...
Xiao Wu vomited blood, suppressed the urge to slap the two children to death, then sighed and looked at her: "Now you know, Yanxi is indeed coming."
Aheng asked: "When?"
Xiao Wu said: "Five days later."
Ahenglei: "Then we are still in isolation..."
The child's head at five o'clock: "Why are you so stupid, so stupid? I asked a male classmate to meet him downstairs. We are on the second floor, so I can definitely turn it out!"
A Heng was frustrated: "Just go, so many people may not be able to see him."
Xiaowu clenched his fists and bared his teeth: "Yanxi's last host, we will wait to take a seat at the entrance of the auditorium at noon! I still don't believe it!"
Then, the two children turned out with great pains.
Then, suddenly looking back, I found that I didn't have a ticket. It was a tragedy...
Xiao Wu vomits blood: "Thousands count, my old lady forgot to ask for a ticket."
Looking at the gray hand over the wall, our child was crying: "Fifth sister, you said you must see Yanxi, I haven't seen him for three months, Yanxi!"
Xiao Wu smiled: "Or, let's listen to a noise outside, and Yan Xi is the boss of the host."
Ah Heng continued to cry, patted the door of the auditorium: "Yanxi!"
Missing is such a thing, the child is suffocated, suffocated, constipated, and it's okay if it can't remember it. But the key is that you don't give people a chance. Finally, your sweetheart comes to you, but you are blocked by a door.
To you, you can't block, you can't block!
A man with glasses who looked like an assistant came over, pulled the glasses to the bridge of his nose, compared the photos in his hands for a long time, and pulled the child's braids: "Girl, is that you, are you Wen Heng?"
A Heng mournfully turned his head: "Who are you?"
The man with glasses smiled, "Why have you lost so much weight than the picture?"
Aheng: "Who are you?"
Man with glasses: "Oh, forgot to say, I am Yanxi's assistant. He asked me to look at you and take you directly to the VIP seat."
In an instant, the fragrance of birds and flowers in this world is full of vitality in all seasons.
Xiao Wu brightened his eyes, grabbed A Heng and slid in, holding the light stick, proudly sitting in the first row amidst the crowd.
Cough, the director of the Academic Affairs Office on the left, and the deputy director of the Academic Affairs Office on the right.
Just waved the light stick for a while and shouted "DJ Yan, I love you, just like a mouse loves rice." Someone poked her at the back: "Child, be quiet."
Xiao Wu turned his head and took a look, oh, so familiar and kind old grandpa, this is not...this is...isn't the principal? Tears ran, looking at the stage, mother, man, you really know how to arrange a seat.
Yanxi saw them come in during the program, smiled, and continued to concentrate, the sound was clear, and the teenager was bright.
Aheng sat in the audience and looked at him seriously.
Usually...it's not the same. It seems that the whole body is exuding the light of midsummer fireflies, soft and beautiful, but not clear.
Xiao Wu looked at the program schedule and screamed: "Aheng Aheng, for a while, Yanxi has another song, what is the sea of ​​autumn."
A Heng took a breath: "He sings?"
"What's wrong?" Xiao Wu wondered.
Aheng replied: "You can find earplugs first, don't blame me if you are deaf for a while."
Xiao Wu got excited: "What? You don't know how good Yanxi's MyPrayer is. I live by pointing to that song for three meals a day. I tell you, you can't live with him in a house. Just slander him!"
A Heng: "Am I slandering him? Pull it down, just the lack of tone..."
Then, unable to remember whether it was the fourth or fifth program from the bottom, Yanxi took the microphone and stood in the center of the stage. The man seemed to be singing with his life.
Often wake up in the middle of the night and dream lonely
If you open the window, you can see the sea
Does it exist when it is forgotten
He chose to leave and denied love
Since that day I found myself
Some part is dead and don't want to have a future
The sea does not understand the people who make tide
Won't come back after summer
Like footprints on the beach, love is still clear
Wait for time to bury
Never understand that love can be replaced
I am confused and dare not reach out to love again
I miss summer in a gray and blue mood
That autumn sea
Often wake up in the middle of the night and dream lonely
If you open the window, you can see the sea
Does it exist when it is forgotten
The sea does not understand the people who make tide
Won't come back after summer
Like footprints on the beach, love is still clear
Wait for time to bury
Never understand that love can be replaced
I am confused and dare not reach out to love again
I miss summer in a gray and blue mood
That autumn sea
Never understand that love can be replaced
I am confused and dare not reach out to love again
I miss summer in a gray and blue mood
That autumn sea
He sang "When it was forgotten, did it exist", adjusted the steps, walked to the forefront of the stage, bent over, took out a blue transparent candy from his suit pocket, looked at Ah Heng deeply, and gently fed Into her mouth. Then smiled and petted, touched her head, leaned back, lying on the stage, with a bright forehead, looking at the sky, holding a microphone in one hand, in the crowd, singing a soul-saving song on his lips.
He sang, he chose to leave, and also denied love.
He said that he never understood that love can be replaced.
The sea never understood, but, my dear, do you understand?
Do you understand?