Chapter 567: I will grow old with him, just every day.

The alarm sound of the monitoring instrument stopped, as if telling Su Yunjin, what has been completely over.
Su Yunjin shook his head and instinctively refused to accept the facts.
She did not believe that Jiang Yan had left.
Their children have just been born, and Jiang's spirit is getting better and better. He should be better, listen to the child calling his father, and watch the child grow up.
How can he just leave?
Su Yun Jin Xin as the blade is cutting, giant
big pain surrounded her in a small space, she opened her mouth and silently crying, like breathing, but the tears flow down her tears and fall on the newly born Shen Yuechuan face.
Shen Yuechuan, who just came to this world, felt like he felt something. He moved his hands and feet and suddenly burst into tears.
It was at this time that the attending doctor and several experts rushed to the ward.
When I looked at the monitoring instrument, the attending doctor knew that the hope was not great. After checking it, he took off his glasses and looked at the nurse heavily: "The patient has no vital signs. Death time: October 12, xxxx Point 44."
Su Yunjin suddenly realized that the doctor was announcing the death of Jiang Yan.
She climbed up, like a rescuer's driftwood, holding the doctor's hand: "Doctor, beg you not to give up. You save Jiang Yan, save him, okay? Maybe he can wake up like before! We The child has just been born, he can't leave us like this..."
Not a long sentence, Su Yunjin swallowed intermittently for a long time, tears flowed without image, the bottom of the pleading makes people feel bad.
However, Jiang Yan has no vital signs, even if he invites the most authoritative experts in the medical field, he is already unable to return to heaven.
The attending doctor took a shot of Su Yunjin's hand: "Miss Su, I am sorry, Jiang Yan has already left. The festival is sad."
Su Yunjin instinctively refused to listen to such words, and stubbornly shook his head: "No, doctor, there must be a way, I beg you to rescue him as before! Just save him back, I am willing to give everything..."
The doctor used to be accustomed to death in the hospital. However, in the face of Su Yunjin, he couldn’t help but give birth to a hidden heart. He comforted: "But the rescue is no longer useful. Miss Su, there is an old saying in your country: people can't resurrect. Jiang Yan is gone, I feel very sorry. But you still have a newborn child to take care of, you must be strong."
Su Yunjin looked at the doctor and suddenly saw the helplessness and sympathy in the doctor's eyes.
She was desperate to realize that Jiang Yan really left the world.
The person who is lying on the hospital bed and is losing his body temperature is not Jiang Yan, but the body of Jiang Yan.
Jiang Yan will never open his eyes again, watching her with gentle eyes; never open her arms to embrace her.
He will never say, Yun Jin, I love you.
He has already gone somewhere. That place, she could not arrive in her life.
In an instant, Su Yunjin was like a lot of effort, and fell to the ground and burst into tears.
The attending doctor silently put a handkerchief on the hand of Su Yunjin and explained the nurse: "Go to my office, open the drawer with the letter, and take the two letters inside."
The nurse quickly took the matter and the attending doctor handed Su Yunjin: "This is the two letters that Jiang Yan gave me a few days ago. He asked me to transfer it to you after he left."
Su Yunjin trembled with both hands and opened the letter that Jiang Yan left for her.
At the beginning of the letter, Jiang Yan said: "Yu Jin, I don't want you to see this letter. Because when you saw this letter, I must have left you. This is the last thing I want to happen."
Su Yunjin closed his eyes hard, but the tears still came out.
Jiang Yan is just like Su Yun Jin will cry, and then says:
"Yu Jin, don't cry.
"In this life, my greatest fortune is to meet you, but I am willing to get people. I can't get old with you. I got the rarest disease in the world. Really, sorry.
......
"If the heavens can see the world, I will always look at you, so Yunjin, you must live strongly - together with my share. Promise me, wait for my things to pass, you have to be happy every day, I am happy and fulfilled every day. Otherwise, I can't feel at ease.
"Yu Jin, I hope that in the days when I am not, you will be safe and smooth every day, and hope that nothing will hurt you.
"Yu Jin, this is my last time to write your name, I love you."
......
"啪嗒", Su Yunjin's tears fell on the white stationery, opened a pool of water, he took the letter into his arms, close to the heart of the position, and finally can not restrain, burst into tears.
Other doctors and nurses saw them and left. The attending doctor put his hand on Su Yunjin's shoulder: "I feel very sorry, as the movie said: There are always some people in this world who can't grow old."
For a long time, Su Yunjin raised his head and raised his lips with tears: "Doctor, I will be old with him, just one day."
The attending doctor stunned and took a shot of Su Yunjin's shoulder and then left the ward.
Since Su Yunjin said this, he has reason to believe that she will face Jiang Yan’s death.
As it turns out, the attending doctor did not guess wrong.
Su Yunjin suppressed the pain, calmly informed the friends of Jiang Yan's death, and gave Jiang Yan a memorial service, and then let Jiang Yan sleep in the ground in a sunny day.
No friend does not comfort Su Yunjin, and Su Yunjin always pretends to be a strong answer: "I can hold it."

Do you need us to help you take care of your children?
said the friend,
Yu Jin, you just gave birth to a child, your body is very weak, and you have suffered such a big blow. We are worried...

"Don't worry." Su Yunjin interrupted his friend. "When Jiang lived in the intensive care unit, I had expected this day. Although it is difficult to accept, I have to go through this pass. The child is now me. The biggest spiritual support, let him stay with me, there will be no problem."
Su Yunjin thought that he could bite his teeth and the friends believed and supported her, but the facts were much harder than she had imagined.
Because Su Hongyuan picked this opportunity, constantly harassed and slammed Su Yunjin, and even used all the relationships, so that the hospital and the students in the study circle reminded Su Yunjin to pay back.
Su Yunjin not only accepts the fact that Jiang Yan died, but also takes care of a newly born child and faces a huge debt.
All of these things she could kneel down and make her collapse. After the house expired, she was driven out of the apartment by the landlord. The cash on her hand could not be paid for the rent of the cheapest slum.
She can only take her children to her friends.
The newly born Shen Yuechuan, sensible things are disturbing. When he is hungry, he rarely cries, sleeps all night, sleeps most of the day, and occasionally squints, he just slips black. Eyes look at the ceiling.
The more he is like this, the more Su Jinjin is depressed, she prefers the child crying and crying, making her upset, and not wanting the newborn child to accompany her to silence.
Because the more silent she is, the more she feels desperate to explode.
When I noticed that I was abnormal, Su Yunjin found that she began to have hallucinations.
She always felt that Jiang Yan was still alive, and when he heard the sound of opening the door, he would raise his head subconsciously, smiled and looked over, and cried: "Jiang Yan."
But what I saw was often a friend who came back from work.
In the middle of the night, she always felt that Jiang Yan was around. Or she is just as calm as she was in the arms of Jiang Yan.
But when I reached out and touched the surroundings, only the cold air was touched.
She always felt that Jiang Yan called her, and she was pleased with joy.
But in response to her, there is only endless silence.
Su Yunjin felt desperate and depressed. Finally, one day, she hit the Shen Yuechuan who was quietly watching the ceiling. Shen Yuechuan looked at her and burst into tears.
She woke up like a dream, crying and holding Shen Yuechuan, but she couldn't help her children.
My friend came back from work and saw the mother and son crying together and asked: "Yu Jin, what happened?"
Su Yunjin handed the child to a friend and rushed into the bath. The room washed a face with cold water.
When she looked up, she saw herself from the mirror, her face was yellow, her hair was sloppy, her pupils were scattered...
This is where Su Yunjin is clearly a person she does not know.
In the past, the normal Su Yunjin, how can I start with a child?
Su Yunjin confessed to the situation with friends, and talked to a friend who studied psychology for two hours. The friend told her heavily: "Yu Jin, you have depression."
To add insult to injury, Su Hongyuan also found Su Yunjin at this time, and asked Su Yunjin to return to China to see Mr. Cui who has always been obsessed with Su Yunjin.
Su Yunjin naturally would not agree. Su Hongyuan heard that she was suffering from depression and threatened: "If you don't go back, I will apply to the court to raise the child."
"What do you rely on!" Su Yunjin was emotional. "I am his biological mother. You have nothing to do with him!"
"Just because you are suffering from depression, you may end your life at any time, and you are more likely to end the life of that child!" Su Hongyuan grasped the full look. "And, you are now penniless! I am with that child, blood. It’s awkward, I’ll use a little more relationship. Do you guess the court will award the child’s temporary custody to me?

Su Yunjin believes that Su Hongyuan did this kind of thing, and in order to conceal the child she had born to Mr. Cui, once the child fell to Su Hongyuan, he did not know which one to send.
However, Shen Yuechuan stayed with her, and it was always dangerous. She didn't know that she would put a heavier hand on her child or a heavier hand on her.
When Jiang Yan left, Su Yunjin was not so desperate.
At that time, her life, the world she saw, was gray, and she thought of death countless times.
Finally, she decided to give up Shen Yuechuan.
Since she can't take care of Shen Yuechuan, she may endanger the child's life at any time. Su Hongyuan also looks at the child, it is better to gamble once, maybe, the child will have a better life.
At that time, Su Yunjin had decided to let go of Shen Yuechuan and end his life.
Therefore, she did not leave too many clues on Shen Yuechuan's body, only to indicate that his biological mother was a city person, and asked the kind passerby to send the abandoned child to the orphanage.