Chapter 583: I forgive you

Since Su Yunjin told Shen Yuechuan his life experience, Shen Yuechuan’s attitude towards her has always been, not close, but not too alienated.
It is this kind of cold and not hot, so that Su Yunjin can't figure out the thoughts of Shen Yuechuan.
Until this moment, Su Yunjin suddenly realized.
Shen Yuechuan is not unwilling to forgive her, nor is she hating her.
He just fears that he can't get better.
Yeah, why didn’t she think about it? When she was as strong as Jiang Yan, she was frank after learning that she was ill. His heart is fearful, let alone Shen Yuechuan?
The difference is that Shen Yuechuan is not afraid of the disease itself, but is afraid that his departure will bring pain to the people around him.
Therefore, he not only stimulated Xiao Xiao to give up, but also refused to get close to her biological mother.
Shen Yuechuan thought that as long as he had no feelings, his departure would be nothing to them. Even if that day really came, it was just like a calm lake being thrown into a stone. After a circle of ripples opened, it would soon return to calm.
In fact, after knowing his illness, Shen Yuechuan has been thinking about her and Xiao Yu.
Su Yunjin covered his face with both hands and suddenly burst into tears.
Even when she saw that Jiang Yan was too thin to be humanoid, she was not so sad and sad.
"Ms.," a passing nurse stopped to look at Su Yunjin. "Can I help you?"
Su Yunjin waved his hand: "I am fine, thank you."
The people who enter and leave this hospital are not weak in economic strength. From the perspective of Su Yunjin's dress, the nurse can conclude that this is a successful woman.
But in front of the disease, everyone is equally vulnerable. The nurse can't confirm whether Su Yunjin is sick with a family member or if he has a problem with his body. He just handed her a paper towel and walked away silently.
Su Yunjin wiped his tears and went to the office of henry.
At this time, the conversation between henry and Shen Yuechuan just ended. When I saw Su Yunjin, henry smiled and said: "You came just right, I just want to take Yuechuan to check."
Su Yunjin nodded: "I am with him."
The wrinkles of henry's mouth were bent deeper, and the assistant led Shen Yuechuan to the inspection room of the first inspection project. Su Yunjin followed behind them.
Shen Yuechuan asked, all the inspection items add up, it takes about two hours.
For the impatience of Shen Yuechuan, it is simply a bad news.
But reluctantly, she still has to accept one check after another, some checks he heard, some are unheard of, some henry hands-on, some are assistants to complete...
After a lapse of more than a decade, Shen Yuechuan once again tasted the taste of being
arranged
.
Although it is said that this time he is "the doctor" and the doctor is not malicious, he still has to emphasize that this feeling is not good at all.
Shen Yuechuan's only acceptable, probably only Su Yunjin's gentle and considerate companionship.
There are too many items to check. I have to run up and down several floors. Su Yunjin has been following it. I have not said a tired word and helped him fill in some information.
For each project, Su Yunjin and Henry communicated, asking about the purpose of the inspection of this project, how long to check.
Shen Yuechuan did not go to the hospital, but he has always been a person.
One person is registered, one person faces the doctor, and one person pays for the medicine.
He never felt that there was anything. After all, it was not a fragile little girl, and she did not need her relatives or friends to accompany her.
Now he knows that there are relatives who are with him, even if she can't help you share the pain, but it is still different from the state of a person.
As the saying goes, one can solve all the problems, which is great, but there are friends and family to stay with me, always not alone.
Moreover, the peace of mind that is not afraid of anything, even when it is a person, will never be there.
Two hours later, Henry told Shen Yuechuan that the inspection was completed.
Shen Yuechuan’s long sigh of relief:
When can I get the results?

"Patience waits for two days." Henry patted Shen Yuchuan's shoulder. "This time, I have to be as careful and careful, don't worry. Believe medicine, believe me, ok?"
Shen Yuechuan has no choice but to smile and nod.
"Okay." Henry added, "You can go. It is a good choice to have a meal or a cup of coffee."
Out of the outpatient department building, Shen Yuechuan stopped to look at Su Yunjin: "Let's have dinner together."
Su Yunjin was on the brow, but still tried to suppress the excitement in the voice: "Okay."
Shen Yuechuan took out his mobile phone: "Do you want to eat Chinese food or Western food?"
"Chinese food." Su Yunjin's tone reveals helplessness. "These have been tired of Western food for more than a decade. I want to eat authentic Chinese food, but also drive a long way. The domestic conditions are so convenient, do not use white. use."
Shen Yuechuan does not matter, listen to Su Yunjin said, made a call to chase the moon, let the manager temporarily arrange a two-person position for him.
In the phone call, Shen Yuechuan had already pulled the car out of the garage. He stopped and opened the door for Su Yunjin.
The hospital is not far from chasing the moon. In less than 30 minutes, Shen Yuechuan’s car stopped at the front of the chase. A waiter came up to open the door and led Shen Yuechuan and Su Yunjin into the restaurant.
After the seat, Shen Yuechuan handed the menu to Su Yunjin, but Su Yunjin did not see it. He blurted out and ordered a few dishes.
Shen Yuechuan noticed that Su Yunjin’s is the 100-year-old signature dish of this restaurant. It’s been strange to have a menu from the beginning of the restaurant.
Su Yunjin seems to have seen the doubts of Shen Yuechuan and said with a smile: "This is my favorite tea restaurant. I haven't eaten it for many years, but I still remember the taste and dishes here."
She seemed to be in a memory. After a pause, she continued: "In that year, I told this book to your father. We made an appointment and returned to China to eat the signature dishes."
After that, Su Yunjin looked at Shen Yuechuan, his eyes became a little fascinating - Shen Yuechuan really looks like Jiang Yan.
The only difference, perhaps only temperament.
At that time, Jiang Yan gave people a feeling of clean and comfortable, without any threat. The gentleman had to make people want to approach.
Shen Yuechuan is the opposite. He is scornful and elegant, like a wind that doesn't take root anywhere. The girl should have been afraid of him.
His life is desperate, his facial features are really good, and the superior conditions give him a fatal attraction. His words and deeds and his gestures are full of strong attraction, which makes people involuntarily focus their attention. in his body.
It is no wonder that calm and rational, such as Xiao Yu, have not escaped the palm of Shen Yuechuan's palm, just like Su Yunjin can't forget Jiang Yan in this life.
Su Yunjin’s smile permeated a bitter bitterness:
Unfortunately, he still didn’t taste the old signature dishes here. His taste has always been very light, so he liked the dishes of this cuisine...

Shen Yuechuan thought for a moment and asked: "When he left, is it painful?"
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"No." Su Yunjin said, "When he left, you were in his arms, I was by his side. He should only have regrets, no pain."
In the heart of Shen Yuechuan, there was something violently tumbling. He lowered his eyes and tried to control the picture that he would not let himself imagine.
He asked the wrong person. When his father left, the painful person should be Su Yunjin.
Su Yunjin wiped the tears from the corner of his eyes and took a blue envelope from the bag and handed it to Shen Yuechuan.
Born in the Internet age, Shen Yuechuan has not received a paper letter for more than ten years, and could not help but ask: "What is this?"
"Your father left it to you." Su Yunjin said, "Before he left, he left two letters in henry. One is mine. This one... He told henry to tell me, wait until you are 18 years old. You. Sorry, I have been late for many years."
Shen Yuechuan took the letter, and the big palm was less than a centimeter thick. He took it in his hand, but he felt that he was heavy.
This is the only connection between him and his father who has never met.
"I don't know what he said to you in the letter." So many years, Su Yunjin has not opened this letter, "I am afraid he blames me for abandoning you, so I never dare to look."
Shen Yuechuan is like collecting important things like a good thing: "When I chose to give up, I really don't blame you, you don't need to blame yourself."
"..." Su Yunjin looked at Shen Yuechuan and wanted to say something, but he couldn't say anything.
"In that case, it is the best choice for you to give up." Shen Yuechuan said, "Otherwise, I don't know where it will be sent by Su Hongyuan. It is impossible to know Bo Yan and Mu Qi. My life may be It’s worse than being in an orphanage.

Su Yunjin trembles and asks: "Do you really think so?"
"Yes." Shen Yuechuan said, "When I was young, I really blamed you, even hated you and my father. But now, I have already let go, you don't need to worry about it anymore, I am serious. of."
Su Yunjin still did not hold back, tears burst into the air.
She rubbed a paper towel and wiped the tears from the corner of her eye. The tears seemed to never be wiped out. Finally, she simply covered her face with her hand and the paper towel pressed on her eyes.
The abandonment of Shen Yuechuan has always been a knot in the heart of Su Yunjin.
Over the years, this knot has been in her heart, never seen the day, but has maintained a fresh vitality. From time to time, it tightens and makes her suffer a lot of pain. It is more regrettable and sad than Jiang's departure.
Under this kind of inhuman spiritual torture, the nightmare has troubled Su Yunjin all the year round. She always dreams of Jiang Yan, or Shen Yuechuan at the time of her birth.
She dreamed that Jiang Yan accused her, and even their only children could not take care of them. Dreaming of the baby's Shen Yuechuan grew up little by little, but told her that she would hate her forever, never forgive her.
Su Yunjin once thought that she had no chance of compensation anymore, and she would never get forgiveness from her children.
So for so many years, she did not even try to find Shen Yuechuan.
Until she received a call from Henry, she suddenly realized that she could not be so irresponsible. She could not let her children repeat the tragedy of Jiang Yan just because of her own fear.
Later, she began to look for Shen Yuechuan, but Lu Boyan intended to protect Shen Yuechuan's information. She searched all the orphanages in the United States for nothing.
But the of luck is still willing to pay attention to her, she set foot on the wedding of Su Yicheng, set foot on the country of more than 20 years.
As soon as she got out of the airport, she found her only son in the most familiar place...