Chapter 2342: I find that I like him, but I don't deserve it

Chapter 2342 I found that I like him, but I don’t deserve it
Lin You thinks Ji Lingyuan is the devil!
That day, Ji Lingyuan really bought her 30 copies of the college entrance examination papers, a thick stack of nearly 1,000 yuan.
He also said: These test papers will accompany you to the college entrance examination. They are your spiritual food and a good helper for your study. Do them well. After you finish them, you can overcome the calamity.
However, Lin You still didn't understand why Ji Lingyuan gave her so many, so many beautiful clothes, accessories, and shoes. She obviously only lost his two sweaters...
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The Jincheng Twenty-Three High School where Lin You is located is Jincheng's ordinary high school.
The class she was in was the class with the worst grades in the 23rd Middle School.
This class has gathered all kinds of problematic students who smoke, drink, fight, and burn their heads. Lin You is definitely a small and transparent existence in it. Because no one cares about her, the teacher has already given up this class.
But this day.
"Lin You!"
Lin You, wearing a freshman school uniform, answered the podium and took the Chinese test paper.
She didn't dare to look at the teacher, but she suddenly heard...
"One hundred and twenty-nine points."
Every time Lin You listened, he seemed to have a myocardial infarction.
but.
what?
How many points?
She was dumbfounded, and standing by the podium, the noisy classroom suddenly became quiet.
"This time, the highest score for the whole class is 129 points for Lin You! Lin You have made a lot of progress! There is also mathematics. I heard from the math teacher that you have an unprecedented 88 points on the math test this week, with a total score of 150 and 88 points on the test. Yes, but...your little head is awakened?"
Lin You recovered, holding his own Chinese test paper.
She took the test paper with a total score of 150... 129 points?
Because it is the worst class of the year, no one would suspect her cheating.
But Lin You was even more surprised.
Because her grades suddenly improved by leaps and bounds, many middle-class and top-class hard-working "students" began to use the break between classes to greet Lin You.
"Student Lin, did you make up class outside, right?"
"Which teacher is giving you supplementary Chinese lessons? Please introduce!"
"Is the teacher who gives you supplementary lessons expensive? You are one-to-one tutoring, right? I'm in the first class.
Even when Lin You was over from school, classmates rushed to go home with her.
Of course, their intention couldn't be more obvious. They wanted to see what was sacred to her to make up lessons.
Lin You naturally didn't give them this opportunity.
She would drive by herself every day to school, but she would park her car in a concealed place 500 meters away from the school, which was eye-catching. After the evening study that night, she ran all the way and finally drove away.
On this day, Lin You suddenly discovered that the neon lights along the way home were so dazzling, and the world could be so wonderful.
Especially when she rushed to Ji Lingyuan’s home to continue the make-up class and excitedly told him that when she had scored 129 in the Chinese test, Ji Lingyuan smiled at her for the second time, put her arms around her little head, and leaned over her head and kissed him gently. a bit……
Her heart trembled.
At the same time, a strange feeling began to take root in her heart, spreading infinitely...
"Why kiss my head!"
Lin You hugged her cerebellum broadly, looking up, her cheeks bursting red, her tone of voice trembling.
Lingyuan condescendingly looked at Lin You, with the corners of his lips curled up, in a joking low tone: "What reason do you need to kiss a pig?"
What stuff? Pro pig?
Is she a pig in his eyes?
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At the age of 19, at the age of the beginning of love, Lin You, like other girls, will have his own careful thoughts at this age.
What's more, Lingyuan is such a powerful, handsome man with a mysterious temperament.
This man, standing in the crowd is a dazzling presence.
Any girl will have a heartbeat when they see it.
Lin Youzhen had already carefully controlled the thoughts he shouldn't have towards that man.
Because of the growing environment since childhood, Lin You’s bones are full of low self-esteem. She is naturally pessimistic and has to take medicine to control her depression, but when facing others, she always strives to maintain an "upward optimism" attitude.
Only when she is alone can she expose her true self.
She thinks wildly, is extremely pessimistic, and constantly denies herself.
She is still the one who wants to die alone in the snow area.
Even knowing that the world is beautiful, she still thinks about whether there is a way to die every day when she sleeps, without causing trouble to others.
When Lin You found that she was uncontrollably in love with such a man who "impossible to like herself", she found that her depression became worse.
Lin You continued to study hard and while sprinting for the college entrance examination, she would secretly go to the psychiatric department.
Jincheng's famous mental illness hospital, specialist outpatient clinic.
Professor Rong is Lin You’s attending doctor, a well-known psychiatrist and clinical psychologist.
Clinic room.
Professor Rong and Lin You interviewed face to face.
"Congratulations to the young children for the rapid progress in learning. How have you been? Looking at your circle of friends, you are happier than before."
Lin You sat on the comfortable sofa blankly, her eyes blank.
Compared to the innocence, softness and cuteness in front of Lingyuan, Lin You at this moment is like a child who has given up struggling and is enveloped in darkness.
She laughed at herself when she heard the doctor's question, unable to hide her low self-esteem.
"Indeed, I have lived for nineteen years. This time is my happiest time, even if it is short."
Lin You will come back to the clinic every month to dispense medicine.
Last month she was delayed because of her busy studies, so it was delayed until April.
"Tell me, who helped you, made your grades soar, and made you happy."
Lin You looked down, in a cold tone, still ridiculing his own emphasis, as if he was an ugly monster who had tainted others.
She smiled sarcastically, then looked at the doctor: "I like the tenant who made up for me."
It took Lin You an hour to repeat everything with Ji Lingyuan and his doctor.
At the end, I added a sentence.
"I know I'm not worthy, I'm ugly, doctor, do you know how good-looking he is? I'll show you."
Lin You suddenly stood up, took the phone, and clicked on the album.
Sadly, she secretly took all Ji Lingyuan's photos and hid them in hidden albums, and she didn't even have the courage to put them in the open position of her albums.
Sitting next to the doctor, Lin You looked at Ji Lingyuan's picture, and suddenly cried.
"Professor Rong, do you think he is very good-looking? I am stupid, stupid and ugly, I am useless, I am not worthy of him.
"I'm already very careful! I'm really very careful! You make me try to live optimistically. I insist on taking medicine every day. I study hard, but I just can't control it."
"Seeing him every day is my happiest time. When I leave him every day, I will fall into a dead end, constantly spitting on myself and telling myself that it's okay, but I can't help but like it..."
"I was walking on the road with him, I only dared to lower my head."
"He kissed me, but he said he kissed a pig..."
"I know I'm ugly..."
(End of this chapter)