Chapter 191: Have been raped

"No, I like to listen to the truth. Besides, I don't hate you." Zillog didn't know that someone who loves someone will hate someone. She thinks she is pretending to be Qiao Yushi in her whole heart. Not so fierce emotions towards others.
In fact, she has always had a question in her heart. Lu Xiufeng always said that he was sorry for her, whether he had raped her before.
"It's like this. The first time we met was in the square. A car almost ran into you. I saved you. Later you admired me. You were only sixteen years old and you followed me all day long. Turn. I used to like you very much, but because you are young, I like you like my sister. But sometimes you stick to me too much, and I hate you a bit. When you were 18, I Pursue a woman, and finally chased her. On her birthday, she agreed with me to go home with me for the night, in Chengnan Villa. I took her into my room and just kissed..." Having said that, Lu Xiufeng was a little embarrassed, his voice was much lower.
"I remember very clearly, she was very devoted, and I was also very excited. But at this moment, the light in the room suddenly turned on, and you were lying on the bed in a silky translucent pajamas..."
God, Zillog buzzed her head, why would she do that? At eighteen, lying on a man's bed in pajamas? Why did she do that, just because she likes this man?
Now it seems that he has nothing so worthy of her liking.
"What happened later?" She was a little nervous, not knowing what unexpected things would happen next.
She really didn't want those things to happen to her, but it seemed that it really happened to her.
"Later, Song Wen's tone was terrible, and he ran out crying at the time. I chased her behind, and she told me that she would never forgive me and let me not find her again. She drove her car fast The ground left the villa, and I squatted on the ground in frustration at my door, not to mention how uncomfortable."
"I think of you, it's all because of your destruction. I just went back to my room and asked why you appeared and why you came to destroy my good marriage. You came out by yourself. You squatted beside me, whispered Apologize to me, you said you were wrong. You asked me to forgive you, you said you didn’t mean it on purpose. I asked you who made you do this, and you said you did it yourself. You said You just don’t want others to take me away. You want me to wait for you to grow up so that I can be my bride. You were only eighteen years old, what kind of bride? I thought I loved Song Wenyu very much, so I I hate you, I pushed you to the ground..."
Zillog closed his eyes, it turned out to be true, really he raped her? It's no wonder that Qiao Yushi had suspected that the first time she had been taken away by him.
"Stop talking! Stop talking, I understand." She didn't have the courage to listen, she didn't want to know such cruel things.
"You understand? No, with your expression, you think I raped you?" Lu Xiufeng asked her, it turns out that she had misunderstood him so much.
"Isn't it?" she asked bitterly.
"No! I almost raped you at the time, but when I knocked you down, you cried and screamed. I think you are only eighteen years old and I really can't do it. But I am not reconciled. I shouted at you, let you go. I said I would never like you, all your thoughts about me are wishful thinking. I said you are the ugliest girl in the world, I said you are The worst-hearted girl in the world. I was so crazy at the time that I would say such excessive words. Then you got up from the place, you cried so much, and ran out of my yard like crazy. I I just thought, you deserved to be in an accident, so I ignored you. After I calm down, I think about your father’s kindness to our family, and think about how cute you were before. I still don’t worry about it. I looked for you everywhere and was finally caught I found you. You walked swayingly on the road, desperate, with loose hair, like that, it's like being... raped. I rushed over to stop you. You saw me and yelled at me:'Lu Xiufeng, I hate you! Don't come here, I hate you, I will hate you forever!' Just after you said, a car rushed over, you He rushed into the car without hesitation."
"I was so frightened that it was too late to save you. The driver was also terrified, got out of the car, and hurriedly got you into the car with me and sent you to the hospital. As a result, you lost your memory. I am uncle Qi Qi Aunt Liu said that I would take care of you for the rest of my life, but they refused. They said that you could be so crazy for me. They don't worry about handing you over to me. They let me go, and Qi's family can give me money to study abroad. Did you know? Xiao Gege, I never forgot the scene at that time in a day. Every detail reappeared in my mind. I am really ashamed. It was because I was too young and too impulsive to let you Thoughts of suicide occurred."
"So, you didn't me, did you?" Zillog confirmed again.
"No! No, indeed."
"Then why do you say I was raped again, what do you mean?"
"Your hair is messy, your nightdress...it seems to be torn..." Lu Xiufeng said this, feeling very embarrassed, but since he said that, he still wanted to tell everything. she was.
Expecting that she can forgive him, expecting that she will no longer punish herself, but also punish him, and give him another chance.
Zillog finally knew most of the truth. Needless to say, she must have been raped, otherwise her parents would not be so secretive.
The truth is indeed cruel, but fortunately Qiao Yushi doesn't care about it anymore.
She also wants to face life bravely, let him pass the past, she doesn't want to look back.
"Xiao Gege, can you forgive me? I'm wrong, I'm wrong, I have spent four years confessing. Until now I often dream that you are covered in blood, I dream that I yell at you, dream Seeing you tell me to hate me forever. Do you know how uncomfortable I feel? You can't understand that feeling. Really, I will be tortured to death by self-blame, so you give me a chance and let me take care of you. I beg you."
"I forgive you!" Zilog said, whether she was actually raped or not, she forgave him.
She has heard a saying that forgiving others is also forgiving yourself, and tolerating others is also forgiving yourself.
"Really?" Lu Xiufeng was extremely excited, and his hands trembled with excitement.
"Really! I know today what happened at that time. If I were you, I would have been angry at the time. I broke your date with the person you like, and of course you are angry. People do when they are angry. It is normal to do some extreme things and say some extreme words. Besides, you can't think that there will be so many misfortunes when I run out. Suicide in a car crash was my immature choice at the time, and I can't blame you." Ge's words were more mature and calm than her age. She really looked away and would think about things from his standpoint.
Forgiving him, the revenge in her heart is not so heavy.
"Xiao Gege, since you forgive me, give me another chance to make atonement for the past, okay?" He stretched out his hand and placed it on the table, expecting Zilog to put her little hand in his palm .
"No, I just told you, I am very happy now, Qiao Yushi loves me, I love him. Now we have talked about it, and hope to live our own lives in the future. I may have liked you and treated you very much. Obsessed, but that was all before the age of 18. I was immature at that time, and now I am different from before. I really don’t have any feelings for you. So please don’t come to me again. At the same time, those things It's all over, I forgive you, and you don't need to blame yourself anymore. I hope you can find your happiness, goodbye!" After Zillog said, he stood up again and gently smoothed his wrinkled pants.
Qiao Yushi had already turned around from the outside at this time, just in time to see Zillog walking towards him.
"Baby!" He yelled at her, attracting many people in the hall to look at him.
Yes, he wanted this effect. He wanted everyone to know that Zilog was his woman. Of course, the most important thing was to let Lu Xiufeng know.
"Hey!" Zillog agreed sweetly, speeding up his pace.
Lu Xiufeng didn't move, he always felt that these two people did it to him on purpose.
Xiao Gege, maybe she didn't show such happiness at all.
She has been raped before, which is definitely a painful thing for her.
The father said that he owed Zillog, and he should find a way to make up for it, especially since their villa was bought by the Qi family back then, and his father's work was also arranged by the Qi family back then. They owe too much to the Qi family.
He wanted to repay and atone for his sins, but Zilog didn't give him a chance.
Is he sincere enough to chase this far from M City? But she couldn't see that she was moved at all, what else could he do?
By the way, he forgot to tell her the most important thing, he likes her.
He became more and more certain that he liked her and loved her, not just guilt.
He was so stupid. After talking for so long, he didn't say the thing that moved a woman the most.
I wanted to chase them, but saw that Zilog had taken Qiao Yushi's arm, and the two entered the elevator simultaneously.
If he catches up now, I'm afraid I will have to contact Qiao Yushi directly. There was a rumor that Qiao Yu was ruthless, but he still didn't dare to challenge him, so he had to return to M City first and then slowly think of a solution.
Zillog thought Qiao Yushi would ask her what the two had talked about, but he didn't say anything, but she smelled heavy smoke from him.
He had never smoked in front of her. It seemed that he was really upset, so he would smoke.
She tightened her arms, hugged him tighter, and leaned her head on his arm, looking like a small bird.
Little thing, she wanted to reassure him.
After getting out of the elevator and returning to their room a few steps, Qiao Yushi took out his room card and opened the door.
As soon as he entered the door, Qiao Yushi hugged Zilog, pushed her up to the door, and kissed her tightly.
How afraid he was that she was gone, how afraid she would never forget that man.
She didn't run, he had the joy of being lost and regaining.