: Conclusion

The collapse is finally over. I want to say something, but I don't know where to start. Maybe there are too many complicated thoughts.
Some readers should know that collapse is not my first book in the true sense, but I have no feelings for the books I have written before, because the beginning of the previous book was decided by the editor and the outline also helped me to modify it. In a sense, I just continued to write according to that outline (the most exciting thing is that I still flutter the street).
Therefore, don't always ask me what books I have written before, it is dark history that I do n’t want to read.
But the collapse is not the same. The collapse is the first book in the true sense that I decide for myself and freely express my thoughts. I put all my effort into it.
Therefore, I was harmonized several times in the middle, and I also collapsed for a long time, but in the end it was peaceful. It may still be harmonious in the future, but it is enough to leave a trace of itself in this world.
However, there is one thing to say, don't look at my feelings now. When writing was broken, I was under a lot of pressure, and I always endured both physical and mental pressure.
I won't talk about the pressure on the body, everyone should also find that the various descriptions of the collapse are very nuanced, which are very brain-intensive.
The most important thing is the psychological pressure. It may be because of the subject matter. It is always sprayed by people. The score of QQ reading is only 5.0. The results are very bad. .
Of course, there is indeed a problem in the early writing, and it should be sprayed (I secretly tell you that I changed the broken beginning a lot, you can go back and see).
The biggest pressure is that I immersed myself.
Writing to the back, not only the plot, but also the characters inside, have a feeling of "resisting" me. This is not an exaggeration. I can feel that they are fighting against me and are unwilling to give in to the fate I have shaped for them, but In the end, I had to break their resistance and press them to the plot I arranged.
The biggest pressure is to write the pieces of Shiso.
I say this, some people may feel that I'm sensational and exaggerated, but I tell you, it's true.
After writing the perilla, I had a nightmare for a whole week.
Book friends who have researched on movies should be able to see that the shot of Shi Su died, the lens switch is film-like, that is, when I write, I have a very specific picture in my mind, I first in my mind Generate the picture and then write it out.
In the nightmare of that week, I kept dreaming about the scene where Shizu died, dreaming that she was crying, waking up with cold sweat and mental sorrow, feeling like an executioner, killing an innocent person, and the whole person was almost depressed Already.
Collapsed and written in the later period, this kind of pressure is getting heavier. I want to give up several times and do n’t write anymore, but I still support it with the encouragement of book friends and write a self-satisfactory ending (I said the ending I gave you super sweet candy, didn't I lie to you? A lot of eggs, how many did you find? O (∩_∩) O)
I believe many book friends would like me to continue to write dark stories, continue to write a troubled world, describe the ups and downs of various things.
But please allow me to refuse, because the pressure is really too great, writing this kind of book is easy to immerse and enter, and puts a lot of psychological pressure on myself.
In the future, I will definitely continue to write this kind of troubled world, but in the next book, I want to write a relatively easy and funny story, and also relax myself.
Next, you should give yourself a break of about a week. The new book will probably be issued next week. When the time comes, the new book notification will be updated here, so don't rush to delete the collection.
In the next book, although the style is completely different from this one, I still hope that everyone can support it. Without you, I have no motivation to go to this day.
In the end, criticism is motivation. I am a very open-minded person. Many people scold me. I never scolded me back. I silently kept the criticism in my heart to improve myself.
So, to those who scolded me, here is a heartfelt saying: "Your mother will increase the price of vegetables tomorrow. Goodbye."
funny.