Chapter 98:

Before opening his eyes, there was a quarrel with suppressed anger in his ears.
"Are you crazy? If she wakes up and knows you did it..."
"I only want her to live, and what else to talk about if her life is gone."
"You are a lunatic!"
"Whatever you say."
What are they arguing?
You can only faintly hear fragments of broken words, but you can't hear the specific content.
After a while, the room was quiet again, and it seemed that one of the people in the quarrel had left.
Then you feel your hand held in the palm of your hand by a thick and rough hand.
After a long silence, a feeble and exhausted sigh faded away.
"May, the weather outside today is very good, it is your favorite bright sunny day."
"You said that you think of me when you see a sunny day, because you think the color of my eyes is like the blue sky, and my hair is like golden sunlight."
"Actually, every time I hear you say this, I am very happy, and even pray that every day is a sunny day, so that you can always think of me."
The man murmured to himself, as if he was recalling some good memories, and his low and dumb voice became very soft like feathers covered in snow.
"Is this idea too greedy?"
"But I dare not let you know, because I am afraid that you will hate such a naive and greedy me."
The man gave a bitter smile, his long golden eyelashes hung down, and his dry lips were slightly straightened.
"Actually, I am not as calm and sensible as you think. I will always worry that others will take you away, afraid that you will get tired of leaving me..."
"I'm actually just an incompetent and weak coward."
He put your hand on his cheek and whispered softly: "So I beg you, wake up quickly."
"I can't bear the pain of losing you again."
The man's Adam's apple rolled hard, his tone was jerky and hoarse.
"Sorry, it's all my fault."
"If I am stronger, will I be able to protect you?"
"If I had held back my loneliness and didn't go to you, wouldn't I have brought you bad luck?"
A drop of warm liquid landed on the back of your hand.
"But I couldn't bear to miss you, so I broke the agreement to find you."
"As a result, I saw you fall in front of me again with my own eyes."
"Is this... God's punishment for me..."
The man murmured more and more repressed and painful guilt, as if squeezed out of his chest with difficulty.
It seems that no one has seen the appearance of this perfect and powerful son of God crying and weeping. No matter in front of anyone, he maintains an absolutely reassuring gentle and bright smile, as if as long as he stands in front, all difficulties will be met. Solved easily.
So people often ignore him, in fact, he is just a mortal with flesh and blood.
Like ordinary people, they will be injured and tired, and they will be sad.
Is the person who is favored by the gods necessarily happy?
No, this is actually another cruelty.
People who are too perfect and outstanding, in addition to envy, often attract people's jealousy and exclusion, naturally ignore his hard work and diligence, and attribute all his achievements to his luck and the favor of the gods.
‘Hmph, what’s so great, I can do it instead. ’
‘It’s just luck, what's to be proud of. ’
‘That arrogant expression is really unpleasant, is this looking down on me? ’
This is the heart that Renault has heard the most since he was a child, even when these people were thinking of these resentful words in their hearts, they still showed a warm and kind appearance to flatter him.
Disgusting, hypocritical, and disgusting.
But even if it is very annoying, in order to maintain the dignity and etiquette of the Duke's Mansion, Renault still had to maintain a perfect and decent smile and these people's vain and guilt.
In fact, he is no different from these hypocritical guys.
It's just because he is better, so it attracted people's resentment and jealousy.
He also tried to work hard to blend in, but usually after hearing those people's heartfelt voices and calculations, Renault became more disappointed.
Even his close relatives are the same.
His father only regarded him as a tool that he could use to climb up, but it was a pity that the old king was too suspicious. When he discovered his existence, he caused the royal family's suspicion and dissatisfaction, and his father soon abandoned him.
The mother, who was once the first person in the social circle of the imperial socialites, also suffered a drop in status because of the imperial family of the Duke’s Mansion. The nobles who had been vying to please her have alienated her and pushed her out of the social circle. She has always been a proud duke. How could the lady endure such a big gap, she vented her anger on him, the culprit, and locked him in the Duke's mansion to prevent him from going out.
It is extremely ironic that the Son of God, who has been blessed by the gods, has fallen into such a sad situation.
When he was young, in order to get the love of his mother, he did not hesitate to use his talents and abilities. The Duchess who was affected by his abilities did indeed become a good mother who loves her children, but at that time he still could not control his power, and sometimes after falling asleep, The effect of ability disappears.
Then Renault often woke up painfully in a burst of intense suffocation.
"Monster, you disgusting monster!"
His mother, with her beautiful and dignified face twisted, clung to his neck like a terrible ghost with eyes full of spite.
Renault felt very sad.
He couldn't find the meaning of living.
At that time, he even thought about giving up his life, so that he would be killed directly by his mother.
He returned his life to them.
In this way, the two owe nothing.
Only later his grandfather arrived in time to save him.
"Don't blame your mother. She has been spoiled since she was a child. She has never experienced such a disparity. In fact, she still loves you." Grandfather said to him with a heavy tone.
The boy was just silent.
Only afterwards, he stopped expecting things that he would never get. Even when his father brought his illegitimate child into the house, he was not half jealous or angry, just like watching a stranger. .
In this way, he grew up step by step, and then entered the Imperial Academy of Magic.
Reynolds thought he would enter the military establishment after a few years of academy life as plain and numb as before, but something that even he himself thought was incredible happened.
When he first saw the girl, he actually didn’t remember her very much. After all, the noble girl in the magic academy did not lack beauty, and the girl was not so beautiful that she could impress him at first sight, but from The paper with indescribable patterns that fell out of the book she wanted to borrow made him feel a little bit embarrassed.
But the girl was obviously more embarrassed and panicked than him. She ran away in a hurry without even taking the book.
That was the first time he and the girl met.
Afterwards, as if arranged by the gods, he ran into her again by chance several times, and often happened when he was confessed on the spot.
Renault didn't feel embarrassed at all. Since he was a child, his popularity among women has been quite high because of his excessively outstanding appearance and identity. It is not once or twice that he has been confessed by a girl. He has learned how to deal with such scenes.
It's just that the girl's reaction made him a little concerned.
She didn't seem to have any special thoughts about him, and the look in her eyes was calm and natural, as if he was just an ordinary senior but his age.
This seemed nothing strange to others, but Renault felt a little strange in his heart.
For the first time, he was treated as an ordinary person.
He didn't want to be a special, compelling kind of person, and he was fed up with other people's envy or envy and resentment when they looked at him.
Perhaps no one would believe that Renault's biggest dream is actually to become an ordinary mortal.
So afterwards, Renault always couldn't help but observe the dark-haired girl who was very ordinary in both presence and identity background.
She is too quiet, and rarely communicates with other people. In this academy, she is almost as transparent as a ghost.
But she has never felt frustrated by this. Instead, she concentrates on doing her own things, even if it is a trivial thing, she will do it carefully, and sometimes she will be happy because of it.
The girl doesn't seem to be greedy at all, a little progress can make her very satisfied.
It's incredible.
Obviously it is not a very outstanding and dazzling type, but once the gaze falls on her, it is difficult to look away.
Unconsciously, Renault developed the habit of habitually searching for the existence of girls in secluded corners, as if when he saw her, he would be infected by the quiet and gentle atmosphere around her, and his mind gradually became Calm down.
When the girl didn't know, he had been watching her silently.
Only gradually, just looking at her from a distance can no longer satisfy him.
He wanted to be closer to her.
In order to get close to her, Renault deliberately made himself embarrassed, squatting where the girl would pass, waiting for her to pick him up.
Because he was convinced that the easy-hearted girl could not leave him alone.
The development of the matter was indeed as he expected, and the girl also picked him back, treated his wounds and wiped his hair clean.
When she was gently touched by the girl's fingers, Renault's heart suddenly surged with an impulse to embrace her.
It's just that if he did this, she would definitely scare her.
And she wanted to drive him away.
This can't work, you have to find a way to stay.
So Renault used his most shameless means of showing weakness.
It's a pity that the girl's determination was far stronger than he thought, and despite some hesitation, she still drove him away.
But it is not without gain.
Renault found that as long as he showed a weak and disappointed expression, the girl seemed to have been stabbed in a dead spot, becoming very easy to shake her heart.
So he caught this, and began to give up his self-dignity, and tried hard to brush his presence in front of her like a tamed domestic dog, begging for mercy.
Later, under his perseverance, the girl still couldn't withstand his offensive after all, and developed a lover relationship with him halfway through.
The time when he fell in love with the girl, for Renault, was the happiest time since he was born.
He often wondered how good it would be if time stayed at that moment forever.
But after all, he underestimated the influence of the family and the royal family.
They couldn't accept that a lowly status civilian had a relationship with him. In order to prevent him from being alienated, they even forced him to choose his future wife among the royal princesses.
This may be a great honor for others, but for him it is a threat of nakedness/nakedness.
Renault didn't want to give in, but he was afraid that they would hurt the girl, afraid that they would do anything.
He knows how dirty the methods of those people are, he knows better than anyone else.
I thought she would be safe after he broke up with the girl.
It's just that he still underestimated the shamelessness of those people. In order to control him, they even planted a vicious curse on the girl when he didn't know it.
Seeing the unconscious girl in front of him became thin and pale day by day because of the curse, Renault's heart became more and more filled with icy hatred.
If the girl died because of them, even if he fell into a devil, all those people would be buried for her.
Seeing his killing intent, the grandfather finally came forward and used the ancient forbidden technique to transfer the curse from the girl to others, but the girl also forgot part of the memory with him.
For Renault, as long as the girl is still alive, it doesn't matter if she forgets him completely in the future.
Or only by staying away from him, the girl can be truly safe and happy.
It's just that he couldn't resist the growing greed and desire in his heart, and took the initiative to find her again.
Every minute and every second of getting along with the girl is precious to Renault.
Let him look at her again, listen to her voice more, and carve her gentle eyebrows and smile into his own bone marrow.
But... he still felt dissatisfied.
Perhaps it was the gods who couldn't see his insatiable greed, so that he could once again watch her fall in front of him, pale and weak.
"Sorry……"
Renault gritted his teeth, his golden eyelashes were stained with moist water, and his throat was like a hot blade rolling by, and he felt extremely painful even for a breath.
"...Renault?"
Renault's body stiffened for a moment like a lightning strike, then slowly raised his head.
Watching the dark-haired girl who woke up at some point.
The blonde knight gave her a gentle smile as if weeping.
"Well, I am here."