: A Large Chapter of Nonsense

I have been thinking about issuing a single chapter for a long time, but I have never written it. I have no way to write it. Second, I feel that expectation is understood to be an extremely immature idea.
The recent rewards are many, for a long time in a row, perhaps the correct statement is that since the book was put on the shelves, all kinds of rewards have been constantly and overwhelmingly described as overwhelming. There are brothers in military service. With a lot of money, there are many local readers who want to add more money, and more are the statistics that I can count on statistics.
thank you all!
I feel that I can say thank you here, the best return is to work hard to write, good code words.
but……
There are many things that I need to explain, and I have a responsibility to explain. If you understand or reject it, when I decide to write down the most real thoughts in my heart, I will be ready to respond positively to everything.
The following two paragraphs are highlighted, don't get me wrong:
[The first thing to explain and guarantee is to ask the readers to rest assured that this book will not be embarrassed by the eunuch. This is a certain, and it is also the bottom line for me as the author. 】
[Secondly, I want to say that in the days to come, I will try my best to keep it even more, and I can write more and write more. 】
After the guarantee is over, I can't say what I want to say about the next content.
The process of creation is very hard, how hard is it? If you don't go deep into this line, you can't understand it deeply, and the hard work of each author is different. People have different trivialities, troubles, and distress. In real life, there are constant unexpected incidents, and once someone is chasing books, they can't. Negative evaluations to avoid, all of the above are sources of stress.
This is a deep and muddy road. There are very strong people running fast, and weak people are struggling.
I am a person who disdains to present a weak person. This kind of inner heart is extremely inconsistent with my externality. It is often the illusion that two people can talk online and meet offline.
In the long life before today, I felt embarrassed when I shed tears in front of my closest friends. I was afraid to show the unbearable and fragile side. I felt that it would not only make people feel pressure, but also have no right to negative. Emotions are thrown at others.
But now when I write these words, more emotions are relieved.
Resonating with people is an extremely difficult thing in itself. There are no two identical leaves in the world, and there are no two perfectly matched souls.
However, I chose to say these things to you, my readers, and even many of them are not even known to my parents.
why?
Because there is no more readers than the one who has been chasing this book so far, it is closer to a group of authors. The texts described by each author often directly reflect their inner intuitive thoughts, being pursued and liked, all A manifestation of spiritual resonance.
I am sure and somewhat obsessed that I can like the book "The End of the World" and follow you up to the present, and I can best understand what I want to express at the moment.
The readership is huge, perhaps as young as ten years old, perhaps almost the same as me.
A large part of the reader group prefers to chase books silently, and does not comment on comments and group interactions. When contributing to the subscription volume, it never falls.
As a long-form work published on the platform of reading texts, from the last ten months of May last year to October now, a lot of people gathered slowly.
The cultivation of the reading, the appreciation of the editor, the reader's expectation, and the step by step pushed the book to a height that I have never thought of as a new author.
So high hopes, can I live up to it?
The more difficult this book is, the harder it is to write, the large number of pits and various immature ideas, and the pouring of one brain, which makes me feel more and more deeply about my ability.
Can I master this style that is not easy to write in the first book, and such a long piece that is beyond my ability?
I don't know, I can only take one step and explore, continue to innovate, constantly reflect, and make progress. If I can't do it, I will try my best to do it. It seems to be a deep quagmire. After the muddy is removed, it is hidden in the bottom of the treasure. Who knows what will get me?
I have always held such an idea, and I have been striving to make myself a sea of ​​people. To be a mature author, we must not only write good novels, but also guide young readers to have correct views.
then……
In this morning, I suddenly felt that the pressure was huge, and it was several times as large as before. The emotions that were able to calm down in the past suddenly became extremely restless, and anxiety made me unable to do anything.
I don't know how to tell me who I have, and I found a help for the seniors who have taken care of me on weekdays.
When I said my distress and finished the conversation with chaos and no logic, the four words that the predecessor blurted out made me cry in a moment.
He said: You are upset.
Many things that I don't want to admit and dare not reveal are reflected in these four words.
Last month, I had not slept for forty hours on the first two days of September.
In the nearly half-month period from the middle of September to the end of the month, my daily sleep time is 2-3 hours, my spirit is extremely wilting, and the whole person looks tired.
Outsiders only see that I am in poor spirit, but I don't know what I am suffering. During this time, I have to code and maintain daily updates.
The biggest difference between online writers and traditional writers is that they are similar to the daily update of the game. The creation of more than two million words a year is everywhere in this circle. There are three people in the world, four million one. There are several gods in the year.
Occupational diseases, cervical problems, problems in the back of the waist, mental problems, insomnia and neurasthenia, a lot of comments on cyber violence, I have all...
Even I am here to say a sentence that is hard to listen to, I don’t want to face the most:
Twenty-two knives turned out to be a female author! It’s no wonder that the more you write, the more water the girl is!
Including the editors who brought me, but also before the recent photo exposure, I was surprised that the author who wrote the big rewinding is a sister?
I don’t want to embody the fragile side of the girl before the person. Before that, I never used to seek forgiveness. Because I think that if I do this, I will evade self-regression and face the problem. The problem, slack and get the understanding and preferential treatment that the normal male author does not have.
This is not fair.
Now I have said that I have been enlightened, and I have also seen my own weakness. I am not so powerful and powerful, and sometimes I am even ignorant.
If I want to be tolerant and understanding, and want to feel warm and caring, in addition to supporting my readers, I can't find a group that is more suitable for me.
So I wasted my code time and wrote so much nonsense.
Finally, thank you for your kindness and support, and thank all the readers who encouraged me to support the wrong criticism.
In the future, I will not evade the problem, I will accept the shortcomings well and will face my heart correctly.
thank you all!
Oh, yes, is there a monthly pass?
Crazy! !