: Chapter 62. Gifts of kindness

[Can love and be loved. 】
In the sixth year of Huangchu, in 225 AD, in October, Xingxing Guangling's old city, Linjiang watching soldiers, more than 100,000 soldiers and hundreds of miles of flags. At that time, the waterway froze and the boat was not allowed to enter the river. During the period, after passing through Yongqiu, I went to Cao Zhi's premises and met with Cao Zhi. No one knew what the brothers and the two had talked about. What about the talented son of a brilliant man who had had family affection, had scrambled for battle, and had a chance to fight against him? After the end, only the governor Cao Pi ordered to increase the number of Cao Zhizhi 500.
In the first seven years of the first year of Huangchu, Cao Pi returned to Luoyang's palace. In May Bingchen, that is, on June 28, Cao Pi was seriously ill, and he was ordered to accept Chen Qun, Cao Zhen, Cao Xiu, and Sima Yi to receive the edict and jointly assist the heir, Cao Rui. Let the harem Shuyuan and Zhaoyi return to their homes. On May Ding Si Day, Cao Pi died at the age of forty. According to the notice of his life, no tree or grave was buried in Shouyang Mausoleum.
At this point, Cao Pi's drama is completely over.
The shooting time of more than three months is not too long, but on the day of the killing, Su An still felt a bit lost.
He knows how much he has paid for this role, watching "Three Kingdoms" and "The Romance of the Three Kingdoms", studying "The Collection of Emperors Wei Wen", "The Classics" and "Yan Gexing", trying to try to figure out this from the legacy of Barnyard official history and Cao Pi The character's character, and make every effort to bring himself into the role of Cao Cao's eldest son, making an interpretation that is both reasonable and has a "Su An" style.
Finally able to take a break, Su An and Han Jiabi, who had already killed before him, went out and played crazy for a few days.
It's crazy to play, but public figures like them have limited places to go. To be really crazy, it's probably that two people wore hats, sunglasses and scarves around and climbed to the Great Wall with all their arms.
After Lu Shuangshuang and Han Dongyun were called out, the four of them threw up Mahjong with great interest, even if the door was not called for takeaway, they even played all night.
In the end, bjork couldn't see the ghosts of his artists who were lazy and degraded. He angered Su An to receive a high-level costume drama from his team, and also found a music program for him to host for a long time.
And Han Jiabi, bjork began planning his solo album.
At this point, bjork no longer intends to package Su An and Han Jiabi for sale. At the beginning, the combination was formed because in the uneven entertainment circle, and there is no strong newcomer, the two-men combination is really rare, and bjork may not have the gambling mind.
From the talent show "Voice of China" to the idol drama "Star Academy", and then from the album "The Other Shore" to the historical drama "Wang Ding", the byan group has gained enough popularity. It is an entertainer who can stand alone, but a deep acting, a song that stuns the heavens and man. With enough foundation, there is no need to continue to be tied together. Instead, it becomes restriction and restraint.
Su An is connected with a martial arts drama, because he does not have the martial arts skills and enough time to practice martial arts, so Su An plays a white and weak scholar in this "Dragon Fighting in the Wild", and was stirred by chance. In the disputes between the rivers and lakes, I was obsessed with the heroine, but I never confessed my true feelings, but just silently guarded the heroine.
This is a pretty Facebook character. It is a classic male match, and it is not too difficult. The cast is naturally not as powerful as "Waiting". Both the heroine and actor are only second-tier stars, but they are both regarded as spectators.
Every actor hopes that every piece of his work is a big production, but the ideal fullness reality is often just a cup, even the mother son of Chairman Mars may not have such treatment. Su An also understands that a newcomer like himself for a year has received a lot of popularity because of drafts, idol dramas and scandals. It is very fake and easily unstable. Therefore, in pursuit of quality, the pursuit of quantity is also very important.
After "Wang Ding", bjork did not find a good opportunity for Su An, but it was impossible to sit at home and wait for the opportunity, the audience would not wait for you, so transitional works like "Dragon Fighting in the Wild" are also It is necessary.
Su An soon joined the filming of "Dragon Fighting in the Wild".
But in a few days, it was mid-April.
In the city of early spring, there was a vigorous vitality everywhere, like the buds dotted on the branches overnight, and the whispers of birds and birds, and the unknown blooming flowers at the corners all revealed the spring message.
The entire city seemed to wake up in a long and gloomy hibernation, wiping the sharp high-rise buildings with sunlight, as if they were new.
Su An woke up in the middle of the night, only to remember that it seemed that his predecessor had arrived.
One year ago today, I tasted the taste of death so completely and truly, so helpless, so irretrievable, as if everything I did in my life was in vain, ridiculously struggling, all in the words of death The dust in front of him is worthless.
Su An opened his eyes with sweat, and looked straight at Su Xitang's peaceful sleeping face beside the pillow.
The body trapped in the terrible memories is shaking, like a thief who guards the stolen goods, fearing that one day the treasure he cherishes but never truly belongs to him disappears. Panic from the heart, the saw usually grinds back and forth.
For a moment, Su An almost awakened Su Xitang and talked to him about his predecessor, his mediocre appearance and the unpleasant voice of his failed career, and to talk about his sad and embarrassing death. The sentencing of life is nothing but failure.
But Su An bit his teeth tightly at the next moment, almost holding his breath.
Too ridiculous myself. Su An told himself mockingly.
Where does he dare? This rebirth is bizarre enough, and anyone who tells it will only think he is a lunatic. What's more, his predecessor was a person who failed like that. He was too scared to let Su Xitang know that he was such a downright coward and loser, and he would curl up with his heart just thinking about it.
Under the moonlight, Su Xitang ’s sleeping face seemed to be peacefully floating on the water, with the detachment of detachment, but with the lightness and temptation of floating and shallow. What can only be seen from a distance is not indecent. Everyone wants to be so beautiful. Hold it in your palm.
Seeing more and more dwarfing, Su An only felt the inferiority and panic of the erosion of bones.
With a little self-examination, he can make derogatory judgments of extremeness, stubbornness, selfishness, laziness, arrogance, childishness, etc. Perhaps not without a good side, but the ugly side of humanity can find all the examples in him.
Most importantly, he is a liar.
Su Xitang will share with him his youthful experiences bit by bit. His sufferings and his struggles, and his reflection on the negligence of the young and frivolous. These experiences and memories have made Su An more aware of the truth of Su Xitang. , But when there are always troubles and depressions, Su Xitang gradually no longer hides his fragile side from him.
Looking at myself, I never dare to mention another name I used to have and another life behind that name. I always want to show Su Xitang his best side. I always want to hear Su Xitang's praise and confession again and again, but I am always shy to give the same response, and sometimes even take it for granted.
Such self, I am really afraid that Su Xitang will suddenly get bored that day. But the more you fear, the more you fear, the more you fear, the more you want to cover up, and the more you cover up, the more afraid you are, which has almost become a vicious circle.
Whenever he is idle and alone, Su An suffers in this way. In fact, this childish and fierce virtue is very disgusting, but it can't be restrained.
Gradually, Su An took the initiative to ask for more and more times, as if he could prove the bond between the two and bring a reliable sense of security.
But Su Xitang's occasional joke or an erratic look can make Su An disappear all the information.
It's not that I didn't think about sitting down and telling my thoughts bit by bit to the man, but I couldn't speak after all. Too many hardships have caused Su An's introverted personality. This is so sensitive and suspicious. Su An also knows that this is wrong. It is simply unreasonable like a little girl. However, the rich thinking brought by the actor's career is as if it can't be shut. Every day, the gates of the gate are pouring down those neat and definite and hesitant thoughts, which are majestic but still flowing silently and repressively.
Su An leaned forward and kissed Su Xitang's tall nose, closing his eyes wearily.

I don't know if it was a sudden enlightenment or something. I have been avoiding contacting Su An, who was once familiar but already strange, and finally able to calmly face my life once again.
In front of his own tombstone.
In a remote corner of the suburban cemetery.
After inquiring about the economic company in Su An, Su An learned that his friends and colleagues who had been close to each other in his previous life jointly organized a simple funeral for Su An, and then buried him in a remote corner of the cemetery. Although the reason is to spend less money, this corner is particularly quiet, and it is a good place to return.
Su An looked blankly at the name on the tombstone and the slightly blurred photo in the upper right corner. The man in the blackboard picture looked at himself silently, with no sadness or joy.
The branches above the head clattered, and the ground was covered with unburnt paper money and the remains of firecrackers. The dust swept around and settled everything quietly.
At first, it was still not calm, and gradually I could receive the fact that my body, which had been used for 26 years, had turned into a small ashes lying in the ground.
Life is unknown. In this way, what happens is possible, and what happened is already the truth. You do n’t need to falsify and refute. Instead, you should enjoy it well. It is all a gift from the universe. For example-
The bouquet in front of the tombstone still has dew on the delicate petals.
Su An had never imagined that after the death of such a lonely family, someone would come to his tomb and even bring him a bunch of flowers.
Su An wants to know who this person is.
Su An suddenly sighed in the mind of the employees of Su An ’s former management company:
In fact, Su An is quite talented, but has a low voice and is unpleasant. Maybe because these characters are very inferior, they usually do n’t talk to people. It's too lonely, you can talk about how in our circle, if you want to be famous, how can you not get in touch? In fact, Su An used to be successful, but ... Alas, when I held the funeral, I heard that Zhang Liubai and Zhang Tianwang also Hey ... "
It is a pity that there is no such thing as "life". Su An ’s greatest luck is that he has a second chance to chase his dreams.
Can love and be loved.
Su An, who had walked out of the cemetery, had originally planned to go home, but was suddenly drawn to the company building of Wang Pay by the throbbing heart.
Suddenly wanted to see.
Su Xitang was surprised when the secretary reported that the young master was here. Because Su An had never been to the company before, Su Xitang thought that his cat-eye boy was unwilling to come into contact with these dark things at the bottom of society, so he rarely talked to him about his job at Wang Fu.
But what about this time ...?
Su Xitang, who thought something was wrong, quickly walked out of the office, but saw the teenager standing outside the door with a smile on his face, and handed him a paper bowl.
"Well, the distillers grains I just bought are all washed with hot water, and they can be heated after drinking."
Su Xitang took over the paper bowl and felt the hot temperature from the thin paper wall.
"What is there ..." Su Xitang opened his mouth deliberately.
"It's nothing." The teenager smiled and opened his hair softly against his forehead, a pair of clear cat eyes narrowed playfully.
"... I miss you."
The author has something to say: a bland chapter, written in a whisper, but feels that it should show a lot of Xiao Su's inner world, and it is a very sensitive child unexpectedly [the maternal glory suddenly broke out
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