Chapter 1141: Unforgettable

After this brief meeting was over, Lin Rui went to the training ground to find Lincoln.
Lincoln sat there alone, and did not express any surprise when Rui came over. Just smiled and made a gesture to him, "I'm back?"
"Yes, I'm back." Lin Rui smiled and walked over and sat beside him.
"Is the actuary okay?" Lincoln said.
"It's pretty good. I've suffered a little injury, but it should be fine. It's just that he was injured in one eye before, and I don't know if he can fully recover." Lin Rui shrugged.
Lincoln was silent for a while. "Have you seen Fatty Long?"
"Why do you ask?" Lin Rui took out a cigarette and handed it to Lincoln.
Lincoln took it and bit it in his mouth. "He must tell you that I want to quit."
"Speaking of this, I was about to ask you, why on earth?" Lin Rui frowned.
"I don't know, maybe one day I woke up and suddenly found that I was tired of everything." Lincoln sighed, "There are only six of the dozen or so brothers who debuted with me now. I still don't Knowing how to deal with it, every time a brother leaves, I feel like collapsed. It feels like I am dead myself."
"I understand. I haven't experienced it." Lin Rui said in silence for a while.
"I found that I might not be able to bear this anymore." Lincoln whispered, "I feel that I have become more and more hesitant and not determined enough. In many cases, I am even a little scared. We all know that in the real battle, this What does it mean? It will kill my brothers." He took a deep breath and vomited it out again.
"It doesn't seem to be what you said." Lin Rui frowned.
Lincoln waved his hand. "Yeah, I don't know why I am so decadent. So it's better to leave early. It's better for everyone."
"Tell me Lincoln, what's the matter?" Lin Rui said, "If there is any difficulty, maybe we can help."
"You can't help! No one can help!" Lincoln suddenly shouted, "No one can help me, no one!"
Lin Rui stared into his eyes, frowning slightly, and suddenly he grabbed Lincoln's wrist. Whispered, "How long has it been?"
"What do you mean?" Lincoln said.
"What medicine are you using and how long have you used it? Answer me!" Lin Rui shouted sharply. "Your pupils have shrunk very small like the tip of a needle, unless you use some medicine!"
He knew very well that only narcotic analgesics would have such an effect.
He is also very aware that the most common injuries on the battlefield are injuries caused by bullets or shrapnel penetration. These injuries can cause a large amount of blood loss in the human body, and blood loss can cause cardiovascular atrophy and cause shock death. Those narcotic neurological drugs can expand the cardiovascular system, accelerate blood flow, and prevent death from shock caused by blood loss in a short period of time.
But this narcotic analgesic can also cause severe dependence and gradually addiction.
"It's been a long time. It was originally used as an analgesic. We all knew that it would be addictive." Lincoln smiled hard, "But I need it to keep me in shape..."
"Go to your mother's state!" Lin Rui grabbed him and shouted, "What the do you think? Addicted to drugs?! Is this the reason you left?"
"Yes! Because I can't hurt my brothers, I can't let them die because of me, it's time to leave." Lincoln pushed Lin Rui away, "Save me some face, don't tell me about it. Hello everyone. So scattered.
I am a soldier who is extremely addicted to war. I have suppressed for a long time and hope to have a pure light in my heart to illuminate the beliefs that I have adhered to. Unfortunately, my beliefs are no longer and even my self is lost. "
"An excuse to go to your mother!" Lin Rui knocked Lincoln to the ground with a fist, and said in a deep voice, "Think about your players, they have all put their lives in your hands! You are worthy of them by doing this. Anyone? Think about those comrades who died, are you still alone?"
"I don't count, so I'm leaving." Lincoln wiped the blood from the corners of his mouth.
"You can't go anywhere, you must quit this thing. Otherwise, you won't be able to live normally after you go back." Lin Rui grabbed his shoulder and said solemnly, "It's okay, you can survive."
"Can I? Initially we were stationed in the north of Iraq. We never knew where our real enemies were. We fought day and night, but we didn't know where these enemies came from, why they came, and we didn't know ourselves. When will it die.
A dazed war created a group of confused soldiers. We are confused about our future, we are confused about our beliefs, and we are confused about the meaning of our participation in this war. Justice or injustice is no longer so much.
Because war itself is a kind of narcotic, it can be extremely addictive. Once you become addicted, you will forget everything about it, and just continue to feel the addictive pleasure without being able to extricate yourself. I shouldn't come back alive, I should have died on the battlefield. "Lincoln lowered his head.
"That's all over, you can start again. You have a chance." Lin Rui hugged his shoulder and said hard, "We will help you. You are not in Iraq anymore, and you are not in the recovery ward of a military hospital. . You are in Saint Caesar, our own place, fighting for ourselves. You can get rid of drugs, just like those bad memories of the past."
Lincoln stood up and shouted, "I am the best soldier. I was proud of it. I am not a mob or executioner. I don't kill civilians or women and children. But the battlefield is so cruel. How many civilians are because of us. Death. However, I still received the commendation from my superiors. Such repeated battles and commendations made the rules and ethics in a peaceful world less important.
Until we gradually became suspicious of the rules and morals on the battlefield. But I couldn't change it, so I started to numb myself with drugs. I don't want to live like a beast, but I still become a beast. "
"I don't know what kind of past you have endured, but these have passed." Lin Rui whispered, "We are now walking on another road. A different path gives us the opportunity to reflect and regret. , Make us better. We don’t fight for the country anymore. We only fight for ourselves, for your family and friends, for your comrades who live and die. You should live well."
Lincoln bent down and knelt on the training ground. "I can't forget. It's like an addiction to narcotic drugs that I can't get rid of. The only thing I can do is leave alone."
"You can't go anywhere, I never give up any comrades in arms, no matter whether they live or die." Lin Rui said solemnly.
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