Chapter 38: Everyone has a secret

As Master Cai Weiming once said, in fact everyone has more or less secrets hidden in their hearts, who has not passed yet? It's just that some people use their childhood memories to heal their lives, while some people use their lives to heal their childhood. Lin Xingchen belongs to the former, while Lu Yibai belongs to the latter.
"Actually, I was diagnosed with hysteria." After listening to Lin Xingchen's secret, Lu Yibai also frankly said his own thoughts, "Once certain conditions are met and some stimuli are received, my eyes will be white. One piece, the body is very cold and hard, and I can't struggle at all. As long as during the day, I will avoid climbing, even afraid of that word. I am even more afraid that when I stand on a high place, someone will ask me for help, then ... I really It ’s hard to beat myself. "
Thinking of the camping day, knowing that the climbing route is so steep and steep, the squad leader is still willing to accompany himself, Lin Xingchen's heart is full of guilt. If I knew it earlier, would I be able to walk side by side on a flat, tree-lined avenue that day?
"Before, I had a younger sister who had to recuperate at home because of congenital heart disease. She had longed for the outside world and wanted to hang out with me, but for safety and health, she was always kept at home, just like a Just like the birds in captivity. "
"In my seven-year-old year, my sister clamored to secretly go out with me. When I saw that my parents were not at home, I secretly took my sister out. This is what I always wanted to do. I do n’t want to see my sister because She stayed at home with a sad face. But on that day, when she and I passed a steep concrete slope, she did not stand firm, and I did not hold her when I reached out. "
Lu Yibai paused for a moment, and every air around him seemed to sigh sadly: "I can only watch her helplessly rolling down the steep slope, desperately watching her call me for help but I don't catch Her expression. Finally, her sister was taken to the hospital. Because of the stimulation, her condition deteriorated, and she could have waited for the surgery to grow up, but she could not proceed in advance. The operation failed unexpectedly and she left the world. "
"So, this thing became the last thing you want to remember?"
Lu Yi nodded whitely: "Well, someone who can't forget, can't forgive the fault."
"How could this be your fault?"
Lu Yibai shook his head, and seemed to refuse such relief: "If I didn't take her to play there, or if I could catch her, she would not fall, she would not fall, and heart failure would not worsen. If you would do that operation, you would n’t die. "
"This assumption is not true."
"This is not an assumption, it is a fact ..."
"I seem to understand why you have always refused to be a thousand miles ..."
"It has nothing to do with this ..."
Lin Xingchen was dumb: "If it doesn't matter, why does the squad leader have no friends around you, why never talk to others, why you always ... unhappy."
"No, I'm very happy. There aren't many friends because of quarrels."
"Deceptive."
"..."
For a long while, Lu Yibai looked at the starry sky and said: "Maybe, from the bottom of my heart, I don't think I should be happy."
Hearing this sentence, Lin Xingchen felt distressed for a moment. Over the years, he has been burdened with feelings of self-blame and sorrow, making him never laugh like the other teenagers, or have anger and dementia. When he was too young to bear the burden of life, he forced to learn to hide his heart and suffer loneliness.
Should n’t it be fun? But this is clearly not his fault.
And his 100-point science score without mistakes may not be because of the pursuit of excellence, but because the shadow experience of losing his sister ’s hand has become an unforgivable sin in his heart. Everything you do is so harsh.
Who would have expected such a sad past to be hidden behind the shining teenager.
Both were silent, Lin Xingchen recalled the situation of landing a sister Bai, and suddenly had a bad guess in her mind. Dao Xiaoyao who donated to her own cornea was Lu Yibai's sister?
"Squad leader, what is your sister's name?"
Lu Yi paused. Considering that Lin Xingchen might avoid himself after knowing the truth, and even fall into self-blame and discomfort, he said softly: "Lu Xiaoxiao, we all call her Xiaoxiao. Today, it is her birthday……"
Lu Xiaoxiao? birthday? If it were n’t for a different name, Lin Xingchen would almost conclude that Lu Yibai ’s sister was Yaoyao!
But I always felt that I heard the word "Yaoyao" somewhere when I was with the class leader.
"But, squad leader, do you know?" Lin Xingchen tried to raise his smile, "If there is no way to forget a person, we should remember it well, but we should remember those beautiful memories." As if I remember Yaoyao, the days she spent with me in the ward were full of laughter and laughter. She told me that the most beautiful scenery in the world was the starry night sky. "
"This is the secret of your love to watch the stars?"
"Well, if there is a chance, I will look at the starry sky all over the world for her!"
Looking at Lin Xingchen looking up at the sky, a pair of longing looks, those eyes that were always frozen in frost finally got wet.
"So, the little sister should be very cute and kind like Xiaoyao Yao, and they must not want us to live in such a lost and sad way. By the way, just sit here and do n’t walk around, wait for me , I'll be back soon. "
Lu Yibai secretly wiped away the tears that had endured for a long time but did not hold back while the girl left.
Always thinking about how to make this stupid girl smarter, help her a little when she is low and sad, but did not expect that she was finally redeemed by her.
In a little while, Lin Xingchen jumped over with a small piece of cake, dyed with a few candles on it: "You sighed so much for Xiao Xiao's birthday today, and it's hard to celebrate to make her sad. The more she left People, the more we want to cherish her heart and take their share to live well. Hey, look at me so stupid, don't you live well every day ... of course thanks to the squad leader who often helps . "
Looking at the gentle candlelight on the cake, Lu Yibai's thoughts traveled to the warm scene that the family celebrated with their sister's birthday a long time ago.
Lin Xingchen is right, it has been a long time since she gave her sister a happy birthday.
"I often think of Xiao Yaoyao now, and it happened to be her birthday today." Lin Xingchen said, "Today my grandmother specially cooked longevity noodles, I hope that she will be at ease after becoming a star in the sky."
Lu Yibai looked at Lin Xingchen's face tenderly like never before.
"Squad leader? You, why are you looking at me like this?"
"It's nothing. It's because you're usually stupid. Now I'm stupid and cry."
"Wow, squad leader, you are touching porcelain! It's slandering!"
Lu Yibai sighed helplessly and made a birthday wish for her sister.
as well as……
Thank you, Lin Xingchen.
Thank you for always remembering your sister's existence and taking her copy to survive.
Thank you for your company tonight.
From then on, maybe when I think of my sister, I will not be so lonely anymore.
...
Tonight, in a small yard formed by two families, it is not very peaceful. Luo Qinge sneaked open the door of the yard and slipped into his room.
"Qin Ge, why did you come back tonight at this time?"
"Ah, dad, there are so many things in school today, I have spent two more times, so I'm only coming back now."
Father Luo was straight-faced and asked sternly: "I heard that my daughter has written a love letter to someone?"
"How is it possible?" Luo Qinge's pretense easily turned his head, but his heart was terrified.
"So what is this?" Father Luo took out a love poem card from his arms, which was exactly what Luoqin Ge Bailin Lin wrote to Fang Qi.
"This ..." Luo Qinge took the card nervously, but saw that the name of the confession object had been changed by Chen Yimu, and he changed it all to himself.
Now that the wood has done this part, it can only be done to live tonight.
"Hahahaha." Luo Qinge suddenly laughed, "Dad, you said this! At first, I bet with Wood, saying that there would be no girl who wanted to be close to him, and then he was sad for a few days, I just Secretly wrote a copy to him, did not expect him to remain? "
Father Luo frowned and looked at his daughter suspiciously. Their eyes were silently fighting in the air for a long time.
Finally, Father Luo laughed: "Ah, it's okay to joke, after all, your main task now is to study. But if you really like each other in the future, it will be fine to get married."
and many more? Chen Yimu's guy is really not kidding, his dad actually is this attitude?
"Dad, what are you talking about? I can't joke with you, can you?"
"What am I kidding? My dad and I grew up wearing a pair of trousers when I was young, and I ordered a baby kiss when I was playing with mud. Of course, I don't like this one now, just to say that you two can really meet each other, we are sure Rest assured, after all, I grew up watching it myself. But Qin Ge, I did n’t allow you two to start getting better now.

Luo Qinge frowned in disgust: "How is it possible? Even if I'm forty this year and I still look forward to getting married every day, I can't get along with him."
"嘁!" Father Luo smiled, then turned and walked in: "Your mother said so to me in front of her dad."
"what?"
Luo Qinge was completely stunned in the yard, but she found that her acting seemed to be justified?