Chapter 1026: Riding the Wind to Ask the Moon-Desire-Hope Reason (111)

"As long as we do not exceed the final limit, no matter how we finally exposed to the Zuo family, at least this will only be a past that can be forgotten by saying that forgetting, and it will not leave you with anything you shouldn't have. Trace, this is the only protection I can do for you."
Xu Chengfeng's attitude was calm, but his calm caused Zuo Yue's heart to rise with raging anger, and she suddenly stood up.
Xu Chengfeng stretched out his hand to help her so as not to get up too quickly and hurt her, after all, she had suffered a gunshot wound.
But Zuo Yue raised his hand and waved his hand away.
"What is the feeling? Uncle, tell me! Xu Chengfeng, tell me! Every day and every step you have reservations! You give me hope while letting me see the despair in the future. Is this your protection for me? Zuo Yue's eyes were red and red: "What kind of love is reserved love? I asked you, don't you want me? You know what the answer in your heart is!"
"Zuo Yue, I didn't want to quarrel with you. From the beginning to the end, I didn't intend to evade this responsibility. If you want, I will always be by your side, but I will not go beyond the limit."
"What's the bottom line! Go to bed!" Zuo Yue suddenly asked loudly.
Xu Chengfeng's face suddenly sank, her eyebrows frowned because of her unconcealed and scolding smile in her eyes, but her eyes looked at her warningly: "Can you be rational?"
Zuo Yue smiled: "Is it rational? Do you know what I will do once I become rational?"
Seeing Zuo Yue's emotions at the moment, Xu Chengfeng stretched out his hand to hug her into her arms, but Zuo Yue suddenly raised his hand to push him away, and at the same time stepped back.
Xu Chengfeng frowned: "Do you want to fight with me?"
"I don't want to." Zuo Yue shook her head: "I knew when my mother appeared just now how much time I spent with you on thin ice, even when you have to lie because of me, I suddenly feel that I am A sinner, I used to think that it’s so good to be with you. As long as I can love each other, no matter what the result is, even if the beginning is vigorous and the ending is not what I want, I am willing."
"But I have always kept it in order to leave me a way out. Shouldn’t a relationship be unreserved? But you always have reservations. I finally know why I can’t find security every day. That’s because You slap me in the face with your intellect, and use the future you think about to block me from trying to get close to you again and again."
Zuo Yue smiled even more as she spoke, but her eyes were still red: "Are you coaxing me? I want love, not your perfunctory coaxing to calm me down! Nor do you want To drag you down! Make you lie for me!"
"But what is it that I have carefully cherished in my hand for so many days? It turned out to be your reserved heart, it turned out to be your reason hanging above feelings."
"Xu Chengfeng, you ask me again and again if I know what love is? Do I know what love is? Then do you understand? Have you ever loved? Do you know how I am now? I desperately fight for it. You stayed, but in the end you gave me a slap in the face with reality! I dragged you into the abyss, but you didn't sink at all. You still have a way to save yourself. You use coaxing to salvage me I should believe it! I should believe you!"
"I didn't want to save myself, I have been protecting you from beginning to end, Zuo Yue, I can't ruin you, okay?" Xu Chengfeng's eyes were sharp and forbearing: "Like is presumptuous, only love is restraint! I can't possibly Go and destroy you with your own hands."
Zuo Yue's eyes trembled when she heard the word love, and suddenly she didn't know what she was upset about.
She lowered her eyes: "So no matter what, you will never have a further relationship with me. Even the kisses are only twice a day. There will be no more ambiguity and no deeper communication. , You can’t give what I want, the best you can give is these, these restraint and silence, and remind me from time to time to step out of this abyss, right?"
Xu Chengfeng did not answer, but apparently it was almost a default.
Until Zuo Yue turned around and was about to leave, Xu Chengfeng said calmly: "Your mother will ask you to eat at night, keep a good mood and don't think about it."
"Aren't you going to China or Russia? Are you busy?" Zuo Yue turned her back to him: "Go, I will go back to Los Angeles after taking the exam in a few days, so I won't bother you again. I won’t let you continue to work hard every day to make me happy and calm me to perfuse me. What I want is you, but this is not you."
After speaking, Zuo Yue directly crossed the opposite road to leave.
Xu Chengfeng suddenly grasped her wrist and pulled her back with a slight effort. Zuo Yue almost ran into his arms. When she raised her eyes to look at him, she had a smile in her eyes: "I'm working hard. Don't get angry, you don't provoke me anymore, okay? Leave it alone for a while!"
"I will handle our relationship as soon as possible, and give me some time." Xu Chengfeng did not explain much, but just looked at her: "You are indeed young, and I have some doubts that need to be resolved at the moment, if you are willing Wait, maybe I won't converge after you reach twenty, but you are only eighteen years old, Zuo Yue, you have just reached the beginning of life."
Zuo Yue coldly let go of his hand: "Who told you that I will wait? When did I say that I would wait? Either you refuse, or you do it wholeheartedly, this kind of perfunctory me while still looking for opportunities to let me A way to find the source of sobriety and reason from this relationship, sorry, I don’t accept it! You are using this way to remind me of my naivety and stupidity, and using such a calm way to step on my full blood, I Impossible to accept, never accept."
"Zuo Yue!" Xu Chengfeng held her.
He is already working hard towards her.
But she couldn't feel it.
"If you use half as a perfunctory, why don't you just refuse to come?" Zuo Yue raised his eyes to look at him, and slowly freed his hand from his wrist: "You are busy with you, my mother today After all, in Boston, I am now soberly aware of what I should and shouldn’t do. I will accompany her tonight. As for you, I will not mention a word. I will not let you talk about life because of me. The third lie."
After that, Zuo Yue turned expressionlessly and raised his hand in front of a taxi that stopped on the side of the road, then opened the door and got into the car, closed the door and left directly.
When the driver asked her where she was going, Zuo Yue raised her head and looked at Xu Chengfeng in the front rearview mirror.
The man was standing on the side of the road in the wind and snow, in a straight black suit, looking at her direction, farther and farther, she gradually couldn't see his face clearly.