: Really bad news, I'm running out of hope!

After my dad had a second stroke a few months ago, I knew the bad news wasn't over.
I have also been praying that my mother will not suffer from any physical problems because of her anger. This family can no longer bear it.
But my father's disease, our family situation, how can my mother and I not get angry?
I'm okay to say, the big deal is more bleeding.
But it's different when my mother gets angry every day at her age, and I've been having a bad premonition for the past few months.
Last week, my mother went to the hospital for a check-up. At first, she didn't tell me what was wrong. Later, she said she was going to remove the ring. As a result, she was directly hospitalized within a few days, and she said that it would take an operation to get it out.
At the time, I really thought I was going to the operation to get the ring, but after I came back yesterday, I was obviously in a bad mood, and I had to send my dad to a nursing home.
Although my dad is stupid now, he can at least take care of himself. No matter how angry he was before, he was finally sent to a nursing home.
This will not even be discussed with me, and suddenly I will be sent to a nursing home, so I still need to think about the reason.
I knew there was no way to hide it any longer, and she finally told the truth that I least wanted to know.
In fact, I was already guessing in a bad direction, but I still did not expect that it was really cancer, and it was adenosquamous carcinoma.
I was hospitalized a few days ago, and it was not surgery at all, but chemotherapy.
At that moment, I only felt extremely lonely, sad, sad, and hopeless!
Gu Tuo
In the past few months, I have had a similar feeling many times, that kind of heartache and cold, always unconsciously thinking about how a person will live in the future, this may be some kind of omen.
Now that I've completely landed, it's almost impossible for life to get any worse.
My father had a second stroke, his IQ decreased, and his mobility was limited. He could only take care of himself halfway. He is now in a nursing home. My mother said that when she left the nursing home just now, my dad cried and burst into tears. Maybe he completely regretted the tossing and indirectly ruining the family. Unfortunately, he can't go back now. I wish I could go back two years ago to stop it. He went to toss, but unfortunately time will never go back.
I, a 30-year-old patient with severe hemophilia, have not been able to bend the right knee for more than ten years, the left ankle has not dared to exert force for more than ten years, and the right shoulder has been unable to lift for five or six years. With new disabilities and new bleeding spots, the who can only bend halfway and bleed every three or five minutes.
My mother, UU reading www. uukanshu.com She needs someone to take care of her now, but I can't help at all, and I can't even accompany her to see a doctor in Jinan. She actually wants to see a doctor alone!
I know how my mother is feeling now, what she still thinks is what should I do in the future?
I can barely take care of myself, maybe even take care of myself, because most things in my life are hard to do on my own.
She couldn't let me go, she really didn't want to leave me, but now there's really nothing she can do.
Tomorrow, my mother will go to Jinan Cancer Hospital. This is our last struggle. Maybe it is early, it must be early, at least not late, otherwise I don't know how I will face life after that day.
Of course, I can still live, but at that time it was the real loneliness, the real sad life, and the only people who accompanied me were the cold time and the orange cat.
Is God really going to give me such an ending?
I'm begging God to let my mom, the white-haired one, send the black-haired one, I really want to go first! I really want to go first!