Chapter 164: Dreaming again

At night, she dreamed again.
Somehow, she always dreams when she spends the night outside and can't sleep well.
Fortunately, this dream is not the horrible scene before her death, but when she was a child.
It seems that this is the same early autumn. She and her little partner were playing under the big locust tree. At the intersection, her grandmother wore an old-style double-breasted gown and embroidered cloth shoes, shouting from a distance: "Zi Zi, come home for dinner"
She ran and jumped home. There was a wooden table in the yard with two simple dishes on the table, plus a plate of crispy cucumber pickled by grandma.
When eating, she threw the grains of rice on her clothes onto the ground to feed the ants, her grandmother’s fine reminder in her ears:
Zi Zi, you have to study hard and read more to be smart. Smart people don’t know wherever they go. Hungry……"
Grandma is a woman of the old age, who has never studied, and always feels that it is very good for girls to be able to study.
Perhaps it is precisely because of this kind of expectation that Su Zi has been very demanding of himself since he was a child.
She has to get the best grades in the exams, go to the best schools, and do the most beautiful careers. Even in love, she is quite picky, yearning for the soul and heart fusion depicted in classic books.
In layman's terms, it is platonic love and attaches importance to spiritual companionship.
She has never fallen in love with anyone, but because of her own excellence, there are never lack of suitors around her, and Mu Zening is the one who loves most.
Over time, everyone gradually acquiesced that Mu Zening and her were a pair, and other suitors quit with interest.
Looking at the age of marriage, my grandmother often thinks about it. The old man is not in good health. She is always worried that her granddaughter will be alone in this world. If she can get married, she has at least some support.
She didn't want to ask the old man to leave regrets.
If you get married, Mu Zening is undoubtedly the best choice.
If you can't find someone I love, just find someone who loves me. This is also a kind of happiness.
The wedding date was quickly set, and people sent their blessings. The young and promising three young masters of the Mu family looked extremely right with Qingjiang's best female prosecutor.
However, just a week before the wedding, the grandmother passed away suddenly, and the old man did not see the granddaughter wearing the wedding dress after all.
The death of her grandmother hit her very badly. She lost her only relative in the world. She was distraught. If she hadn't taken care of Mu Zening's infatuation, she couldn't even survive the simple wedding ceremony.
In my hometown, there is a tradition of observing filial piety. During the period of filial piety, Chinese clothes and food are not taboo, and the is even more taboo.
The times are different now. If this kind of thing is brought up, I am afraid it will be a joke, but she is immersed in grief, and she is really not in the mood for it, and Mu Zening happened to be seriously ill, so this matter was caught by the two of them. Put it down temporarily...
Despite being married for one year, the two always kept a distance and rarely kissed each other.
Could it be that he was with Qiao Jingjia because of this?
Thinking about it now, she is indeed not a qualified wife, and she has not devoted herself to managing this marriage.
... Even so, he shouldn't lie to her.
In marriage, love is only the icing on the cake, the most important thing is loyalty.
...
Mu Zi was lying on the bed quietly. She was already awake, but she felt so tired that she didn't want to open her eyes.
A dream has gone through her entire first half of her life, the scenery has been dazzling, the failure has been embarrassed, and now, she is exhausted physically and mentally.
I heard the sound of flapping wings.
Mu Zi opened his eyes and found that the little crow flew onto the bed at some point, stepping on the quilt, tilting his head to look at her.
Its appearance looks radiant, its feathers are jet black and shiny, and there is a tuft of short white hair on the forehead, which looks like eyes at first glance, which is very strange.
It has been able to flop several meters away, and it will probably fly away soon.
Mu Zi thought this way, and couldn't help feeling a little melancholy.
She doesn't like keeping pets because she can't bear the parting.