Chapter 963: I am not prepared for this child.

"You can feel that you can still control it." Lolie said, he was a little excited inside. Since he arrived here, it was a good thing for him to open his heart to him for the first time.
Is it because the palace is coming? Sure enough, all the crux is still in the palace.
"But I need to look like a normal person, at least these two days must be." When Xiao Nian said, his eyes revealed the incomparable eye.

why?
Loyre spread his hand.
I have seen your baby in your stomach for so long, so I never recommend that you take the medicine. If you use it, what happens if you have any consequences?

The baby is so fragile, everyone wants to give the child the best.
Wen Yan, when Xiao Nian’s gaze gradually came down, he looked down at his belly, and the hanging hand held the corner of his clothes. He tightened his hand a little bit and gave himself courage.
If I said, I didn’t. Ready to have this child?"
"what?"
Lorry stunned at her, unbelievable.
"When I was raising my mother, I decided. I don't want this child." When Xiao Nian said a word and a word from his mouth, it was extremely difficult. Every word was like biting his own meat.
The death of Qiu Qiujun was the last straw of the spirit of Xiaoyan, and since then she has made this decision.
She doesn't want to hurt anyone anymore.
"Do you want to say now? You can only induce labor now. Do you know how much injury to pregnant women is caused by induction?" Lorry could not understand her thoughts. "This child is a life. You have to decide the fate for him selfishly?"
"..."
When Xiao Nian lowered his head and did not speak.
Yes, not being a child is also a kind of selfishness, she is very selfish.
Her face was pale and terrible. Lorry looked at her like this, her attitude eased, and she pulled a swivel chair and pushed it to the window. "Mrs. Palace, since you are willing to talk to me, I think we should have a good conversation."
"Miyao waited for me downstairs. I took the medicine and left."
When Xiao Nian said, she was afraid that she couldn’t control herself. She couldn’t face Miyao, let Miyag’s heart be suspicious, and walked away with peace of mind.
That is related to his future, his life.
"Talk to me, if you can touch me, I will let you go." Loeley went to the window, raised his hand and opened the curtains, letting a large piece of sunlight come in, falling on the swivel chair, very bright, "Sit down."
When Xiao Nian looked up at him, he couldn’t go any further, stepping forward and stepping into the sun.
The sun shines her whole person with a trace of weakness.
She sat down in the swivel chair, and Lorry leaned against the window, a doctor's posture, and the gray curtains on the side floated gently. He said, "Let's talk, convince me."
"I don't deserve to be a mother." When Xiaonian sat in a swivel chair, like a believer who accepted God's instructions, he said his sins one by one. "Because of my mistake, I have a gunshot." Fear of sequelae, harming a small age to hurt people, so that he also left a shadow that can not be erased for a lifetime, I even take care of the two children now, how to take care of this one in the belly?"
Once, she thought that the child in her stomach would be able to get full of happiness, so she insisted that even Miyagau was stubborn.
It is only now that she understands that if the child is unfortunate, the reason must be her.
"You continue to say."
Lori decided to listen to her explanation and then express her opinion.
When Xiaonian sat in the swivel chair, the whole person fell in the sun, as if the darkness of the body was illuminated, her hand shook again and whispered, "I killed a lot of people, if I don't trap. Those people will not die; if I can accurately predict the consequences of each decision, my foster mother will not die."
Just like a student doing a problem, she carefully looked at each question, but in the end she could only choose the wrong answer.
And this exam paper has no chance to come back again.
"You are a typical self-denial. You think all the negatives are caused by yourself, but you can think about it again." Lorry said by the window. "First, your mother has already died." The heart, if you go to go, she will commit suicide. Second, there are many people who died in the Hill incident, but chasing the root cause is that Mr. Gong planned all this. In other words, he is the culprit."
"But he is for me." Shi Xiao Nian clearly understands the truth. "If he doesn't understand me and doesn't know my human nature, he won't plan such a thing. If I am smart enough to make him feel relieved, he won't plan."
"..."
Luo Lie was said to be speechless, she actually thought so.
The long silence made her look up and she looked at him and asked, "Dr. Luo, is my logic wrong?"
"I……"
Luo Lie wanted to argue, but there was no language. He felt that her words were full of problems, but he could not find a rebuttal.
She was trapped by this set of logic.
"Is it right? I have been thinking for a long time, no matter what I think, it is my problem." When Xiaodeng bitterly said, "With this, I might as well do something definitely, the baby is in my stomach, he still Without consciousness, he does not have to come to this world like Xiao Kui, and I am tired of it."
The child should be the most carefree in the world, but what is her child going through?
"Mrs. Palace." Loely’s head hurts. "If you lose your child, Mr. Gong will also be injured. I don't think you are sorry for him."
"It can be said to be an accident, so the damage can be minimized."
When Xiao Nian said.
She actually thinks about this even. It seems that she is not a day or two.
Lorry looked at her. Her whole person was bathed in the sun. She was very weak. Her soft lips were moving. "Give me the medicine, Dr. Luo."
Slower, I am afraid that Gong Ou is looking for it. He is an acute child and can't wait for her for too long.
"Mrs. Palace, the children need parents to take care of the protection together. If you think that you are not capable enough, is there still Mr. Gong?" Loely said, "I can see that you love Mr. Gong, and he admires him to some extent. You should believe him."
When I heard this, Xiao Nian’s eyes were darker and her lips were groaning.
"Mrs. Palace..."
"Miyao has a paranoid personality disorder. Although he has been much better in these years, he is still paranoid in many things." Shi Xiao Nian whispered, "I originally thought that adults should not take their children any more. When I came in, I can't think so, and he is too paranoid."
"..."
"In the Hill incident, he can completely avoid letting two children encounter danger, but he is worried that I will be stupid after being detained, so I would rather arrange two young children to accompany me, let me worry, let me have The will to survive." Shi Xiao Nian said with a low voice, the voice is more and more bitter, "I am not a good mother, he is not a hundred percent father."
"..."
"Dr. Luo, I don't want to feel owed to the children any more." Shi Xiaonian said, look up and ask him, "Give me medicine, let me calm down, at least I can't let the palace that dared to make a crazy choice for me." Leave in fear."
If so, who knows what will Mongol do?
Luo Lie really wants to persuade her, but inexplicably seems to be moved by her, she is mentally unstable, but the situation is not as bad as he imagined.
Because she thought a lot, she considered a lot and made corresponding measures.
A person who has completely collapsed in spirit can't do this. She is much stronger than he thinks.
"Do you really think about it?" Lore asked. "Or you can talk to Mr. Gong and let him choose to change appropriately. Don't do anything to protect you. Let him know that the person who cares about you is the same. It is hurting you."
"That is a paranoid personality disorder."
That is Gongao, if he can completely change it, he has already changed.
"..."
Luo Lie was completely defeated. He had no choice but to think about it because she had already thought a lot and considered it very well.
When Xiao Nian looked at him, Luo Li sighed and walked to the shelf next to the wall and took a bottle of medicine from above.
"Thank you."
When Xiao Nian came to him.
Lorry clenched the pill bottle and still looked at her with some hesitation. "Do you really think about it? This is your child, it is a life."
"I really thought about it." Shi Xiao Nian firmly nodded. "When you leave the palace and let him settle in the UK, I will choose to take the child away."
"Maybe after Mr. Gong returns, everything will be fine, and there will be no such difficult situation now." Luo Lie still hesitated to hold the bottle.
"As long as people are alive, trouble will always be there. I can't afford to hurt people around me." Shi Xiaonian said, a pair of eyes are clean but gray, "and Miyagami is going out, so I dare not predict, I will do The worst plan, I don't want him to leave with worry."
She doesn't want to be thinking about it outside of Beijing. My time is good at home, my mood is stable and unstable, will it be safe, and I will not be obedient.
She slowly reached out to him.
"Perhaps, after waiting for this, you can choose to leave Mr. Gong for a while to calm down your feelings. Maybe you don't think so when you come. You don't have to kill this child." Lori still wants to persuade her. .
If she just wants to escape the harm she brings to others, she can choose to leave alone.
When Xiao Nian shook his head, "I can't leave Miyao."
unable.
She can't do it, Miyao has paid too much for her.
"..." Luo Li has nothing to say, hesitated for a long time, after all, put the medicine bottle into her palm, "Mrs. Gong, I was wrongly sentenced to you before, your mental state is not very good, but you It is the strongest woman I have ever seen."
"Thank you."
When Xiao Nian looked down at her palm, there was a small white medicine bottle. Without any words, she clenched the medicine bottle and went outside.