Vol 4 Chapter 135: Confess to yourself

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　　 The next topic did not return to feelings. The two men chatted about the sky in the South and the North again. From middle school to studying abroad, from China to Germany, they talked about their respective lives in Germany. Of course, Zhou Yi's professional player status is naturally inevitable.
　　
　　Zheng Lulu took out a Dortmund jersey with Zhou Yi's name and number printed on it, and then said to Zhou Yi: "Can you sign me a name?"
　　
"It's no problem, you can let me sign you up!" Zhou Yi is very heroic, and then took over the jersey and pen, writing next to his name on the back of the jersey: "Send to Zheng Lulu, I hope you can bloom confidently and happy Resident." The payment is "Your classmate Zhou Yi."
　　
　　Zhou Lulu pursed his lips as he looked down at the words written on the shirt by Zhou Yi.
　　
　　After signing the name, drinking the red wine in the bottle, and finally having the dessert.
　　
　　 This Christmas Eve dinner is also due to end.
　　
　　According to the plan of Zheng Lulu's roommate Catherine, then the next two people should shift to the battlefield, sit in a bar with dim lights and ambiguous music, have a good meal and talk to each other. Finally, go to Zheng Lulu's hotel room for a decisive battle.
　　
　　 But neither Zhou Yi nor Zheng Lulu had the intention to continue the next game.
　　
　　Zheng Lulu offered: "I'm going back."
　　
　　 Zhou Yi nodded and said, "I will send you back."
　　
　　 If Catherine heard this, she would definitely think that Zhou Yi wanted to take the initiative. But Zheng Lulu now knows clearly that there is no such misunderstanding between Zhou Yi and her.
　　
　　 He said he wanted to send himself back, only because he was worried about a single female being out so late.
　　
　　 Then she shook her head and said, "No, you are a public figure now. If you are seen, it will be unclear. Be careful that the media describes me as your gossip girlfriend."
　　
　　 Zhou Yi scratched his head, Zheng Lulu's consideration is very practical. As a celebrity, it is normal for a gossip to come out, but Zheng Lulu was shot while lying, which is not good.
　　
　　 So instead of insisting, he said, "I will call you a car."
　　
　　 This time Zheng Lulu did not object.
　　
　　 "Well, come in a while." Zhou Yi put down his phone and said to Zheng Lulu.
　　
　　Zheng Lulu nodded.
　　
　　 Then there was a silence in the room for the first time this evening, and the atmosphere began to cool down.
　　
　　Zhou Yi can feel the change of atmosphere. Everyone has been talking hotly before, laughing from time to time, very happy, why suddenly the atmosphere is gone?
　　
　　 Maybe I was a little tired after talking all night?
　　
　　 Zhou Yi thought, in fact, chatting is sometimes very tiring. I forgot where I saw it, saying that two people chatting is like playing tennis. If a person only serves and does not catch the ball, then the ball cannot be played. It takes two people to come and go, but there must be a level at the same time. If there is a person who has a high level of service and a high level of receiving, but the other side is not very good, the ball is down You can also play, but that high level will be very tired. Only when both players are very good can this ball be played wonderfully and beautifully.
　　
　　 But beautiful and beautiful also have to pay the price, that is, the mental requirements of both people are very high. They have to constantly find common language in the topic. When discussing this topic, they want to think about the next topic, and then continue to extend this way.
　　
　　Tonight, Zhou Yi felt quite happy talking with Zheng Lulu. When he promised to eat with Zheng Lulu, he didn't expect to be able to have such an atmosphere. At the beginning, he criticized and told jokes in order not to be cold. Zheng Lulu was very cooperative.
　　
　　According to his previous impression of Zheng Lulu, this is a girl who says you three words, and she can return you a word, which is a good girl. She is introverted, shy, has no confidence, is quiet, and is not good at communicating.
　　
Such classmates, men and women, will definitely exist in any one class. They are often the most neglected people in this class. After many years of classmates, everyone will even forget to notify them. Name these faces.
　　
　　 But it was such a classmate who didn't have a sense of presence, but Zhou Yi was surprised at this evening.
　　
　　Thinking about this, Zhou Yi found a topic that continued to chat a few words, or is still an old talk - praise Zheng Lulu's changes and praise her self-confidence. If it is when there is nothing to say, flatterers will always be right.
　　
　　 But when he was about to open his mouth, Zheng Lulu, who kept his head down in front of him, suddenly raised his head and opened his mouth to speak.
　　
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　　When Zhou Yi was thinking about how to "respect," Zheng Lulu's people were actually doing a very fierce struggle.
　　
　　When she first came to Dortmund, she came with a very strong "purpose". When the atmosphere started to be good after she came, she also had some longings. But with the deepening of the chat content, especially when talking about personal emotional issues, she realized that the good feeling before was just the enthusiasm shown by Zhou Yi as an old classmate who had not met for a long time. Redundant meaning.
　　
After understanding this at the beginning, Zheng Lulu felt a little frustrated-even if she tried so hard to change herself, Zhou Yidu was very surprised by the change, and Zhou Yi still had no other excess feelings for her, so she worked so hard What is it for? Is it just a mere emptiness to get to the end?
　　
　　 She originally planned to adjust her mindset, as a classmate gathering, do not think too much, after eating, she said goodbye to Zhou Yi with a smile, and left with self-esteem.
　　
　　 But at first sight she really wanted to say goodbye, but she suddenly became reluctant.
　　
　　Because she didn't know if she would have the courage to stand in front of Zhou Yi again and say those words after this time. If you don’t say it, it’s impossible to want to do nothing, and Zhou Yi, who doesn’t know anything, can certainly do nothing, but he can’t.
　　
　　 She can't pass her level.
　　
　　Some things have happened, some feelings have happened, some words have been held in my heart for a long time, how can I do what has never happened?
　　
　　 They clearly fell so deeply on their bodies and hearts.
　　
She thought about it and thought that she should still say it, although she knew that it would not have a good result if she said it, because she actually understood Zhou Yi’s intentions-he only regarded himself as an ordinary classmate, because everyone was there Germany, so it is a little kind, but it does not mean that he will have feelings for himself that are not there. Perhaps this kind of thing will happen to others, but with her knowledge of Zhou Yi, the probability of happening to Zhou Yi is zero.
　　
　　 But she still has to say that she didn’t say it to respond, but to prove herself. She takes this secret crush very seriously, whether she can do it or not, there must be an ending. The relationship she took so seriously could not be so unresolved.
　　
　　 Thinking of this, she looked up sharply and looked at Zhou Yi's eyes and said, "I want to apologize to you, Zhou Yi."
　　
　　 "Ah? Apologies?" Zhou Yi was very strange, and didn't understand why Zheng Lulu said so.
　　
　　 "Because I didn't tell you the truth."
　　
"This……"
　　
　　Zhou Yi didn't quite understand where Zheng Lulu wanted to sing.
　　
"I lied to you, Zhou Yi. I came to study abroad in Germany, not because I like Germany." Zheng Lulu did not give Zhou Yi time to react, nor did he give him the opportunity to go back, he breathed the sentence in her heart. All poured out.
　　
　　 "But because I like...I like you!"
　　
　　 Hearing this sentence, Zhou Yi seemed to be hit by a thunderbolt, and the whole person froze in his seat.
　　
　　Looking at Zhou Yi's dazed expression, Zheng Lulu paused for a moment, and continued to say, anyway, that sentence was all spoken, then what else can't be said?
　　
"... At school, I have been secretly paying attention to you. I think you are a very interesting person. Although many of your things are unreasonable to others, I think you are very energetic and charming. But at that time I was not confident and dared not confess to you. I was afraid of being rejected by you. Who would like me to wear a brace on my teeth? So after knowing that you are going to play football in Germany, I also convinced My mother, let her send me to study in Germany to stay closer to you."
　　
"After coming to Germany, I desperately changed myself, forcing myself to live an independent life in Germany, learning languages, working, making friends, actively participating in school activities, trying to speak loudly in front of many people, I even participated Our school's lectures...My classmates in Germany didn't know that I was actually a girl who didn't dare to speak loudly, always pursed her lips and smiled cautiously... and I did all this to make myself More confident and better, only dare to say that sentence in front of you..."
　　
"I pay attention to every game you have in Germany, every news you have in Germany, and I can see you progressing every day, which makes me work harder to change myself, hoping to have the courage and qualification to stand by you By my side... but no matter how cheerful I am, but when I think of meeting you, I lack courage... So sorry I lied to you again, it’s not because QQ was stolen, I just didn’t dare to come out and say hello ..."
　　
"I think I can become as good as you are, but I always feel that it is not good enough. It was not until I was about to graduate that I had the courage to decide to come to see you. But after really seeing you, I again... . I dare not say that sentence, I imagine you actually like me, and then confessed to me on Christmas Eve... sorry, I read more romance novels." Speaking of which, Zheng Lulu shook his head with a smile.
　　
"I know you always treat me as an ordinary classmate, and I know that if I say that sentence, maybe it will cause you a little trouble...so I think okay, just think this is An ordinary classmates party is okay. After this meal, nothing happened. I said goodbye to you and went back. But just now, I regret it. Because, because of me... I am not willing... "
　　
　　 When Zheng Lulu spoke before, although the speed was fast, the tone was quite calm, and she could still smile. But when it comes to here, her voice gradually trembles, faintly crying.
　　
　　 But she quickly stabilized her emotions and continued:
　　
"I'm not willing to say goodbye to you like this~EbookFREE.me~ I'm not willing to work hard for so many years but I still don't feel confident. I'm not willing to make you think of me as an ordinary classmate...I still want Communicate my intentions to you. But rest assured, I will not ask you anything, this is what I ask of myself. I am afraid that if I don’t say it today, I won’t have a chance to say it later. So you refuse me It’s okay, it’s okay for me to joke, it’s okay, you don’t need to have any trouble, I just want you to know this, that’s all.

　　
Speaking of this, Zheng Lulu took a deep breath, and a smile reappeared on her face: "Sure enough, it feels much better to say it. And before I was afraid of it, I was afraid of being rejected, I was afraid of being ugly. In fact, just say it. There is nothing to fear!"
　　
　　After she finished, she stood up and bowed slightly to Zhou Yi: "Thank you, Zhou Yi, thank you for the meal you invited, thank you for listening to me for saying so much, thank you... for appearing in my life."
　　
　　 finished, she picked up her bag and turned away. She didn't hesitate or dare to stay. She didn't have the courage to hear Zhou Yi's answer in the end, but it didn't matter. She should have said everything. Now she thinks the result is not so important.
　　
　　 Behind her, Zhou Yi's mobile phone came a reminder-the taxi he called for Zheng Lulu was already at the door of the hotel... (to be continued.)