Chapter 605: "You choose me, will you?"

"But I didn't go to Beijing for you."
When I heard this sentence, I didn't feel disappointed, and I didn't even feel a little angry or dissatisfied. The emotion that almost cracked my chest was still flowing like a tide. I even knew the answer. But I still asked, even if it was painful, we should clearly understand the pain; even if we were crying, we must cry fast.
I looked at him and said seriously, "Why are you here?"
He also looked at me and solemnly said, "Speaking, maybe you won't believe it, but I—I—" He glanced at me, as if blushing: "I always feel that I have a sense of Jiangnan Share responsibility. "
"..."
"Speaking of it, you probably think it's funny, too," he said softly, shamefully, "I was only a muddy leg."
I heard a sting in my heart, and grabbed his hand subconsciously.
His palms are wide and his fingers are long and rough. He can feel the thick calluses on his palms and palms. This is a pair of
mud-leg
hands, doing the hardest work, getting the lowest pay, being stepped on. Lowest level. I have seen with my own eyes how those corrupt officials are filthy people and how they oppress good people like them.
But such a person would not just live a silent life like this.
"However, I'm glad I'm a mud leg," he said, his eyes were darker and his voice deeper when he said: "Because, I can really see more than a person standing tall In dark places, I also learned more about dark things. "
"Light cold ..."
"Lightness, you didn't grow up in Jiangnan. You do n’t know what you have experienced there or how hard the 'little people' have lived. Corrupt officials, powerful and powerful people, these people have done it in the south for the fish people. Something you may have heard of, may have seen, but heard, seen, and experienced are definitely not the same. "
My heart sank slightly.
He is right, empathy is actually a hypocritical word. The pain of others may be seen in the eyes and understandable, but it is impossible to realize it from nothing. If you see a person caught in a cold lake, you will not Understand how deep that cold pool is and how cold the pool of water is. I only know that harsh government is more fierce than tigers. I only know that Dalits are suffering, but in the end how hard it is, that is just an imaginary imagination.
Those who do not hurt are not suffering.
Now, I seem to really understand why he was so eager to learn, think about it, and even discuss the way out of the south with Huang Tianba in the fishing village at that time.
Because only those who are really trapped in that kind of quagmire will find a way to save themselves, and those who are as desperate as themselves.
"So, I always feel that way. I feel that I have a responsibility to Jiangnan. Even before I rescue you, it seems that feeling is strong."
"..."
Before I jumped from Tiger Leaping Gorge, that is, after the assassination of Lord Liu Yi, he died of illness.
Is this really the nature of father and son? Is it a constant relationship and habit in the blood? He embarked on the same path as his father and brother. Even if he lived in the people, even though he has had such a hard time in these years, he has not worn away the righteousness in his nature, and he is proud of the pride of heaven and earth.
Is all this really destined?
But-what's his ending?
I will not forget what Huang Tianba told me, how horrible Liu Shizhou died, and I will never forget the tragic situation after the assassination of Lord Liu Yi, and his persistence before he died.
What about Liu Qinghan? What about him?
He embarked on the same road as Liu Shizhou and Liu Yi. Will the end of this road be the same?
When I think of it, I just feel that my chest is pierced by thousands of steel needles. The pain made me almost out of breath. My eyes became red and hot immediately. I thought I was wronged because of his words. Reached out and held my face: "Lightness, you—you do n’t cry, I—I wo n’t say anymore, I—

My cheeks were held in the palm of his palm. The rough texture and warm body temperature made me have a slight trembling fear.
I'm afraid that my hands will disappear, it will become cold, it will make me stretch my hand straight, and I won't catch it. After waking me up, I can only face an empty space. What should I do on that day?
Thinking of this, I gritted my teeth and looked up at me: "Light cold, I understand you."
He didn't seem to expect that I would say these three words suddenly and only looked at me for a moment: "Lightness ..."
"But Shen Gongzhen is over."
He froze.
"Shen Gongyi, it's over."
I repeated it again, looking straight at his eyes: "The emperor has spent so much time trying to get rid of him, not only because Shen Taifu's power has poured into the wild and threatened the imperial power, but also one of the following- With their group of veterans, the new policy in the south cannot be implemented smoothly. The south is uneasy and the entire Central Plains will be affected. "
Qing Han nodded: "I understand."
"Now, Shen Gongzhen has fallen. Following his group of old ministers, a lot of them went down during the imperial examinations. This time-the emperor will not be soft-hearted. After returning to Beijing, he will only start cleaning. "
Qing Han didn't speak, and those clear eyes showed a sense of outrage.
Of course, he knows that he and Fu Bazhen and Pei Yuanzhang have been waiting for this day.
I continued: "That is to say, after this time, there is no big obstacle for the emperor to implement the New Deal in the South, and some of your previous ideas about the tax system in the south, I-I have already presented the emperor . "
Qing Han opened her eyes slightly and looked at me, and immediately seemed to understand what came over: "It turned out that you told him!"
I nodded.
"No wonder ..." he murmured. "No wonder then, we hit it off."
I did not ask, when did they talk, and how quickly did they fit together. Since Pei Yuanzhang trusts and reuses their apprentices and apprentices, naturally it is because they are going the same way as they are going to achieve. Now I just keep looking into his eyes and ask seriously, "Will you give up on me like this?"
"..." He froze slightly and looked up at me.
"The affairs of the imperial court have been set; and your idea will soon be realized in the south. What kind of emperor is Pei Yuanzhang, you already know in the past, now, I am afraid to know more clearly. Your vision is exactly the same as you; without those people's obstacles, the future of the South will surely come true according to your ideas. "
"..."
"The South will get better, it will become, as you think."
"..."
"The only difference is-are you doing these things yourself?"
"..."
"Even so," I said, holding his hand tightly: "Can't you choose me?"
Qinghan seemed to be greatly shocked. For a while, he couldn't say anything. He just sat there stiffly, his rough fingers were in my palm, and he became cold by the way.
Can't you choose me
I never knew that I would be so weak, so retreating to almost retreat, but I really want to try it once.
Holding his finger firmly, I was already stuttered when I spoke. It never seemed to have such a difficult "negotiation", because what I bet is what I hope for half a life, and the right to trial, In his own hands--
"You choose me, will you?"