Chapter 761: As if all these years, he has guarded me

Seeing him smile like this, my mood is even heavier, but I still ask him first: "How are you doing now?"
"It's all right."
"Does it hurt?"
"do not worry."
The voice of his speech was very low and light, which was weaker than when he just woke up. Obviously during the time when the door was closed and Han Ruoshi was in the room, he must have said a lot and his breath would be so weak.
What did he say to persuade Han Ruoshi, I do n’t know, even if he knew at this time, he might not be able to recover anything, but just seeing his face pale and weak, but still persisting like this, it made my heart pressure again A heavy stone.
I thought about it and said, "Then you take a break."
After speaking, I was about to turn around and go out, but as soon as I moved, I heard Pei Yuanxiu calling me: "Green baby."
I stopped and looked back at him.
The corner of his pale lips hung and smiled and said to me, "I don't want to sleep now, can you sit with me for a while?"
"..."
I stopped for a while, walked slowly, and sat on a stool by the bed.
The smile in his eyes deepened. Lying on the bed and watching me quietly, the eyes were almost satisfied with tenderness, but that look made me more and more like sitting on a needle felt, almost almost unable to sustain, I heard him softly said: "Just now, Zi Tong did not embarrass you? "
I shook my head: "No."
He said gently: "She has a quick temper, like a child."
"Yeah." I nodded and said with a smile: "It's a rare girl to be so innocent, laughing and swearing in all shapes, a heart of childishness, and it's thoughtful."
Pei Yuanxiu glanced at me and said, "You don't seem to mind her?"
I shook my head gently.
"So, what do you mind?"
I listened for a moment, looked up, and met his focused gaze.
He asked me, what do I mind?
Why did he ask like this at this time?
I know that although he and I have n’t had many days since we met each other, he knows more about me than I do with him, including some faint thoughts in my heart, and he can even detect one or two.
I still remember that Nangong Lizhu once said that on their big wedding night, Pei Yuanxiu always called a person's name after being drunk, saying that he wanted to give that person complete happiness, but could not give it away.
He knows what I want.
Therefore, even though I was just an ordinary little palace girl at the time, as a prince in the dynasty, he wanted a little palace girl but could not do anything for her, but she always kept away from me out of respect.
Even after he disposed of the He Qingzhou family, when he came to see me at the court, he also explained to me specifically. No matter in public or private, he was very clear about what I could not accept and what I cared most.
...
The thought of this suddenly froze.
That was the first time I saw him in the cabinet. Although his eyes were soft and his breath was soft, his deep-seated thoughts and his old-fashioned behavior made me feel bitter chill at that time.
And Wei Ningyuan's words sounded in my ears again-
"I always thought that Madam was the scabbard of a prince ..."
"Isn't Madam aware that when you are next to the Prince, he hardly hurts ..."
Thinking of this, I slowly lowered my head to look at Pei Yuanxiu on the bed. He still looked at me tenderly. There was a small, slender shadow reflected in those clear eyes and pupils, as if from the beginning, he was wholehearted Only me.
"..."
I opened my mouth, but for a moment I couldn't say anything. After a pause, I smiled softly: "Living at this age, I don't know destiny, and I should be sensible. There is so much to mind."
"Really?"
"Even if I had, I would have forgotten it."
With that said, I lowered my eyes a bit with burnout and really felt tired.
At this time, Pei Yuanxiu's soft voice came-"I remember it for you."
"..." I froze and looked up at him.
The corners of his eyes were crooked, and the sun shone on his pale face, but instead reflected a faint radiance. Although gentle, he had a firm stubbornness in tenderness, and was not transferred by anyone, even any environment. This may be the reason why things have changed over the years, but he has remained the same.
My slightly opened lips were trembling, but speechless. After a while, I felt that the lip was very dry, and I patted it lightly.
But people are messy.
There are countless voices in my mind and heart that are constantly tempting, persuading, arguing, and even scolding.
Do you know how good he is and how good he is to you? !!
You live up to his deep affection over the years ...
But I never wanted to, and should not use my own marriage to give back to others ...
Maybe you can really fall in love with him ...
But what if you still can't fall in love with him? How easy is it to love someone?
Don't forget your heart, your people, who else are you thinking about, don't you forget? !!
But what about others? You think of him, but where is he?
he is--
Qinghan won't belong to you anymore. He has his own way. Don't you keep the status of a daughter-in-law of the Liu family and wait until you are old?
I don't care, even if I am old alone alone? Who said that a woman must marry a man and rely on a man? I live well myself! And, I've been happy before, isn't that enough? At least, I have the memories with Qing Han, I'm satisfied ...
However, if Pei Yuanxiu is also involved because of you, do you have the heart to be so lonely and old?
Yue Qingying, do you bear it ...?
Green baby ...!
Green baby ...
Those voices were getting more and more chaotic and farther away, but they kept echoing in my mind. I just felt that the sky was spinning, as if the whole person was trapped in the bottomless quagmire, the deeper and deeper I was. Desperately struggling in the darkness, trying to call for help, but opened his mouth but couldn't make a sound ...
Just as my whole body was about to be swallowed up, suddenly, I saw a figure in the deep darkness surrounding me.
It was a thin, long back, wearing a black shirt, and the whole person seemed to be integrated into the surrounding dark environment, standing there quietly, motionless.
Seems to be watching me.
"Light cold!"
I suddenly called that name, and I kept screaming--
"Light cold! Light cold-!"
At that moment, I didn't even know if I was asking for help or just wanting to call him, but the name seemed to give me incredible strength, even in such a suffocating situation, which made me not So sad.
"Light cold!"
I have a lot to say to you!
In my calling, the dark figure slowly came over, his face was pale, his expression was almost calm, but he actively reached out to me, and I caught the pale Big hand.
Immediately, a burning sensation of flames came from his hands, and I was burned by the whole person.
Why is his hand so hot?
I don't know what happened, but still clutching his hot hand tightly, along his pale wrists, dark sleeves, broad shoulders, my gaze went up all the way to see his face clearly For a moment, suddenly, the darkness under my feet turned into a whirlpool, sucking me in!
"...!"
I almost shouted out loud, and suddenly, holding my shoulders with both hands—
"Miss?"
The familiar voice took me out of the dream with a real temperature. I shuddered a little, and opened my eyes, only to find myself sitting next to the bed, and I didn't know when to fall asleep on the bedpost.
Susu is standing behind me, watching me with concern: "Miss, are you all right?"
I was still a little hesitant, and hesitated for a long time before I recovered my consciousness.
It was just a dream?
I looked around again.
It was all dark, the oil lamp was lit in the room, and Pei Yuanxiu on the bed seemed to have fallen asleep long ago. However, his head leaned slightly to my side.
It's a dream ...
I was sweating coldly and sighed softly. I do n’t know why I suddenly dreamed like this, or if it ’s a nightmare. I clearly dreamed of a light cold, but why in the dream he felt so strange, so strange, and in the dreams of the past, in Jixiang Village and me He is so different from the case, he is completely different in the fire of Jixian Temple, completely different?
Why do you have such a dream?
I was still worried, Susu had whispered, "Miss, it's getting late, Miss Sun is already asleep, you should go to rest."
"Where are they?"
"He asked someone to rent a house in the village and live there for the time being. Let's go over to him immediately if we have something."
"……Ok."
I nodded, and she got up slowly, holding her, and was about to turn to leave, and suddenly felt the sleeves sink.
Looking down, I found that one corner of my sleeve was being pinched by Pei Yuanxiu. Just that move, he was a little uneasy, his eyebrows were slightly raised, as if to wake up, but after struggling for a while, he did not wake up. , Just like still indulging in dreams.
I thought about it, and was preparing to take out the sleeve carefully, and I heard a low, but some sweet murmur, and gently passed it into my ears.
"Green baby ..."
I shuddered slightly, raised my head, and saw Pei Yuanxiu's slender eyelashes reflected by the candlelight, and cast a long shadow on the pale face, showing his weight loss more and more, but there was a touch of faintness in that shy Smile from the corner of his mouth.
For a while, my hand froze there.
Susu has been standing behind me, seeing that I suddenly stopped moving, she carefully supported my arm: "Miss?"
"..."
I was silent for a while, without turning my head, only whispering, "Go to sleep."
"how about you?"
"I'm right here."
"So what? Miss, your body also--"
"Don't say it. Go."
When she saw that I didn't even look back, although her voice seemed so tired, but she couldn't let her beak, she took a step back and said, "Yes."
After that, she went back to the back room.
I kept watching Pei Yuanxiu, and at this time slowly sat back on the stool, but my sleeves were flicked slightly, he immediately felt, his eyebrows frowned, and his sleepiness became uneasy.
I looked at him silently, after a long time, said gently: "Don't worry."
"..."
"I'm still here."
I don't know if he heard it, or if there was someone in his dreams that reassured him, he really calmed down, even breathing, and no more anxiety.
Late at night.
I didn't fall asleep anymore, his sleeves were still tightly pinched in his hands, and I just sat by the bed, guarding him quietly.
As if all these years, he has guarded me.
Night, like a dream, slowly swallowed me.