: a little bit

At two o'clock last night, I was still in the code, and the second one was just half written. Then my wife suddenly entered the study and told me that another author had passed away.
I stumbled and my heart began to feel a little uneasy.
Then she showed me the phone, and the circle of friends almost all forwarded the news of the death of the heart from the beginning of the night in Platinum.
After 14 years of entry, the time in this circle is not long, but such news has been heard many times.
They are all talented people, thieves, three idiots, the night in the plaid...
Seeing this news, my heart is awkward and hard to accept.
My daughter-in-law asked me to go to sleep, and the rest of the manuscript will be written tomorrow.
I can't refuse it, because I got a snack bar during this time, I was busy with the decoration and there were all kinds of things. There was no time code in the daytime. They were all in the middle of the night, and she almost went to sleep at three or four o'clock.
I know what she is worried about, because she is a peer, and I know that she is definitely not feeling well at this time.
Get up in the morning and make up the second one that hasn't been written, but still feel like I want to talk to you.
The people who choose this industry are really because they love it~
I have seen many people here, rolling around, staying up all night, holding meager remuneration, even zero remuneration, creating one after another, perhaps imperfect world and stories, but still full of motivation and enthusiasm.
If you switch to any career in reality, you should be treated as a fool?
In this industry, even if they persist in and work hard, the authors who can finally stand out, even relying on code words to get enough food and clothing, are a few people.
More authors, in their spare time, endure tiredness and stay up all night.
Many people have seen the success of the Great God's monthly income, but they have not seen the persistence and hard work behind them.
Of course, I don’t even see the sadness of those authors who don’t even get three thousand yuan a month.
When I entered the business in 14 years, I wrote a first book of one million words. I took a signing cup from the outing station and did not receive any remuneration.
In the past 15 years, because I lost the confidence to write a text, I was able to get some recognition when I wrote the same person who wrote the Great God. The first real reward in the real sense was the second prize of the essay of the Forbidden God. , 600 yuan shopping gold, bought a green shaft mechanical keyboard for myself, was happy for a long time.
Later, when the restaurant was put on the shelves, it was very wonderful to be in the same box with the Forgotten God.
Later, I participated in the post-it activity of the greasy god, and got three comics of the night, and I was super happy.
That two years is really about generating electricity for love.
For the first time in 16 years, I came to the starting point and wrote the book "Suguo Quanchen". At that time, I liked the snow in the bonfire. I felt that I should also write a book like that.
However, because of his limited ability, he only got a little shape, and he was not a god, so he was very miserable. 890,000 words, about eighty-nine are set at the end.
This book was written for about seven months, and the total draft fee was about 3,340 yuan, with an average of 400 yuan per month.
This level of book, at the beginning of a lot, the subscription income is almost zero, because the daily update of 4,000 words, the starting point will have a full attendance award of 600 yuan.
If it is not love, I can hardly imagine an adult paying for 600 yuan a month, staying up late for a few hours in front of the computer.
Later, he opened a "Fist in Tang" 2016.10 - 2017.12.30 eunuch.
The biggest change that I have brought to me is that I finally feel that I have readers, even if there are not many, even if there are a lot of jealousy and ridicule, but from the stand-alone to the readers, the feeling is really special.
One punch won the second prize of the second element essay, and then got the guarantee contract of the thousand words 25, which was written nearly 2 million, and got about 45,000 yuan after the tax, with an average monthly income of 3,000.
Reluctantly cross the street.
At that time, I wrote a punch at the university, lived in the dormitory, the university, everyone played games, so the dormitory was very noisy, black, watching the live broadcast... So moved the table on the small balcony, the temperature in winter Subzero, the wind is very big, the hands are frozen, holding a small stove to roast, only to bake hands, otherwise the fingers can not be stiff.
The most bitter part of the codeword was probably that time. Later, the lumbar vertebrae protruded, probably at that time.
When I graduated in 17 years, I chose a full-time job because of a punch. I didn’t even have a resume, and I didn’t go to any interview. I graduated and packed up and went home.
Looking back now, if it wasn’t fortunate that luck was not good, it would be a very pity choice in my life.
Full-time home code is a very stressful thing, because the manuscript fee is not high at the time, but the house at home will give a very bad feeling at home, such as elders, such as laziness.
At the time of my return home, I also had very serious insomnia, as well as a sudden outburst of lumbar muscle strain and lumbar protrusion. In a few months, I stood with code words, one station a day.
Going to the hospital doctor is very surprised to ask me what to do, why the lumbar muscle strain at a young age.
This problem, about six or seven full-time authors, are sedentary for a long time, and the posture is not correct, and often it is time to start feeling uncomfortable, they realize that they should adjust their posture. Work and rest combine...
Can't sit, can't be embarrassed, parents worry, and they are also very uncomfortable.
Later, losing weight and doing recovery exercises have been greatly alleviated. At present, as long as you don't lift heavy objects, don't do heavy work, don't squat for a long time, and there is no difference with ordinary people.
A fist was written to Shangling Mountain, and then the eunuch.
In fact, the outline has been written, and I have conceived countless times in my mind, but I have never written it.
About dare not write.
What did you do after Shangling Mountain? Destroy the Buddha?
I am afraid that the book is gone, and I am afraid that I have written something that I should not write. Anyway, I have been very entangled. I have written a large number of times and deleted it.
Some things I should explain, such as Wang Fushi Li Simin, such as Xiaobai Savior, such as dancing back to the peak...
When I have finished it, I should write it all.
In November 17th, I opened the book in the restaurant and let me climb out of the pit. I got a relatively good income, at least economically got rid of the embarrassing state, and proved to my parents that I have been working hard. The things you do are right.
But the mental pressure has never been alleviated.
This is the anxiety shared by the network authors. I have talked with many authors, even if I have been a very successful author, I still can't get rid of it.
Regular quantitative updates every day, from time to time need to explode more pressure, to track down the pressure of decline, the pressure of the book's wind direction change...
Sometimes it may be because of a reader's sentence in the book review or in the chapter review: Recently, good water... began to fall into infinite reflection, in the loop of overwhelming, and even fear of insomnia.
Starting from the full-time codeword, as long as it is still updated, there is no experience of completely relaxing holidays. Even if you are traveling abroad, you will be counting the time to return to the hotel codeword and upload it. In the process of playing, you will think in your mind. It is the story to be written today.
Staying up late is the norm. Many authors choose to start the code at night and make a cup of coffee or tea. It is an all-nighter.
Stomach disease, heart palpitations, most of the time will still ignore them selectively, I feel no problem sleeping.
I have participated in some author gatherings and activities. Except for some authors who are self-disciplined, regular in life and constantly moving, most of the authors are big belly and dark circles, even if they are young, there is not much youthfulness.
Are they very sad? Not necessarily, because often in the circle of friends to see their readers praise their screenshots or book reviews, the stupid look, you can feel the smug through the screen.
The author's happiness is so simple.
Because my thoughts are a bit mixed, I think of what to write.
In fact, I wrote so much, I tweeted my experience, and told some stories in the circle, not to sell miserables, but to tell your dear readers: Give the author a little more tolerance and encouragement, especially those Just getting started, the author who just started to explore on this road, maybe your encouragement, will let him go further on the road to the street, perhaps the next one will let him see the hope of life.
The bad words hurt people. Maybe you just said a word, you forget it, but it may be a big blow for an author.
If you don't write well, it's probably a lack of ability, because people with a bad attitude can't knock out a million long words in front of the computer.
As long as it is not a question of principle or position, as long as he can continue to write down, he will certainly be able to progress.
Those who stay up late with code words may not be great, but they should not be treated as violence.
Finally, I hope that the great gods in the plaid will go all the way, and I hope all my colleagues can cherish the body and stay away from the pain.
- whispered the rivers and lakes.
Wonder House