Chapter 388: "I'm Lilith."

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This is an area that no one can reach.
This is a world that no one can reach.
In this realm and this world, Jade is the only one wandering in it like a soul.
Because this is the body of the evil Lilith, the inside of the goddess, the depths of consciousness, or the "soul" itself.
But here, Jade felt that he had become in a trance, and even the existence itself was extremely unstable.
"It's going to fall apart."
"It's going to collapse."
"It's going to disappear."
"Can't hold on."
Obviously, I didn't feel any discomfort, but feelings like this continued to flood Jade's mind, letting Jade understand how dangerous his current situation was.
It's like soaking yourself in poison and losing your pain. Not only will it not be alright, it will be even more dangerous.
This is how Jade now feels.
With this feeling, Jade began to look back in his memory.
She can't speak.
She is not mature either.
Even if it has survived for nearly ten thousand years, in terms of personality rationality, although Jade has grown, it is moving in a direction that is not quite right.
She wants to improve her rationality and her personality strength to fight against her own ontology, but the chaotic nature of her ontology has been suppressing the growth of her personality and rationality, resulting in Jade’s rationality and even intellectuality. They all grew up in a strange direction.
In certain fields, she knows and understands very well, and she seems to be more knowledgeable than a century old man, and she sees through the world.
In some areas, she seemed to understand, or even completely ignorant, worse than a child.
Such a contradictory and deformed ideology has been maintained for nearly ten thousand years. Sometimes it will make Jade feel anxious, and sometimes it will make Jade feel broken, and she really can't bear it.
She didn't know how to blame the heavens and others, or why her destiny treated herself like this, so she could only do her best to eliminate this anxiety and collapse, and she kept wandering, wandering, and wandering on the ground.
In Jade's memory, there are really only these.
After all, from the moment she was born, as a rational half-body, she was excluded from the ontology, and immediately after the ontology broke into a catastrophe, she was sealed with the other party, and then began this extremely long wandering journey.
During this journey, she met someone who saw herself pitifully and adopted herself.
During this journey, she also met people who were unruly towards herself and wanted to do something to herself.
She tried to live with the former, but found that they have their own family, their own daily lives, and there is no place for them. Even communicating with each other is a problem and there is a great barrier. Therefore, she finally chose to leave. .
She was also taken away by the latter and sold as a merchandise. She did not even choose to resist when the other party wanted to do something unruly to herself. Unfortunately, no matter how she said she was the master of darkness and chaos. Those who come into contact with themselves with dark and evil negative emotions, and even intend to hurt themselves, will eventually fall into madness and die on the spot.
For nearly ten thousand years, Jade has always come here like this. It is not accepted first, and then feels the barrier to leave, or it will attract those evil people and cause them to die suddenly.
From beginning to end, Jade is a person.
People call her "the resentful spirit looking for happiness", but she actually doesn't even know what "happiness" is.
She doesn't even know what "unfortunate" is.
Otherwise, when the people of the old demons destroy the space node, break into the temple of the present world, and take her away, she will not resist.
That time, for Jade, it was just a humble experience during a long journey.
The only difference is that because someone stared at the seal of the body, it was very possible to release the body. At that time, Jade had an idea.
That is, take this journey experience as the final destination.
She didn't want to go on like this anymore.
She doesn't want to wander like this anymore.
Therefore, even if she knows that the final result must be eliminated, she plans to take this opportunity to return to her body after this.
Until I met that person.
"Hello."
This is the first sentence the other person said when they saw him.
Very ordinary, very ordinary, without any bright spots and special words.
At that time, Jade did not feel that he would have much involvement with the other party.
That is, like those people in the past, when they encounter themselves, they will have a relationship with themselves. In the end, either they will take the initiative to leave, or the other party will die like those who died suddenly, nothing more.
But for some reason, the look in the other party's eyes at that time impressed Jade very deeply.
It was as if looking at a big trouble, he obviously didn't want to touch, but his body and heart went against his will, so he had to make contact, full of tangled eyes.
That look made Jade quite concerned.
In the past, the people Jade saw were either full of sympathy and love, or full of desire and darkness, and had never seen such a strange person.
Because he cared about that look, Jade also got into the other's bed that night, and wanted to take a good look at the eyes, but because the other's embrace was too reassuring, he fell asleep unconsciously.
Jade didn't know why he felt warm and at ease in the other person.
She didn’t know that Sheen had the blessing of the Supreme God. Otherwise, she might understand that it happened because of Sheen who held this blessing, and because of the breath of the mother of the gods. The relationship has just given her a sense of peace of mind in the arms of her parents.
What really changed Jade's mood was what happened the next day.
"Little guy, do you want to go with me?"
When that person looked directly at him and said such a sentence to himself, Jade felt quite incredible.
It's not because no one has said that to himself.
In the past, those who took in and adopted themselves did not say this less.
However, their eyes are completely different from the eyes of that person.
In the past, those who planned to take in and adopt themselves only regarded themselves as outcasts of unknown origin, and only planned to bring her into their lives based on sympathy, pity and affection.
But this person is different.
The look in this person's eyes is not to bring himself to his side, but that he intends to enter his side and intervene in her life and her life.
These are two completely different things.
The former was to let herself abandon her past and live with them, but Jade couldn't do it, so she left.
The latter is to let oneself face one's own problem directly, the other party will intervene, interfere in, face with oneself together.
Especially when the other party didn't know that from time to time, he would show emotions as if looking at someone with the same illness, which made Jade feel a different touch from the people he had encountered in the past.
Maybe, even the other party didn't know that he had shown such emotions?
So, at that time, Jade nodded.
Not based on the choice to follow the trend, but for the first time in history, out of my own ideas, loyal to my heart, nodded this head.
Since then, everything is destined to be changed.
Later, Jade discovered that he was a brave man. He possessed the holy sword. Not only could he help himself break the seal and return to his body, he could also help himself weaken the power of his body and increase his chances of returning.
"Don't worry, I will help you."
The other party is obviously not a person who can say such warm words, but when facing himself, he naturally said such words.
"Don't forget, I let you choose whether to follow me or not, and I asked you to tell me what you have and claim to help you. Since you have made your choice, then I will definitely help you to the end."
For this reason, the other party broke the seal regardless of the consequences, or even chose to do so even knowing that it would cause trouble. It was really impulsive and reckless.
but...
"Don't worry, we still have time, and then slowly think about what we should do."
"Okay?"
These words at the time, it was incredible to smooth the anxiety and collapse in Jade's heart, and let her incomplete reason suddenly make a living.
That is, oneself should not give up and die.
Yes.
Before that, the return that Jade had thought about was nothing more than self-defeating.
The result she pursued is not success, but the intention to end it all.
In other words, in the end, it doesn't matter whether you succeed or fail.
She just didn't want to continue like this anymore.
It wasn't until that time that Jade had the idea of ​​success for the first time.
Even if the hope is still very slim, the nature of the existence of the evil Lilith itself, it is a difficult and even problematic thing to get the rationality and intelligence that it should have, but Jade still wants to fight it.
If it fails, forget it.
But if it is successful, this time, she must eliminate the barriers she felt in the past, enter the lives of others, and let her rationality grow.
Of course, Jade now only wants to enter a person's life.
That's him----
"My name is Sean, how about you?"
This is what the other party said when we first met.
At that time, her answer was—
Emerald
.
But this time, she wanted to answer like that.
"I'm Lilith."
"Returning from the dark, born in chaos, and with the help of the brave, successfully gained a rational existence."
"Cthulhu?"
"No, it's not."
"I am the goddess, goddess Lilith."
In this way, the girl's swaying soul body quickly stabilized as if it might collapse at any time.
...
"Rumble..."
This is the roar of the sky.
This is the tremor of the earth.
Above Cosmos, in the bright light source, a burst of bright light pierced out like sunlight penetrating the darkness, illuminating the surroundings.