Chapter 350: Awkward past

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This kind of creature is a very strange creature. It always likes people who are more intimate with each other.
In the words of Asuna, she was a girl who would not be willing to give in to someone's feet, and then chose to stay with Wu Lingfeng because she found a presence in his body.
People like to bury their secrets in the deepest places, not let their secrets be seen, not let their own fragility be discovered, and let the strong appearance that they have built up be stripped, always pretending to be themselves, because not Can't live.
Among the embarrassing things, people's favorite thing is to cover up or forget about this kind of embarrassment, and then define a better position for themselves, hypocrisy is alive, there is no way, vulnerable people need to be able to make themselves survive. courage.
When she was trapped in the world of Sao, Asuna was at the beginning, but she eventually threw the cockroach and set a goal for herself: "Even if you lose to a monster, you don't want to lose to this." Game with this world".
In Sao, Asuna thought about a quick sweep of the whole world, then fled, sometimes even forced to pull other fights.
However, when she was reborn in this world, she saw a so-called sense of happiness from Wu Lingfeng’s body. Wu Lingfeng and the people around him lived in harmony, making her feel that she might be too impatient and struggling. In this world, it is better to enjoy the world, the philosophical thinking of life is like this, instead of being helpless, it is better to experience this beautiful world than happiness.
Asuna’s heart was opened by Wu Lingfeng. So she also has to pay back and help Wu Lingfeng to open his world.
Although Wu Lingfeng is strong on the surface. Whether it is facing the outside world or the attitude of the people around him, he has done very well.
But Asuna knows. Wu Lingfeng hides his inner fear, uneasiness, and jealousy. It is not what the world brought to him, but what he has.
"Don't escape any more, otherwise it will become your fear forever!" Asuna said to Wu Lingfeng.
"What do you escape? I don't understand what you are talking about. It's so late, we are going back. Really, what is the nonsense?" Wu Lingfeng pushed Asuna's body and walked forward.
"You are a coward. A weak guy, is it your ideal to escape yourself? A person, no matter how dirty his past is, how glamorous the future is, but he is always him, the past and the future are him, these The existence of the person constitutes the person itself, you choose to abandon your own weakness, and leave your own strength. Are you denying yourself?" Asuna said loudly.
Wu Lingfeng suddenly turned angry and said: "I did not deny myself, but you guy, talk to the master who called you, don't want to stay here, you leave. I don't need it!"
"Speaking of your pain? But if you have been burying this pain in your heart, it will be your eternal fear, even if it is suppressed now, there will be no outburst. One day you will be this darkness of your own. I swallowed it," Asuna said earnestly.
Wu Ling rushed to the side of Asuna and stared at her with wide eyes. Said: "I tell you, no. I am so good now, the most genius of the whole continent, and there are so many powerful people around me, and there are so many people who love me, how can I..."
"Snapped……"
Yasna suddenly gave Wu Lingfeng a slap and interrupted Wu Lingfeng’s words. He said: "This is just the perfect appearance that you are trying to maintain. Your heart is actually fragile. Come, what hurts can follow me. Talk about it, I will be your good listener."
Wu Lingfeng sighed with a heavy sigh and said, "Do you see it?"
Asuna nodded and said, "Well, you are completely involved in the battle, and there is no performance. But in the recent stable days, you often worry, maybe others think you are too tired. But I don't think so, well, maybe I have had this state before, so understand you..."
"Is it still difficult to hide? I am living very smart now..." Wu Lingfeng said in a self-deprecating tone.
"Come on, let me talk about it, a person is very uncomfortable in his heart, although I don't understand your past, but I am a good listener." Asuna sat on the grass and said with a small hand. I patted the place around me and gestured to Wu Lingfeng to sit down.
"Ok……"
Perhaps it is too long in the heart, Wu Lingfeng also wants to find someone to confide, but has not found the right person, no, or he does not like his wolf how to be seen by other girls.
"Do you know? In fact, when I came to this world, my heart turned out to be faint and excited. I left my family and friends and everything on the earth. I suddenly felt that I was born a new life. I feel free and my life is bright.
From the time I was born, my mother was gone. My neighbor’s aunt said that my mother was suffering from a big bleeding when I was born... When I was able to remember, I saw that other children’s children were accompanied by mothers. Pain and loneliness.
Dad loves mom, so no more women, but know? Every time I face my father, his eyes are dead or dead, watching my figure without any emotional fluctuations, going to work outside the site every day, and then drinking back home...
When I was five years old, I started to stand on my own feet. Because I didn't want to go hungry, I learned to wash dishes and cook. Once I cooked my father, I didn't have any reaction. I can only go to the hospital to treat myself. Oh, that time. I am still very naive, I thought it was my own reason, and it was caused by not doing good things.
When I was seven years old, I went to kindergarten. In order to make my father happy, I started to study hard and got the first place in the school. I also put the two pens in the award and the automatic pen and the reward. I put it in front of my father, but you I know, he took the two dollars to go out and buy wine, but I still think about the good place, I feel that my father is happy to be able to do his son, buy wine to celebrate...
Then, in the first grade, I got the first place in the school. Two test papers with a score of 100 points in Chinese and mathematics were put in front of my father, and there was a notice to the town to take the exam for outstanding students in the town, but...
But do you know? What did my father do! ! When I made toilet paper, I suddenly broke my heart at that time, and I couldn’t keep going anymore. I couldn’t keep going, and I couldn’t smile anymore!
In the second grade of the second grade, I also converge. Although the rankings slipped a bit, but the top five in the whole school, but gradually, the fatherly love I hoped for did not come, I am sinking and hate this. The world, hating myself, yes, I think I killed my mother, I should be hated by my father, and I should hate myself! !
Breeding troubles, fighting, surfing the Internet, even I tried to be a strong female student, although the last reason made me not do the last step, and the reason why I did not make the last step is that the girl is secretly in love with her, she did not resist In the face of such a girl who loves me, I can’t go to persecute her hand...
My tmd is a personal scum, it is a jerk. Since then, I have never had any thoughts about girls. I just sneaked off the class and went online. Finally, the girl who loves me also gave up on me. She likes me because she is from kindergarten. I saw that the grade was excellent, and I was cheerful, brave and strong, so I thought I would be better, but, huh, I let her down.
I am so strong that a strong child can face a family like me. I feel that if I suddenly get a car accident and kill me, it is a blessing, so I am very happy to come to this world...
Just when I chose to forget the past, once in a dream scene, I saw my father living in a hospital bed, and then he was holding a piece of yellow paper in his hand, and there was a paper on it. The 100 points of the dark red is the test paper of my elementary school. Is this telling my father that he has been keeping it?
At that time, I felt that I might be wrong. Maybe my father had love for me, but I couldn’t forget my mother’s death. Then... then what is my self-willingness! ! ! !
Although it is only a phantom, I think it is possible that it is the truth. After all, which father does not like his child?
But is it true or false? I am afraid to go back. If the scene in the phantom is fake, I might as well stay in this world, but if it is true, then I am too happy, without maternal love, I have at least fatherly love, although my father did not do anything. It looks like a love thing, but as long as he doesn't hate me, it is love. If he really keeps the broken 100-point piece of paper in his hand, then it is a profound fatherly love.
I can't tell, Yasna, tell me, what should I do? Going back or choosing to be in this world, is it to deny the past or accept the past?

Yasna was shocked. He, his life experience is so miserable. It is a miracle to be alive. If you change to yourself, you may not want to live anymore. Yes, how can you help him judge? Should I go back? If it is normal, people will not want to go back. After all, it is a hell, a that devours people.
Wu Lingfeng shook his head and said: "Forget it, let it continue to keep it, we are making any judgment. I hope today, you don't tell other people, I don't want them to know my past..."
"Snapped……"
At this time, Asuna seized the hand of Wu Lingfeng and said, "Don't go..." (To be continued, please search for astronomical literature, the novel is better updated faster!