Chapter 518: Mo Qingyan's thoughts

Taking some personal belongings of herself and her sister from the completely frozen old home, and emptied the old wine cellar, Mo Qingyan looked reluctantly at this home that she had spent a lot of effort to build. Leaving with Chen Xin.
Although she was very reluctant to make her home, Mo Qingyan knew that she was already very lucky.
At the beginning of the disaster, you can work with your friends to find ways to deal with the disaster, and you can escape the first wave of the disaster in the shelter you built, instead of being displaced like others.
After the disaster, I can also rely on the stored supplies and the help of my friends to live a stable life with my sister, without falling into a precarious situation because of the disaster.
It can be said that the situation of Mo Qingyan and Mo Qingxin is much better than that of most people, especially after the global temperature drops, they can also live in Chen Xin's place, and they have not been frozen into an ice cellar with this family.
Although in a sense, Mo Qingyan may have paid more to live with Chen Xin than she and her sister paid to go to the official refuge, but for Mo Qingyan, in this apocalyptic environment, there can be A residence that brings her a sense of security and a stable life are already extremely happy.
Although living in the official sanctuary of the country may not be so bad, and the current situation of the country is recovering and improving day by day, and life is getting more and more hopeful, but Mo Qingyan feels that if she can have her current life In life, I am afraid that many people may not mind such things as serving one husband with others.
It's just that it violates social morals and national laws.
However, both Mo Qingyan and Qin Lan really liked Chen Xin, and after the two had spoken frankly, they both accepted the other's existence and were willing to share.
This avoids a lot of unnecessary trouble.
In Mo Qingyan's view, this kind of relationship is actually not a big deal. As long as the three of them can accept it and do not affect others, it can actually reduce a lot of unnecessary disputes and allow them to get along with each other happily. mode.
Although she herself felt that this was not very good at first, after getting along for a long time, Mo Qingyan felt that it was okay.
She doesn't need to be sad because Chen Xin chooses Qin Lan, and Qin Lan won't be jealous because she likes Chen Xin, and Chen Xin doesn't need to be in a dilemma between her and Qin Lan.
Although before that, she never showed Chen Xin that she liked him.
But now, she doesn't need to worry about these problems. She is now Chen Xin's girlfriend, she is also with him, and has been approved by his parents. As for other things, she doesn't want to think about it anymore.
Being able to live happily together is what Mo Qingyan wants most now.
It's just that Qin Lan talked to her about another thing that worried Mo Qingyan.
That's about marriage and children.
Although she doesn't mind living with Chen Xin like this, it doesn't matter if she doesn't have a marriage or children.
But Qin Lan seemed to value this very much.
For Mo Qingyan, affected by the unhappy family as a child, although she hopes to find a good man, she has an indifferent attitude towards marriage, and even once did not want to get married.
As for the child, she also has an indifferent attitude, and feels that if she can't give her a complete family and care, there is really no need to give birth to the child and let him bear the pain caused by his parents.
But in this matter, Qin Lan, who has always seemed very independent and self-reliant, has been very traditional.
She even hopes to be able to get married, have children, and teach each other like a traditional woman.
Of course, this is not to say that she wants to be the traditional housewife.
Qin Lan is a woman with a very strong personality, so she is also strong on personal issues. She does not think that a woman needs to abandon her family for the sake of a career, nor does she feel that a woman marrying is a sign of weakness.
On the contrary, she thinks that if she can do her best in her family and career, that is a truly powerful performance.
This is one of the reasons why when she was dating Chen Xin, the two would break up because of their disagreements.
Qin Lan was too strong and refused to give in when facing Chen Xin.
But no matter how strong she was, after she caused her colleagues to die in battle and lost a hand because of her, her self-confidence still collapsed.
If it were just the death of a colleague, it would not make Qin Lan completely lose her self-confidence.
It's a pity that she not only caused her colleagues to die because of herself, but also lost the most important arm for a sniper, and the most important pillar that supported her self-confidence was lost. This is the most important factor in her loss of confidence.
This is also one of the reasons why she wanted to commit suicide at the beginning. The belief in her heart has collapsed and the whole person has lost hope. It is not unimaginable to give up life.
Although Chen Xin later made a prosthetic limb for her and cured her, for Qin Lan, it was difficult to establish the faith that had collapsed.
Fortunately, Chen Xin gave her new support and rekindled her hope for life, which allowed Qin Lan to get rid of the thought of suicide.
But this also made Qin Lan's heart, Chen Xin replaced her original professional ambition and became her new spiritual pillar.
This also caused Qin Lan's whole heart to fall on Chen Xin's body, and some changes had taken place in her personality.
And this also led to when she discovered that Mo Qingyan also liked Chen Xin, she would think of making Mo Qingyan also Chen Xin’s girlfriend, sharing a man with her, instead of sharing her with her as she thought in the past. Fight for a victory.
Qin Lan has not shared these thoughts with others. uukanshu.com But Mo Qingyan and Qin Lan met before Chen Xin, and the girls often talked about everything, so Mo Qingyan could still detect the change in Qin Lan's mentality.
Especially recently, Qin Lan talked to Mo Qingyan several times about the child's growth after having a child in the future, which made Mo Qingyan even more able to understand Qin Lan's current state of mind.
It's just that for this, Mo Qingyan is more inclined to resign, and doesn't want to force Chen Xin to make a decision.
If Chen Xin hopes to have a child, then both she and Qin Lan can have a child and then raise the child.
After all, they still have the conditions to raise children, and they are not unable to raise a child because of the harsh environment.
As for the child’s growth, although Mo Qingyan also attaches great importance to it, even to a certain extent, more than Qin Lan, but she does not want to force Chen Xin to make a choice.
Perhaps it was a childhood experience that made Mo Qingyan understand that raising a child is a responsibility of both husband and wife. If one of them is forced, the end result must be difficult to be happy.