Chapter 17: Whose Wisteria Flower Light is?

The clear candle exploded with the lights and crackled gently.
Qing Chen sat on the couch with her knees hugged, staring at the bronze mirror not far away. Whenever I see such a face, I still feel in a daze, I don't know if it's the real me, or the dream hasn't awakened.
The snow-skinned flowers reflected the candlelight, and the cage was faintly bright red. She quietly thought about where else to go and what way to go. Not every tomorrow can be easily decided, but everything must have a choice.
Whenever I see Ye Tianzhan, I often think that fate has given her such cruel facts, and perhaps it has given her almost perfect compensation in another place. Between the gap between love and hate, a heart of his was presented in front of him like a clear sky, gentle and soft but unconcealed. In my eyes, I always deceived myself to say indifferent, but today Feng Yan's words are like lifting the curtain and pushing everything to the stage. His eyes, words, and smile are inevitable from the deepest depression. The place is surging, the moment overlaps with the beauty in the memory, inseparable and unclear.
With such a perfect opportunity, she knew that as long as she stretched out her hand, he would hold her tightly without hesitation, and he had been waiting for her.
Turning back in the memory of a long long time after being numb, there was pain catching up like a tide, almost drowning.
She wants to know if she has the courage to reach out again to touch the beauty, the same beauty, and whether the pain and ugliness behind it are the same?
Is it the right decision to go back to where you are?
Nobody knows.
Tired of thinking, he leaned on the pillow and fell asleep slowly, as if Ye Tianzhan was standing in front of him, with such a breezy smile, gentle as water, and blue boundless.
When she woke up, the warmth of Jin quilt made people loose mind and body, and Qing Chen got up and pushed the flower window open a small slit, and the breeze with rain came in quietly.
There was sporadic flying rain outside, quite a bit of autumnal coolness, and my heart seemed to have something more for no reason, faint and heavy.
At the flower gallery, Jin Hui and Fei are walking towards this side. Looking at the faint figure of this beautiful woman, Qing Chen seemed to want to see Ye Tianzhan's unrestrained demeanor, and the two wings raised her eyebrows. She was the woman who should be by his side.
Suddenly, emotion came to my heart. One's heart must bear the sharing of others, and one's love must be divided into several parts to deal with, and it will never be accepted for oneself. Putting aside all the past, how could she share the happiness of other women? And this person has always treated her like a sister. Thinking of this, my heart suddenly relaxed a lot, smiling like self-deprecating, tossing and turning in vain, in fact, it was just incapable and unbreakable.
Against the backdrop of the Mulan-colored lady Luo Chang, Jin Hui's gestures were noble and gentle. When she saw Qing Chen, she smiled gently and said, "Qing Chen, come here, I have a happy event to tell you."
Qing Chen was slightly startled, and asked, "What is the happy event?"
Jin Hui took a jade box with phoenix patterns from Fei'er and told her: "You go down first."
Qing Chen took a cup of pouring water and added cinnamon tea that was dried in his free time. With water vapor, the fragrance of Guizi filled the room, and it was like Jin Hui's gentle and elegant smile.
Jin Hui put the box in front of her: "Open it and take a look."
Qing Chen took it over and said: "What good thing is it?" Then he opened the jade box, and saw a snow-white silk brocade lined with a string of clear blue crystal stones. The shimmer reflections were crystal clear and beautiful like moonlight. Next to a quiet lake.
Aquamarine! Such a clear and flawless aquamarine is the best among crystals. This is exactly what Qing Chen wants to look for. After gathering the spar beads, she may have the opportunity to launch the Nine Ranks Exquisite Formation, then she might be able to return to the original place.
Qing Chen raised her head to look at Jin Hui. Jin Hui's feminine eyes were faint, and for a moment there was a faint illusion. Qing Chen thought a hundred times in his heart, and gently closed the jade box: "What a beautiful bead."
Jin Hui raised her hand to touch the jade box and opened it. The crystal blue gems flowed with light luster on her white jade-like fingertips, soft and transparent. She slowly said: "This bunch of ice blue crystals are treasures of the Yin family. The imperial concubine asked her to pass it on to Princess Zhan." Having said that, she raised her eyes to see Qing Chen.
Qing Chen and her looked at each other, and then smiled: "Then why haven't I seen my sister wear it before?"
Jin Hui let go, and the lid of the box slipped slightly and closed again. She said in such a very light tone: "I'm just the side concubine of your Royal Highness."
Qing Chen was a little surprised. No one had ever mentioned it to her before. She had always thought that Jin Hui was Ye Tianzhan's wife. She was puzzled: "But now you are his only wife. What is the difference between a concubine and a concubine? "
Jin Hui glanced over Qing Chen's eyebrows, sighed deeply, and then smiled again: "Qing Chen, your Highness's mind, in fact, you and I know it. The concubine Zheng in the palace of Cham has been vacant for a long time. Women can be in his eyes, but he wants me to ask you today, would you like to enter this house?"
Go straight ahead, without any cover. Although Qing Chen vaguely expected that such a day might appear, he was still very embarrassed to hear this. She remained silent for a while, tapping her slender fingers lightly on the table, making a faint sound, knocking into Jin Hui's heart.
It took too long, Jin Hui was so nervous to wait, she couldn't help but said again: "Qing Chen?"
It happened that Qing Chen also looked up at this time: "Sister."
After looking at each other for a short while, Jin Hui looked away and said, "You said."
Qing Chen's eyes were clear and profitable because of a certain determination, and he whispered: "If you want me to say, he really shouldn't be in this matter."
Jin Hui was so startled that she couldn't help but raise her head: "You..."
Qing Chen shook her hand to stop her, her eyes were as clear as water, and she looked in front of her lightly: "I didn't accuse him. No one has treated me as well as him. I know in my heart that I have always thanked him, but this matter cannot be confused. What's more, he doesn't care about me or others. Once the two recognize each other, they should have a deep and dedicated affection. If I have affection, I can only accommodate one person. If he has the heart, he can only have me. There are groups of wives and concubines in the hospital, even if the world is full of people, I don’t want it.
Seeing Jin Huiwang’s eyes full of surprise, she smiled lightly, and said:
Besides, he wants you to ask about this, so how can he bear it? You are his wife, he should have treated you wholeheartedly, but now he wants you to ask others if he wants to marry him, does he ignore your heart? Which woman in the world would like to share her husband with others, and pay Need to thread a needle through it? Sister, you are gracious and tolerant, but I cannot accept it."
When Jin Hui heard this, her eyes were slightly sour, and she sighed: "I'm just the daughter of the Jin family. It's enough to marry him as a side room. Can you still ask him to be the only one? Today is not you, and there will be others tomorrow. , The imperial concubine of the Cham Palace, there is always something."
Qing Chen said: "If I say this, I am even more of a woman of unknown origin. I don't know who I am, so how can I be a princess?"
Jin Hui said, "If you recognize Feng Xiang as your father, you will be a good man to be named Princess Zhan. His Royal Highness has taken great care of this, and I have never seen him care so much about a woman. That day was also because he personally asked Feng The family had lost her daughter. Feng Xiang immediately asked Luan Fei to visit him when he knew about it. Now it seems that there is nothing wrong with it. What are you worried about?"
"Really?" Qing Chenfeng raised his eyes slightly, "Then if I am not the daughter of the Feng family, would I be only one of his wives and concubines even if I follow him, and I will always look up at him and never stand side by side with him? "
"Standing side by side..." Jin Hui was almost shocked by this thought. Even if a noble woman has noble status and many privileges, after all, she can't be completely compared with a man. Who has ever thought about it?
Qing Chen didn't expect her to understand, she only said: "Although the words are reckless, but they are words from the bottom of the heart, my sister should understand my heart."
Jin Hui said, "Qing Chen, you treat me sincerely, and I will tell you my truth. As you said, no woman does not want to monopolize her husband, but among the royal family, no one from the emperor of heaven has a wife. Have a concubine? This is the life of our women. Sooner or later, Prince Cham Mansion will marry a concubine. Although you are here for a short time, he has been obedient to you from the first day in the mansion. You and my sister are even more congenial. To be selfish, I actually think for myself, so the person who would rather enter the house is you than another woman. You and him are also in harmony. How can they not agree to this marriage? "
Qing Chen hesitated for a moment, and said: "I am to him..." At the end of her words, she just felt unable to speak, "He looks a lot like one of my...friends, and I often think of him as him. It feels very strange, although sometimes I can talk to him better, but it’s not like that. I’m just... kind to him.
After talking about this in a mess, she stared at the drizzle outside the window in a daze, like It was the same feeling when I first saw Ye Tianzhan, all the ups and downs, joys, angers, sorrows, and sorrows all came to my heart in an instant.
Jin Hui seemed to realize something, staring at her for a long while, and suddenly sighed: "This string of beads will stay with you for the time being, so you can think about it. This is not something that I can barely say, and I can't say anything. I just really hope you can. To fulfill his affection." After that, he stood up quietly, "I will go back first."
Qing Chen stood up and hesitated: "Sister Jin, I'm sorry."
Jin Hui said, "You have to tell him this sentence yourself."
Qing Chen shook his head: "No, I said to you, I..."
"Qing Chen." Jin Hui whispered, "You don't have to be sorry to me, as long as he is happy, I am willing to do anything for him, I hope you can promise him, he treats you sincerely, and I am the same."
Qing Chen sent Jin Hui away, silently looking at the faintly fluorescent ice blue crystal. The fingertips slide in the icy water-like circle, one circle after another, like layers of thoughts, endless.
Love to the point of being unable to love, but to be together at the end. This road has come to an end.
She gently squeezed her slender fingers, finally picked up the ice aquamarine and put it back in the jade box, walking towards Yanbo to send Shuangzhai.
Ye Tianzhan was not in the house. She put the jade box on the bookcase, and went back to the room to fetch the many books borrowed from here, and put them back neatly. She was surprised that she had read so many books with him in this short period of time. Some of them hadn't finished reading, so she stood there and turned a few more pages. Occasionally, I saw Ye Tianzhan's small notes on the eyebrows and footers. I remembered that he was laughing and talking about the book in front of Xianyu Lake, and a soft smile appeared on his face.
Everything returned to its original place, as if it had never been moved. She turned back to her room and carefully cleaned up the room she had stayed for many days. There was nothing that belonged to her, except for the clothes she was wearing and a hosta from the bamboo house.
But in fact, how can these be hers? All she possessed was a strange soul, a soul that no one would understand here.
This reminded her of the feeling when she woke up by the water that day, she was totally confused. It seems to be the same now, living alone in a place that doesn't belong to me, and I don't know where to go in the huge space. She reluctantly raised her lips and smiled. Until now, there was nothing she couldn't face. When the whole world turned upside down in front of her eyes, the endurance in her heart had already become infinite.
The rain outside the window has been constantly pattering, it is a good day to say goodbye.