: Chapter 123

When they returned to reality, they still appeared in Xie Chian's study.
Before the white light had dissipated and the line of sight had not yet been clear, Xie Chian could feel that he was being held tightly by a person. The man was buried in his neck, breathing low, strong and careful.
Xie Chian's eyelids moved.
"An An..."
Jiang Kuo's muffled voice was full of crying.
Xie Chian was stunned.
Jiang Kuo...cry?
Jiang Heng and Shen Fubai looked at Xie Chian and Jiang Kuo with complex expressions. They were out in the middle of the game, but were able to watch the result later. No one would have thought that things would develop in that direction-Xie Chian chose to commit suicide and Jiang Kuo triumphed.
There is only one way. Xie Chian's decision was very rational and quite rational.
But even onlookers like them couldn't bear it. How desperate should Jiang Kuo be?
At the end of the game, Xie Chian plunged the knife into his heart without hesitation and died in Jiang Kuo's arms.
Cui Jinse committed suicide and redeemed her brother in exchange for Cui Jinnian's innocence.
And Xie Chian also used such a cruel way in exchange for Jiang Kuo's victory.
If Jiang Kuo wins, their camp will also be victorious, and the ending is happy. But the pain of the process...not to mention it.
For Jiang Kuo, that might be even more terrifying than letting him break the siege among 20,000 people. Let him watch Xie Chian die, the corpse is cold in his arms, and the knife is undoubtedly pierced in his heart with thousands of times pain.
How can it not be sad.
Jiang Heng and Shen Fubai looked at each other, and gently exited the study, leaving space for the two Jiang Xie who had just experienced life and death.
Jiang Kuo hugged Xie Chi'an for a long time.
Xie Chi was quiet, and it took a long time to whisper: "Brother..."
"Don't talk." Jiang Kuo said boredly.
He didn't want to hear the word anymore.
In the game, Cui Jinse also said to him in such a light tone
"Brother, kill me."
He didn't want to hear it again in his life.
Xie Chi settled down, his voice was lighter: "Brother, I am here."
Standing in front of you alive, being held by you, heart beating, body temperature is normal.
I am still alive.
"You scared me, An An." Jiang Kuo whispered.
"I will not do it again."
"There is no future."
"……it is good."
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Xie Chian really scared Jiang Kuo.
In the past, Jiang Kuo felt that An An was so good, he was not bad, he could protect Xie Chian well. But in the fourth pass, Xie Chian's suicide attempt to make him triumph overwhelmed Jiang Kuo's self-confidence.
It turns out that not only can he not protect him, but he will be hurt.
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Xie Chian could obviously feel Jiang Kuo's attitude toward him changed. Become more cautious, more concerned, and more cautious than before. Jiang Kuo was so kind to him, guarding him almost every step of the way, for fear that he would disappear in the blink of an eye.
He committed suicide once, in exchange for everyone's victory, but left a great psychological shadow on Jiang Kuo.
This change is actually very subtle. In the eyes of outsiders, Jiang Kuo is just more sticky than ever before. But Xie Chian could detect it.
The man's original self-confidence, publicity, and pride were all shattered by him. Jiang Kuo became concerned about gains and losses, and was frightened, all because of him.
That does not work.
If this continues, two people will have problems.
Jiang Kuo's problem is that he is too insecure. He didn't dare to have lessons from the past, lessons.
He now put all his attention on Xie Chi'an, and he paid very little attention to other people. Ji Qinglin and Bai Buran also returned safely on the fifth day they came out. Jiang Kuo didn't even notice that there were two more people on the dinner table.
Bai Buran thought the atmosphere was a little weird: "What happened?"
How do you feel between Xiao Jiang and Xiao Xie... weird. Blame him for the slow response.
Xiao Jiang treats Xiao Xie better, but Xiao Xie seems unhappy.
Of course Xie Chian was not happy. What he wants is equal respect with Jiang Kuo and a frank meeting, not Jiang Kuo's imperatives. Jiang Kuo was too afraid that he would repeat the same mistakes, and always felt that Xie Chian would leave him alone again.
Jiang Heng and Shen Fubai can only express two words: don't mention it.
Ji Qinglin also felt that something was wrong, but he was not a talkative person, so he didn't ask.
Regarding matters between lovers, they can only solve them by themselves.
"An'an, eating some fish will help your body." Jiang Kuo completely ignored Bai Buran's question.
He now feels that apart from Xie Chi'an, there is no one to care about.
Without experiencing the feeling of a loved one dying in front of you, you will never understand the despair and panic.
Xie Chian put down his chopsticks: "I'm full."
Jiang Kuo was startled slightly: "Don't eat anymore?"
"No, I'm really full." Xie Chian looked at Jiang Kuo and said calmly, "Come upstairs with me."
Jiang Kuo obediently followed him up.
Now Jiang Kuo wouldn't say anything to Xie Chian.
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Xie Chian took Jiang Kuo into his bedroom.
As soon as he closed the door, Xie Chian closed his eyes and let out a long breath. Then turned to look at Jiang Kuo and said, "Brother, let's do it."
-If it makes you feel safe.
Then, I am willing to be completely yours.
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Jiang Kuo sat on the bed, slightly stunned: "An'an, you..."
Xie Chian took the initiative to take off his jacket, picked up his top, and took off his shirt. The boy's body is thin, slender, and fair, as beautiful as a good piece of mutton jade.
Xie Chian straddled Jiang Kuo's lap, with his forehead pressed against Jiang Kuo, his hands wrapped around his neck, and he made a very long kiss.
When they were separated, their breathing was a little unstable.　
Jiang Kuo looked down: "An An, do you know what you are doing?"
"I know." Xie Chian raised his head slightly and looked directly into Jiang Kuo's eyes, "I want the person in front of me named Jiang Kuo... I just don't know if he wants me."
"Brother, I gave myself to you." Xie Chian smiled lightly, "Do you want it?"
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No matter when and where, the young man always has a tolerant and indifferent attitude, even between the bedclothes. He clenched his hands into a fist and supported it on the pillow, dripping sweat from his forehead, sliding down the wet sheets along his neck, and biting his lips and refused to speak.
Jiang Kuo hooked his chin to kiss him: "An An, don't bear it."
Xie Chian lowered his eyes and turned his head. Qingjun's profile turned slightly red.
Even so, I am not convinced.
This is the case with a young man, proud and cold, as if he were born a king. He is willing to put down his figure, which is the greatest softness.
After a long time, Xie Chian finally couldn't help it, his face buried in his arms, and said dullly: "It hurts."
Jiang Kuo moved for a while: "Then... take a break?"
Xie Chian endured the pain and turned over and sat up, his cold expression became a little unbelievable. It was an urge to curse.
"...Are you really resting?!"
Jiang Kuo was worried: "Didn't you call it hurt..."
Xie Chi'an: "You hurry up and not-hiss." Xie Chi'an almost didn't come up in a breath.
Jiang Kuo up directly.
Jiang Kuo carefully observed Xie Chi'an's expression: "...also, does it still hurt?"
Xie Chian bit Jiang Kuo's shoulder severely.
Why is he asking for trouble?
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Xie Chian and Jiang Kuo had a fight when they first met at the second pass. Jiang Kuo's physical strength was stronger than Xie Chi'an.
This is fully reflected in the bed.
When Xie Chian fell asleep with exhaustion, Jiang Kuo was still awake, and more and more awake.
The moonlight outside is moving.
He got his favorite teenager.
Jiang Kuo looked at the young boy's sleeping face for a long time, and hugged him gently, like the whole world.
He actually understands.
I understand that there is something wrong with my mentality, and I understand Xie Chian's worries. He knew it, but he couldn't forgive himself for letting An An win in that way.
The young man was cold and arrogant, but he was willing to bend his waist, willing not to pretend. Laughing and cursing, bitter, joyful, mad, soft-hearted, enraged, and courageous, give him all.
Young people are so good.
he knows.
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When Xie Chian woke up in the morning, he was refreshed.
Jiang Kuo is still an individual. He knows how to clean up people. At the beginning, a bunch of Baidu didn't check it in vain.
"An An." Jiang Kuo walked out of the bathroom, neatly dressed and refreshed.
Xie Chian leaned back on the bed lazily, with a slightly hoarse voice: "Back to normal?"
Refers to Jiang Kuo's depression a few days ago.
Jiang Kuo: "I was wrong."
Xie Chian asked again: "Is your shoulder okay?"
He seemed to bite hard last night.
Jiang Kuo lowered his head uncomfortably, "...It's okay." The two tooth prints are pretty good-looking, and even want to stay as a tattoo.
Xie Chi'an: "People are on it too, now we can talk calmly."
Jiang Kuo: "Talk, what to talk about?"
Xie Chian said: "I know you want to protect me. But I can also protect you. If I don't commit suicide-if you die, I live, what is the difference between me and death."
Jiang Kuo said softly, "I know, An An. This kind of thing is enough once, and the next time I will be crazy."
Xie Chian's expression softened: "It won't happen. This matter is over."
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Jiang Kuo asked: "Does it still hurt?"
Xie Chian didn't want to answer: "How many times do you want to ask?"
"I read from Baidu that the recipient will be very painful the first time." Jiang Kuo took out a note, "I should have missed no steps..."
Xie Chian said in a cold voice: "Otherwise you will let me go last time?"
Jiang Kuo closed the notebook: "It doesn't seem to hurt."
"No, it actually hurts." Xie Chian said lightly, "Don't you want to try to share the pain with me?"
Jiang Kuo was silent for a moment: "You have changed."
The gap between before bed and after bed is too big.