Chapter 110:

Qi Qi has always avoided appearing in front of women at the same time as Shen Yan, in fact for his reasons.
Because I don't know if there will be any flaws.
Because I do n’t know how to explain the real relationship between them.
He never confessed to the woman who he was Shen Yan. The first time he chatted, he only took care of Shen Yan as a "friend".
Women think so.
So when she saw the two men hugged from a distance, a moment of confusion appeared on her face. Then, from confusion to an expression between surprise and fear, the clay figure stood in front of the door.
Qi Qi felt a slight numbness in her spine, and her coolness penetrated all at once, unable to move at all.
The hand that just attached to Shen Yan's back was released reflectively.
Even so, it is too late--
"Woo ..."
In anxiety, the on-the-spot ability developed during work forced him to react. His knees flexed gently again, and at the same time, with a painful sound, a pair of stumbling feet pulled Shen Yan's sleeve.
"No, I'm still dizzy ... so uncomfortable, sorry."
He said, let the woman hear what she said, and make her look completely supported by Shen Yan, so as to confuse the hug.
From Yu Guang, we can see that the woman was stunned, followed by a look of sudden enlightenment-including a kind of "reassuring" component.
All Qi Qi was watching, Shen Fu slowly lowered his head between his arms.
"Are you all right?" The woman asked towards them with concern. Qi Qi's complexion is indeed not very good, a little pale, the actions and lines just now are very convincing.
When Shen Yan heard the word "dizziness", she was stunned for a moment, until the woman's voice sounded behind her, and she realized it all at once. He didn't say anything, he still helped the people up, silently cooperated with Qi Po to perform this play to the end, but the fingers holding Qi Qi's arm slightly tightened.
Because Qi Qi was "unwell", the meal ended in a hurry, and the three of them did not chat much.
Women have rarely taken the initiative to speak, but Shen Yan did not speak at all, Qi Qi dutifully played a patient with an "old illness" and sat down to eat mechanically quietly.
After the meal, the woman asked Qi Po to go home and have a good rest. Qi Po agreed with the situation and got up to say goodbye.
Just thinking of leaving alone, Shen Yan stood up gently from his seat at this time: "I will send you."
At this time, it seems strange to refuse. Qi Xiao smiled a little, although the smile was a bit astringent: "Okay, thank you ..."
At the door, the two didn't use the elevator and walked down the fire ladder one after the other. No one opened the conversation box.
Qi Chen followed Shen Yan, his eyes kept staring at his back.
After getting used to walking side by side, such an angle made his chest very uncomfortable. But what is more difficult than this is a long gap of language between each other-there have been such gaps before, but at that time it was because of tacit understanding, because you can enjoy the warmth that quietly flows, not because of words. It can be said.
There is nothing to say.
Qi Xiao smiled bitterly, but didn't expect them to use the adjective one day.
He felt compelled to speak: "I'm afraid."
Shen Yan paused and stopped on the steps.
Qi Qi slowly finished his speech: "I'm afraid ... when you turn your back to me, I'm afraid."
Shen Yan didn't make a sound, but just sighed slightly. When she looked back, Qi Qi saw a pair of eyelids standing between the stairs without moving, and felt a little distressed for a while. He turned around and walked back a few steps until he held Qi Qi's hand: "I'm not angry or ignoring you."
Qi Qi heard this, and suddenly felt that his heart was sour, filled with what he wanted to say, but what he really exported was only one sentence: "Don't worry."
Shen Yan seemed startled, and after a while, he seemed to understand what he meant, and said nothing.
"I don't want you to hide forever, but the timing is not right now." Qi Qi said hoarsely, "Your mother is going to have an operation tomorrow, and now is the critical period. Any psychological burden will become her physical burden. If you have something that is three longs or two shorts, you will definitely not feel bad ... so do n’t worry, you can be practical step by step. "
His hand slowly shook Shen Yan's hand, as if comforting. But in fact, there is not less uneasiness in his own heart than the other party.
"Well." For a long time, Shen Yan finally responded.
Qi He heard him agree, silently relieved, and smiled bitterly: "Your mother finally began to repair the relationship with you slowly, and my mood improved, I don't want to be at this time ..."
It's not necessary to finish the talk.
Shen Yan should understand.
Qi Qi leaned forward slightly, leaning her head against Shen Yan's shoulder. Shen Yan reached out and hugged him silently. The body temperature that was so common but had a long-term sense made him choke: "Some things you haven't experienced, but I have experienced ... I don't want you to try it again. "
"Huh." Shen Yan's voice lightened when she remembered the situation of Qi Po's house.
"To be honest, it doesn't matter what your mother's attitude is. The important thing is the attitude of the two of us, because this is the relationship between the two of us, maintained by us, not her." So he cares more than coming out. The impact of your future work on the relationship.
"Ok."
At this moment, Qi Zi rubbed gently on his neck like a cat. Very subtle, but it is indeed coquettish.
"You say that we ... are we arguing?"
Shen Yan laughed in a low voice: "No."
Stopped and said, "I know you are planning for the long term, so there is nothing to be angry about."
So it is also a long-term plan to refuse the internship.
Qi Qi found such a "justifiable reason" for herself, and the sense of guilt resting on her shoulders suddenly became less heavy.
Shen Yan did not know what Qi Zi was laughing at the time.
Before Qi Qi was with him, he was a man who was used to carrying everything and bearing himself. He knew this from the beginning.
But these days, Qi Po has become more and more dependent on him, and all the trivial things in his life are left to him to take care of, making him almost forget the character of Qi Po.
If he closed the door a little louder that night, he might not find this trait again.
Back home from the hospital, it was completely dark. When Shen Yan opened the door, the living room was dark and there was no light, which surprised him. At this time, Qi Qi usually sits in front of the TV and watches the news, but he is not here at the moment ... Could he be asleep?
Thinking of this possibility, Shen Yan held the door handle by hand and closed it gently.
In case Qi Qi is really sleeping, it is not good to wake him up.
But he was wrong.
Qi Qi didn't sleep because the bedroom lights were still on. Shen Yan took off her coat and shoes and walked over to open the bedroom door while wondering. There was no one in the room, only the voice of the faint person came from the balcony, and there was the pacing that came back and forth when I was familiar with it. It turned out that Qi Qi was now Call outside.
Shen Yan heard that his pacing voice was slightly different from normal days. It was dull, as if he was engaged in a difficult ideological struggle. He could not help but stunned and subconsciously walked quietly to the wall.
"I do not know what to do."
This is the first sentence to hear clearly.
Qi Xiao's voice was also heard clearly, much deeper than usual, and a little hoarse-it is a typical expression of suppressing his emotions.
Shen Yan's heart shook slightly and he listened with breathless breath.
Qi Qi was supposed to be answering by the person over the phone. He had n’t spoken for a long time, but he sighed "um" two or three times during the period, and finally sighed: "I understand everything you said. In fact, our director also said I was confused, saying that I had lost such a good development opportunity, but ... "
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Here is another pause. Only a three-second pause made Shen Yan feel that after three hours, the auditory nerves had to be paralyzed, and he could not hang up.
The latter sentence seemed to be beaten fiercely in the place where it numb, and made him tremble.
"As soon as I thought of going to Beijing for three years, I couldn't continue to think about it. I ... I couldn't leave here, leaving Shen Yan."
Shen Yan stepped back in a trance and stopped.
He spent a few seconds silently digesting the amount of information in Qi Qi's sentence, realizing what the other party might be saying, but he didn't know how to accept it.
Qi Chen said she didn't want to leave herself. So ... should I be happy?
It should have been like this, but if you contacted the previous content, you can't be selfish and happy.
Through the window, Qi Qi was faintly seen standing under the clothes hanging on the balcony, standing where he once said that he became an old man and sat there basking in the sun.
Shen Yan had mixed tastes for a while and could not move for a long time.
The person outside the balcony didn't know he was there, and continued to talk: "I can work slowly in the future. I will try to get some local opportunities. It's not good. It's not bad to apply for transfer to another department first. Will not go up ... um? What ... want me to ask him what he means? Alas, I do n’t know how to speak ... "
Why not speak?
Why not discuss?
Shen Yan frowned and couldn't help but stretch out the handle to the door leading to the balcony, but he couldn't make up his mind to go out.
Qi Qi's next words made him unable to take this step.
"I know what he is most afraid of-what he is most afraid of is that I leave him. Even if he does n’t say, I probably guessed he wanted me to stay. But he is so considerate, if I ask him Opinion, he will definitely say 'Don't worry about me, you go' and then suffer the loneliness of three years alone, and I don't want to cause this situation with one hand. "
Shen Yan's hand lost his balance and slowly brushed on the doorknob to return to its original position.
"His home is here, and he is a family caregiver. I dare not want to ask him if he will give up everything, including the house, work, memories, and then follow me ..."
Qi Qi's voice was dumb when he talked, which shows that this psychological struggle has exhausted him.
"This internship opportunity is not necessary. Wait a minute. The career is not in a hurry. At present, I just want to cherish the people before me.
"fool."
Shen Yan whispered gently, no blame, only regret.
Without speaking, he quietly withdrew from the wall and exited the bedroom, closed the door and returned to the living room. He took out his jacket and shoes, and put them on.
Then open the door and close it again with a bang.
After doing this, he waited quietly without saying a word. Sure enough, there was a rush of footsteps in the bedroom soon, getting closer and closer, so he put out a movement of taking off his coat with both hands. At this time, Qi Qi opened the door of the room at once, and saw him standing at the door, smiling lightly. Slightly blooming: "Are you back?"
"Well, just returned."
Shen Yan nodded and hung the coat on the hook for the second time this evening, also putting the shoes back in the shoe cabinet for the second time.
He kept the tone in the most ordinary state, and could not hear anything strange: "Have you eaten?"
"Well, just eat the leftovers in the refrigerator."
"What are you doing, dubbing?" He asked. He couldn't hear it lightly and asked.
"Ah, no, I was just calling Shimei." Sure enough, the person talking was Ning Xiaoxiao. That ’s right, basically she is the only one who knows the true relationship between them and knows Qi Qi enough to discuss these things.
Shen Yan didn't ask them what they were talking on the phone at all, Qi Qi then let go and asked a few words about the woman's preparations before the operation, and how the doctor told Yun Yun, and finally said: "You are tired for a day, first Go and take a bath to warm your body. Tomorrow is a big day, rest early. "
In all peace, there is no difference between the two people, if there is no heavy stone in Shen Yan's heart-
Shen Yan lowered her eyes silently and went to take a bath.
After he came out of the shower, he wiped his hair and walked into the room to get the hair dryer, but he saw Qi Qi sitting on the floor, I do n’t know when to drag out the suitcase brought from the apartment, slowly by the light Rummaging for something. A closer look reveals that he is looking for medicine.
Shen Yan was shocked.
Those are stomach medicines, painkillers, over-the-counter sleeping pills, etc.-things that I thought would never be used again.
Qi Qi raised her head and saw him standing there staring straight at the bottles and cans on the ground, and followed for a moment, then smiled a little embarrassedly: "Ah ... the day after tomorrow is my last visit, if everything is normal, I will probably return The days of the unit are not far away. So it is better to find these things in advance, so as not to forget them when you get them. "
No, Qi Qi.
These are not the main points-
Shen Yan clenched her hands slightly, just as her heart was clenched by invisible hands. He couldn't help saying: "What happened?"
Qi Zhen heard a pause, and subconsciously lowered her head to fiddle with the medicine bottle, avoiding the topic: "No."
Shen Yan looked at him motionlessly, suddenly whispering, "Qi Qi, do you know if you dare to look at my eyes when you are guilty?"
Qi Qi was trembling slightly in the way he said, holding the medicine bottle, and had to lift his eyes hard. Shen Yan's pair of eyes are dark and clear, and his eyes are straight, which can easily make his guilt emotions rise. This is why he dare not face each other.
Unexpectedly ... Shen Yan had already understood his habits, and knew where his weaknesses were.
Qi Chen had to smile and surrender with a bitter smile: "Well, you're right ... I'm really guilty."
Shen Yan didn't smile, frowned and asked again: "What happened?"
Living under the same roof and continuing to be a reporter as long as you pay attention to your daily schedule, you can see it. You can't hide it. Shen Yan will know it sooner or later. So Qi Qi decided to confess part of the truth: "I applied for the moderator ... the above failed."
Shen Yan was startled. He heard about going to Beijing for three years, but this is the first time I heard about it.
Qi Qi saw him stunned, and in turn comforted him: "It's okay, the reporter will be the reporter. Anyway, I have accumulated a lot of experience, which is relatively handy. The only bad thing is that the working time schedule is destined to be very sad , But I will try my best to adjust my work schedule. "
That being said, the reporter was not on the first day. Sometimes the task was sent out so busy that it was totally force majeure.
Qi Qi's remarks were inadequate, and she smiled reluctantly.
Shen Yan just looked at him silently, looking at his face under the lights.
He had seen this face thin and lifeless before. I have seen the kind of eyes that seem to have no desire and are almost weariness.
After these days of rest and recuperation, the food I eat is healthy and nutritious, and the quality of sleep has gradually increased. Qi Qi ’s physical and mental state is better than when he just moved. Looks like. For example, now, when a thin layer of light encloses the lock of black hair, the texture of the hair looks much brighter than before.
It feels soft and comfortable. Thinking so, I couldn't help but stretched out my hand and stroked it.
"What's wrong?" Qi Chen froze a little, and was quickly surprised into a smile, bending a pair of eyes to enjoy the tenderness flowing between fingers.
"Miss you." Shen Yan said softly.
Qi Chen didn't expect him to be so straightforward, his ears suddenly turned red.
"Isn't it right in front of you," he bowed his head a little embarrassedly, but the man leaned over slowly, leaning on the chest, "What do you want?"
I thought of you before-Shen Yan thought.
I thought about Qi Qi who had suffered two or three stomach problems shortly after coming here. At that time, I just couldn't bear to say it. I turned white and curled up on the bed until I was finally discovered. While distressed, he cooked something warm for Qi Qi and took care of it for a while.
I thought of Qi Qi who slept beside me every night. The sleep state is much more stable than before, but it is still relatively shallow. From time to time, he will wake up in the middle of the night and gently get back into his arms ... he knows.
At this time he knew what the decision in his heart was.
The author has something to say: Somehow thinks that Cat Daddy is quite attacking, am I alone ..._: 3∠_ (Hey, he was attacking)