Chapter 140: 【140th

Before sitting down, Tan Zixian slightly raised his wrist and glanced at his watch.
"Thirty minutes should be enough."
If the conversation time is too long, it is easy to get more and more stiff, and it is impossible to get out of the dead end; too short is not good, either it ca n’t be discussed, or it ’s already fighting-he thinks it ’s appropriate to go back in thirty minutes, even if those two people are really It also happens to make people beat hard, but not to the extent of disability.
He found a place to sit down, and then calmly tapped the hardwood bar with his index finger to let the bartender come over. He seemed very accustomed to the environment of the bar: "Their own things let them talk, we drink ours. You see you What kind of wine do you want? "
I didn't hear Qi Qi's answer for a long time, and looked sideways, seeing that his eyes were still fixed in the direction when he came, and his face was solemn, as if he was worried about the progress of the conversation.
Tan Zixian snapped a snap finger in front of him. He suddenly returned to reality and smiled embarrassedly: "Sorry, what did you just ask me?"
Tan Zixian lifted her lips gently, and took the cocktail title handed over by the bartender, but did not give Qi Qi a copy, monopolizing the choice: "It's too late, you will decide for you if you don't answer. I will come out with you I ’m drinking and I ’m distracted, so I ’ll order you one of the most expensive, which will make you feel distressed. "
"Haha," Qi Zhen really laughed this time, sitting down next to his neighbor, and said generously, "Come on, you ordered the cup together. I paid the bill, it was a guilt."
Tan Zixian ordered two cocktails specially recommended by this restaurant. Qi Qi was given a colorless rum and brandy base, revealing a thin golden wine. He himself chose a kind of absinthe. Milky white wine made with wine and champagne. Both are spirits, but the former is slightly inferior to the latter.
After listening to the bartender ’s introduction, Qi Qi stopped gently when Tan Zixian placed the order:
Will you still have to record tomorrow and drink such a strong wine?

Tan Zixian smiled faintly: "Don't worry, I often drink and get used to it. Besides, my drinking volume is already very good. How about you?"
Qi Xiao said with a smile: "I have a good drink, I usually have to drink with the leader when I entertain, and practice it."
At this moment, he suddenly thought of the night when he and Shen Yan had been drinking together-that rainy night, Shen Yan took his hand dimly, like a dazed kid let him lead the way, and suddenly hugged by the door After he whispered, he begged him not to go ... Finally, in the pattering rain outside the window, they had the first kiss on the bed, and the gentleness of the first hug and sleep.
Past events are played back one scene after another like a movie, and there is a trace of tenderness in his eyes.
"His wine is very poor," it doesn't say who "he" refers to, but anyone with such a tone of indulgence can guess, "A glass of red wine can make him drunk, even when drunk lovely."
"Well, that guy's drinking volume is also very poor." Tan Zixian's following words are like a small drop of ink sinking through the water, the sound is not loud, but the ink is scattered in the water at once, just like a slight shock in Qi Chen 'S shock, "This is probably a family inheritance--"
Qi Qi was in a daze for a while, and the language was interrupted for a moment.
He stared at Tan Zixian blinking his eyes a few times, and it took him a while to find his voice and ability to think.
"You said……"
"I said, family inheritance." The people around me repeated it slowly, picked up the wine without changing his face and tasted it. "Anyway sooner or later you will know."
Qi Qi heard himself take a deep breath and subconsciously covered his mouth.
The heart seemed to hit the temple, and the rapid flow of blood made him dizzy.
"Why ... that guy, he didn't have the surname Shen ..." Because he was so shocked, he murmured to the denial at the end.
Tan Zixian took the conversation at this time.
"Yes, but his mother's surname is Shen—"
"sink".
This surname and the people under it should have been the most embarrassing and inappropriate topic. However, Shen Yan chose to take the initiative.
Hearing the other party's opening, Qiu Tianyang froze for a moment, and unconsciously smiled bitterly, his eyelids drooping.
Suddenly it wasn't embarrassing — it was more bitter than embarrassing.
"Uncle ... It's okay," he clasped his hands and put it on his knee in a natural posture as possible, rubbing a pair of thumbs mechanically from side to side, as a method of self-settlement, "He is no longer in Beijing, you Rest assured. You won't meet him here. "
There was a silence in the box.
Shen Yan kept silent for a long time, and wondered if he did not want to continue to ask for details—for example, where his father was.
Shen Yan didn't continue, but Qiu Tianyang started to say slowly: "Uncle left a while ago and went abroad to settle down, now in Canada, because ..."
At this point, the voice breaks, and the tone is very careful while lowering the voice.
"Because, your sister ... was admitted as a graduate student at the University of Toronto and went to study there, so ..."
The person on the other side of the seat remained silent, indifferent, and showed no response at all. But "no response at all" is better for Qiu Tianyang.
At least, it's much better than the hatred with deep pain ...
"You don't seem to have reacted so much to your uncle's family."
Thoughtful, he blurted out unconsciously.
Qiu Tianyang was shocked when he spoke out, shut his mouth in a hurry, and regretted his speech. Shen Yan just sat silently for a long time, and even he did not respond to this sentence at all, like clay sculpture.
"I know, Uncle was sorry for you," Qiu Tianyang finally put the theme of this conversation on the table for a long time, "I also--"
"Enough." At this time, Shen Yan interrupted him suddenly, and didn't seem to want to listen to the content behind. But Qiu Tianyang insisted.
"Can you listen to me and say it once? I have never had a chance to talk to you face to face like this, once or once, please listen to me."
Shen Yan did not answer, but did not veto.
Qiu Tianyang took a deep breath, and the palms of his left and right hands were sweating, wet and cold. Although the beginning of his story has the bright colors of every family's bright lights in the New Year-
"When I was a kid, every time during the Chinese New Year, my uncle and his family would come over to eat together, chat together ... In my impression, my uncle takes care of his family, is stable, and always considers his family. It ’s fun and it looks very happy. At that time, my father and I went out to talk about business three days ago, and my mother was busy with work, and the chances of getting together were very few, so I envy my uncle ’s family. " He smiled a bit sullenly and confessed his thoughts, "I envy him, adore him, and once regarded him as my role model for my husband and my father."
Yes, role model.
The man's appearance is very serious and unsmiling, but he often has an unexpectedly gentle expression in front of his loved ones.
The man's wife is dignified, elegant, and has a very respectable background.
The man's daughter is very clever and cute.
Whether it is a man or a man ’s family, for him, it is like a longing perfect template, making him want to copy his own life on it.
"Until that day ... I didn't know that I was wrong."
He stated one by one that the original warm color also peeled off layer by layer like unwrapped wrapping paper, and finally the black box inside was revealed.
"That day, I heard my aunt crying to my mother in the living room while accusing her uncle that there was a woman outside, and that the woman ’s uncle ’s son was all in his twenties. The family grew up secretly ... "
His breath stopped slowly, and there was a pain in his voice.
"I ... the beliefs of the past ten or twenty years completely collapsed overnight, the kind of blows like betrayal, do you understand?"
Shen Yan was silent, her lips tightly pressed from beginning to end, but her eyes were lower than before.
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Qiu Tianyang continued numbly.
"I, just say this on my own behalf ... Auntie is very kind to me. From small to big, every time she comes to the door, she will bring me delicious and fun, and the smile is always very kind. When I heard Uncle When I was doing this outside and I was sorry for her, the anger suddenly came up, and I was shaking with anger. "
Speaking of this, he laughed awkwardly.
"And I actually found that I know you-yes, I also found that it is not a coincidence that I know you, it is grandpa ... that is, your grandfather made it hard."
[Tianyang, can you please bring someone? 】
The old man who has n’t seen for a long time unexpectedly appeared at the door of his daughter ’s house one day. After silently entering the door, he did n’t say much. He just gently took his grandson ’s hand and talked about the situation one by one. Suddenly said such a sentence when dubbing on the Internet.
Bring someone?
What's so difficult about bringing someone.
At that time they were only five people, and the network dubbing was just in its infancy. There was n’t even a concept of
net dubbing circles
. There were only scattered audiences, and there were even fewer people with dubbing. A bit lively, very good. What ’s more, the elderly have a very special reason: [That child has speech disorders, I hope this will help him out slowly, and you can also make friends].
So he thought down without thinking.
Despite the slight evasion and scrutiny of the mother's eyes sitting and listening, he didn't go into the details and obtained the online contact information from the old man.
There are two places that are different from those in reality.
One, no need to meet.
Second, no real name is required.
"Grandpa deliberately concealed your name and identity, hoping that we can get to know each other without knowing each other, and gradually become familiar, and then slowly repair your relationship with the rest of the Shen family in our generation." Qiu Tianyang whispered, and At the same time lowered his head and looked at the ground.
A line of water that was accidentally spilled on the ground just happened to be between him and Shen Yan, and a dotted line was formed.
But the water trail will dry out slowly with time, and the boundary will always disappear little by little.
"He has always insisted ... You have blood from the Shen family, and one day he should come back to us and become the person of our family."
It's a pity that the paper can't cover the fire after all-in less than a month, the man's wife knew the plan, and found his mother sadly and angrily and cried.
"I don't know if you have raised him secretly in the Shen family for so many years, he has no action, and I will endure it, but now you are planning to take back the son Zhengda brightly? You are a sister I opened my eyes and closed my eyes, so what are our mothers and daughters at the Shen family? "The tearful woman left him without knowing how to speak, so only the silent mother seemed to hold a driftwood tightly. Grab his sleeve tightly, "Tianyang! Tianyang! Do you know who you are dating?"
He didn't know, and didn't understand it until this moment. Understand who this "Lao Liu" who was introduced to the voice team and became the sixth member.
At the same time as I understood it, a deep sense of anger surged into my heart—
"I had only one idea at the time," he said verbally, "that's ... how can you teach your little third son so hard that you can't cheer up anymore."
At that time, whether it was traditional morality or social public opinion, people generally had a strong, one-sided critical attitude towards third parties in marriage, and they also deeply despised illegitimate children.
"They must have rejected my only daughter, so I want to keep your uncle and the son of a woman from outside. In the future, I will pass on the surname" Shen "and inherit the family property. There's nothing to end, is there any reason? "
The woman said sadly.
Although these were just the reasons she had conceived herself, but he didn't know all the things going through, he completely took these reasons seriously.
Yeah, if you do n’t stand on the original side, you ca n’t stand on the side of Xiaosan?
-Does n’t everyone understand this truth?
"what……"
Qiu Tianyang finished talking for such a long period, his throat was slightly hoarse due to lack of water, and the sentence became more and more intermittent, and it really broke here. He rubbed his temples with his hands decadently, and a few locks of hair collapsed along with this movement, similar to his current mental state.
Suddenly he took a long breath and pulled out the cork of the bottle before, poured half a glass, and sipped it out.
Shen Yan's eyes lifted up to him at this time, but he only silently watched the wine in the glass empty a little, and said nothing.
Qiu Tianyang drew his eyebrows tightly, then threw the cup on the table, using alcohol to tell the most undesirable paragraph.
"At that time, I was far from converging my temperament, especially when I entered the net. After having so many fans, people became crazy and decided to learn from you. After that, I continued to smile and said to help you overcome you. 'S speech barrier, in fact, has been secretly waiting to see how you are ugly. "
"But I didn't expect you to be so serious. I steadily cooperated with everyone. The second son likes you one by one, but let me see my shortcomings. I was ... very similar to this copper bird platform now. I know the advantages of my voice, and I use this advantage to linger in the circle. The beautiful words of the fans make me feel self-righteous and not at all concerned about the voiceover. So when I saw that you were really serious After practice, play, I ... I want to defeat you even more. "
He paused, his voice trembling. Admit that this past process is more difficult and shameful than he imagined.
Only by saying it myself can I know how bad my behavior was at the time-
"I, I never give you the opportunity to be the main servant, and I will always throw you the most unreliable characters in the script, and even find some ... I have a illegitimate plot to let you match, listen to you in sk When you play the game, you make mistakes frequently, and you are happy in front of the screen. "
He reached out his hand at this time and wanted to pour another glass of wine.
Suddenly, Shen Yan clasped the wine glass firmly with his hand without letting him touch it.
"Enough." This is the second time Shen Yan said this evening. It is still light and tasteless, but this time it is a little more depressed.
Qiu Tianyang stared blankly at his hand in front of him. His eyes were up and down, and the focus was not on that hand. Instead, he was wandering in the reflection of the cup under the light in a trance, and the words were also scattered.
"When I knew that you were a comrade ... I was also very happy to go to tell my aunt that you would never be able to your sister's inheritance, because you can't succeed the Shen family."
"I, there was no discrimination against people of this sexual orientation, because there are many such people in cv ... I would say that at the time, the purpose was to eliminate the mentality of an aunt for my aunt, but I did not expect ... … I did n’t expect that she would shake this in public in front of their uncles and insult you.

Shen Yan's lips moved slightly, and his tone was like a blank piece of paper without any trace of feelings: "I am me, she can say it or not, I will only be myself."
Just as in the third year of high school, when the woman discovered his existence for the first time, when everyone was in the school and everyone knew that he was an illegitimate child, he did not deny it.
Because facts are facts.
Whoever speaks, when, and to whom ... ca n’t change these facts.
"Now I am the same as before. I don't need my father to agree with me, I don't need him to interfere in my life choices, I don't need any of his possessions ..." His eyes were fixed on Qiu Tianyang, breathing because he was trying to suppress His emotions were slightly hurried, and he said hoarsely, "but there is something, I will never let it go."
Qiu Tianyang was startled.
After a moment, he smiled palely, ugly.
"Do you mean the house where you grew up?" He asked, his fingers clenched with the utmost strength. Even so, he couldn't hide his embarrassment, "That ... during the grandfather's hospitalization, I almost listened to the aunt's meaning and drove you out of the house?"
At this moment, Shen Yan suddenly stood up, his hands suddenly grabbed his neckline, and grabbed people from the seat fiercely!
"Only this, only the memories left by my grandfather, you cannot take away--"
His hand was tightly tied to the bow tie of the opponent's tie, shaking.
The voice was shaking, I could n’t tell clearly because I remembered the kind of grief when the old man passed away, or at that time, the people of the Shen family were stopped outside the door of the ward, torn on the cold floor, struggling to get in Deep in despair and anger, a group of tears suddenly couldn't help but came out and hurriedly fell.